Erika's Journal

Saturday, March 19, 2005

2:01PM

I"m over at jeff's...he's in the shower, and im going to dye his hair and pierce his lip! aww yay im so excited!:-). Dude lastnight we got so stoned....we had 2 bowls passing around. Boy was i out of it...lol. aww im listening to mae..and they have a new song called "the ocean"..it is really sad. i think im going to cry:-(. i am so stupid. god. well im going to go incase i start to cry..love

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Sunday, February 13, 2005

9:12PM - Heartbroken

It hurts to see you; here with me.

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

9:40PM - =-/

Today i had a dentist app.
I got 1 filling.
Marcie, my dad's new girlfriend took me and Emily.
She is so awesome!.
She gave me 2 cigarette's!
Hell yea, now thats what im talking about =-).
I went to the basketball game..and hungout there for awhile.
OMG my teeth hurt sooo fucking bad!..
Everytime i talk i have to clinch my teeth together.
It's really funny actually.
Well im going to go...and chat on Aim.
LOL

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Monday, January 17, 2005

4:27AM - Mae- This time is the last time..

Save yourself.
Because the only thing that matters
is that you get away from the pain
and the thought of losing your mind.
Don't blame yourself.
It was everyone around you who made you act this way.
There's the stage and your chance to watch it go down.

Don't fake yourself into ever, ever thinking about yesterday.
That was then, this is now. Don't call it undone.
Don't take what you've been dealt.
You can exit out the back and make your getaway
before anyone can see the damage you have done.

This time is the last time so be here, here now.
This time is the last time. Somehow make it through.

State your case. You've got everyone's attention.
What can you say? Thanks or forget what you've been given.
Take your place. Do you think that you deserve the best of everything?
We don't get why you're here. Can you figure it out?

This time is the last time so be here, here now.

You've got to get away.
Oh, I get lost in the thought of losing you.
You've got to get away. I know it's a dream but it must be true.
Wave now goodbye. It's the lesson that you've been given.
You can always move on to better things.

This time is the last time so be here, but be here now.
This time is the last time somehow.
This time is the last time so be here, but be here now.
This time is the last time. Somehow make it through.

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4:27AM - Mae- This time is the last time..

Save yourself.
Because the only thing that matters
is that you get away from the pain
and the thought of losing your mind.
Don't blame yourself.
It was everyone around you who made you act this way.
There's the stage and your chance to watch it go down.

Don't fake yourself into ever, ever thinking about yesterday.
That was then, this is now. Don't call it undone.
Don't take what you've been dealt.
You can exit out the back and make your getaway
before anyone can see the damage you have done.

This time is the last time so be here, here now.
This time is the last time. Somehow make it through.

State your case. You've got everyone's attention.
What can you say? Thanks or forget what you've been given.
Take your place. Do you think that you deserve the best of everything?
We don't get why you're here. Can you figure it out?

This time is the last time so be here, here now.

You've got to get away.
Oh, I get lost in the thought of losing you.
You've got to get away. I know it's a dream but it must be true.
Wave now goodbye. It's the lesson that you've been given.
You can always move on to better things.

This time is the last time so be here, but be here now.
This time is the last time somehow.
This time is the last time so be here, but be here now.
This time is the last time. Somehow make it through.

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3:21AM - =)

Yesterday was my birthday! It would have to be the best day i ever had in a long time..Me, jamie, sam, and jen went to the bowling alley and hungout there for awhile. Then we went to Chrissy's house to go to a party...even though she wasn't there..haha Sean is homeless so He's now staying with her..and she told him that he could have a party.. Because she was going to her g-ma's and her parents were out of town. Ok well there is these guys that go to our school and they are seniors...they were all over me and jamie...we were stoned and drunker than u could imagine. WE smoked like 10 bowls then everclear..wow! thats some fucking good stuff....I felt alittle uncomfortable with seth..he wanted to go upstairs and have sex..lol...i was like no.and he got mad...and i told him to take me and jamie home...and he was like no stay longer...ugh he was so annoying. He finallt took us home..and we stayed up until 5.. WEll i watched Crazt/Beautiful....I was really sad afterwards...so i woke up jamie and started crying to her..and i said im so glad that we are best friends..lol and we smoked a cigarette and talk for a few...then went to bed.. I didn't get up until 5:30 the next day. haha. WOW! I had an amazing birthday. WEll sweetdreams

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3:21AM - =)

