Aaron-
this may look like i'm writing u a letter and that's kinda what i'm doing. i juss wanna basically tell u all the feelings i've been having lately. 1st thing i wanna saw.....i did not get a wink of sleep last night cause i was tossing and turning.....thinking about u coming 2 my house and actually meeting my parents and everything. it wasn't a bad thing @ all. i kept thinking soooo much good stuff that i couldn't fall asleep ((even though i was wayyy tired)). i'm sooo happy 2 be able 2 tell my parents about u. its been sooooo hard keeping u from them ((especially my mom)) cause when there's a guy in my life i normally cannot stop talking about him. lately....i've been thinking about how much i actually truly truly love you. i knew i loved you b4 i actually met u ((hehe....juss like that 1 song)), but i didn't think i was in love w/ u. after seeing u, actually being w/ u, and seeing the love u had 4 me in ur eyes.......i knew i had fallen in love w/ u. when u left 2 go back home.....that was sooo sooo hard 4 me because right when i knew i was in love w/ an amazing man....he had 2 leave me. seeing everything u've done 4 me....wow.....i could not be more thankful. u do soooo much 4 me Aaron that i get the feeling that i'm not doing enough. u might say that i do enough.......but i really don't. i wanna do sooooo much 4 u sweetheart, but @ the moment i can't. i know i will be able 2 do a whole lot more after i tell my parents about u. i can be the 1 always calling u, sending u "because i love you" presents, etc. i hate though that i get really mean and bitchy w/ u. i don't purposely do it honey. i'm sorry that i do it though. its juss......i wanna have u all 2 myself and 2 be able 2 talk 2 u all the time. but i need 2 learn 2 be strong and not so selfish. juss know when i'm in 1 of those moods......i don't mean 2 be mean nor do i mean 2 hurt u. i think i would probably wouldn't act like i do if u were actually here when i was in one of my moods. i think the main reason y i get like that is because of all those stupid guys out here that have hurt me and my friends and it all starts off when the guy stops talkin 2 the girl. i know u would never ever do ne thing 2 hurt me or hurt this relationship, but if u really were me u would know that my actions happen b4 i can control them. i hope u get what i'm trying 2 say. i know it sounds a lil weird.....but i dunnnno :0). i've never been so happy Aaron. thank u honey.......thank u 4 everything u've done and thank u 4 making me the happiest and luckiest girl ever. i love you w/ all my heart, soul, mind, and every other body part :0) hehe. be my baby boy....forever
All my love,
Brittani :0)
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