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Thursday, November 27th, 2003
1:06 pm - x...pLeAsE rEmEmBeR mE...x
**pArt of u will live in me...way deep inside my heart-days keep coming w/o fail...new wind is gunna find urself...thats where ur journey starts**-~ull find better love..strong as it ever was..deep as the river runs...warm as the morning sun...please remember me..~

-i have a feeling im never gunna talk to nick again...it really just hit me...and it hurts-ALOT..i still love him soo much-

What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
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Death Date:May 23, 2018
Number attending your funeral?123
How much will you leave to friends and family?$1,897,467
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ANYWAYS....its TURKEY DAY!!! ~*~*HaPpY tHaNkSgiViNg*~*~

-i woke up to grandma talking on the phone and making the turkey dinner at 10am :o) its just like every year-i love it...and when i go downstairs my moms helping and cuttin potatoes and the parade is on tv...we are actually stayin home this year--my aunt Lisa and her boyfriend are coming...we usually go to my cousin kristin and Lauras but my mom isnt talking to my aunt--i talked to Kristin about it, its really sad :o( so its only 1...and the smell is soo good hehe! i just made my mom watch Bruce Almighty with me...it was kinda cool cuz i never get to do anything with my mommy :o) well ill write later

<3 Ashley

current mood: giggly
current music: **X's and O's**

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Wednesday, November 26th, 2003
11:51 pm - x..iLL gEt ThErE..x
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Your MomKelly Osborne
Your DadBenji Madden
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-mr jackson came to get me today, he said that i skipped extended and i told him that he made a mistake in puttin my name up there (wrong move) so he told me to go to the office(again) so i sat there waiting for him to call me into his own small pathetic office--hes like "ill give u one more chance, u go on monday" i wanted to just say screw you-suspend me, but it wouldnt come out, that bastard. i fuckin hate that school, its always somethin! amy came into my health 2 class cuz we were doin a court case on drinkin and we needed her in the jury since she was in studyhall...hehe that was fun..she gets to be there tuesday too! hmm my dad picked me up at 12..then i watched Bruce Almighty cuz my mom rented it for me :o) ya! then i slept and did nothing! so im outtie

<3 Ashley

current mood: cold
current music: -the tv-

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Tuesday, November 25th, 2003
8:17 pm - -----------
-i forgot to add-so i go pass the office and see my name on extended today...wtf is up wit that shit, if mr jackson comes to get me tomorrow and suspends me ill be sooo pissed- grr i hate east...it sucks

-but i found this funnie

You are an Official Diva! You spend your money,
raving and dancing at clubs, walking the boards
and trying to pick up hot guys

>>Your True Music Image<<(punkrocker? thug? diva-licious,emo-kid,Metal head,indie rocker?)
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7:32 pm - -bAd dAy-
-i could tell right when i left my driveway t hat today was gunna be bad! my mom drove me and picked up amy..we were soo late cuz of the snow-me and amy stepped inside the school right as they were doin the pledge...then i went to my first class which is on the first floor..but they had a stupid lil sign to tell us to go to room 311...fuckers! so im sittin there bored, 2nd block was gay...me,amy and karen just screwed around on the computers lookin at porn lol...i had a very interesting conversation with geneva during lunch becuz MY lunch table was pathetic today-certain people should not be sittin there(they were not invited those lil fuckheads) 3rd block eng wit rizzone is always fun!! hehe...psych test 4th which i failed...me, monica,jill and candice were all tryin to trade answers haha!

-so this is an experience...the seniors couldnt park in the back today cuz of some stupid voting shit so we had to park across the st at kotecki's..long walk! colleen was drivin me home so the WHOLLEE senior class was walkin down seneca st...it was so cold and i was slippin everywhere-me and colleen were like holdin hands cuz we were afraid to cross the st lol! then she almost killed 2 kids driving haha! ill never forget that!

-i came home talked to josh for a few on the phone then i fell asleep...christine is tryin to call me but im burnt and i dont wanna go work out or tanning today...so im gunna go

<3 Ashley

current mood: refreshed

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Monday, November 24th, 2003
8:24 pm - --------------------
im running outta subject??

-today i didnt feel like goin to school so i stayed home...thought about things...actually i slept till 1 30! lol...then sat around...watched some tv then christine called and we went to the gym...its actually snowing outside! grr i hate when that happens. me and christine had to walk in it to go tanning, cuz neither of us have a car ryte now-it sucks! i want my car back so baddd! well nothin interesting happened today...josh is sleeping and hes gunna call me when he wakes up :) hehe! well im out!

