| I can't be happy w/out you,you can't be happy w/out me |
[16 Feb 2004|09:21pm] |
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why hello. Today has been really shitty,seriously. We were supposed to go Atlanta but noo. Then we were supposed to go to Macon but my dad was bitching at my mom. So we ended not going anywhere which sucks dick.But then my mom took me to the local mall and we shopped some. I got a new bathing suit, it's cute. It's like blue with beach designs and there's beads on there. I still want another one though.You can't have more of anything.*wink wink*
I fell asleep for a bit and studied my ass off for like an hour and a half. Freaking shitness! I had some free time and my bf and me talked. But then he called the cell. He said he smoked a lot of pot over the weekend and he feels it's still in his body. He acted like it over the phone! I decided to have my fun and tease him b/c I think people are so sexy when they're high. They tend to act a bit horny too,haha. So I kept on mentioning being horny and fucking band dudes. Haha.I told him about my gothic outfit and he was like "ooh you shouldn't of told me that!" Hahah,silly sweetie. I told him that we might be moving b/c my mom and dad are like arguing b/c my dad has to talk this big medical test and if he doesn't pass he can't be a doctor assisstant anymore.So yea..
I just noticed that I haven't been much of a friend to JJ.Like whenever we were supposed to do stuff, I always canceled on her.And she's been kinda blah with her bf.I haven't been really considerate of other people's feelings.But you know that's me, the"slutty bitch."
Fatally yours,
me
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[15 Feb 2004|09:05pm] |
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Hi sweets! Dammit, the computer just erased my entry.Stupid motherfucker! Haha,I'm in a "cursing" mood. Let me imprecate on shit. I just realized this, I miss my babie. Haha,anyway...I've been in a mellow mood today.I finally got some shut eye and cleaned my room.I need new spring clothes, my closet is boring. Before I fell asleep,I got an idea for my piece in the art show. I'm doing a faerie sitting on some beautiful roses while the sun is rising.It's gonna be mainly warm colors with a hint of pink! How prettiful. I curled my hair again, I actually like it. Anyway, I wanna thank fallingstar46 for my new layout.She kicks major ass!
I haven't written poetry in a while.I'v been getting some new ideas.I dunno though,I haven't been depressed lately.So it's fucking hard.I hope everything is ok with JJ, she's pissed at her bf. Am I ADD? I think so b/c I keep on changing subjects w/out knowing. fatally yours,
me
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| This is easy as lover's go |
[14 Feb 2004|07:12pm] |
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hi my loves.I want to wish everyone a Happy Valentine's Day.Even though I think it's the stupidest holiday ever.And you're prolly thinking,"well it only sucks b/c you don't have someone." Oh, how you are so wrong.I have a boyfriend of four months. Anyway, you shouldn't just show someone you really love them on this day. You should love him/her everyday like it'll last forever.And what's the point with flowers and candy? I don't think you have to buy gifts to show your love.That is so damn materialistic.
I felt really shitty today.My head was pounding, I felt faint and really hot, and I had no energy. So my bf and his friend came over without calling.Omg,I was in my pjs and my make-up was smeared.Haha.My sister told them to leave and come back later.Then they did, ha. I still wasn't ready. I made them wait for like 2ominz while I was in my room.And they came in my room b/c my babie got me a big ass balloon with these cute heart-shaped creme savers. It was so cute! Even though I didn't want him to get me anything.
JJ and I had plans to bake cookies for them,so I didn't have my sweetie's present. Lol, me and jj suck at baking cookies.We didn't really read the directions and fucked up.But it was so cute how we were trying, cutting out heart, bear, and star shapes. Then we decorated them with pink frosting and sprinkles.They were pretty,but tasted like shit.Haha.Then my bf and his friend came back again.Not for so long though.I didn't wanna give him the cookies b/c they tasted like shit. Haha.So I think I'll ask my mom for some money and get him some stuff in ATL.I sound so hypcocritical but I have to give him something in return.
