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[20 Jul 2003|01:20pm] |
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i just woke up and my birthday is in 5 days. wow. i guess that makes me special. today im probably gonna be lazy and watch movies all day. i got edward scissorhands so ill be watching that 5 or 6 times. mm apple cinammon cherrios are killer. oh my gosh. donnie darco is my new favorite movie now. its so amazing, plus donnie is a hottie. i got high last night and watched charlies angels. haha it was the most incredible experience of my life..hahaha. fuck u
no one even read my journal anymore. y do i even bother to make one? yeah fuck u.
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| SHIBALOO. |
[15 Jul 2003|11:26pm] |
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so today my brother called me and told me i had to get up cos my mom had a problem with me sleeping bymyself? yeah so then..brit called me to meet up and we completly missed eachother and then we ended up back at my house. her friend cheryl came over with her and i dyed and cut brits hair and then gave cheryl bangs. it was killer. i love brit. shes so sweet and i think i have a new friend. :)
shrOOms bought me alcohol today! woot. my mission firday. brit and i think cheryl is coming over and were gonna get drunk..possibly strip poker(muahaha) and then sneak out and steal a head of a statue. oh man. it will be killer.
rite now steve and tjjc are hear thier all gonna smoke..but im not cos i get a little emotional. meh.
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| erin i stole this from your journal |
[09 Jul 2003|10:51am] |
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1. Name: kaelyn
2. Nicknames: kae, kae shae, kae kae, boo(psht),kitten
3. Feet size: 8
4. Do you have a crush?: yeah..
5. Boyfriend?: yeah..im pretty sure today i do..
6. Age you act: 7 sometimes 37
7. Where do you live?: in my house
8. Where do you want to live?: in ur house
9. Favorite salad dressing: i dont eat salad.
10. Ever gone skinny dipping?: yeah!
11. What are you watching?: u..when u sleep at night..
12. Last person you talked to: uhmm...MOMMY. on the phone
13. Favorite movie: the crow, edward scissor hands, nightmare befire christmas,the virgin suicides,slc punk,jawbreaker. (rose is a hottie)
14. Favorite book: book?
15. Favorite type of music: screamo,metal,ska is fun! anythign tbs..there so intence i cry.
16. Favorite types of cars: fun ones
17. Favorite fast food: mcdonalds??
18. Favorite ice cream: strawberry
19. Favorite alcoholic drink: smirnoff..hell...its alcohol.therefore.i like.
20. When do you go to sleep?: well. gosh. WHEN IM TIRED.
21. Most embarrassing moment: i dont remember..to many.
22. Stupidest person you know: hahahahaha. we dont talk about it...(bommer pants)<-lolol cate
23. Funniest person you know: lolol CATE I PEE MYSELF
24. Favorite holiday: christmas and halloween
25. Favorite food: i have this strange fetish for whipped cream
26. Favorite song[s]: your so last summer..i just..i just cry okay.
27. Favorite television show: no
28. Favorite radio station: i dont like the radio.
29. Favorite junk food: umm..give me a minute
30. Favorite sappy love song: short stories with tragic endings. i cnat control myself when i hear it
31. Favorite drink: vanilla coke
+|| SECTION TWO: The Future
1. School: school?
2. Where you want to live: in edward scissor hands castle where he fingers me all day long. woa. shit can i say that?
3. How many kids you want: no kids! please god no!
4. What kind of job you want: i want to be in a band
5. Wedding song: at ur funeral...HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.wow.lolol
6. Pets?: shapoopi, beanular, osh kos bigosh(if there still alive?)
7. Car?: corvette
8. 5 years from now? she sits at home. oh god im drunk.
9. 10 years from now? um. ill be a star. just u wait and see.
+|| SECTION THREE: Have You Ever..
1. Done drugs: yo. lets go smoke a j by the seesaw.
2. Run away from home: no..but its been attempted
3. Hit a Guy: shrooms. he quoted to me "the truth is u could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath id apologize for bleeding on ur shirt" so i bitch slapped him
