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Wednesday, October 8th, 2003
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4:04 pm - hell yeah im like REB!!! now u find out if ur REB or VoDKa
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| Monday, October 6th, 2003
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3:47 pm - my pplz
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these r sum pplz that i care bout that arent my family =P
Anti : ur my best bud n the whole wide world, i love u, i know u'll never 4get bout me or back stab me like the old posse has done (or made me feel, w/e) i love u hun i cant wait till ur out n back again cuz i miss u!
Jeremy : Jeremy i love u, i really do and no matter what i always will 1st loves suck i hate u at times but i love u cant wait till i see u, its been a year since i last saw u.....u'll never know how much u mean 2 me =|
Megan : aka #1 Juggalette aka Da AntiChrist, lmao u r so funny i luv ya hun, ur my crazy Juggalette, probly the only Lette i can stand (M@gGo+z r better!)
Opposite : hun u r so great, u make me blush way 2 much i love ya hun! ur way 2 nice 2 me n thats ok i guess but yeah hun cant put shit into words bout ya lol ur just great!
My KK : lmao my sexy angel (well ok, ur a deamon but we can pretend!) ur so sexy so funny ur just......HOT AS FUCKIN HELL sry had 2 say that lmao love ya hun!
My Jaimie : aka my pretend lesbian lover! i've known u for years now, u r so lovely, so wonderful, and ur mine lol u've helped me alot when i needed sum1 2 make me laugh my ass off! love u babe!
i'm gonna miss u all when im gone!
this isnt n order or nuttin but if i left u out im so sry, just post n ill write bout ya n ur own thingy lol dont 4get 2 scroll down n say hi on my guest book thingy only 2 ppl have posted on that thingy lol
current mood:  grateful
current music: Slipknot-People=Shit
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| Saturday, October 4th, 2003
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9:33 pm - grrrrrrr
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ok, here's what went down 2day. Homecomming is in 2 weeks or sum shit like that, well i went dress shoppin at the mall 2day and tried on the dress i fell n love wit at hot topic =| i looked so HORRIBLE so apparently my tits (38D's) n my hipz r bigger dan what i seriously thot they were, i have big curves i didnt think i really did till i tried on the corset dress :( my chic (who i went wit, n goin 2 da dance wit) said i looked really good n it, but i couldnt believe how HORRIBLE i looked, if i could have the body i want i would become a christian dammit! (hey Satanism n me bn a Luciferian is bout bn ur own god, so of course i'd b sayin shit like that, its all bout me hehehe) but damn i felt like a fuckin blimp! BUT i did get a my long wanted trench coat (that i'll get expelled 4rm skool 4, thats the only bad thing the REB n VoDKa set, no trenches, n they werent even n the T.C.M.!) but i still felt like a whale when i cam home, TILL i looked at MY Opposite's newest blurty entry, but 4 w/e reason i feel depressed (as alwayz) so im bout 2 just say fuck off 2 the world n find a knife 2 play wit hehe! sry pplz :(( but im so sad right now, i miss my Anti (my best maggot buddy) My Opposite (grrrrr) n MY Jeremy (fuck u buddy 4 all this pain, i hate u wit all my heart, but i think i love u wit so much more, damn i sound like a sheep)
current mood:  depressed
current music: Slipknot-New Abortion
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| Monday, September 29th, 2003
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9:07 pm - i gots a dream book!
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center>
Read my Dreambook guestbook!
Sign my Dreambook!
