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Alilu's Blurty:
| Sunday, January 11th, 2004 | |
| 7:02 pm | aaahhh my parents are driving me crazy!!! |
| Tuesday, January 6th, 2004 | |
| 10:24 pm | this is pathetic It is so dumb that I only post like once a month. Maybe that will change. After all I will have a computer! So rather than recap, I think I am just going to write what is on my mind, which is a lot. It is going a mile a minute... i just wish i could capture with words the images that i see as fast as i see them. hey, you'd understand if you were in my brain. So I am really extremely bored. All I have done in the last couple of days is watch movies and such. I have seen a lot of interesting movies but still! The only outcome of this is me realizing that i need to see both the third matrix and the third lord of the rings and no one to go with. Plus I can't wait for the third x men. lol. my goal this break was to read as much as possible. i just don't want to do anything... unless it involves other people. but only certain people I am so annoyed with my mullen friends. But I am not sure that it is right to call them that. I have met so many cool people in the last few months. These people see me as me. I am alice, the girl in their graphic design class, or the girl down the hall, or the one that shows up a party and orders pizza for everyone, or the one from colorado that swears its the best state, the one that parties with kiki on fridays and lorelei every once in a while, meg's roommate, etc... When I walk into a room people say "Alice! how are ya!?" and they actually seem to care. some of my friends from here don't really seem to notice that i walked in at all. i am just taken for granted. Now i have to back up.... I didn't get back home until the beginning of last week. The first night I was here everyone went to the zoolights. I found out/ was invited too late for me to go, so i didn't. Then i was invited for New Year's eve, but already kinda had plans with other people. After that it was impossible to get ahold of people. They didn't bother to call me until saturday, but again i already had plans. Each time this happened they would say "whats your excuse?" jokingly. But it still pissed me off. Your asking me what my excuse is when you are the ones not anwering my phone calls?! So after all this, i do finally hang out with them and we go to the grizly rose. it was fun, but not because i interacted with any of them, but because i had fun dancing. I didn't feel like i was part of the group. It was like I had to fight to be part of conversations asking "whats going on?" Then I wonder.... and realize, i don't think i was ever actually part of the group to begin with. So maybe I should just say screw it. if they call me and invite me to something i might go. But I am not going to count on it and wait around anymore. I have better friends. While in colorado i would much rather spend time with Elisabeth, Ryan, Dustin, and Joanna. I realize something else.... these people have always been true friends. these friendships have been tested. and we still hang out. I don't ever feel like i am being blown off, or left out. Elisabeth and I have remained friends from several states away and almost 4 years, Joanna and I didn't see eachother much during the year when we didnt' have ballet, then Ryan and Dustin live so close but I hardly ever see them. These are the people that I have the best memories with. Its sad. It kinda feels like I wasted my highschool years..... I am glad that I realize now who to hold on to. And hopefully I will take that with me to my friends at school. I can't wait to see them again, hopefully it will be even more fun next semester! So I guess this has become more focused then I thought it would be.... Current Mood:  thoughtfulCurrent Music: silence |
| Sunday, October 26th, 2003 | |
