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[06 Sep 2003|07:32pm] |
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where to start...i don't even know. i don't know what to do. i'm so sad right now. i was okay most of today i don't know whats going on. ever since i read my horoscope that casey sent me i've been so sad. this is what it said: You're waiting for something that may not happen. Be satisfied with who you are and what you have. The perfect relationship that you envision may be wrong in ways that you can't see. Real happiness is easier than you imagine.
it made me so sad. i don't know why. i'm not really waiting for anything to happen but it makes me think that nothing will ever happen. i like him so frickin much and that horoscope just made all th possiblities i had going on in my head go down the drain. i mean i didn't except anything to happen..i wished something would. people say looks at me all the time. i still don't believe it. i can't believe it. if i end up believing what they say...i'll get my hope up for a big loss. nothing really good has happened in my life..i don't even know the point in living anymore. a couple days ago i said that i didn't want to die cuz life was good. yeah it might be good sometimes but i dont see the point. i'll be alone forever. i know it. i will. thats my destiny. being alone FOREVER. i envy so many people becuz of what they have. like tanya..i envy her so much. she has sucha great boyfriend and i know they'll be together for a really long time. and i wish i had that. i look at my friends who have boyfriends and how happy they are all the time. i wish i had something like that. but guys isnt just my issue.
its another weekend and i'm stuck at home. i'm sitting here doing nothing. every weekend i'm home. i hate it. i mean you'd think people who were my friends would call me up and be like lets go do something. but no, no one calls. i mean its okay this weekend cuz i have so much frickin homework to do thats due monday and worth a lot of points. yeah i know i don't call people but thats becuz i never know what to go do and i think its kinda rude being like lets go to the mall but i don't have a ride. or wanna hang out just not at my house. and i never know who is home and who is not becuz no one is ever frickin online. so whatever. i've dealt with friend problems all my life. i guess people really don't care about me as much as they say they do.
okay i've vented enough. and the only reason i vented online is becuz i know no one reads my blurty.
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i can't validate my e-mail address so until i validate it..i can't leave comments. :(
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[24 Aug 2003|01:40pm] |
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yay my first entry. whoa i looked for the longest time for either pictures of bert or the used or wallpaper of the used. i had no luck. so i just used a pic from a site that i already new. lol. yeah. i took some quizzes along the way. found this cool shirt. and i like a new band. hahaha. yeah well i probably won't be updating this ALL the time..like i might if i'm bored or i'll just write in here if i need to vent and stuff. yeah you guys who don't have blurty journals should get one cuz they are free and you don't need a dumb code to get one. lol.
( look at my quiz and this picture i found )
okay i'm done.
add me!!
<33 danielle
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