<3 Ashley

current mood: energetic
current music: the call??

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Sunday, November 23rd, 2003
8:06 pm - *I LOVE YOU* :o)
-i guess christine talked to amy about me going out with josh, amy likes him and was mad at me for going out with him..thats sooo weird cuz she only seen him once.. grr! but yesterday was soo perfect...i picked up josh around 6:30, drove around fer a lil bit then went back to my house when my mom left-we were lyin on the couch and thats when we had our first kiss! awww....then around midnite i started to tease him and shit it was so cute! he looks so hott he had his abercrombie hat on and i kept tippin it sideways lol he looked like a dork..hehe then my mom came home at 1 30 and she drove him home

-today christine wanted to go to the gym so we went around 4 then we went tanning...now my dad is trying to fix my car...i dont have faith in that thing ever running again...god its a peice of shitass! MIKE UPDATE UR DAMN BLURTY>>R U HAPPY I DID NOW?? lmao! well g2g ttyl!

<3 Ashley

stupid PIG tomorrw...i got stuck workin on a project with tony F cuz mr h assigned us partners :o( i got the stuckup jerk lol! owell i guess ill c ya round!

current mood: grateful
current music: its gunna be love

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Thursday, November 20th, 2003
7:10 pm - ...*LyFe DrAgS oN*...
*~*~*~*~the PILGRIM bear and the bitch CANADIAN~*~*~*~*

-tuesday i got home at 12 again and i got the car cuz it was a short day-i kinda want that car, i like it better than mine -i think- so i picked up karen and christine at 6..we went to the mall and when we were in Pennys we ran into mikey l...lol he wanted to build a bear so he did and me, christine and karen were like laughin at him, he put a frickin pilgrim suite on it, and it had this stupid corn thing (that looked like a dildo may i add-maybe we should give it to geneva?) welll neways...he had to carry that stupid box house thing they give you to put it in thro the whole damn mall....and when we were in american eagle mike goes up to the lady and was like "isnt this the cutest bear" and the lady is like "no" lol lol...she was sucha bytch! neway her daughter was ugly and had a big forehead...so that was that...and then i dropped christine off and me and karen went to stalk the hapka's lmao!

-wed i had friggen extended again...but karen had detention w/ me so it was all cool...we got yelled at several times...but hey! then i came home and slept from 5-6am haha no one woke me up! then today my guidance counselor called me down to tell me i was doin good on my attendence and she high 5'ed me! hell yeah shes pretty cool...so yeah i just got home from the mall, i got new pants from ae and a shirt from forever 21...well im waitin for josh to call me...i think he went to play cards...i miss his smile...maybe i can see him tomorrow! when he calls he sounds sooo much like my ex scott its scary and he kinda looks like him but josh is a lil hotter...blah i tell him to stop sounding like him-especially when he laughs..god..lol well im outtie

<3 Ashley

current mood: drained
current music: *have a lil faith in me*

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Monday, November 17th, 2003
9:36 pm - :*: LaLaLa :*:
-so i forgot to tell what happened on friday! i was in sociology and mr jackson came in and asked me why i didnt go to extended on wed. i didnt sign up for wed, i signed up for thurs...and we had a snow day on thurs...so hes like no u signed up for wed-go get ur books and go to the office, so i seen danielle there too lol...shes a bad girl..so we had to wait for like 20mins for him, so he called me in his office and was like "im supposed to suspend you but ill give u another try" blah..he called my mom and shit!grr... so i signed up for MON(whiich is today) and WED...but as i was walkin past the office i noticed my name on the extended list for tuesday! im like WTF get ur dates checked--grr....

-so extended was gay..no one was in there really cuz everyone skipped it! but yeah..i got home at 5 and i slept, i just woke up haha well ill ttyl

<3 Ashley

current mood: exhausted

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Sunday, November 16th, 2003
9:54 pm
-so i dont know where i finished my last entry.....but i can tell you that yesterday was crazzy! sarah begged me to sleep over her moms with her so her mom could go out (her mom needed us to babysit again) so i stayed....we watched home videos till like 10:30pm then katie finally fell asleep! well...theres this kid that sarah was like obsessed with-chris...she likes him sooo much...and she invited him over! so we were gettin ready and shes super nervous, cuz shes afraid her moms gunna come home and catch him there...so he finally came over but katie woke up so sarah had to go get her, and she left me and chris in the basement alone-not cool!..i was tryin to get them hooked up together but he didnt like her like that...but i still tried! neways...sarah brought down the porn videos but she didnt wanna watch them so me and chris did..just to laugh! so we watched it in her room, and he got up and closed the door and locked her out..i got freaaaked out (i mean hes hott and stuff but that was just scary!) neway...sarah got pissed so she lied and said her mom was on her way home and he needed to leave ryte away...then he kept beggin to take me home...but i kept sayin no! god...so he left and sarah started to yell at me...and stuff..so i just called my mom to come get me (it was already like 3am) so i went home..me and sarah striaghtened things out tho, so shes not mad or nething...but i gave chris my number and now he always calls me! blah

