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Wednesday, May 5, 2004
10:57PM - OK!
OK EVERYONE! MY JOURNAL IS NOW AT LIVEJOURNAL.COM -----> www.livejournal.com/users/a_freak_4_jesus. There you go. Now, don't say I never update cuz I do. It's jsut you've been reading the wrong journal for.. uh... a long time. Yes.. Livejournal is much better, more options then blurty.. so yeah, there you go.
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
7:16PM - New Journal
Well, I have a new journal now at www.livejournal.com/users/a_freak_4_jesus check it out.
Monday, December 15, 2003
3:53PM - Friggen updates for journal webby's.
My subject is talking about the stupid updates blurty makes... take so long.. stink. Oh well, that's life.
Anyway, I met Kendall finally. Which is cool. So yeah, heh.
Also, for the venting part of my day.. I have a friend who seems that some things are less important than this one thing, which, yeah, that one thing is important, but this friend should focus on other priorities and commitments. And secondly with this friend, they don't really think about others. They say they do, but the way they talk makes them seem a little ego-centric. Too much complaining about others in that end of the table.
But on a better note. God is teaching me patients, and how to NOT be as rude. I've been really rude to people lately, and I had a good friend, and mentor give me a smack on the side of the head. It was good. So yeah. Growth, so good.
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
10:15PM - Encouragement.
Well, swearing is really starting to get to me. I am really starting to get annoyed with how people first of all, can't make a proper sentence, they always have to place an "F" bomb, or something to that extent in the sentence. Now, if they used the words int he right context, I wouldn't have a problem, but they don't, so inturn, I do!
But, I feel encouraged, I've seen many people prosper lately, and break pathetic traditions. For example, I have a friend who said he probably wouldn't get a gf until he graduated, (like all his family has had happen) and well, he broke it! I'm so proud of him, the little wipper snapper! He's so sexy now, so hot!
Anyway, Yeah, i'm just encouraged lately. God's so awesome, but people need to see to believe, rather then believe to see.. disect that if you can't understand it, or watch "The Santa Clause". Good movie.. good messages.
Peace. I love you mom, hehe.
Thursday, December 4, 2003
1:40PM - Yah...... NO!
Tomorrow I go to Science world for biology, and I basically get to do what ever I want when we're not doing something important. Well, to tell you the truth, I'm not too excited. We're going to learn about genes etc. Well, basically I'm going to be sitting there.... doing nothing. Heh. Ok, so yeah. Psychology is pretty boring, my partener has done all the work... well he did it yesterday while I was at court for a personal matter. Anyway back to psyc. We're doing the project on bipolar disorder.
On a better note, I feel very VERY comfortable and at peace right now which is very good. I haven't really ever felt like that. So good, yes it is! heh. Ok. Good day to y'all. Peace out.
Current mood: 
content
Monday, December 1, 2003
6:06PM - Finished.
I finished "A Purpose Driven: Life". It is such a good book. I encourage everyone to read it. I've learned so much. It's like a 40 day journey you'll never forget. Now, I should mention that this book isn't for everyone. It may be a bit slow for some people, and you may need to get past the fact that Rick Warren makes a few too many refrences to his own church. But that's the only thing that I didn't like about it. So yeah, do try to pick it up and give it a read.
So much good times. God's good, and awesome and fantabulous!
Sunday, November 30, 2003
7:11PM - LOBE!
HAHA THE ISLAND RULED! SO MUCH FUN! Played halo, non stop, well, I didnt' but a lot of people did (eh-hem BRAD!), spoke with good friends and ah frig it was soo good. I never slept at all while I was there and never went to bed until like 930 last night which I woke up friday morning at about 530 because of dreams. It was really weird. Anyway, I got through the day with out any sleep and I survived. Barely, but did. It was awesome.
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
3:08PM - Ok...