4. Lied: i have a problem.
5. Smoked: ciggarettes?
6. Broken a bone: no
7. Cheated on a test: we all have
8. Cheated on a boyfriend: NO NEVER
9. Gotten drunk: i..CANT...STTOOOPPPPPP
10. Been with 2 guys at once: no thats so not-cool
11. Been in the hospital: yeah i puked to much..too bad i missed dr. kitty
12. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: no body wants to
13. Feel asleep in the shower/ bath: i dont think so?
14. Gone to church: bah
15. Never slept during the night: yeah i do that sometimes
16. Ever been on a motorcycle or motorbike: does a moped count?
17. Been to camp: ew
18. Sat in a restaurant without ordering: yeah lol.
19. Seen someone die: id be traumatized!!
20. Gone a week without shaving: lol
21. Didn’t wash your hair for week: I WOULD NEVER MAKE IT
22. Broken something valuable: lol yeah..lololol. and it wasnt mine..lololol KILL ME.
23. Thought you were in love: i didnt think i was really in love.
24. Streaked the streets: um no.
25. Said I love you and meant it : yes
26. Been hurt by a guy/girl you loved: yeah! all the time.
27. Stayed up till 4 am on the phone: yeah and i fell alseep and woke up with the fone rapped around my neck
28. Pulled a prank: lolol.
+|| SECTION FOUR: Which Is Better..
1. Coke or Pepsi: coke
2. Cats or Dogs: mmm kitties! i love them both
3. DVDs or VHS: dvd
4. Deaf or Blind: deaf..i like to pretend sometimes..lololol.
5. Pools or Hot Tubs: both!
6. Television or radio: the teli
7. CDs or MP3s: cds? im not up with todays technology okay fuck off.
8. Apples or Oranges: apples
9. Strawberries or Bluberries: strawberries
10. Gold or Silver: silver
11. Vanilla or chocolate: vanilla
12. Movies or music: music
13. Peak or Beach: beach even tho i have a fear of the sunlight
14. Hot or cold weather: warm
15. Sunset or sunrise: sunset...night time is near..
+|| SECTION FIVE: When Was The Last Time You..
1. Took a shower: today
2. Cried: yesterday
3. Watched a Disney movie: umm......i dunno!
4. Given/gotten a hug: yesterday i hugged erin when her got her clevage taken out
5. Been to the movies:
6. kissed someone: someone doesnt like to kiss me...........................................
7. Said I love you: last night on the fone
8. Danced: wee today
9. Did a survey like this: a while ago??
+|| SECTION SIX: What Is..
1. Your fondest memory of this year: when me and justin started talking and hershey..casey i love u
2. Your most prized possession: my weed..when i have it. and my monroe..im so happy i have u my love.
3. The thing that makes you the happiest: casey.
4. Your favorite food for breakfast: cereal
5. Your favorite food for dinner: mexican. o lay
6. Your favorite slow song: time after time.. oh cindy.
+|| SOCIAL
1. best guy friend: i have a few.
2. best girl friend: cate. erin. em. casey!
3. current crush: it will never be.
4. boyfriend/girlfriend: justin..today.
5. are you the center of attention or wallflower: wallflower?what?
6. what type of automobile do you drive: ohhh man. THE FUCKING VAN!! the van is the place to be. but we get in trouble to much...lol erin..the fuzz?? lol
7. are u timely or always late: late late late. i have a problem
8. do you have a job: haha.
9. do you like being around people: not most of the time. unless im drunk.
+|| FAVORITES
1. room in the house: my closet yo.
2. type of music: didnt u already ask me that? i swear u did..
3. location for dates: my bed.
4. memory: dinsey world.
5. day of the week: saturday
6. color: black and pink
7 perfume or cologne: axe
8. flower: red rose.
9. month: july
10. season: the end of spring
+|| In the last 48 hours, have you..
1. cried: yeah
2. bought something: no i have zip money
3. gotten sick: no
4. sang: yes!
5. said I love you: yes
6. wanted to tell someone u loved them but didn’t: no..i said it
7. met someone new: no
8. moved on: no..?
9. talked to someone: yeah
10. had a serious talk: i think with cate..in the closet..it was getting emotional.
11. missed someone: yeah...
