i'm fallin behind on these entries. i'm gonna try 2 go back and do a new journal entry each day like i use 2. it helps 2 get all my emotions and stuff out....whether they're good or bad. lately my love 4 Aaron has juss been gettin stronger and stronger. i've had my lil bitchy times w/ him that led 2 not nice talking, but we got over that. our love is 2 strong 4 us 2 get mad @ each other 4 a long time. last night....i talked 2 him 4 the 1st time on the phone. it was soooo nice 2 hear his voice, but i felt a lil rejected...? i guess u can say that. he wasn't really talking and it got me scared thinkin that he'd be like that when he's around me :0(. then he told me he was gonna let me go (like hang up w/ me) and iono. that sucked. made me feel like i did something or said something wrong. but all that was cleared up. its all good now and i understand. surprisingly....i wasn't as scared as i thought i would be. ne ways.....i get 2 go 2 school 2morrow 4 orientation. mann.....this summer went by wayy tooo fast! i'm excited that i'll get 2 c Bob and the rest of my posse......but i'm REALLY not ready 2 go back 2 school. a junior...? heck...i still remember the 1st day of 6th grade. y do the years have 2 go by sooo fast? geeeeze. so yeah...i start school next week. not funn @ all. i got a new backpack 2day and some school stuff yesterday. 2morrow i'll get my books....my schedual....my locker....and all that funn stuff. hopefully i'll have classes w/ Bob.....but the BIG hope is 2 have section w/ her. that would be the BEST! i keep thinkin about talkin 2 that lady about changing my classes. she's gonna yell and scream @ me :0(. i'm scurrred. well, my dad said that WE'RE paying THEM and they're not paying us.....so i have a right 2 change my classes if i want 2 and if i think its best. its gay.....cause i wanted 2 sign up 4 graphics art cause we need 2 have a whole year of arts credit 2 graduate and i'm not all that artsy.....so i thought i should take that class. while we were signing up 4 classes b4 the end of the year (Soph year).....they told us that they changed their minds and graphics art wasn't gonna be considered an art credit. that pissed me off.....so i signed up 4 a HARD science class which i don't even need 2 take. i took all my sciences (fyi....i went 2 summer school 2 get 1 outta the way and BOY did that suck!) and i'm only takin an extra science so it looks good on my thinger 4 college. then after we all signed up 4 our new classes this year.....they changed their minds again and said that graphics art IS an art credit. now is that fucked up or what? so technically it ISN'T my fault that i wanna change classes, right? o well. my dad is gonna bitch the woman out and help me out if she yells @ me. so its gonna be ok...i hope :-\. i juss hate getting yelled @. u have nooo idea. i feel like such a low person and iono. i get scared that i'm gonna get hit right after i get yelled @ 2 cause that's juss how i grew up. i would get yelled @ 4 something i did wrong....and then i'd get hit. if Aaron ever yelled @ me....o boyy. i'd be 1 scared lil girl......cause umm.....he'll be pretty strong after boot camp (he probably already is) and o boyy. ne ways....i'm juss blabbing on. imma go hang or something. talk 2 u laterz.....byeee peopleZ! :0)
I wuuuv yeeew Aawen! :0)
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grateful.