| 11:23 am | I know! I know, I know! I really need to post more often. I am soo annoyed with two people right now. So yeah! Let's just say that I think that they are complete bitches. Why are people so mean? I don't understand. And what is up with all the guys lately? Guys at home, guys from home that are here and guys that I met here. The only nice one is Josh. And I have to be real careful there. Hmm.... so on a lighter note, I had a good weekend. I took it easy but still had a blast. On Thursday I saw Texas Chainsaw massacre with Josh, Erin, Brittney, Kelly, Gabe and Dee. Then we went to coldstone. I got cakebatter... it was good but I couldn't finish it cuz it was too sweet. I shouldn't eat coldstone if I don't like it. Then we came back and went to latenight. Friday night we(people from my floor) saw Scary Movie 3 at Arizona Mills, and then went to the hooka bar. Peach-Mango is sooo yummy! Then last night we went to this haunted house. It was fun, but I got really dirty because it was out in the middle of nowhere and it was really dusty. Now I have to was my clothes! Anyway, now I am waiting for Jeannna to get off the phone so we can go eat. I am sooo hungry! I guess that is all I have to say for now, I will try to post later. Muahhhh! Current Mood:  annoyedCurrent Music: someone in the hall is playing R.E.M |
| Wednesday, October 8th, 2003 | |
| 2:11 pm | yo I am trying to keep up with this but it isn't working! I don't know what I want to say....Ok so I got my art history test back last night.... I got a 75.5. She is giving us an extra credit assignment though. I just have to go to the ASU art museum and write a little bit on a renaissance exhibit. Fun stuff! I had my design awareness midterm yesturday... hopefully I did okay.... My parents are coming this weekend! I am sooo excited! I get to stay in the hotel with them. I can't wait to use a real bathroom. I really want to start my livejournal back up. There is an ASU community and my friend Tammy meets people through it. It is kinda funny. Anyway.... I think I am going to go to the museum soon... ciao! Current Mood:  excitedCurrent Music: mtv is on.... comercials of course |
| Sunday, September 28th, 2003 | |
| 11:12 am | grrrrrrrrrr..... So I was documented last night. I am so pissed! I was with Alexis and we went to Sonora where we met up with some guys to go to a house party. Then we got back and I went to the bathroom. When I came out everyone was gone and there were RA's taking id #'s. I don't know why I didn't just make up a fake # or even claim that I didn't go to ASU. When we got back to our hall I talked to Carly (my RA) and she said that she would give them a call and tell them that I was only using the bathroom. I don't want to lose my scholarship over something like this. Everyone keeps on telling me that it will be fine. I really hope so. Sometimes this school just pisses me off so much! It is so easy to get documented for the smallest things. What am I supposed to do? Stay in my room by myself? It is nearly impossible to be a part of an active student body and stay out of people's rooms that have alchohol..... I am soooo pissed off!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: pissed offCurrent Music: CTN |
| Thursday, September 25th, 2003 | |
| 5:06 pm | Long time no squack... hehe i saw that on a greeting card and i think that it is funny A little fresher upper! So I am down here at ASU, having the time of my life. It has been about a month since I have been here and I think that I am finally getting adjusted. I have made new friends and am starting to figure out who will be there for me when I need them to be and who won't. I love everyone on my floor, almost.... Most of them are really cool. I party on the weekends, a lot more than I used to anyway. It is soo weird! People actually dress up every night that they go out here! I never did that before! Unless I was going to a club. I have started to work out everyday at the crack of dawn with this girl Alexis. She is super cute! I still haven't gotten my financial aid check, which pisses me off like no other. My classes are alright except for this art history class. It sucks ass and I think I failed my first test on tuesday night. Tuesdays suck! Okay so that was a lot of meaningless rambling...... Anyway, I miss everyone at home soooo much. And I miss Colorado and the mountains soooo much. And I miss the Grizzly Rose and everyone that I went with! I want my country music back!!!!! Anyway, before I get way too sentimental, which is not hard to do, I am gonna go! Current Mood: nostalgicCurrent Music: some random movie on superstation and hall noise |
| Tuesday, August 19th, 2003 | |
