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[05 Jun 2003|09:03pm] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | Starting To Fly | Grey Daze ] It's time I sat down to type a real update for one, instead of a cursory two liner. And I have but the one topic to write about - Joe. Things were... Fuck, they are going well, because I refuse to just let him go. Perhaps I haven't been as attentive as I might have been, and perhaps a little more vicious than the occasion truly called for. He loves me and I should, I think, respect that. But he asks me to draw blood, his eyes plead... It's no excuse to drive him to such lengths... Hate is a strong word and I know that he doesn't mean it. I'm not going to beg him to come back. Grovelling for his affection isn't my style, it's too passe, to done, over and completely dusted off. If he wants me, I will wait a while, but eventually we all move on. He wants to be with Chino and, ha, the 'Deftone family'? Well then fine, let him go. He will come crawling back, because that's what people like Joe do. And... To listen to him, his guilt ridden angst, you'd think he was entirely the innocent party, unlovable rogue and coquettish player. Truth is, in a relationship like we have, there are rules. Joe knows this, he understands his position. When you have rules, you are supposed to obey them, makes sense so far? Joe's never been good at that last part, that's for sure. He pushes, he argues... And he pays the consequences Those are the breaks. If he can't cope with that, if that makes him run... Well, perhaps Joe isn't the man I thought... No one said that there was no trouble in paradise... post comment

>:0 [28 May 2003|08:42pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | Starting To Fly | Grey Daze ] WHAT THE FUCK? Okay, this just irritated me on a global scale. I was going to go and add y'all back and stuff, so as I could have a happy, lively friends page. I was going to add Joe so I could read his journal and feel loved, but you know what? I can't. Nope, you heard it kids. I can't add you back, because Blurty is a hardass whore. Okay. Once I find my credit card, I'll put 2 months. Corporate sellouts. *shakes fist* post comment

Erm... OOC? [22 May 2003|10:46pm] [[Okay, I'm new to Blurty, bear with me whilst my brain gets to grips with the codes and cut tags and all that stuff. Just to let you know, Pierre has changed hands and I'm no huge Simple Plan fan, I've got a lot to learn. You'll all have to bear with me on that one as well. I'm trying the best I can to get to grips with a new character. I have my Linkin Park boys down to a fine art. This is a whole new ball game. I'll try and maintain anything that was going down... So, if you feel there was something you wanted maintained with Pierre, let me know. I'm an empty page here...]] 5 comments|post comment

to crush or not to crush [21 May 2003|05:07pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] So yesterday was interesting. I made out with a guy for the first time. And I think I am actually coming to grips with my sexual preference. I always suspected my other band members of being bisexual, but I really never considered myself to be anything other than straight. But its good that I'm being upfront about this instead of hiding in the closet. Which brings me to the conclusion of something else.I long,lust, and want another. I want to feel the warmth of his skin. The soft touch of his carress, and his body next to mine. Unfortunately we cannot always get what we want. 7 comments|post comment

Emo-Pierre [16 May 2003|05:24pm] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | Seether because someone wouldn't shutup about them ] I wanna be there when you call I wanna catch you when you fall I wanna be the one you need I wanna be the one you breathe Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh Today’s the day we’ll find our way grown Today’s the day we’ll fade away I wanna be there when you cry And when you’re down I’ll help you fly I wanna be the one you need I wanna be the one you breathe Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh Today’s the day we’ll find our way grown Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh But I’m coming back, and I’m taking back everything I can It’s breaking me up and tearing me up It’s all I have And I’m coming back, and I’m taking back everything I can It’s breaking me up and tearing me up It’s all I have Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh Today’s the day we’ll find our way grown Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh Today’s the day we’ll fade away, oh Today’s the day we’ll fade away How lame, two updates within an hour or something. Yeah, Pierre is experiencing the "emo" part of his boredom right now. Excuse me. :/ 1 comment|post comment

Beware [16 May 2003|04:45pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | DIE ANOTHER DAY BY MADONNA OK THNX!!!! ] Pierre has had too much Jones Blue Bubblegum Soda and is about to go on a comment rampage!!!!! 7 comments|post comment

But I Want It And I Need It [14 May 2003|04:54pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Veruca Salt ] Hello journal, well it looks like I am updating here. Just a small update. Tonight my friend, Chester, and I went for a night out on the town. It was cool and it was a lot of fun. I enjoyed myself. Chester is a cool guy. I can be myself around him and he reminds me of someone that I knew a long time ago. We went to a club and there was a band playing, we had drinks and danced. I had a good time. I got kind of sloshed but nothing out of the norm. Just some good old fun. I've been talking to a lot of people lately and I have a ton of new friends, Deven, Joe, Chelle, ect. Its cool because you can never have too many friends. I always like to talk to people too. I'm a chatter box. I like to see what's going on with people, what they are up to, and so on. Its all good. Speaking of talking, I have a date on Monday with Natalie. Hopefully it will go well. I hate having this shy side of me. It always gets in the way of things. In the past I haven't been the best at relationships and I know that lately I've been more "promescuos" than ever. But I think I'm going to stop that. I'm going to stop that and start looking for that one certain person. That one person that can fill the void in my life and put up with me. Good luck to me, right? So I am on the verge, on the voyage of something great. I am a painter and the world is my canvas. 7 comments|post comment

lets see this is entry number one. wowza [12 May 2003|08:27pm] [ mood | groggy ] Today I rocked Mr Bubble. You wouldn't imagine how much a reaction a 5 dollar shirt gets with a 9 dollar haircut. Rock on folks! I can't believe people actually get haircuts that are some 20-40 bucks. I spend forty bucks on my hair every what, 2 years.. haha. If I could, I'd still go to a barber shop. Barber shops are a dying breed my friends. ANYway, on to my entry for the night.. For someone that is so involved in music I spend alot of time in silence. I never really thought about it before, but I have been thinking about it alot lately. I had thought that maybe it is left over from my school days, because frankly after spending eons in a practice room and rehearsals, silence in itself was a always a very precious thing. I have also thought that maybe it's because my connection with music in general is so powerful. Maybe I have been keeping myself from discovering who and what I am truly capable of. Another possibility, which makes the most sense in some ways, is that there is so much music in my head at the moment and it can't get out with extreanious noise getting in the way. So yes it's inevitable that I am always seen or caught moving about or bopping to something, I can't help the fact that my brain is a continous soundtrack. However, I do feel more connected to my music and music in general now more than I ever have. Maybe I am "finding" myself, or maybe I'm finally letting the music "find" me. I know eventualy one of these days further down the river.. I will make a great music therapist but also that I am still not ready to put out a new record. Not for a while or atleast until I take myself to a new height in my life.. I myself need to readjust my eyes to the light, before I can lead others to self explore the route I have chosen as an artist. Is it any wonder that the more I figure things out the more lost i feel? It doesn't make sense. It sucks to be logical you know. If it doesnt make sense then it just blows your mind. Don't get me wrong.. I love being as intelligent as I am but sometimes it doesnt work in my favor therefore.. My life appears to be moving along the same trajectory. Lord only knows if that's good or bad. Maybe? But, 'the nothingness' is actually kinda relaxing to me. Still, I could stand a little excitement in my life.. just a pinch. The good kind, anyway. However, it doesn't appear to be happening, so I guess I can't do much more than wait for the "Excitement Fairy" to slip some under my pillow while I go to sleep tonight aboard this simple plan wagon. I am a moody Canadian and I am proud. 13 comments|post comment

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