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current mood:  awake
current music: dont post
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| Saturday, September 27th, 2003
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5:19 pm - "Where was God" by Drowing Pool
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Where was God when I needed a friend
Where was God when I came to an end
Where was God when I lost my mind
Where was God when I couldn't find
Don't want to be up or down
Where was love when I felt like hate
Where was hate when I felt like love
Where were you when you said you'd be there
Where was the fear when I said I was scared
Tell me what you believe
I'll tell you what you should see
'Cause I don't know who to trust
My heart is filled with disgust
I can't take this
Ladies and Gentlemen
May I have your attention
Are you ready for the joke
Are you ready for the great deception
current mood: crushed
current music: Where was God-Drowning Pool
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4:59 pm - fuckin pplz
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ok, ya know when u gots a bunch of shit writtin down n u dont want other pplz 2 read it u hide it right? well no, not me, i leave right out n the open so ppl wont think that its a big thing, it works but no when it cumz 2 my dad....no0o0o0o0o0 he just has 2 play detective, so heres what happend : i was at skool, he went n2 my room 2 get "garbage" out of there n saw sum notes read them, said he found em disturbing then started lookin around, well he read my journals shit n there that i dont tell ne1 at all....no1....notta....zip...got the picture? well now he thinks im cuttin, =| (uh.....huh...) he thinks im suicidal (uh...huh...) he LOOKED thru dis box full of shit that my x gave/made 4 me last yr that NO ONE I REPEAT NO ONE IS 2 TOUCH n LOST 2 things out of there thats the point when i snapped, litterly....like a rubberband ^_^ u just dont do that, it was WRONG then he acts like its ok when im sittin there crying cuz he fucked everthing up n now wants me 2 do a bunch of shit 2 "change" u cant change a persons personality u just cant! he thought lyrics were my thoughts wtf?! he could've just asked then i would have said ok, go ahead but dont look n 2 these 3 things.....but listen 2 this, he denies it, DENIES IT! when the stuffs missing, out of place n put back the wrong way! i KNOW how that shit was, i was just lookin at it the mornin it happend! WTF PPL LIKE THAT R THE 1'S THAT MAKE ME WANNA KILL MYSELF HE'S A SHEEP DAMMIT FUCK THE WORLD!
current mood: numb
current music: Drowning Pool-Where was God?
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4:54 pm - my wonderful Opposite
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i met my wonderfull Opposite n the SoS chat :D he's great :) well he decided 2 copy me n make a blurty so 4 all u pplz out there read my Opposites blurty www.blurty.com/users/lordabortion ok? n no, hes not a holy rollin xian :| grrrr i hate xian n sheep :|
current mood:  flirty
current music: Slipknot-Spit it out
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| Thursday, September 25th, 2003
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6:09 pm - falalalala
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| Wednesday, September 24th, 2003
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9:15 pm - Da AntiChrist
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my bud-e "Da AntiChrist" is dis cray-zeeeee Juggalette shes great =P so heres sum ICP shit 4 her on here =| (We all know M@gGo+z r better =) ) ( i had another section on here bout her but i dissapeared =|) Hopefully da pix will show up if they dont then w/e i'd rather have more Joey Jordison pix on here (JJ is so fuckin hott ahhhhhh!)
You are the Wraith, the Sixth Joker's Card. You
are rather holy...or unholy, as the case may
be. You direct people to their destination,
whether it be Heaven or Hell. You are Death,
aka the Grim Reaper. You show people what they
deserve: the golden light of Shangri-La, or the
fiery pits of Hell. While they are the judge,
you are the one who leads them to their
destination.
Which ICP Joker's Card are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
You are the Ringmaster, the Second Joker's Card.
Will your evil ways outweigh your good deeds?
Will the demons inside other people devour them
whole? Only time will tell...
Which ICP Joker's Card are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
You are the Riddlebox, the Third Joker's Card. You
are a bystander--people go to you, finding out
their fate. But what is inside the mighty
Riddlebox? If the path of evil was the one
that was walked, to Hell you go! But a path of
virtue will land you a place in the eternal
Heaven, Shagri-La. It's Judgement Day...and
the joke's on you.
Which ICP Joker's Card are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
You are the Great Milenko, the Fourth Joker's Card.
Your evil spells cast delusions of grandeur,
making people see themselves better than they
are. Your own evil deeds is his magic. Your
evil influence binds many people. You,
yourself may be under Milenko's influence.
Free yourself of his bonds...or be sentenced to
an eternity in Hell's Pit.
Which ICP Joker's Card are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
You are the Amazing Jeckel Bros., the Fifth Joker's
Card. Jack the sinister, and Jake the just.
Your own internal fight with yourself: to do
what is right, what is virtuous? Or to seek
vengence? Your evil--that is Jack Jeckel.
Your good--That is Jake Jeckel. Together, you
make up the juggling duo, the Amazing Jeckel
Brothers. But who will win the duel of fire?
Only you can decide.