FRIDAY WE GO TO LADYSMITH BOOYAH! I'm so stoked, I get to see everyone over there again. It's going to be soo much fun. I'm really excited. Plus, I may get to talk to someone while we're over there and may be good, but could also help me move on. I'm stoked though, cuz I'm praying God's will be done this weekend. I really hope it may work out the way I would like it too. Cuz I REALLY like this person, and I really want her to feel the same. But if she doesn't, what can you do?
God's been answering prayer, and my mom is going for a job interview at the church.. I really hope she gets it! If she does it will be an awesome environment for her, and plus, it will help her grow closer to God because she's surrounded by God filled people.
I only have a few more chapters left of "A Purpose Driven: Life" and it's really awesome. Rick Warren knows how to word everything. The only thing I don't like about the book is how he keeps refering to his church and how it has all these awesome programs going on. Kind of like cheap advertising, but his intentions, so I hope, are good and he's just using his church as an example, but he just does it too much if you know what I mean. But yeah, youth's tonight, and hopefully Sarina will come, she's a girl in my psch. class and she doesn't have a youth group and she went last week for a little while and thought it was really good, and might come tonight.
God bless everyone.
Saturday, November 22, 2003
3:51PM
Well, tonight is the Christmas Party for Flyte Enterprises, it's going to be fun. Free food and all! mmmm food. Ok yeah, so I am learning "Never Under Estimate My Jesus" by Relient K.
God worked so much at Full Life: A Night of Worship last night. God is so awesome. God bless everyone.
Thursday, November 20, 2003
11:22PM - B-days...
You know what I realized... I haven't had a b-day party for like... 8-10 years... man I'm so deprived... hehe... So, if anyone wants to plan something.. March 24th... that's the day :D... Just kidden...well not about March 24, but about the planning something. haha. I sound like I'm sucking up or something. Oh well... time for bed.. night.
11:05PM - Long time... no update!
Ok, so I haven't updated in a while... but meh! I've been having an awesome time with God, people, school, etc. It's been such a good while. D3 at Chads was really good too. It's starting to get more indepth, it's like you read the cover, the back cover and start getting into the story. I think I should go to one of Josh's D3's for old time sake. HEHE, is that ok Josh?
Oh and on the D3 topic, Jeff asked me if I still wanted to do a D3, not now, but in the future. I'm stoked. I hope this will work out, it's kind of like a dream I have for right now, like a short term to long term you know? Yeah. It's so good. God's aweome. Oh and to follow the crowd.. who all reads my journal? Just say "I" if you do. OK. peace.
Monday, November 10, 2003
1:21PM - My Last Post...
My last post was well.. kind of stupid. I felt really left out, and just kind of depressed. But, luckily, with the power of God, and mood swings, lol, I am back to normal. Yes, I should take more initiative when wanting to hang out with people and make plans, but in all reality, everyone who I enjoy hanging out with does spir-of-the-moment type of stuff. Which, I am one to plan things out it's just when I want to hang out with someone... it's rather pointless to make the plans....
Anyway, last night at jimmy's house was pretty good. Played some computer games and bombed the crap out of people in Battle Field 1942, which for the first time I actually hit things! Like people for example! With one bomb I nailed about 4 guys... I tell you this, I felt proud of myself. Kind of weird... I'm proud cuz I killed 4 people. Like I said this was only a computer game and so about 15 seconds later they re-spawn/regenerate/"come back to life". It's good times. I used about 7 different planes with one of my lives and man... when you have flack guns pointed at you and your trying to do barrel roles, kill the enemy plane in front of you, bomb 3 tanks, and avoid the plane that is shooting you from behind... it takes some quick thinking and action time to pull that off... all of which I did not end up doing because of the nitorious fact that the guy shooting me from behind (he too was in a plane) killed me by the time I bombed the tanks and trashed the plane infront of me and completed 3 barrel roles.. right after the other... he shot my back and I started doing a little downward spiral right to the ground... and then I ejected and landed on the ground... and then he bombed me... So in turn, I died. Oh and get this, I shot a bazooka at a plane that was trying to bomb me... and this bazooka is no match for a plane, but go figure, I shot him with the fluke that I got. hehe. Enough about that game...
http://www.clccyouth.com ... Did you hear that?