12. hugged someone: yeah
13. kissed someone: no...i want a kiss tho
14. fought with your parents: no my mom has been nice lately
15. dreamed about someone you can’t be with: we dont talk about it
16. had a lot of sleep: no..i woke up at 6 this morning. bah
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| SHIT ANGEL |
[20 Jun 2003|03:57pm] |
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*gasp* omg guess what today would have been.. :( :( :( :( :(
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| BOO! |
[18 Jun 2003|12:47pm] |
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yeah. so i just got out of the shower. uhmm nothing important really happened in the last 4 days. not like u would care anyway. but yesterday i was busy like busier than usual. i was woken up at 10 by casey and kara...then we walked to johns, then we went to karas, then my brother picked me up with his"friends" and i took a shower, then walked to ralphs with cate, court, kait, em, ern, tjjcj and myself. and i was attacked by alex wyman, and he called me a ho, AND a bitch. woa alex. please do us a favor and grow urself a dick. and then we went to the c'v. and stole some items then went home and everyone left and i went back to cates with her and then casey came over cates and we chilled. then i went home at 10:30 after me and cate made her mom take us to wendys and steve was over and him and erin were watching "seventh" umm yeah. ive seen it before but i didnt remember..and umm...yeah. i think i am now traumatized for the rest of my lfe because in one part....umm..it kills me to even think about it..well...the "murder" made some guy put on a strap on dildo and fuck some girl...except..well the dildo was a 2 foot long knife. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. omg my fantasy is no longer getting fingered by edward scissor hands thanks to that. bah. i cant handle this.
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| SHHHH TEHRE FATER U! |
[14 Jun 2003|01:50am] |
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heloo. i am ,...drunk and high at the same time now so excuse my typos. its such a challenge for me. omg..i love justin. OMG I LOVE justin i really fycjkined things up with him/....i like red lipstick
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| MMMMMMMMMM |
[09 Jun 2003|01:20pm] |
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You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
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YEAH RITE.
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| LATE NIGHT RIOTS. |
[08 Jun 2003|02:11pm] |
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shoot me in the head repeatedly.i deserve to die. my dad came down thursday and friday, and i managed to avoid him both times, by going to my grandmas and going to justins and now hes coming down today. HE WONT GO AWAYYY!!! so now i HAVE to see him or he wont leave me alone. no no, wait..hes coming down AGAIN on tuesday. god. what a psyco. last night my mom erin daniel and kyle went to my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary, and i didnt go cause i dditn feel good. and my mo came home at like 11:30 piss drunk. she said i could go to justins and then i was begging her for an hour and a half and then she just stopped talking to me and daniel started cursing at me. he was drunk too. they were so drunk they GAVE me a beer. but then i started to go hysterical on them because they were all like ew kaelyn go die. and im all like i need OUT.so then i went to justins at 1:30 in the morning. my mom is still sleeping. i dont even think she knows im home. i wouldnt be home if it wasnt fro my dad. enough of this.
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i painted my nails red! wee, not black. and justin got BOTH his eyebrows pierced and he looks precious. he is the cutest thing..uhmm...EVER. bah, hes adorable. love him love him. oh yeah, and last night when i was waiting for justins mom to get me there was this stray cat on my front steps. bean was straching at the door and that was why. it kept trying to get in the house. i dont know what happened to it. but me and erin gave it some food.
anybody get high lately????
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| BAD LUCK |
[03 Jun 2003|12:30pm] |
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weeee its June. okay yesterday i lost the ball to my eyebrow and i was walking around holding it in all day until my sister gave me one, but it was sooo big i looked retarded. so then today when i was vacumming my room, i sucked it up in the vacumn. niice. but then i hit the vacumn and it just rolled rite out. i was like..uhhmmm. then like 5 minutes ago i was smoking a cigarette and i put it on my window sill because i wanted to turn my light on, and it fucking fell out the window. i was like WHAT THE FUCK. and it will probably set the house on fire because i didnt put it out. so now im making sum food and with my luck the microwave will blow up. bah i love it. mmmm food. i went to go see one of the schools that i might be going to next year yeasterday. it was fun. i went to hampton academy. there really perky people there. they really like dme tho. there was this one kid with huge liberty spikes and this other kid that hugged everyone he passed. and this morning the guy that interveiwed me called me and woke me up and he was like screaming in my ear. "HI IS THIS KAELYN?!" im like ahhh yeah. hes like i was just calling to tell u weve accepted u in our school! WEEEE! i just don tknow if i wanna go there cuz i still have to see garfield tomorrow. okay ummm im gonan go eat my food now. BYE
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| TO MY FRIENDS |
[29 May 2003|10:42pm] |
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thank you so much all of you. you guys are beautiful.