Which ICP Joker's Card are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
current mood: chipper
current music: Slipknot-Wait n Bleed
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| Tuesday, September 23rd, 2003
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10:52 pm - Singogue of Satan (SoS)
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Sinogogue of Satan, http://sosatan.org/ yeah out of all the "stupid" religions/beliefs i've been/tried,(Atheist,Agnostic,christian,Wiccan, now Luciferian) being a Luciferian makes the most damn sense lmao the worst religion that i believed in was christainanity =| yeah that was 4 bout 2 years....uh....i was kinda brained washed into it by ppl i trusted....isnt that the way it usually happens? well...SoS is a great thing, its not totally like my beliefs but most of it goes in that category =) the site is pretty cool, i havent became a member yet cuz every time i go 2 fill out the essay thingy muh bobber the damn cp freezes =| so0o0o0o i came across SoS 4rm the yahoo chat bout it, theres ALWAYZ holy-rollin xianz in there tellin us we're "wrong" uh...huh....sure bud-e...newayz, im happy that i was never a holy roller, guess i knew the shit that they were "teaching" me was BULL SHIT, well bull shit 2 ME....
well here r sum good pplz that i meet n the SoS chat room....my Opposite!i love my Opposite! he's great, i call him my Opposite cuz r sn'z r opposite, Satanz Abortion, Lord Abortion, get it? got it? good... then theres Kayla, KK as i call her, OMFS she so hott =P grrrr shes got a great personality, great great personality, hot as hell body =P then theres Caz, i met her by KK i think, shes great 2, i dont know her as well as KK n My Opposite but, shes funny she likes 2 change her sn alot on yahoo n mess wit my mind =| i dont like bn confuzzeled.....o0o0o0o shes hott very hott, then tweek, tweek dont talk 2 me as much nemorez =(( not kool, shes funny 2, interesting also shes hott 2 lmao they're ALL hott, me,my kk, caz n tweek should have our orgy like we planned lmao yes Opposite (if ur readin dis) u can join 2 =P
a few other ppl that i've met r the main pplz of SOS, prof, n mad....lmao they're fuckin funny on mic....but they dont like me =| i dont think so at least, well im sick as hell n i wanna kill bout every1 who crosses my path but w/e stay (sic)
current mood:  sick
current music: Super Joint Ritual-Fuck Your Enemy-i think thats the name =|
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| Monday, September 22nd, 2003
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5:30 pm - skool =|
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hmmmmmmm.....skool fuckin sux i HATE my skool!!!! ok 1st pd is gay as fuck, theres this dork thats been obsessing over me since last year =| rrrriiiiigggghhht theres no1 2 talk 2. 2nd pd is cooking shit =| all we ever fuckin do is CLEAN yeah clean not cook n skool has been goin on 4 5 whole weeks now =| i hate that class, still no1 2 talk 2...3rd pd english, surrounded by sheep..'nuff said...4th pd is world history, i'm sitten near a guy whos retarded (litterly cept he's n a honors class wtf?!) he fuckin burst out sayin shit and pulls my hair =| grrr n im sittin surrounded by gay ass sheep still =( 5th pd is science...the dork sits behind me =| then in front and 2 my right r these faggiez who make fun of my music and i wanna shove a fuckin knife down their throats =P 6th pd is lunch where im wit "Da AntiChrist" my good bud-e 7th pd is Algrebra or sum shit like that...wtf?! the teacher is this weird ass bitch that talks like a hill-billy (no, really, she does...) theres a huge (f-a-t, not that i gots room 2 talk but damn he's big) who sits behind me, a loser annoyin kidd who sits n front of me n 1 who sits next 2 him, a black (fo-shizzle dawg) thug chick who sits next 2 me, n a mexican from NYC who sits on my other side and another should be considered retard u sits near me n smells its HORRIBLE.....then FINALLY 8th pd...ART class, Da AntiChrist is n there wit me, but the teacher looks like a fuckin toad, is a bitch, screams all the time, has these huge ass eyes cuz of her thick glasses...she has a MAJOR ego problem, she thinks she 'lil miss thang =| and thats my day a continueous cycle of BULL SHIT!
