Madalyn's Journal

2:40PM

one of my really good friends commited suicide yesterday morning.., and idk really know how to deal with it.. i don't like talking about my feelings with anyone i would rather just stay mum about it..

i feel like i can't eat or sleep, and last night i had this reaccuring dream everytime i tried to go back to sleep, and in my dream i kept seeing his face, then i would see a truck driving over a gun that was covered in blood. and everytime i tried to go back to sleep it would happen..

then this morning my boyfriend had the nerve to tell me i have been acting shady since last night.. like are you fucking kidding me :/

idk what to do,.. i just really don't know anymore..

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Friday, June 20, 2008

5:03PM

So i hate how when you first get into a relationship with someone everything is amazing and you never wanna be away from eachother, then all of the sudden, you're sitting in your room looking around being pissed off being like wtf bc you and your 'amazing bf' bicker about nothing. love it...

:/

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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

9:00PM

I was so cynical, just inconvincible, nobody seemed worth trusting. But sure enough, just when I'd near given up, you appeared there among the destruction.

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Sunday, June 15, 2008

9:05PM

wow idk call me 'jealous' if you will, but i hate that my bf's best friend is a girl, but i don't hate the whole she's a girl thing, i hate that she purposly tries to piss me off, and i HATE even more that it works. and of course i'm not going to say anything to my bf.., simply bc i don't want him to get pissy w/ me.. but then again he knows that it takes alot to make me angry. idk i think i may just kick her ass :) not the answer i know.. but it's commiong down to that bc i'm very upset about it :( i'm so difficult. whyyyyy

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Monday, June 9, 2008

Thursday, June 5, 2008