I've thought about it, I've gone back and forth, I've run it through my brain for weeks now, wanted to fight it but realized I couldn't.
I'm moving past and beyond.
I've tried to be nice to people. I've tried to show how things aren't the same as last year. I thought I was getting through to people. However, an event on Sunday night showed me that the people who once said they were my friends no longer HONESTLY care about the changes I've made or the better person I've become. They are settled into their selfish world, only preening for each other.
So, here is my deal. I'm moving on. I have bigger and better things in my horizon that doesn't involve people who want failure from me and who enjoy my sickness. My life can not revolve around five people.
My life is for me. My life is for living.
|