Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in -=- Rhyme Book -=-'s Blurty:

Monday, January 12th, 2004
8:50 am	"Runnin' [Dyin' To Live]" I wrote this song not because I'm suicidal. Because I'm not. I wrote a verse as if I was on this song, it's not recorded, but the verse is the same. I loved the chorus and I'm not a fan of most chorus's. You know? Sometimes I want to give up on life, stop runnin' from stupid shit, just want to meet the RIGHT girl, I'm done playin' this dating game. But, I'll speak on more in that in other verses. Again, not for the weak and squeamish. From either, Biggie, my, or Tupacs verses. PARENTAL ADVISORY. Lol. There. I said it. [ Tupac Interview ] Between you and Biggie was like who's gone who's gone who who rules theThe nigga kingdom and shit, basically you know what I am saying shit I was like this is like a fuckin election [It is that] It is an election... [It is that] You know what I'm sayin Me and Biggie situation is smaller than that Me and Biggie situation is like [Sirens]Metro...we got a black male shot...tupac shakur was shot seven times [Little Girl Singing - Chorus] You know, I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fight Why am I trying to see, when there aint nothing insight Why I am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try [I am destroyin them...] Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die I'm destroying them I'm destroying them [Notorious B.I.G.] Check it, I grew up a fuckin screw up Got introduced to the game, got a ounce and fuckin blew up Choppin rocks overnight The nigga Biggie Smalls tryin ta turn into the black Frank White We had to grow dreads to change our description Two cops is on the milk box missin Show they toes you know they got stepped on A fist full of bullets a chest full of Teflon Run from the police picture that, nigga I'm too fat I fuck around and catch a asthma attack That's why I bust back, [gun shot] it don't phase me When he drop, take his glock, and I'm Swayze Celebrate my escape, sold the glock, bought some weight Lay back, I got some money to make, motherfucker [Little Girl Singing - Chorus] You know, I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fight Why am I trying to see, when there aint nothing insight Why I am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try [I am destroyin them...] Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die [I am destroyin them... ] [ AaeJae ] Yo ... Martial arts, abusive father and a bit of Shady. These are the ingredients I believe made me. Whether it be somebody I care for hate me. Or a girl who I made my world dares to play me. Somebody take me from this place, come get me. But I swear to God motherfuckers don't tempt me Cuz fuck a prison cell If I go to jail I'm takin' your life wit' me. I'll pop if you cross me, fuck if the law "lets me." [ Haha! ] My decree in my life is just to live it right. Uncle Mike would be happy as long as I gave shit a try. Fuck life, I gave it a try and all I wanna do is die. Sometimes I look at a knife, all I do is cry. But it's come to this point, so fuck it all, screw life. Mom I love you, I never wanna say goodbye. Dad I forgive you, you taught me to do right. [ ::Gun cock:: ] God please forgive me for what I doin' tonight. [ ::Gunshot:: ] [Little Girl Singing - Chorus] You know, I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fight Why am I trying to see, when there aint nothing insight Why I am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try [I am destroyin them...] Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die [I am destroyin them... ] [2Pac] It's on me... But still I'm havin, memories of high speeds, when the cops crash As I laugh pushin the gas while my glocks blast We was young, and we was dumb but we had heart In the dark will we survive through the bad parts? Many dreams is what I had, and plenty wishes No hesitation in extermination of these snitches Envious bitches they still continue to pursue me A couple of movies now the whole world tryin to screw me even the cops tried to sue me So what can I do but stay true, sippin 22's of brew and now the medias tryin to test me Got the press askin questions, tryin to stress me misery is all I see, thats my mind's state My history with the police is shake the crime rate Ma main man had 2 strikes, slipped, got arrested and flipped He screamed 'Thug Life!' and emptied a clip gots tired of runnin from the police [Little Girl Singing - Chorus] You know, I wonder if they'll laugh when I am dead Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fight Why am I trying to see, when there aint nothing insight Why I am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try [I am destroyin them...] Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die I am destroyin them... Current Mood: stressed Current Music: "Runnin'" - Biggie Smalls & Tupac (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 6th, 2004