I felt bad b/c I was kinda high on medicine and I was not cuddling him when he was. It was just weird to cuddle in front of his friend whom I don't really know. I didn't like how his friend treated his gf.Like when they got off the phone he was like "Ugh..." Damn. They left b/c eric had to see his gf.My sweetie said he didn't wanna go but whatever.He kept on telling me "happy valentine's day" but I was kinda...off?! And when he left he told me that he loved me and I was not paying attention.I realized what he said and was like "you too..." when most of the times I say "I love you too." I'm such a dork.
The rest of the night I tried to go nite nite, but my headache was fucking up. Then jeff,my sister, and me watched Thirteen again.Aaah,good times. My valentine's day was pretty good, way better than last year's. I wished me and my sweetie could've spent more time together...alone. And I curled my hair with an evil curling iron.My hair was pretty...hehe.
fatally yours,
me
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[13 Feb 2004|02:52am] |
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I only had 4 fucking hours of sleep last night.I talked to my alg.2 teacher and she was all mean and uncaring.I'm gonna get a bad avg. in that class cuz of her.She intimidates everyone and doesn't let people explain.I made a goddamn 20 on a quiz and I was absent 3 damn days and she took that grade.I hate that stupid class.I am so excited to putting my work in the artshow.I'm gonna draw a faerie on a canvas and paint it.Chrissy poo grabbed me and made fun of me.I was complaining and he was imitating me.And I blamed being sick on him and he goes "but you're still my pretty azn." Haha.Aww,laura gave me a candy necklace for Valentine's.I hate when the black guys make "azn noises" to get me and jj's attention.Stupid assholes.Lol,we had to recite a poem in Spanish.Justin and I were partners and he put his arms around me and knelt down.haha.My avg in honors bio is a 79 cuz I have two zeros.But I know that shit's bout to be graded.And I made an 81 on my test yesterday,his test are so hard.All this talk of college scares the shit out of me.I don't wanna think about the future now,what if I die tomorrow?We had a 2 min quiz today in alg.2, I failed.Aaah! I wore my new Brand New jacket,chrissy poo loved it.Lol,I took forever making up this test.But this is what happens when you don't study and are half awake.I was so damn tired when I got home,I fell asleep for 2 hours.And then I woke up,and accidentally fell asleep to the food channel.Oops.Me and JJ had plans to bake cookies and watch that movie.So tomorrow is the "Love Day".I don't know our plans,I think we're supposed to hang out.But today,all I can think about is sleep.
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[13 Feb 2004|02:34am] |
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So Thursday night kicked some ass well for the most. I had a report due in a specific style due Friday, and I waited last minute again. I got so fucking mad cuz I wasted my time on the damn style when it was intended for my boyfriend.Ugh! Chrissy Poo and Tyler stopped by, tyler was such an ass.He complained about coming over and treated JJ's sister shitty.He threw a fucking cracker at her! Chrissy poo was like mad flirting with me, like putting his arms around me and touching my ass. He did it in front of my boyfriend! My sweetie was all quiet and staring at us.One time he did a fake laugh,hehe. But I was good,I pushed chrissy poo away.And my babie had to let chrissy poo know that I was his so he kept on wrapping his arms around my wait.Oh yess! So my sweetie and I watched that Sundance film called "Thirteen". I think that's going to be my fave film, except the two girls making out and the mom in the shower. Ewness. I think my life sucks,I shouldn't be complaining compared to their lives.Omg,I got so pissed off at one point. One cuz of that damn report and two cuz my bf told me that this stupid freshmen poseur chick got an old yearbook(when I was in elementary-5th), she pointed to my pic and started laughing.He got so mad and told her to shut the fuck up.He also said she had a fat stomach.Haha.But that
bitch doesn't even know me and I hate when people talk behind my back.It's like all the freshman girls who call themselves "punk" are mean to me.Like they either talk shit about me,give me looks,or both.JJ said it was cuz of my boyfriend,they're jealous.Either they like him and/or they try to find imperfections about me.Fuck that shit though.I was so happy that me and my babie spent time together,it was so...relaxing but cheerful.And then I had to change cuz it was getting hot.So I changed into this low cut spaghetti tank top and my bf goes "Oooh!" And I hit him playfully.Drew stopped by too,he's such a sweetie.I worked on that damn report till 2am in the fucking morning.
Fatally yours,
me
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