Getting really sick.
Sick of life, actually.
Need anger management too.
Been feeling like combusting into thin air and wrangling the necks of people at the same time the entire month.
Once I earn enough, I'll probably buy a farm somewhere remote and live the life of hermit.
That's gonna be my life time goal! (Probably.)
irateWhao. It's been ages since I last updated. How long has it been since I last posted, over a year? It felt so much longer than that, though. My last year and a half in a nut-shell: graduated successfully, returned successfully, quit driving lessons very readily and got to work very quickly.
Speaking of work, it has taken up at about 50 percent of my 24 hours every day, on average. If I were working for one of those NTUC places, I would probably be awarded 'Employee of the Month', every month.
Sales had been pretty good for the last few months but it made an abrupt sharp drop this month. Abrupt as in a near 30 percent drop, compared to just last month, which seriously made no sense. This phenomenon got us all worried so we had been spending the last few days checking up with customers, asking them 'how is business', 'are there any sales', 'were our prices bad', 'was our service bad', etc. It was a humbling experience, especially when some of them suddenly morphed into expert critics.
These few weeks of dealing with people have really changed my view of people in the sales/service line. Thinking of what I took in university, I'm kind of regretting it now; should have taken HR Management when I had the chance! But because of this, I had a valuable lesson that day. "If your customer spits on your face, and you can smile, wipe it off and say 'thank you', you'll never fail." Hm, I felt like I've level-ed up.
Recently, I've been really out of touch with pop culture. I don't even know what movies are screening now until someone asks me, 'Hey, did you watch that ABC movie? It was so awesome!' All I've been doing these days is to watch stuff online. I think if this continues for the next year, I might end up a hermit. But it's amazing the things you can see online. Upload sites are multiplying like bacteria every month. There was YouTube but now there's Veoh, Mega (or something like that), crunchyroll, etc, it's amazing. Sometimes, I wonder why my brain material wasn't made like that of that YouTube creator (what's-his-name-again) or Larry Page. They were essentially building their business model out of nothing tangible. Life can be so sad when you start makng comparisons.
Prices have been increasing despite the drop and collapse of every other thing around the world. Taxi fares that used to be a mere (?!?) $11.80 have shot up to an incredible $19.40 (at peak period). It's ...absurd. But taking public transport... When I think about having to squeeze like a sardine in a sardine can, I feel the ...crampness. Hopefully, things might turn better for the future, like a pay rise or drop in taxes/ERP rates, etc (which isn't very likely at all T-T...)
(With that little hope I hold in my heart) This is MJ
Signing off...
5-Second Haiku!
On the roads looking
At the gantry-covered sky
After six (p.m.) three bucks
tiredYo ~
It has been a tiring day. For some reason, I'm just extremely tired and lethargic these few days. Perhaps this is a sign that I might be getting sick. XS
Went to PS with Beth and Jac to watch a movie yesterday. Chose Apocalypto 'cause it was said to have received many good reviews from the critics. It's a bad choice, though. Mainly because, I haven't eaten... and they have eaten. Was feeling queasy and nauseous and sick and green (and puk-ish and... you get the idea) while watching the entire episode. Really had this insane urge to just leave the cinema and walk out mid-way. It was just too gory for me, I guess. I wonder, is Mel Gibson some kind of closet masochist? Why are all his films gory and grotesque? And I really didn't get the morale of the story behind Apocalypto (nor did I enjoy much of it; the chase for that Jaguar Paw guy was probably the most exciting part) so it was sort of a total waste of money for me.
Had Carl's Junior after that. And it was then that I felt kinda weird. Somehow, I feel that I'm drifting away from my friends. I no longer know what to/how to start conversations with them (at least without sounding 'un-lame' or boring) and it just feels kinda strange. I wonder why that is. Could it be because we are no longer working in the same group? Or because we do not have the other modules together?
This is MJ
Signing off...
Hm, if I pray everyday and pray really hard, wonder if my hope will be fulfilled...?
thoughtfulWoot! It's gone~ Gone~ Gone~ It's gone~ ::does Justin Timberlake impersonation::
Yay, took out the stitches so its not too bad now... but I can't chew too much and I still talk funny. Can't pronounce all the 'r' sounds and those sounds that make my mouth pucker or go like this ---> (-o-)
But yeah, at least it's gone~
I'm totally cracked when I hear those evergreen classics. Can't believe what was 'hot' for those people back in the '70s and '80s sound so very corny now. Was listening to 'Kung Fu Fighting' and laughing my guts out. It's kinda stereotypical depending on how you intepret the lyrics and it reminded me of this particular show by stand-up comedian, Russell Peters. He was talking about some Chinese Superhero (CS) that's kinda like a mix between Spiderman and your average Chinese hawker guy. The CS will shoot out noodles from his wrists instead of webs and there would be like chopsticks emblem on his front and he'll use weapons like rock-hard fortune cookies to hit the bad arses' heads. Then before the bad arses fall, they (either the CS or the bad guys) would open the fortune cookie and see, "You~ bad boy go to jail." or something like that in the typical American-Asian accent. It was bloody funny.
