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| wow....i have so many things running through my head. turns out...Aaron wont be coming out here 4 another year. it hurts me 2 think that because i can't have what i've always wanted 4 another year now :'(. i love him so much and now i juss keep thinking about the hard times i had 2 go through w/ Brett and all his lies. how he use 2 tell me "i'm coming out this time", but then it turned into "i have 2 wait until next year 2 come." then he juss never came and he told me he'd come "@ this time" (never came once again) and so on. i'm scared that's what's gonna happen w/ Aaron. i know it wont happen.....its juss a natural reaction. i've been hurt so many times that my mind automatically thinks that every guy is like my ex's that hurt me in the past.....even though i know Aaron's TOTALLY 100% not like ne other guy i have ever met. its juss hard 4 me :'(. i really do love Aaron more than ne thing. he means sooooo soooo much 2 me. i juss need strength right now....2 get me through all this...... | ||||||||
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crushed.