Dean got a journal, now I can rant and rave on his hehe.
Saturday, November 8, 2003
5:53PM
As much as I feel accepted, I feel left out. The only real time (on most occasions) I get invited to something if it's a big event or something like that where "everyone and anyone" is invited. Thanks Josh for being the exception. It's kind of depressing cuz I hate being at home, I get board WAY too easily, which leads to a whole mess of problems. But thank God for people who care about me no matter how annoying I can get. I'm blessed in that way. I know I can be really annoying from either talking to much, talking too little, or just acting up, OR wanting to follow rules and respect others far too much. It's a twisted type of thing but it's reality. Kind of a real burn you know? Anyway, I hope I find something to do tonight.. I just got burned once tonight LETS SEE HOW MANY MORE TIMES I GET SHUNNED!
Current mood: disapointed
Thursday, November 6, 2003
5:17PM - Disturbing news...
I found out that about 10 yrs ago, that in August, my brother and I were at my "real dads" house, and it was my little brothers birthday... my 'real dad', Dave, he got ME the presents and Alex, knew it was his birthday, and I got presents, and Alex knew it was his birthday, it really hurts.... I'm almost in tears cuz I feel horrible even though I probably shouldn't. Like, I think I should make it up to him some how... but I don't know how... I think I just might buy him something just to make up for it... I might take him on a slurpy run or something... I think that would be cool... or something like that. Yeah... I think I will... it's the least I could do... it might even get some good conversation going... or we could go up to McD's and get some icecream or something. My real dad, I shouldn't even call him my dad, he doesn't act like one... like, he's done nothing, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO GOOD IN MINE OR MY BROTHERS LIFE! I forgive him, but I don't agree with him at ALL! I wish I could tell him how I feel, and then punch him, and kick him... I wouldn't actually do that, but I wish I could... that's why this is so disturbing... it really burns... please pray you guys... please pray...
2:55PM
Youth last night rocked. It was really good. I hope I didn't let Trista down.. she's struggling, or so it seems, and I should've asked her to pray with her, but neglected it, I did it twice last night. I'm such a fool. So yeah... Trista if your reading this, and you other girl... heh, I'm sorry. I prayed last night for both of you and I'll pray again. Frig, I feel kind of ashamed, here I am, calling myself a man of God, or atleast try to be, and then I go off and neglect praying for people. Pray for me people... please, I need it... It also just goes to show we're not perfect, even if we try to be...
Darin is such an awesome guy, plus, not only do I have Jer as my youth pastor, Chad is officially my second youth pastor! BOO'YAH GRA'MA! I got to awesome youth pastors. So good. MUHAHAHA God is blessing CLCC youth unbelieveably. I can't wait to see what he has instore for my life, and everyone elses. The more I put into God, the more I see coming from Him. That is just what I see. But the reality is He's been putting way more out then we notice, and it's so awesome. Thank you God for loving and accepting us for who you made us to be. Kind of funny isn't it... how that is in essence the truth.
Monday, November 3, 2003
9:44PM - FRIG YA!
YOU KNOW WHAT SCREW SATAN! No more am I goin to accept his lies or deciet that he posses in my life. I'm goin to shun him like no one has ever seen before. He means nothing, he's trash, he's dirt, he's nothing worthy of being praised. Satan is a low-lifed, self-centered, ego-centric, numskulled lunatic who is goin DOWN and is trying to bring as many people down with him. But I declare that he's got NOTHING on me! I'm FREE BECAUSE I'M WITH GOD! And all that I need, God IS! HALLELUJAH! PRAISE BE TO GOD!
