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[02 Feb 2004|02:27pm]
confession.....i went to my first show..everrrrr.
&it was amazing
&i will mos def go to another one.

miss meggy took some pictures. &i will like... share them with all you cool kids.
laterrr though. because like...right now i want to die.

i have a great night and then a shitty night.heh.
just perfect.

awww. lookie at this lovely lady....<3

boyyyy. you sooo sexxxy

i think megan had fun taking pictures....next time... we need like... 4 cameras hah .

it's kyle massey

alright.....that was the show.....<3333

----xo erika

tonight will be absolutely glorious.<3

----i need to know something about tomorrow from joe.

pictures from last night?.....

bye bye loveeees......<3
2lost souls|hear my cry

[05 Nov 2003|10:45pm]
Okay. these past few days have been okay but nothing close to great. my family is driving me crazy and i don't know why and I just come home every night and cry and cry myself asleep. sometimes i will be in a daze of all the horrible events that have happened in the past year and then wake to find it was only a horrible dream. I can not stand this. my mom wants me to take medicine but that is not what i need. i need to be happy again.

my friends=my happiness and i am "cut off" from them during the week. except at school.

i have too much stress in my life. it sucks.

leeanne- - stephanie- - Megan- - Michael- - are my only true friends.(down here anyway)

:cry: I have been sad for many days now. secluded really. or at least that is how i should be. just a no body to everybody because then i know that life would be so much better and then i could smile all the time because i would know that i have no one to try to impress and i know that i would have no one to try to be perfect for. i could be myself. respected and lively if only it was just me in this world.
2lost souls|hear my cry

[09 Oct 2003|07:20pm]

haha. i need a new phone.
4lost souls|hear my cry

[08 Oct 2003|11:01pm]
Hi everyone. I have not talked in a while. I promise to talk or write more.

Life sucks.

School sucks.

I leave you with a picture.

hear my cry

[28 Sep 2003|11:57am]
Tan. Ésta es mi entrada en español. Cada uno goza y para los de usted que no sepa español. Apenas conjeturo que usted todo es mierda fuera de suerte. Soy realmente cansado y fui a un partido del redneck ayer por la noche y era extraño pero de todos modos. Ahora estoy dejando pensamiento justo que probaría mis habilidades españolas.

ok in english now...So. This is my entry in Spanish. Everyone enjoy and for those of you who do not know spanish. I just guess you all are shit out of luck. I am really tired and I went to a redneck party last night and it was weird. but anyway. I am leaving now just thought i would test my spanish skills.

haha later.
6lost souls|hear my cry

depressed? [20 Sep 2003|10:45pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | everytime i die ]

I found out that my friend Stephanie did not like me. She thought I was weird and even stated in her blurty that she would never hang out with me again. This really saddens me even more. I had one good day and now life is just horrible again. I do not understand it. One is not supposed to spend a series of years unhappy with only one or two good things happening to her. Everyone keeps telling me.."your life is so perfect" "your family is so perfect" "you never are sad" They do not know. I am pittyful. A horrible excuse for a human being. I walk around acting like I haven't a care in the world and inside I hurt so bad that it is like knives are steadily jabbing me in the heart. I do not know what to do. All of the disappointing happenings in my life make me frequent thoughts of suicide. I do not want to be suicidal. That is not healthy. I have always been the one to help people who were in trouble. I saved my best friend from suicide. He lives in Chicago now. Doing fine. Has a wife. I don't understand anything. Not even a reason for existence. I am lost.

However, I must thank my countless number of friends I have gained on livejournal, deadjournal, xanga and blurty. Without your words of encouragement during this unsteady time of my life. I do not know where I would be. Turned to drugs to rid the pain. It is all a chain of endless chaos as I go to school day after day becoming more overwhelmed and more secluded. I talk to 2 people at school.(sometimes more) I try to stay away when in all reality I should be trying to get closer. I think I have a people phobia. I know I have problems.

Maybe I need to see a doctor?

6lost souls|hear my cry

[20 Sep 2003|08:00pm]
[ music | sloth ]

first pictures. )

2lost souls|hear my cry

Hey [20 Sep 2003|08:14am]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | everytime i die ]

This is my first entry. I only got this thing because Steph...My really good friend from Chicago wanted me to. Haa. Anyway. this will probably be friends only when i get more friends. I want to go find a community to sign up to.

hear my cry

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