| 12:40 am | Leaving So I havn't posted in a long time like usual. I really want to try to post more often though. I think it kinda helps me to destress or something. Anyway, I am leaving tomarro! I am excited, scared, sad, stressed etc.... We will arrive on Wednesday and I move in on Thursday. Then I have to get a new cell phone, open my bank account, 'pay' and sign up for a meal plan(lol) etc..... Plus extra shopping for things I didn't get here. Then I they have what is called "SunDevil 101" which is basically a welcome week. I get to go to this pizza party thing for all the campus match kids in design. That'll be good so I can get a head start on meeting new people. My roommate seems cool. I think that we will get along but talking to someone online is a lot different from living with them. Hopefully we will like eachother. So I am leaving at noon tomarro after my mom gets home from the first day of school. I still have a lot to do.... So I am going to go to bed now so I can get up bright and early! ~Mary- thanx for keeping my hoodie for so looong! Sorry I didn't get to see you today! Luv ya |
| Tuesday, July 1st, 2003 | |
| 10:27 pm | long time no post So my parents just got back from Spain today. They had a grand 'ol time. Molly and I are like "oh no! no more freedom!" Funny how the 4th of July is on Friday and my parents will be gone yet again (for a high school reunion). Brings a whole new meaning to the holiday! I hate my costume for the summer performance. It is a piece of crap that definetely is not worth $65! So I am now on a mission. Tommarro I am going to go to a few dance stores to see if I can find a nice burgundy tutu and maybe a burgundy leotard. If that is possible then I can just add stuff to it to make it look like my costume was originally supposed to! anywho... thats all I feel like posting for now |
| Monday, June 16th, 2003 | |
| 2:43 pm | Arizona Yeah... I havn't posted in a while either... I am just too lazy I guess, specially cuz the computer freezes a lot and it takes about an hour just to see if I have mail. fun stuff! So I have gone and come from Arizona for orientation. My mom wouldn't let me drive. She didn't think I had enough experience with a manuel to be safe on a freeway where everyone was going about 95 m/hr. So I have decided that Arizona is a lot cooler than I thought. It is a very diverse state. Flagstaff is at 6,000 ft. There's big canyons and hills and mountains. In the northern part there are a lot of coniferous trees, theres plains... and then around Tempe/Phoenix there are a lot of Sahauro cacti. It is very pretty. One of the most exciting things about my trip was that I am registered for classes! I decided to do this match program. It is where you have 4 core classes that you go to with 25 of the same people. With a seminar with 300 people, I will automatically have 25 study buddies! I think we also meet once a week to gab about all of our classes, compare notes, study etc... It also made it really easy to register because 4 classes were already filled out in the schedule except for math and an elective. Plus I get to take the design class that is recommended for this sememster even though it is already filled up and all my classes are at good times. Oh and another bonus is that I don't have any classes on friday! How awesome is that? After orientation my mom and I went to check out my dorm building. Funny thing how it is right next to the frat housing... Current Music: I have Of A Revolution stuck in my head |
| Friday, May 30th, 2003 | |
| 12:40 pm | BLAAAH! So I slept in until 12 yet again. This time I even set my alarm for 9:30 thinking I might be able to wake up then. Guess not. I am tired of spending money. I wish I could not spend any money in order to hang out with my friends. I mean we go out to dinner, desert, movies, put put ect.. All of it costs money! And even if it isn't much for one of those, it adds up! I'm tired of it. I'm also tired of being single. Not all the time, just every once in a while. Like last night at the movie, I wanted someone to snuggle with. Just someone shoulder to rest my head on. Just the little things because overall I need to be single right now. It would suck to start something with someone now.BLAAHHH |
| Monday, May 26th, 2003 | |
| 4:22 pm | taking a break So I am completely cleaning out my room. Not just picking up the mess but starting to get rid of a bunch of crap and getting things organized. I have a huge stack of clothes to get rid of and some shoes so far. I threw out a bunch of school papers from junior year. Molly is moving back in on Thursday so my parents are trying to make room etc... Brigid is leaving by Saturday. It's weird that she is leaving. I'm sad. I know that I am leaving too, but I have two months to get ready for it... get ready to say goodbye to everyone. She's leaving and I am not ready for that. Thats it for now... my dad needs help with something.. |
| 4:11 pm | Graduation  |
| Wednesday, May 21st, 2003 | |
| 9:50 pm | where I am living next year |
