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I had two odd dreams last night and this morning.
The first one.... first I was back in high school in my chemistry class... execpt the room had clothing set up for sale like at work... and we had a fire alarm. So me and this new girl, asian tall and pretty, followed me and we decided to explore the school. Well the school had this one room, like a lavish pool area, one side hot and the other cold. The girl and I were friends so we stripped and got in the pool. But then she came on to me and started kissing me... but I stopped her because I'm not like that. *Lol* So she got angry and left. Well anyway it jumped to me getting home, and to my surprize Tony was in bed sleeping. so I left him alone and went into the kitchen. But then I wondered why he hadn't greeted me, (usually he'd wake up and notice that I'm home) so I went over and pull the sheets off and there, before me was the girl from school, naked curled up in a ball next to him. So I screamed and that started the whole, "Honey its not what you think.." talk. I ran out the house and the girl came after me with a sheet. She told me that they didn't have sex, they just kissed and he wanted her to go futher but she didn't want to. They both thought I was working until the night. So I got angry at Tony, (If this happened IRL, most likely I'd knock out the girl but... for some reason I trusted her more) and we had this huge argument... he said that she was lying and she was the one pressuring herself on to him. But I didn't accept it. So I called my parents to come pick me up from the house so I could get the hell outta there.
And then, all of a sudden our house turned into a mall.. and my brother was there at some computer desk, along with all my other cousins. I told them what happened with Tony and I... Tony happened to be in another store looking depressed because I was planning on leaving him.
Then I looked over to this sitting area at the mall, and there I see all my uncles and aunties.. Most of them looked like they were sleeping in the chairs they sat in, pale faced. My uncle Ed was standing though, wobbling as if he was drunk, and there was some blood on his hands. He held a battle stance as if he was fighting someone. I asked him, "Wheres Dad uncle? what are you doing...?" I looked at him and he just mumbled. He was like a zombie. I turned my head to the right and I see my dad on the floor fixing some dead guy's feet. From the sight, it looked like my dad killed this person with his bare hands, my dad was covered in blood, but also was wobbling around like a drunkard.... I ran to him and shouted out, "Daaaaaaaaaaaaadddd!" over and over again, hugging him trying to see if hes alright and..BOOM! I wake up.
This dream really upset me when I woke up. I thought about Tony and how much I love him. How I hope he'd never do that to me. And also, with my family being killing zombies, that worried me because we're having some fights in the family right now. Bah, I don't know what all this means, I hope its good. I heard or read somewhere that if you dream about bad things, like death and loss they really mean the opposite, like rebirth and gain. I hope thats the case because that dream was hidous.
The second dream was shorter. I dreamt I was shopping in a store that had books and music. I was with my friends from cali, Sophy, Thu, Steven... but then I couldn't find them so I called Sophy and she said she was in San Jose already. (woah super teleportation I guess) then I called my mom and she said she got everything ready for my stay. This was taking place after I left Tony, and was staying at their house. I was paying for my books at the register, then I woke up.
I have no idea what that dream meant.... maybe I should go to the library today and check out some dream analysis books. ^_^;;
Oh, I took out my tongue piercing. I know, I know... I can hear you saying, "aww man" at me already. I just felt like I couldn't stand not being able to talk as much at work. Its important for the customers to know what I am saying, I just felt like I wasn't doing my job well. And also I felt that my new friends at work weren't getting to know the real me, because I tried to talk only when I had to. Also the whole learning how to eat again got to me. You know me, I'm a big girl and I like to eat. =P Eating slowly depressed me and made my jaw hurt from all the slow chewing. So yeah, I can say that I got my tongue pierced. I just don't have it anymore. ^_^; I don't think I'll get it again... I honestlly think that my tongue is too short, and he shouldn't have had to tug on it to pierce it. I told my mom and she was happy about it. Tony was too, but he was a little upset about me wasting the money and going through the pain. The pain wasn't that bad... =P
And the guys in my guild were sad for Tony... don't ask me why. =P We didn't get to try 'it' because my piercer told me I had to wait until a month or something to exchange body fluids. =P
~Heidi
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