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| yeva RRRRUBENSTEIN |
[27 May 2003|08:55pm] |
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yeah so uhhhmmmm i just got back from yeva, shes a fucking wierdo. what person asks u why u wear all back. my come back?? "well ive never been asked that before, i wear black becuase i feel like it, if i saw a person wearing all red i wouldnt go up to them and be like why do u wear all red?" she didnt know what to say. and she thinks im anorexic. shes like "do u binge after u eat?" "no" "do u take pills to help get rid of yer food?" "no" do u do anything to make u not gain weight." "no, i eat and i eat alot thank you" what a fucking wierdo. anywho. i go in my room and i see steves and tjjcj's hair taped to my wall...uhhhmmm erin ure a fucking maniac. DAVE E-MAILED ME BACK! ah finnally. what a druggie. and lyndzi left me a comment. shes a sweetie. if u like girl bands go to her website: www.FALLONDEAFEARS.com. shes a riot. anywho. i died my hair. i guess that makes me cool huh. im coughing up pieces of my throat too. yummy. later
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| Oi Oi |
[25 May 2003|12:39pm] |
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mah birthday is in 2 months. exactly. yesterday i got high and drunk at the same time. i dont remember much. it was some good times tho. i still havent heard from dave..BAHH. oo and last nite i went to steves and i went like half way in his pool but it was too cold so then i had to borrow his pants. then when we went inside his dog attacked me and when i went to pet it it spilled my orange juice and steve popped a cap. i think im gonna diemy hair today? i dont know. i have blonde spots like all over my hair. its sick. I LOVE CASEY. come home darling. i have a cold.
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| NO ONE KNOWS WHAT ITS LIKE |
[24 May 2003|08:01pm] |
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today me erin and steve went to get a bathing suit, but i had the worst cramps ever and i got all nauseous and i made steve walk around the block with me. it was not fun. i didnt even get a bathing suit cuz my moms a bitch. i donno what im doing, i think im going swimming at steves? but im not sure. and i havent talked to dave latley and im getting sad, and i just went to cvs and the eyeliner i bought sucks. oh and im cold too. am i talking? RICHARD I KNEW IT!!
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[24 May 2003|01:02pm] |
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when i see her, her face is always down
almost like she is digging herself to misery
ive come to notice
each breath is shorter
slower
you can hear under the muffled sound of her pain
she is crying help
but no one will notice
no one will care
with the image of her dead
running through her lost mind
she brings the razor to her flesh
why stay in a world were each day is more and more lonley
when each day is more and more intolerable
she wants to be happy
the one thing that is always out of reach
the one way to be is only in her hand
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| HERSHEY |
[23 May 2003|04:00pm] |
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hershey park was fun. im lieing. on the bus ride there all the *immature boys in my grade that have no lives* were harrassing me and throwing things at me and screaming goth and go slit ur wrists. dont they know better? just for yelling something like that they could get thier ass beat. anywho. i was in line for a rollercoaster, the first ride i went on, and this kid kept staring at me. everytime i would look over at him hed be looking at me. and kara goes "kaelyn hes staring at u" and on the back of his hat it said dave. so me and kara were yelling dave, dave! and he heard us but pretended he didnt. then a few minutes later he nodded his head at me. i thought he was cute, and kara kept saying omg omg kaelyn he is sooo cute. and alicia noticed he was alone and he was about to get on the ride, so she went up to him and was like will u sit with her? so hes like yeah yeah i will. so i walked up next to him and we got on the ride, and chatted.then for the rest of the day he hung out with us, and i have peektures and what not. overall i thought he was a sweet kid, very cute, and treated me like a queen. he even won me a snake!! hehe. i guess i had a good time, i had horrible cramps the whole morning and bumed an ibuprofen off some girl. so i felt better. i ate alot too. i think every store i passed i bought something(food wise) then i went home and hell happened so now im cleaning my room trying to calm myself. please dont ask. i just stopped crying.
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| *MEEP*-CASEY |
[22 May 2003|11:42pm] |
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i wish death apon myself
i wish death apon myself
how do i truge on with my path of life
leading me nowhere
nowhere
i desire to slice my scarred flesh
and have my blood pour infront of ur dead eyes
to show u the pain it represents
to show u the pain that u gave me
god bless ur sinister soul
and i am simpathetic to ur fuckin ugly disposition
and the way u appear covered in black
to match ur soul
and maybe ull get lucky
lucky
and feel my hate
when im six feet under ur shadow
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| TEAR |
[21 May 2003|07:01pm] |
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i love casey. what would i do without her. yeah my brother got his lisence...MEH. that scares me.yesterday i went to justins got high and did whatever..and today im not doing good..i didnt sleep last night and im getting fatter. i had a meantal breakdown to my mom and she doesnt care about me. i cant live in this house..if anyone wants a room mate..confess yer sins.
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| FUCK YOU. |
[21 May 2003|01:25pm] |
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Hear one thousand screams.
