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hello hello..
today i woke up at around 930ish, which was good because i didnt want to wake up at 12 and waste the day away like i have some other days this past week.
so i ate breakfast, threw on some old clothes & went running. it was.. interesting & im happy with myself because i ran almost 2 miles which is a good accomplishment considering i havent ran consistently since cross-country.
then i got home & rescued the bowl from outside (ahaaha it was quite entertaining to see me crawling behind a bush) & then went in & took a shower.
then my sister took me to Barnes & Noble where i chose like 2474 journals that i liked & was forced to narrow it down to one. Do you have any idea how hard that is!?! ahhh, sheesh. so pathetically enough, i got a really simple, blank one from a mix of really elegant ones. but I chose this one because I can personalize it since i like to put my touch on things. it was exciting going out to shop for a journal.. damn it, i havent written in my journals for almost a year now. which is INSANE if you think about it because ive been writing in one since i was in 3rd grade. but i did have a bit of a change because i got one that doesn't look like the others; its not a notebook anymore. but yeah barnes & noble had some REALLY cool journals, and especially one made of leather with a beautiful carving of a colonial girl engraved in the cover. but it was $29? i think, and i didnt want to spend that much money. anywho.
then i stopped at walmart to pick up my photos which as it turned out werent ready to be picked up because they didnt come back from the photo lab yet. poop. they'll be ready tomorrow.
after i got home i mingled & dwelled around for a while before going out to buy myself a new bike. we ended up with an okay one? im not complaining, as long as i have a bike then im good, but, let's say the color is.. ONE OF THE UGLIEST COLORS I've ever SEEN! ack. yes, thats right.. its.. purple. dude i never thought id everrrr get a purple bike. but it's just a bike right? and other than that, it's pretty nice. ah well.
...the reason i dont say "thank you" to my father..
i felt it would be nice to say thank for the bicycle, so i'm like, thanks for the bike. & he responds, "what i want is for you to be a good student & a good kid"
well, thanks. Oh & a question about his ideas on democracy turned into telling me about the "bad people" and the "good people" in this world & how God doesn't exist. comforting, no? I'm also not 5 years old; I'm aware of the "bad" people, dad.
...this vacation was really nice though. i'm very satisfied & although i'm not exactly dying to go back, the sooner i get back the sooner school will be out. i mean who wouldn't want another week off.
i really enjoyed the nice weather & i was sooo thrilled about it. i spent a lot of time outside which was exciting also. i ran, walked, sat outside reading, writing poetry, playing guitar, writing letters, having picnics & just lying down listening to the birds & watching the world passing by.
i also thought a lot. i thought about who i am, how things are, how things would have been, what has changed, where i'm going to go from here.. etc. It was a nice reflection period.
I smoked up a little which was.. enlightening & fascinating as it always is. I had some kind of epiphany too, & i realized how i don't appreciate myself as much as i should sometimes. i realized i shouldnt scrutinize myself so much & that i really have some good points.
i wrote some wacky poetry stoned too, but, that's another story. haha
..the song, "Mandy," the way Barry Manilow sings it reminds me of someone i know. I wonder if he's ever heard it & saw any similarities. probably not.
I went bowling with Ashley & Christina on Wednesday & it was exciting!! I haven't bowled in a while (sadly) & my skills were a bit lacking first game but I got those pins down 2nd game woot woot. yesterday i went to see Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind with my sister. She didn't like it, i didnt think she would. i dont know, its funny, i didnt REALLY like it, but it left a good impression on me, so i thought it was alright. it was definitely something new & gave a new perspective, which I enjoyed, but it wasn't a GREAT movie. definitely interesting though.
This whole vacation I had my hair straight. So i'm leaving it curly for a while. My mom says i should cut my hair. my sister says i should cut my hair. my dad says i should cut my hair. so it seems everyone thinks i should cut cut cut it. its funny, because ive developed a kind of bond with it. i mean, ive had this hair for like more than a year now, & ive been brushing it & pulling it & twirling it for days on end. Its not like a short snappy cut you barely touch. ive been handling this damn mane for hours each day! Grooming it & shining it, styling it & straightening it. So, today, in the shower, while i was combing my locks, I thought.. do i dare say goodbye to these precious light brown strands? it's sad! i mean you probably think im insane, but you try growing your hair to your butt for like two years & then go and chop it all off. i mean, all that hard work goes kaboom! ah well, i had to express my thoughts on that. i am cutting it though, this summer. probably no shorter than my shoulders, but more likely a little longer than the shoulders. just so its easier to take care of i guess. i need a change anyway, there's not much i can do with it now that its so long. Oh and im getting a relaxer.
so its almost 8, im going to read, decorate my journal a little? & hang around.
Peace little bugger.
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