-today was fun, josh called me at 11 when he got home from hockey-he came over and stayed allll day...we were supposed to go to the movies but we got lazy so we just layed on the couch watching movies :o) my dad and uncle bill came over too, to fix the car...he got a new car! and i mite get that one ..we r gunna trade!! maybe!! i hope so! but mine should be fixed soon!

-ugh i have gym tomorrow...fucker! well i guess ill ttyl

<3 Ashley

current mood: crappy

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Thursday, November 13th, 2003
8:47 pm - <>
- i was up till 2am talking to josh on the phone last nite...it was amazing, i really like him! hes sucha sweetheart<3 on the other hand...nick's NOT in florida, i talked to his friend Rich(his like best friend) and rich said hes not in florida...but nick is still convinced that hes there...then hes having some girl call my cell and bytch me out, why the fuck cant he talk to me himself that lil faggot, omg i hate him! hes a cumpulsive liar and if i were him id be totally embarassed...

-this morning when i woke up my dad called to tell me i had no school..*yay* it was extremely windy and now we have snow...some people now are even out of power..so im hoping i dont have to go tomorrow either! that would be nice! my brother was in the background on the phone screamin cuz he didnt have off :o) owell... so i went back to sleep and slept till 3...yep! and now im here.. i also cut myself shaving today *blah* i hate that! but im gunna go watch some TV and wait till i can talk to JoShY again!

<3 Ashley!

current mood: pleased
current music: America, America this is you! lol *Americas Funniest*

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Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
9:30 pm - :.:*im sucha LuCky gyrl*:.:
-yesterday i had off from school so sarah picked me up at 1 and we went to michaels then to her moms house to watch her baby sister...aww shes so cute! hehe..i didnt get home till like 10:30 cuz we went drivin around after...then i got to come home and talk to josh<3 yay! Nick also called me which was kinda surprising, he said he was in florida, but when i call the number he called from it was this girls cell phone.."dee?" owell...im over it!

-today i didnt feel good but i went to school neway...amy didnt go..first block studyhall was sooo boring, then intro...english and psych...owell im done now! haha, so i came home and slept! now im on here talking to Josh...oh yeah i had extended today but i didnt go..oh man! im gunna get suspended :o( blah well ill ttyl

<3 Ashley

current mood: exhausted
current music: +Dance with my father+

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Monday, November 10th, 2003
9:59 pm
baby cry
You are a disgusting coward. You don't deserve it,
but I suppose you might be a little bit braver
if you were already dead.
here to become a vampire

Does Death Become You?
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-well yesterday i went to the mall with my mommy :o) she bought me a new purse from express and a wallet..i love it! then Nick (my ex) called me and told me he was bringing over some stuff i left at his house...so when he came over i opened the door and *wow* he looked sooo good...he was soo hott (i havent seen him in 3 weeks) i wanted him :o( but hes moving to florida today to live with stan and jen! owell...

-today in school i had a sub in every class...sociology,pig and health 2....hott sub in sociology wow...then i got the stuck up bytch old lady in PIG! grr...hehe! Amy my cousin came over at 12 when i got home, we went to the mall it was fun..but a lot of little kids makin a bear! lol...then i came home and slept...

-me and josh are kinda together now...the one me and amy went to the movies with...he has the cutest smile..and he plays varsity lax for wsw...so hott! haha! well im gunna go watch the average joe! buh byes

<3 Ashley

my throat hurts and i feel sick :o(

current mood: sick

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Saturday, November 8th, 2003
8:21 pm - ..*i hate lyfe*..
-jeremy broke up with me...w0nderful aint it? yep...im gunna keep my options open now...i didnt go to school on thursday so my school called my house and told my mom that im a truant...and that if i dont show up for school (even if my mom calls me in) that the police show up at my house to take me to school...how bey0nd gay! so friday i had to go to school...i had gym first block which i didnt participate...candice is so funny, the class was doin pushups and she looked like a seal..lol so i told her..then i had intro to occ, that class is so much fun, well only cuz me, amy,keith,karen,rick,megan, josh and andy give Mr Griffin a hard time-lol...*amy dont deny it we know what u and mr griffin do in that lil closet* :o)~ hehe! then i had lunch...god i found out that jess and april keep tellin jake i like him..now i feel dumb!! then in english we had a substitute-we watched a movie, it was pretty good...psychology was so much fun-our teacher is so funny and we had to try and balance rulers on our fingers the whole time! haha! oh yeah and in english class Nick told me that Dawn called me a bitchy whore slut...and she wishes i would get pregnant and die...haha ok w/e so i screamed it to the class what she thought of me...owell what am i gunna do..?