5:41 pm	"Wanna Get To Know Ya." First I want to thank for all the compliments on the verses I've been getting. A lot of you have been saying I'm talented and that means a lot. If you want, comment here so that others can read it and in turn reply. I get two questions: what encourages me to write and do I like Eminem? What encourages me to write is because I've loved hip hop from day one. When I wrote little verses, sucky rhymes and as I studied it, it became a sport. And I love a good challenge. Also when I'm stressed, it's a good way to get it out. Like, for me to have the last word or want to tell them something that I can't just say to their face ... yet. Do I like Eminem? He's very talented. He always has a good beat and I see him as a guy who saw his world in shit and flipped it. And if I can do that, that'd make me happy. I like other rappers though as well. This is a little verse I decided I wanted to write. I might put it in a song soon, maybe not. The girl in this verse will remain nameless. It goes with the beat of "I Wanna Get To Know Ya" by G Unit so I put the chorus to that song to give you the feeling. ---- [ Chorus ] I wanna get to know you. I really wanna fuck you, baby. I'm lost in your lovin'. I'm simply going to drive you, crazy. I wanna be your lover. I wanna get to know you, baby. I'm lost in your lovin'. I'm simply going to drive you, crazy. [ AaeJae ] You're the only reason I don't need to ride with these sluts. You're above them baby girl and I'm telllin' you what. I'm doin' my best to keep it legit, I tried to be buds. But that laugh and that ass, fuck it's driving me nuts. I could have other girls and you could have other guys. But that'd be pointless because we'd be livin' a lovers lie. And I know I'm not the perfect guy in your Mothers eyes. But I never met a girl who always gave me butterflies. I wonder how can one girl can mold me into puddy. I'm too into you baby boo, no way to be your buddy. Just a pal, or a chum, your companion or your friend too. I rather be your knight in shining armor to protect you. We were good to each other, but we had trouble cussin'- Each other out, runnin' our mouths, but what couple doesn't? Your ex was an ass, but if you give it a chance I promise you'll live an endless romance... I love you little girl .. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: "Wanna Get To Know Ya." - G Unit (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 1st, 2004
7:11 pm	"Break-Up." This is a song that is still in the works. I'm friends with one of the ex's today, but I mean, I wrote this verse a long while back after the break up like the break up with Blanca. So I have no remorse because I felt like this back when I wrote it. I'm still going to record it. I was workin' on the last verse last night. The first two on Blanca and Jessica are good, but I rushed the last verse. I might erase and try again. The chorus needs work too. But I'll deal with it another time. I wanted to put a comical feeling into the song instead of being serious about it the whole verse and it's a story telling beat. Lots love the second verse. Sorry Jessica. But I added a few lines to the second verse last night and it's true, she hasn't said sorry yet and I honestly felt I didn't do shit. But I like Jessica anyway and she's a smart girl so she'll understand where I'm coming from. [ Speaking ] Here's a story. Of a kid with three loves. All whom he broke up with. But never did shit to deserve it. [ Verse 1 - On Blanca ] I never thought she'd hurt me, fuck I was only thirteen. It was puppy love and we never did shit dirty. She was the teachers aid in the eighth grade and flirty. Surely, I had a crush, told my friends, she overheard me. "A.J. would you like to be my boyfriend?" I said yes to her because I was so freakin' coy then. And even though we had a fight every fuckin' night. We lasted for two years so I must've done somethin' right. Everytime we talked she'd put someone on the phone. "Blanca isn't here now and I'm sittin' here all alone. Now wouldn't you like to come over and feel my lovely breasts?" It was her best friend putting me to the fucking test. And everytime I passed, but it wasn't enough to last. Cuz she still thought I would cheat on her anorexic ass. But it was the bitch herself who fuckin' cheated me. A hypocrite, she better hope she don't see me. But I was young and stupid, and I got caught up. In her stupid looks, she could cook food I coughed up. Another casablanca, and what happened to Blanca? She's with some gay named Ray fuckin' knocked up. [ Chorus x2 ] Break up, make up, break up, make up. Would you stuck up women fuckin' make up Your damn minds, cuz I'm goin' out of mine. I'm runnin' out of rhymes. And I didn't ... do ... shit. [ Verse 2 - On Jessica ] Had to depart my house due to the fire department. So Insurance got smart and put me in a dire apartment. Made a friend who had a Mom who like to start shit. Met a girl through her who'd in turn make my heart split. When I met her, I never really thought that I could get her. Tight jeans, blonde hair, blue eyes, white sweater. She came into my life at a time I was under weather. I kissed her at the movies and I never will forget her. We ended up together and it could of been forever. Forever, meaning her friend followed us wherever - We went, so much it was too much to endeavor. But I couldn't sever Jessicas "third leg" so I let her. I should of known better, but I was fuckin' stupid. Should of left her the minute she was actin' like a rude bitch. Thought meeting with me was too much of a hassle. "Mom I can't see him! He wears better sandals." Got mad as hell cuz I couldn't be on the phone with her. Cause Ash was always over, never was alone with her. So I'd go to Ash cuz