last night was Avery.
I was watching the video afterwards,
I dont know why they chose Jess.
today we went shopping,
as we usually do Saturdays especially when people like Carly get sick.
yeah, that sucked.
so, Niki called.
and it would be stupid to talk about 1. because EVERYONE of my friends has heard it all before and 2. because they dont care about it.
I love Niki so much,
I respect her,
I am proud of her,
I care about her,
And she has never truly hurt me or treated me like crap.
She has always made me feel like a WORTHY person of love, and of life..
and she has always been someone that understood WORD FOR WORD
my feelings mainly about the friendships we have found ourselves in,
and I feel so lucky to be able to have a friend like that,
even though we arent as close as glue, and we dont hang out all the time- which is going to change,
because I am definitely going to start hanging out with her more.
I know Niki deserves more than this.
Niki deserves more than your petty, useless attempts to be a good friend..
because you're not-
and you arent even a good faker.
Im in the process of organizing my room,
and im selling my dollhouse :-\
its really.. hurting me, but, whatever.. letting go is the best way to be.
My dad hasnt called me since Christmas,
aren't I loved?
24 days til Bright Eyes,
I guess im going to help Vickye tomorrow,
if she calls me..
even though I really should finish cleaning- my room is TERRIBLE.
everything is all over,
Ill definitely go to Vickyes.
I miss Alex, so much.
and i think im going to write him an email