Yesterday was my birthday! It would have to be the best day i ever had in a long time..Me, jamie, sam, and jen went to the bowling alley and hungout there for awhile. Then we went to Chrissy's house to go to a party...even though she wasn't there..haha Sean is homeless so He's now staying with her..and she told him that he could have a party.. Because she was going to her g-ma's and her parents were out of town. Ok well there is these guys that go to our school and they are seniors...they were all over me and jamie...we were stoned and drunker than u could imagine. WE smoked like 10 bowls then everclear..wow! thats some fucking good stuff....I felt alittle uncomfortable with seth..he wanted to go upstairs and have sex..lol...i was like no.and he got mad...and i told him to take me and jamie home...and he was like no stay longer...ugh he was so annoying. He finallt took us home..and we stayed up until 5.. WEll i watched Crazt/Beautiful....I was really sad afterwards...so i woke up jamie and started crying to her..and i said im so glad that we are best friends..lol and we smoked a cigarette and talk for a few...then went to bed.. I didn't get up until 5:30 the next day. haha. WOW! I had an amazing birthday. WEll sweetdreams

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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

8:11PM - YAY!

MY TOWN Is FLOODED AGAIN!!:-)

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Friday, January 7, 2005

10:34PM - Hello everyone.

I'm ungrounded! Yes yesterday i got grounded for going to Go-Mart aldn not asking my step-mom. I was over at my friend caitlyns and we wanted a carton of cigarettes. SO i walked down to meet Joey and Chad and joey drove me up to kate's and my step-mom cought me getting out of his car with something in my hand so i hurried up and put it in my jacket..and she was like "Erika get your ass up here right now!" and i was like " shut the fuck up! im coming and she was like no now! and i said well you'll have to wait cause i have to get my jacket...even tho i was wearing it...i came home and my little sister said i was in big trouble and that i was grounded.. Chrissy came out of her room and said your grounded and she saw me sneak something in my jacket....i said well u are retarded because there was nothing in my jacket.....we went on and on.....and tonight i got drunk with jaki's brother ryan and shit i am drunk off my ass.....im not telling you what i had because i can't even type and spell what i had shots of..WEll im going to my other journal and write..<3333 Later

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Monday, December 27, 2004

10:43PM - ....Huh...

Right now im over at a friends house drinking...its cool and shit, but im feeling depressed for some odd reason, and i have no idea why....I HAVE FUN BEER....and im depressed..im such a loser. Today i was down at my friend jaki's and my ex-boyfriend Morgan came in from Columbus and he likes me again...and when he was leaving he told me to give him a hug.and i did. I really don't feel like going back with him because he's just not my type. He's changed alot since we last dated. Now he's in the bloods and thats bull shit. I'm still missing Taylor. How retarded am i, he's a fucking loser and he plays girls. Well im going to go get drunk and get my mind off of him.

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Friday, December 24, 2004

4:13PM - Happy Holidays Everyone...

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
So take a look at me now

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Friday, December 10, 2004

2:05PM - Yo Bitch

I haven't written in this thing since like last month....dude today in 1st period my class was talking about death and i started crying and i called my dad was like dad im so sorry for everything i ever put you through. i know you so much....and i was bawling my eyes out so hard...and everyone was looking at me...and sean peabody gave me a hug and said everythning is going to be alright....and i was like you don't even know me......lol

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Tuesday, November 23, 2004

3:03PM

aTrEyU

Current mood: cold
Current music: atreyu
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2:47PM

You know really pisses me off, RUMORS.. ok there is this rumor going around saying i fucked this guy, and that im like this biggest slut, and a whole bunch of other shit. Ok im still a VIGIN! and sean one of my best firends told Ryan and Taylor that i fucked Elijah and that i was a slut..and ryan and taylor was like yea she is man...well i called ryan while he was having band practice and i was like did sean tell you i had sex with elijah, and he was like well did you and i NO im still a vigin! and he was like ok and i said well sean told me that u and taylor called me the biggest slut in town..and he was like FUCK NO! me and Taylor NEVER said that!..he said that sean is a complusive liar...which he is. and he was like what are you doing today and i said nothing..he said nothing like in u don't want to do anything or your not allowed to do anything.. i said no i want to...he's like well call me in like 1 hr because i have to finsh band practice...i said ok...and he was like don't forget about me! haha aww I love Ryan:-)

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Monday, November 22, 2004

1:39PM

Right now im in school, bored as hell, and need a fucking cigarette. i have basketball practice at 3:30- 5:30 ah! 2 hours. I have no idea what im going to do after practice, chrissy said that im grounded because i didn't get up this morning. She pisses me off. and she is like 6 months..and i have no idea what shes having because everytime she goes to the doctor's the baby doesn't move......well im going to go because brandon won't stop reading this..

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