Well, this aside, am still contemplating if I should take another module here or take the last 2 over there. Actually, I'm all for the latter option but I'm kinda worried I might have probelms looking for groupmates 'cause cliques would already be established there. Since I'm all shy and introverted, I'll probably be in deep shit. Another issue is, the text/tests here would be modified to suit the local context so it'll be slightly easier and more related to my common knowledge. Not really sure about what would be going on there, so yeah, am feeling a little uneasy. Another problem -- prices are on the rise there ~ which sucks, cause I wanna save money for my 21st bday.
The school administration is working at the rate of molasses as well. Till now, there has been no concrete information on the fees, accomodation, dates and everything. Thought they were supposed to correspond directly to the university for our convenience, but no, we had to check out things ourselves before reminding them again and again about the details. It's pretty cock-up. And we gotta do the visas ourselves too. That's the part that really pisses me off. I mean, aren't we the consumers in a sense? They are supposed to cater to us with better service, aren't they? Yet the only thing they are doing now is just to make sure we get a slot in the varsity there, as if that's such a tough job. The school admin is really giving us the short end of the deal and going back on their promises. I'll make sure to repay them by giving negative lip-service. Mwahaha.
Yes, I totally wuv my evil self. =D
This is MJ
Signing off
Kung Fu Fighting
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Everybody was kung-fu fighting
Those kicks were fast as lightning
In fact it was a little bit frightning
But they fought with expert timing
They were funky China men from funky Chinatown
They were chopping them up and they were chopping them down
It's an ancient Chinese art and everybody knew their part
From a feint into a slip, and kicking from the hip
Everybody was kung-fu fighting
Those kicks were fast as lightning
In fact it was a little bit frightning
But they fought with expert timing
There was funky Billy Chin and little Sammy Chung
He said here comes the big boss, lets get it on
We took a bow and made a stand, started swinging with the hand
The sudden motion made me skip now we're into a brand knew trip
Everybody was kung-fu fighting
Those kicks were fast as lightning
In fact it was a little bit frightning
But they did it with expert timing
...make sure you have expert timing
Kung-fu fighting, had to be fast as lightning
Woot! Only a few hours left; 10.2 hours to be precise. And then, it's more or less over. Well, I'll probably have to go on more soft diet for another week but at least it probably wont't be as bad as the beginning... I think. Hope that there won't be any complications when I take out the stitches, otherwise, I think I might cry. (@_@) Just the thought of it is making me shake like a coconut tree in a storm already.
This year doesn't seem to be a good year for my health. I started the year with a rather bad cold and it kinda pissed me off 'cause I got it only when I went up to Genting. Somehow, I was the only one who got sick there so my entire trip there was basically rotting in the hotel room. It's fortunate I brought my lappy, Bob. Hehz. Luv ya, Bob. But Bob is getting on in age and a little slow on the uptake (considering it's a Pentium III and comes with a 128 MB RAM) so I might soon replace Bob when I get some fundings. I'll miss Bob, though. :-(
Uh, going back on track, yeah, the cold was quite bad and I was so worried that I might get an asthma relapse the entire time. But it was okay. Then now, this stupid surgery. It's so unexpected. In fact, I still can't believe it happened to me so soon. But well, at least the earlier I remove it, the lesser I suffer later on.
Hm, speaking of the trip, I saw something exciting for once -- a firework display. And at prime view too!! \ >o< /
It was totally awesome-mo!!! Since I couldn't get out of the room from the cold, I had to spend the New Year's Eve in the room, typing on good ol' trusty Bob. But then it got kinda rowdy downstairs (imagine I could hear the excited "Ohhh~!!!" and "Ahhh~!!" from the 12th floor!) so I went to check it out. The entire ground was packed like sardine, manz!!! It was just a massive sea of dots. There were at least 10s of 1000s of people there and they were yelling excitedly everytime a car passes by the ground; I think those cars were probably filled with celebrities for the NY party. Looking at the whole thing, it got me pretty thrilled as well... could totally feel the mood there.
And then the moment came~ it was bloody awesome. The firework display -- think it lasted for 3-5 minutes? -- was directly in front of my window so the view was bloody clear and wah, it's just damn nice. It's kinda hard to describe the feeling but the general mood I had was excitement combined with a high degree of being awed. Yeah, that about sums it up. Was just staring at the showers of colors and wondering how the hell did it change colors half-way; it started out being a blue then it gradually turned red. So cool~ (*.*) The whole thing got me pretty hyped so I couldn't sleep until 3 am. Mwaha.
Well, moving on to the good stuff. I got my results back. Yay. I did unexpectedly okay for 2 modules and I thankfully (and barely) passed the last module. So now, just 3 more to go and then its sayonara ~~ After that, it would be my 21st b-day (YAY! HELLO INDEPENDENCE!!) and then, I'll be stuck. Why? Because Mum asked me this life-revolutionary question last night that made me think about my choice in majors. The question was, and I directly quote, "So how now har? Who you gonna work for? Work as what har?"
Indeed. Work for who and as what har.
So yeah, I've got another year to ponder about that deep, deep question. Thinking about it makes me feel a bit lost. I'll probably be wondering where to start, I guess. Hope I'll get my epiphany by then.
This is MJ
Signing off
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