I saw her more than her. And ask her what to do because Jess was never over. Tried to dump me one time like a damn coward. But she wanted to get back after half an hour. Her family was happily in our businesss like Ashley. Everytime I'd come over they'd jump at the chance to harrass me. This guy I hate named Nate was her sisters boyfriend. Who lived in her garage and who I loved to toy with. And one day at her house his ass got so pissed. That he wanted to put a boot where my asshole is. The last straw was at the movies when she left. "AJ I need a pretzel, I'll be back in ten minutes or less." So she left with her girlfriends my little innocent flower. I thought she went to take a shower cuz she was gone about an hour. I walked past her on my exit and this chick just had the nerve. To ask me what was wrong, I turned to speak to her. But I chose my words good cuz I still couldn't handle her. "You made me sit for an hour alone watchin' Adam Sandler! But just to make it crappy, she saw me all unhappy. And decided to walk away after she slapped me. I called all my friends, vented off and tried to go. But I gave in and gave her and that bitch a ride home. We broke up, see to her boys go and boys come. And when I wrote Jessicunt, a dumb song to exploit us. She made one of the fuckin' most annoying fuss. "You did too do shit, you uh, raised your voice ... once." We're friends and probably over this I know we'll quarry. But what hurts the most of all is she's never said she's sorry. Gosh damnit ... [ Chorus x2 ] Break up, make up, break up, make up. Would you stuck up women fuckin' make up Your damn minds, cuz I'm goin' out of mine. I'm runnin' out of rhymes. And I didn't ... do ... shit. [Verse 3 - On Krystle ] She made my heart stop still, but I wish I got killed. Cuz I ended up datin' a drunk whore who popped pills. And for some reason everytime I saw her I got thrilled. When it came to sex shit this bitch got no skills. If only Daddys girl knew what her daughter tried. Smoking coke while fucked hard on a waterslide. Krystle was her name and being a thistle was the game. I should of listened, even when Mitchel said she was lame. At first this girl was cool, she was popular in school. We worked together, but I was a motherfuckin' fool. Always rubbed my pecker till' my pants were wearin' thin. She thought she jacked me off, but she was just tearin' skin. So I had to think quick before my brain'd explode. What would a girl do? So that's when I faked my load. And after I was bleeding in my pants she wanted more. I was thinkin',"How the hell am I gonna stop this whore?" Our love ran out of luck when the bitch was doin' drugs. Fuck ... these relationships just start to suck. She cheated on me with her ex who fucked her aunt. And now she's back with her, haha, I love [ unfinished ] [ Chorus x2 ] Break up, make up, break up, make up. Would you stuck up women fuckin' make up Your damn minds, cuz I'm goin' out of mine. I'm runnin' out of rhymes. And I didn't ... do ... shit. Current Mood: guilty Current Music: "Our House" - Eminem (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 31st, 2003
10:03 pm	"New Years" [AaeJae] Comes the new year and here's my resolutions. For every single problem I won't need to find a solution. I don't wanna stress if everything is a mess. Just wanna progress, I wanna grow but I guess. I'll do what I hafta, from here on and after- I'm going to change and I'll transfer Into something out of the range of you rappers. From a deranged emcee to an estranged bastard. This is all absurd shit, how I've become a wordsmith. Who can create a story if you gave me six words to work with. I've learned this past year I don't need a girlfriend. If I never have one again, it's not like the world'll end. Starting this year I'mma diet, eat healthy, hell I'll try it. Try to work out when I can, go play golf cuz I like it. Always keep busy, like anybody will miss me. They're too dizzy gettin' drunk till' their tipsy. Current Mood: drained (Comment on this)
Friday, December 26th, 2003
7:06 am	"Shoe Strings" I created this lyric book to keep track of rhymes. Realize I vent off frustrations here through rhymes and might go in the studio with some of these verses. I might put it in here so I won't forget it and what not. It's some deep stuff. So if you can't handle it, please don't read. Some of it is just rhymes that I use in "freestyles." So here's a verse to kick it off, it's a freestyle I wrote: [ AaeJae ] Introducing the dude with more mood swings. Than my ex hoe when I told her to do things. You couldn't compete cuz you and your crew stink. Not an emcee to give a fuck what a few think. Just cuz I won't do Britney but I'd screw Pink? Paris Hilton? Hell the whole time I'd be puking. Every fucking day that girls needing a new minx- Jacket, and every boyfriend's a jack ass which is amusing. Fuck medicine, books and this new shrink. Smack that quack faster than you blink. Murders happen nearby but the cops don't accuse me. Though I'm standing next to a hanging body and I'm missing my shoe strings! I can make anything amusing with the stroke of some blue ink. I beat emcees like a jealous husband who'd abuse drinks. I play this game like it's chess and I ain't los-ing. So don't confuse me for a bitch if you choose me. Haha, sweet. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)