I've been learning a lot lately too about God. I learned that God will put us through pain to help us grow passionate for him. Weird, I know. He does this so that when we are strong enough, we won't fall away from Him. Satan will also put us through pain, and try to decieve us, but as a counter attack, we can use Godly sight, and see the good out of the bad that Satan puts us through. Satan is a num-skull who can't seem to get things right, and so he's doing his very best to bring us down. So what we do is with the problems he presents us with is praise God for them. Those problems will make us stronger. The strength won't be of ourselves, but of God, and God will enable us to use that strength. God is such an awesome God and so many people fail to see that. Why? Because they are blind. Not physically, but spiritually. The blindness isn't their fault either, it's the fault of society, and of what the world wants of us, not what God wants of us. In turn, they dont' know what God wants of us. So, what they do is call upon drugs, sex, money, and those become their idols or "gods" if you may. Those things do NOT bring glory to God. What those people need to do is listen so that they can see. They need to hear the message, not from a preacher, not from some person going up to their front door telling them how to live, and what will happen if they don't live that way. They need examples of how to live that way. People need to preach, and IF necissary, use words. Once we pass on the message we've heard, they can too pass it on. So many people get in the mind set that people are "inately good," yet people are inately bad. Not because they themselves have sinned as an infant or whatever, they don't understand, it's the bad things their parents do, it's kind of genetic. But, once people see the light, and take off the blinders, the eye patches, and get off their lazy butts and open the blinds so the light will come into their lives, and SHINE and show them the way to go instead of stumbling around the darkness.
Jesus, the King of the universe, my saviour, my BEST FRIEND, my redeemer, he has saved me, I will declare my choice the nations, and I will shout for joy, not ONLY to the congreation, but to THE WORLD, for if God did not want me to do so, he would not of told me to in the book of truth, the bible. Jesus died for me, it's time to surrender, and kill my worldly self, and arise from the grave as he did and live the holy, refreshing, surpreme life that he called me to live, and let it be an example, and light for the world to see.
Oh, and I had a really good day today! In Psychology I got my best mark on a test in that class ever!! 36/48! and in biology (which it doesn't really matter cuz I'm doing good in that class over all anyway), I got 50% on the test, which it doesn't matter cuz we get to retake the test today, and it' sthe exact same one!!!! GOD BLESS EVERYONE and me. Amen.
Saturday, November 1, 2003
11:13PM
Today is weird. I watched a movie with my parents, and alex is really tickin me off. Pray that I have patience with him! He's really getting on me nerves and I can't seem to shake it. thanks.
4:44PM - A good bad night.
Overall last night was pretty good. Except 2 things. 1 I didn't get the most candy ever recieved by one person in the same night. 2nd I didn't get to meet kendall. Like what a burn. Silly josh and getting there 45 min. after he said he'd be there. Oh well, I guess I CAN'T blame him... well I could but it would be fair. But I might also get a live journal... hehe, that'd be cool. Meh, ok, well. yeah. peace.
Thursday, October 30, 2003
9:50PM - Matt's party was fun!
For Matt's party (matt is 13 by the way) we went to the corn maze and man those little guys got energy like no one would believe. It was good times.
Well, I learned in the book I'm reading that worship isn't worship. Haha, kinda weird 'ey? Woship is pleasing God. It's making him happy, satisfied. It's pleasing Him, not ourselves. Also it's not about us having a good worship experience. It's about just coming to God giving all you can! It doesn't matter how your feeling because basically if you worship Him with all you have, the Lord will renew your strength. You may not feel it physically, but he will renew it all the same. Such good times with this book. Also, it helped me think about the missuse of the word "worship". People use it to classify a certain genre of music, when the only thing that is truely Christian about it is the lyrics. Also that worship is more about what God wants to do, and how he wants it (because he love's it all), not how we want it. It's not about doing "worship" it's about giving worship (glory, praise, and pleasure) to God. Man, this is really good. Just in writing this I realize it's an act of worship. In essence, God, through Jer, through the book pulled my head out of the "only one way worship fucus" gutter. Man, I'm really stoked!
God's been doing miricles lately. It's awesome! God bless everyone!
Current mood: Awsome
Current music: Dashboard Confessional "Drowing"
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
4:43PM - A thought...
the t chart thing didn't work as well as planed, but you get the picture.. I hope.
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