| Wednesday, May 14th, 2003 | |
| 10:20 pm | Two Days Strange. The connections you can make..... Only two days left! I have to write an essay and critiques before friday. Tomarro I have to go to computer graphics and contemporary literature. Friday is Photography and Drawing. I only have two finals though....cont. lit and drawing. Fun stuff! Sooo excited. It is weird to leave behind a way of life that I have done ALL of my life. I don't know if that makes any sense...but it does to me. :) I mean I have been going to a school just like everyone else, taking classes like everyone else, living with my parents and having my parents pay for me, excuse me, be RESPONSIBLE for me for 18 years. I am basically leaving the only lifestyle that I have ever known for something different. And I am not exactly sure I even know what that something is. Another strange thing. I feel like I am saying goodbye to people forever. When I write in someone's yearbook, I have been tempted to say "Have a nice life." instead of "Have a nice summer." I don't want to say it to be mean (but I know that it would come off that way so I havn't actually written it). I want to say it because I really don't think I am ever going to see some of these people ever again after graduation. It's just strange Current Mood: contemplative |
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| Monday, May 12th, 2003 | |
| 5:13 pm | Last Monday of High School.... So I had an interesting weekend. I was kinda pissed off at all the Mullen peeps b/c they went to see a movie w/out me... twice. I need to find someone to go see X-Men II now. Buttheads. So I was calling and calling, and couldn't get ahold of them. I found out later it was because they were at a movie. So I hung out with Ryan, Dustin, Gaston and Tim. (turns out that Luke used to play soccer with Gaston.....) We went to skate city. The four dorks (i need a good group nickname for them) did like a roller derby thing trying to knock eachother over, tackling, chasing etc..... Meanwhile I am just trying to stay balanced... going slow while little kids made fun of me. But I have to admit that I did have fun. I went over to Tim's(other tim...mullen tim not four dork tim), but it didn't turn out quite like I hoped because someone left before I got there. I am so excited that I am done with history! Mr. Hamilton brought us cake today! Yum! His baby was due last wednesday and has not been born yet. At least as of 3rd period today. I think he will be a cool dad. I am going to miss his joke |
| Tuesday, May 6th, 2003 | |
| 10:47 pm | wow. Well I think the fact that I am done with high school has finally hit me. Or maybe I realized it before, but now I feel it. I have soo many emotions right now. I should be going to bed, but I don't want to. I feel like going out and doing something crazy! I didn't eat much today... but I am not hungry at all. I don't know. I feel strange... hyper and not hungry, hmmmm..... Anyway, my grandma is coming tomarro. She is going to be here for a little over two weeks. I might have to 'go out' a lot. Current Mood:  weirdCurrent Music: Foo Fighters |
| Sunday, May 4th, 2003 | |
| 10:57 pm | Late Sunday Night Not that I would ever be in a band or whatever but just in case, I think a cool name would be 7 Happy Days or Seven Happy Days. Just a random thought. :) Well its late and I didn't really go out this weekend. I did go to see Peter Pan at CHS with Elisabeth. That was amusing! Besides that I just tried to stay home and get stuff done. I guess I somewhat succeeded in this except my room and bathroom still need to be clean by Wednesday and I probably didn't get to study enough for history. I am so freaked out about that class. It makes me made when everyone tries to tell me to calm down about it and give me study tips. I go to Mullen! I am a senior and I know how to study! The problem is that I just don't get history. I took the class as a challenge and it is a challange. Anyway, If I don't know it I guess I don't know it and the worst thing I can do right now is stay up all night before a huge day and a huge week ahead of me. So I am going to go to bed now! Peace Current Mood: frustratedCurrent Music: computer's humming |
| Saturday, May 3rd, 2003 | |
| 6:52 pm | Pop Art Project  Christo and Jeanne-Claude's "Valley Curtain"  Andy Warhol  Roy Lichtenstein  Claes Oldenburg |
| Saturday, April 26th, 2003 | |
| 6:19 pm | luke  The Juliana Theory...You are such an emo person it's not even funny!!! Which Emo band are you? brought to you by Quizilla |