-my dad and uncle bill came to my house today to see if they could fix my car but they are gunna come back some other time and try...my dad is gunna come over again at 2am to see the other galaxie...i kinda actually wanna see it haha! well im outties

-oh yeah and havin ur period doesnt help any of this situation! PMS~id advise not to talk to me until tuesday

<3 Ashley

current mood: dirty
current music: *The woman in me*

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Wednesday, November 5th, 2003
8:56 pm - :*: DrOp ThE pEaR aNd GoOo :*:
-lol me and christine went to go workout today at like 6:30ish...it was funny cuz when we were done we were sittin in her car cuz she was finishin her pear...and we see this guy that likes her drive past the gym and we were like omg drop the pear and gooo fast!! lmao whhatta fricken stalker...he goes to her work and shit haha! well after that we went tanning...yep i feel fresh :O)

-this morning was different, i told my mom i wanted to get my GED and she yelled at me...and yelled at me some more...so during first block she made me tell my guidance couselor that i wanted to drop out (my mom went too) and me and my mom both ended up cryin...o god...so my guidance couselor said that im *over qualified* for my GED...grr.. lol so i guess i have to stay in school...bummer..

-tomorrow morning i get to go workout with christine again...5:30 baybii! hell yeah. so im waitin for jeremy to come online!! ill ttyl

<3 ashley

current mood: energetic
current music: Roseanne theme

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Tuesday, November 4th, 2003
10:02 pm - +*bLaH*+
-today was just another boring typical day of my dragful teenage life. nothing good ever happens i had off school...i guess the hilight of the day was that i got to see Mikey L and spend time with him(he is one of my best friends yet i never get to spend time with him) so he picked me up at 11...we went out for breakfast...*he made me eat toast* lol hes so funny...he loved my ferret<3 and then we went up to my room to watch home videos of me..they were funny as hell...

-sarah came over at like 2...we went to michael's craft store..got a few things to make her sister somthing, then picked up Amy.! me amy, jeremy and his cousin were supposed to go see Texas Chainsaw Masacre but Jeremy had to work...owell so i just took amy home!

-Lynzee and me are talking about dropping outta school, i cant take these fuckin teachers and shit and the people in my school, they just make me more stressed! i think im just gunna get my GED...its prolly easier neway(not that i want it easier) but yea...i love you lynz

well im outties

I cant wait till i can be with Jeremy!!<3

current mood: lonely

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Monday, November 3rd, 2003
7:26 pm - ..:*a LiL aBoUt ME..AsHLeY*:..
:x: name = Ashley Marie
:x: piercings = ears...used to have my bellybutton done but it fell out..
:x: tattoos = none...and never will
:x: height= 5'4
:x: shoe size = 8 1/2
:x: hair color = brown with blond hilights...act more blond
:x: siblings = brother-hes 9

:x: movie you rented = uhmm...i seen the crow at ryans...it was rented?
:x: movie you bought = wow long time ago...has to be A Walk to Remember
:x: song you listened to = Fuck it...Eamon
:x: song that was stuck in your head = Fuck it
:x: cd you bought = wow i download all my songs so i have nooo idea!
:x: cd you listened to = one of the mixes
:x: person you've called = Amy
:x: person that's called you = Ryan
:x: tv show you've watched = Lizzie Mcguire
:x: person you were thinking of = Ryan

:x: you have a crush on someone = I gotta BF <3
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = yes
:x: you think about suicide = sometimes
:x: you believe in online dating = haha i did it when i was little..but..NO
:x: others find you attractive = some
:x: you want more piercings = yeppers
:x: you like cleaning = my mom bugs me to clean my room everyday...so what does that tell ya
:x: you like roller coasters = uh huh
:x: you write in cursive or print = i do the printing things..if im lazy i do cursive..u take ur hand off the paper less lol..

