Below are the most recent 3 friends' journal entries.

Friday, October 10th, 2008
whycut [ silly_sally ]	12:31a	there is hope... there is always tomorrow hey i havent written in this journal in a really really long time so i thought i'd release some of my thoughts i havent cut /hit/ or burned myself in over 3 years and a few months now and ofcourse through those past years i have thought about hurting ect and those bad thoughts are coming back again and i want them to go away to fade away ive been trying really hard to be good i havent done anything because im a good girl i dont want to go back to the hospital or go on more meds or go to therapy ive done that shit and i dont ever want to do it again i hate it i got myself under control i just keep saying i'm a very strong person ... there is hope... there is always tomorrow take one day at a time but why does this happen to us to me to you i just dont get it! sure its a way to release but gosh darn once you start you cant stop or the thought of it ...its still gonna be there when will it just go? did god give us memory to remember all the bad things on purpose? because its on your arm scars scars scars scars and those dont fade away scars scars scars those dont go away creams ..surgery... ect...or whatever you try i still see them on me and theres no wound on me because i havent done anythingin a long time no cuts no bruseing no burns i just see them though as if i did red scratches deep wounds scabs bright infections im all stressed from work and school and everything else prob like everyone else is in the world im sorry for this fucking rant xoxox I HAVE HOPE FAITH AND LOVE FOR EVERYONE stay strong Current Mood: disappointed
Clicky Monster
whycut [ silly_sally ]	12:31a	there is hope... there is always tomorrow hey i havent written in this journal in a really really long time so i thought i'd release some of my thoughts i havent cut /hit/ or burned myself in over 3 years and a few months now and ofcourse through those past years i have thought about hurting ect and those bad thoughts are coming back again and i want them to go away to fade away ive been trying really hard to be good i havent done anything because im a good girl i dont want to go back to the hospital or go on more meds or go to therapy ive done that shit and i dont ever want to do it again i hate it i got myself under control i just keep saying i'm a very strong person ... there is hope... there is always tomorrow take one day at a time but why does this happen to us to me to you i just dont get it! sure its a way to release but gosh darn once you start you can stop or the thought of it ...its still gonna be there when will it just go? did god give us memory to remember all the bad things on purpose? because its on your arm scars scars scars scars and those dont fade away scars scars scars those dont go away creams ..surgery... ect...or whatever you try i still see them on me and theres no wound on me because i havent done anythingin a long time no cuts no bruseing no burns i just see them though as if i did red scratches deep wounds scabs bright infections im all stressed from work and school and everything else prob like everyone else is in the world im sorry for this fucking rant xoxox I HAVE HOPE FAITH AND LOVE FOR EVERYONE stay strong Current Mood: disappointed
Clicky Monster
Wednesday, October 8th, 2008
whycut [ toxic_disorder ]	9:55p	=) so it's been quite a while since i've posted .. guess i haven't had a reason. i've been really busy lately, between work and school and junk .. but i figured i'd update, so right now life is good. I'm in love with an incredable person and we're together .. but we agreed since he's moved to florida for 3 years that if in the mean time we find someone else we wanna be with then we won't stop that if it's wut we really want ya know? i don't wanna keep him chained down, even though it would kill to see him with someone else and vice versa so we're just taking things day by day and see where everything goes. but things are great, i'm doing fantastic in all my classes .. excpet spanish .. i'm dying in that one. The 17th is my 8 months without cutting. i'm proud of that. i went to doing it everyday with extremely large amounts to where i could barely move.. it was out of control. i started when i was 9 .. i'll be 18 on the 13th .. and not once in that time have i been able to say that i've gone this long without it at one time. it means more to me than anything right now, no matter how hard it is i'm trying eveything i can to make a year, i want that so badly. so yeah i just wanted to do a quick update. hope everyone is well <3 ~~~~~~~Monkeybones
Clicky Monster