Ya know what, I was doing just perfect until I woke up this morning, it's been a week today since he dumped me. I remembered that a week before when I was over his house, we got in a huge fight over... well I can't remember what... But we got into a huge fight and I said sorry and I told him that he was the only thing I cared about and that everyone else could go to Hell for all I cared and he told me he wasn't going to leave me for a long while and that he'll always love me, wow, how things change. I have a plan, I know what I'm going to do, yeah I might actually die from it, I don't intend to, it's just going to be enough to get me into hospital so that Rachel and Cara can tell Bruce I took an overdose. Cassy took 50 paracetamol and survived, think if I take 30 i'll be okay but still pass out and have to go to hospital? That's what I want to do, I don't want to die, then I won't be able to see the look on Bruce's face after. I just want him to be scared, make him think I might die. But I'm going on holiday next week, I want to be well by then. Infact, I actually don't want to go, but I don't want to spoil it for everyone else. I just want to do it so bad though, maybe if I do it at school and they have to call an ambulance... nah that'd just be embarrassing. My mum's going to Spanish tonight, I want to do it like 10 minutes before she's due in, so she sees me passed out on the floor. I want to write a note to Bruce, damn, it's too late now... I'll do it tomorrow, I'm going to write a note to Bruce and tell Rachel to give it to him on Friday... damnit, but Cassy wasn't out for a week. Maybe if I'm still hurting by the time I get back from holiday I'll do it... I want him to suffer right now. Y'see, he's going to end up with no one 'cause Jessica won't go out with him. He'll have dumped me, and what for? For nothing... He's going to wish that he stayed with me 'cause I was the best thing that happened to him and he knew that... oh well.
Hope I get hit by a bus on the way to school, cya. xxxxxxx