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[01 Jun 2004|12:15am] |
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well things have been pretty damn shitty lately.
how the hell do you let go of something you're so attached to?
i'm obsessed with and addicted to andy.
we were with each other for 9 months and i can't just move on.
it's way too fucking hard. and i never want to let go. ever.
i love him so much
but i'm just not good enough for him i guess.. and i don't think i ever will be.
whatever. i'll just deal with it right? cuz that's all the fucking advice anyone will give me anyway
i hate everything
i hate everything
I HATE LIFE
lame.
but that's fucking it
someone.please.save.me................................................pass me a blunt
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| won't you sew my eyes up so they may cry no more? |
[01 Jun 2004|01:39am] |
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i know what u want- mariah carey n busta rhymes |
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i don't know what to do.
i can't get to sleep. it's already almost 2..
i know a bunch of shit is about to happen.
more hurting, more crying, more everything except being happy with the guy i love... ='(
i honestly rather just be gone instead of have to deal with that much pain.
god please help me.... i'm not ready...
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| the truth is..you could slit my throat n w/ my last breath I'd say I'm sorry 4 the blood on ur shirt |
[01 Jun 2004|11:41am] |
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^^yeah i stole that from michelle.. some song or something i guess...
blah... i dunno what to say. or do. i'm just trying to keep my mind away from the fact that it's over with andy for good. i'm doing ok at the moment, but i know it wont last for long. soon it'll hit me. and i'll have a fuckin break down like always...
but for now i'll keep pretending-keep faking it.. and sooner or later i'll just start to believe that i'll be fine...
and then i will be.
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