current mood:  annoyed
current music: Slipknot-Surfacing
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3:43 pm - REB n VoDKa
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these r sum R&V sites 4 ya pplz (if ur OBSESIVE over 'em like i am) =P theres sum that r there suicide pix (the 1st site) graphic so dont say i didnt warn ya...=P http://massmurder.zyns.com/eric_harris_dylan_klebold_11.htm http://www.thetrenchcoat.com/post.html
http://massmurder.zyns.com/eric_harris_dylan_klebold.htm http://www.homepagez.com/trenchcoat/index.html the last 1, the "homepagez.com" one is CRAY-ZEEEE! it has dis painting on it 4rm a tape 4rm the lunch room, GREAT pix GREAT EVERYTHING! um.....i'll put sum more sites up here l8r cuz i g2g
"I WILL be armed to the fucking teeth, and I WILL shoot to kill and I WILL fucking KILL EVERYTHING! No I am not crazy, crazy is just a word, to me it has no meaning, everyone is different" -REB
"Fact: People are so unaware... well, Ignorance is bliss I guess... that would explain my depression." "the holy April morning of NBK (Natural Born Killers)." -VoDKa
"I will sooner die than betray me own thoughts, but before I leave this worthless place, I will kill whoever I deem unfit. I want to burn the world." -REB
"A weird time, weird life, weird existance."
"The lonely man strikes with absolute rage."
..."What fun is life without a little death..." -VoDKa
current mood: energetic
current music: KMFDM
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| Sunday, September 21st, 2003
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3:30 pm - Grrrrrr
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grrrrr, i am so PISSED, dammit "Fuck it all, fuck this world, fuck everything u stand 4, dont belong dont exist, dont give a shit, dont ever judge me, AND DONT U EVER FUCKIN JUDGE ME!!!!" -Slipknot-Surfacing thats my best friends song, Anti, she's been gone 4 bout 3 months now, locked away in the M.I. (mental institution) sure she gots sum probs, but who doesnt?! her mom, who is kool n all, but is a straight up fuckin bitch! she said Anti tried 2 kill herself w/scissors, uh, i know my Anti, she'd go straight 4 her meds 4 a kool high O.D. effect then the razor blades.grrrrrr I NEED MY ANTI!!!!!! and ya know what? FTW i really hate this world, i hate the system, i hate everything bout it, expecially the christians, o my fuckin Satan, xianz r so fuckin stupid! WTF?! they think they know everything and they have NO proof that their god exists! c'mon, Satanism n all its forms, makes more sense then xian beliefs! at least they know their "god" exists, cuz they r their own gods dammit, wtf?! i hate this fuckin world but i should just end it all right here and right now, but im not gonnna go quietly, i should go out like REB n VoDKa did, hell yeah i should but i know that i could never get the shit 4 that cuz well R & V could cuz they're mortal GODS dammit, fuck yeah they r, but w/e FTW
current mood:  distressed
current music: Slipknot-People=Shit
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1:31 pm - i LOVE Joey Jordison!!!!!!!!
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12:59 pm - Death
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well...think bout this, what would u do if u woke up 1 morning, did ur lil routine that u do, then go off 2 school/work and find out that sum1 u cared about died the day b4? Do u think that they knew how much u cared 4 them, how much they meant 2 u, that they were secretly sum1 u "loved" when u can barely stand the thought of loving sum1....what would u do? u could never talk 2 them again, never hug them, see their smile....never 2 hear 4rm them again, how would u react? how would u know if they knew how u felt or not, is that important 2 u? what would happen 2 u after all the guilt got 2 ya? would u just be dead like them on the inside cuz u couldnt ever see them again, 2 hug them....think bout that each and every morning, and thats how i feel, but yet i never tell....
current mood: numb
current music: Slipknot-New Abortion
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| Saturday, September 20th, 2003
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10:04 pm - go me!
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muhahahhaha ok ok, im a dork, sry...but this damn site was pissin me off completly and i couldnt figure out how 2 change my background and text colorz cuz this damn site dont give ya codes, so i found the codes then made it, then did the lil batty thingys i gots on here muhahahahha
current mood: amused
current music: Cradle of Filth-Babolon A.D.
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7:52 am - uh....
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yeah, this is my 1st journal entry on this site, and i still have no damn clue wtf im supposed 2 be doin on this thingy....uh help?!
current mood: frustrated
current music: Slipknot-Heretic Anthem, my fave
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