I get it. My brain just kicked in. Oh my God, this all so clear now.
Whenever I left ____, there was such profound saddness. I just felt like shit, due to ____ ability to create such a negative space surrounding me and my life.
Now whenever I leave a friends, I'm not sad. I'm infact just pleased to have the company. Never a negative word about me. The people I now Chose to spend time with don't hurt me (for fun or other).
So people are good ... you just have to find the GOOD ones.
He was never a good soul, that is where that pain comes from. Now I just feel so bad for him and his company. He just creates such negative space. So many people must want to die around him.
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