:x: long distance relationships = against
:x: using someone = against
:x: suicide = against
:x: killing people = against
:x: teenage smoking = against
:x: driving drunk = against
:x: gay/lesbian relationships = for
:x: soap operas = some r good...the stupid ones im against

:x: ever cried over a girl= my friends yes
:x: ever cried over a boy = yep...many times
:x: ever lied to someone = who doesnt ?
:x: ever been in a fist fight = naw...it was more of pullin the hair >:)
:x: ever been arrested = nah

:x: shampoo do you use = Paul Mitchell's Tea tree Shampoo n Conditioner...expensive shit
:x: shoes do you wear = black ones from american eagle
:x: are you scared of = dying..not fitting in

:x: of times I have been in love?= 2
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = many times..
:x: of hearts I have broken? = 3 i think
:x: of girls I've slept with? = me n my gurlies share beds when we sleep over?? hehe
:x: of boys I've slept with? = 7
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 3
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?= 3 times
:x: of scars on my body? = 6
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = a couple...

:x: pretty - sometimes..but mostly no
:x: funny - my friends think i am
:x: hot - no
:x: friendly - yes
:x: amusing - yea i guess...why not
:x: ugly - yeppers
:x: loveable -yepp
:x: caring - yeah
:x: sweet - sure
:x: dorky - hehe i's not a dork

5 letter word: bytch~
actor/actress: John Travolta/LIZZIE!
Candy: bar - i dont like candy bars
Cartoon: rUgRaTs
Cereal: frosted flakes
Chewing gum: lol that lemonade shit
Color(s): pink,black,red
Color nail polish: light pink
Day of week: saturday
Least fave day: sunday/mondays
Flower: daisies...they are so friendly :o)
Jello flavor: the green kind
Jewelry: necklace
Special skills/talents: i can do some freaky shit wit my fingers n tongue! lol
Summer/Winter: winter kinda..
Trampolines or swimming pools: swimming pools..but karens trampoline

|| Person who last.. ||

Slept in your bed: Ryan
Saw you cry: Amy
Made you cry: my daddy :o(
You went to the movies with: Amy and Josh
Yelled at you: my daddy
Sent you an email: Dan

|| Have you ever.. ||

Said "I love you" and meant it?: yep
Gone out in public in your pajamas: yeah
Kept a secret from everyone: i still have one! :)
Cried during a movie: yep...me and gina bring tissues. hehe
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: omg i have the pillow...sleeping bag...cd and tape..i swear to god i was obsessed..oh and those lil pins i used to wear on my clothes...*the right stuff*
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: lol i hardly watch TV, but yeah when im sick
Been on stage: lotsa times..chorus..dancing
Been to New York: not NYC
Been to California: nope i want to
Hawaii: no
China: no
Canada: yeah
Europe: no
Asia: no
South America: no
Australia: no
Wished you were the opposite sex: it would be easier
What time is it now?: 7:47pm
Apples or bananas?: bananas
Blue or red?: red
Walmart or target?: both r bad..but walmart
Spring or Fall?: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this?: sit here
What was the last meal you ate?: pizza lol
High school or college?: high school
Are you bored?: yeah
Last noise you heard?: my ferret
Last smell you sniffed?: my gram just made choc chip cookies
Last time you went out of state/province?: like last week wit sarah n amy lol

|| Friendship/Love ||

Do you believe in love at first sight?: yep
Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: yep! 3
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: honesty

|| Other Info ||

Criminal record?: no
Do you speak any other languages?: spanish.. sort of.
Last book you read: All Quiet on the Western Front
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: my bed...pics of friends, stereo, clothes, cds
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: my weight
Worst feeling in the world: rejection
Who you love: my parents.. my family.. my friends
Who you miss: my grandpa

|| You ||

Nickname(s): Foxybiotch, Ashlue, chickypop, tuna
Initials: aml
How old do you look?: 17-18
How old do you act?: younger
Glasses/Contacts: none
Braces: no got em off in 8th grade
Do you have any pets?: yes- a ferret
You get embarrassed: sometimes
What makes you happy?: friends.. my boyfriend
What upsets you?: rejection, being alone

|| Finish the sentence: ||

I Love to... talk to my friends
I Miss... my gramps
I Wish... i could be someone else
I Hope... ill pass everything
I'm Annoyed by... my brother
I Am... a bitch
I Want to Be... happy
I Would Never... hurt a friend..
I'd Rather... be someone else
I Am Tired of... my mom tellin me what to do
I Will Always be... myself

|| Have you ever.. ||

Thought you were going to die: yea scary thought
Wanted to Run away: i think about it all the time
Flunked a grade: no
Skipped a grade: no

current mood: lonely
current music: Fuck it-Eamon

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