Hear one thousand voices.
A solitary echo.
Feel one thousand pains,
But one is receiving a bloody invitation.
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| SOME RANDOM QUIZ I FOUND |
[21 May 2003|11:25am] |
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Current mood: bored
Current music: strawberry gashes
Current taste: i dunno
Current hair: black
Current clothes: black shirt, black pants
Current annoyance: my cat
Current smell: something smells like shit
Current thing I ought to be doing: my homework
Current windows open: my journal kazza my buddy list
Current desktop picture: AFI
Current favorite band: AFI,jack off jill, kittie,london after midnight,
Current book: stupid animal farm for school
Current cds in stereo: i dont have any.just ones i burn..
Current crush: mah justin!
Current favorite celeb: davey havock
Current hate: people who think thier better than everyone(cough cough)
=The last time=
Last book you read: on my own free will?..haha thats funny...
Last movie you saw: the hot chick
Last thing you had to drink: coffee ((YADDAAAAAWHOOOOT!))
Last time you showered: hehe yesterday..
Last thing you ate: french toast
Last person you talked to on the phone: justin
=Do I=
Smoke?: yes
Do drugs?: just pot...
Have sex?: SAFE sex, and lots of it. hehehehehe
Given oral sex?: mmm hmmmmmm *licks lips*
Received oral sex?: OI! dont tempt me!
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: sometimes
Play an instrument?: hahahahaha i wish
Believe there is life on other planets?: ew no.some stupid science nerd with no life probably made that up
Remember your first love?: mah justin
Still love him/her?: yes more than ever
Read the newspaper?: haha no
Have any gay or lesbian friends?:...if my sister counts?
Believe in miracles?: justin is my miracle!
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: YES I COULD DO IT!!
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: do i have to answer that??
Consider love a mistake?: it depends..when im in my room slitting my wrists, and crying until my eyes have swollen shut and i can no longer see...somethign must have went wrong..
Like the taste of alcohol?: mmmmmmmmmmmm...
Have a favorite candy?: snickers
Believe in astrology?: whats that?
Believe in magic?: of course
Believe in god?: no way...now the devil....
Have any pets: shapoopi! akasha and bean my psyco kitties!!
Do well in school? well its yer opinion on F's
Go to or plan to go to college: no
Wear hats?: no but people say i should
Have any piercings?: tongue lebret belly eyebrow
Have any tattoos?: no but i want one
Hate yourself?: all the time
Have an obsession?: mah justin
Have a secret fetish?: boys in eyeliner
Have a secret crush?: no
Do they know yet?: no because i dont
Collect anything?: my friends and i trashpick anything and everything..other that that i dont think so??
Have a best friend?: yup
Wish on stars?: no
Like your handwriting?: my hand spazzes alot so it gets messy
Care about looks?: on other people..no. their personality makes them who they are
=Love life=
First crush: god i dont remember
First kiss: ewww. i regret more than anything kissing the person i
Single or attached?: JUSTIN JUSTIN JUSTIN
Ever been in love?: justin
Do you believe in love at first sight?: ohhh yeahhhh. justin made that happen for me.
Do you believe in "the one?": i know hes there...
Describe your ideal significant other: black hair, skinny, eyeliner, lip piercing...hmmm basicly justin
Lost your virginity?: lost? no no it wasnt an accident
=Juicy stuff=
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: hmm..i think so?
Have you ever been intoxicated?: nah
Favorite place to be kissed?: neck
Have you ever been caught "doing something?": not yet
Are you a tease?: i used to be..muahaha
Shy to make the first move?: not really..its hot when the guy does it tho
=Are you a=
Wuss: sometimes
Druggy: oh yea
Daydreamer: def.
Freak: ive been told
Dork: yes!
Bitch/Asshole: oh im a bitch..u all just havent seen the worst of me
Brat: ehhh
Sarcastic: alot
Goody-goody: no
Angel: with my torn wings
Devil: i wish
Shy: no
Talkative: haha
Adventurous: yay!
Joker: i like to make people laugh..
Flirty: not anymore
=Word association=
Rubber gloves: bend over
Rock: stone
Green: tea
Wet: panties
Cry: tears
Peanut: butter
Hay: HAY!!
Cold: reminds me of a story
Steamy: hot and sweaty in ur bed from getting it on all n- oh sorry
Fast: quickie
Freaky: *purr*
Rain: love
Bite: me
Suck: hard
Blow: job
Hard: dick
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