Scariest night of my life.   
08:52pm 17/12/2005
 
mood: nervous
Holy, I've never been more scared in my entire life. Last night Trev and I were working, Trevor was on Counter and I was in Drive-Thru, so This guy came in and ordered, he had a free meal coupon, so Trev started getting his meal ready and he went to the bathroom. When he came back Trev had his meal ready for him. So he was like "Aw, fuck, ah my girlfriend wants a pop" So Trev punched in the pop and the guy put the money on the counter. And as soon as Trev opened the till the guy pulled out a knife and slid over the counter and started grabbing at the money, Trev jumped backwards and I was just coming out of Drive-Thru and I Froze. I stopped breathing. It's so much different when it actually happens. I mean you hear about it all the time and you dont think much of it. But it's so much more shocking when it happens. I started shaking, I was so scared that he had stabbed Trev because I didn't see the first few seconds. But I couldn't just run out to Trev because he had the knife pointed at Trev the entire time. It was just so messed up. I never thought it would happen to us. The Cops came and took statements from us. I was still shaking when I was telling the cops what happened. Two guys in Drive-Thru seen what happened and was like "You want me to go track him down" I just couldn't answer him, I was shaking and my voice was horrible. So we closed Drive-Thru, we closed up the store for the night and Trev and I got our boss to Drive us over to Mathew's, we didn't really want to go home by ourselves, we we're both really freaked out. But thats all I have to say tonight.
 
     

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CHRISTMAS   
09:32pm 13/12/2005
 
mood: cheerful
Almost done my christmas shopping, only a few more to go. Also it looks like I get to stay in a little longer in Yarmouth for Christmas. I'm excited. Hopefully I'll get to see a million of my friends. And I'll be 18 in 8 days, I'll be an Illegal Adult, LMAO. I'm an Idiot. Well I've got to get going, I have to work in an Hour or so. Long night ahead of me, free food though. I really have to stop eating McDoanld's, I'm going to get fat. I like the apple slices and caramel dip. It's pretty good. Anyway I'm out.
 
     

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11:39pm 10/12/2005
 
mood: chipper
music: Bob Rivers Christmas Songs
Well we got the time off we wanted, so we'll be down in Yarmouth on the 19th. And we'll be going home on the 23rd. I'm excited, and so is Trev, he hasn't stopped talking about visiting his grandma :) Can't wait to see this show, it's going to be Awesome, plus I'll get to see a whole bunch of people I miss. I hope Jill's back.
Anyway this isn't very long but I need tog et home and get some sleep. I'm exhausted.
 
     

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Debit on Delivery   
08:20pm 02/12/2005
 
mood: sick
music: Phleggy Jamming again
Yup, so McDonald's is driving me nuts. Customer's will always find something to complain about, no matter what. And I start backshift on Monday, I'm going to get so wore out. Mom is coming to Halifax on Monday, I can't wait to see her, plus my grandparents are coming to. I'm excited. And for my birthday I'm going to call McDonald's and tell them I can't work I have to go back to Yarmouth because of Family things or something, I dont care I'm not working those days. I want to go home for a while. It's Christmas. My feet hurt so bad tonight, Yesterday they started hurting at work and now it's shooting pain up my leg from standing on them all today today. Anyway Renegade just showed up t Mathew's with three Colt 45s and he plans on drinking all of them tonight even though no one else is Drinking, I worry about him sometime. I need to find something to do with my time, I do nothing now, I sit at home when I'm not working and it gets boring. I want to start sewing again. I suppose I've been making up pretty things on guitar lately, which is neat, because I didn't think I'd ever learn how to pluck a string, lol. I'm worried I'm not going to get to go home at all this month, and it's kind of depressing. I miss people, alot. I should be going now, Trev has to work at 11, and I need to catch up on some sleep.
 
     

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07:35pm 21/11/2005
 
mood: blank
music: Phlegathon
We moved into our new apartment, it's beautiful. Brand new Apartment, with brandnew everything in it. And our Landlord keeps offering to buy us things. The Family is really nice, and they have 3 adorable kids. I like it here. I still have my spells where I'm unhappy. The other night was bad, I think I cried for 2 hours, just because I missed Mom. But Trev comforted me, and we talked about a lot of things that needed talking. But everything is better now. I'm exhausted from work, I work 8 hours a day everyday for now, plus I work with some interesting characters. Everyone at McDonald's is two-faced, I find it funny because they all act so nice to me and tell me how well I'm doing, but then when I get off they probably turn on me and laugh at the small mistakes I make because I'm new. Thats how they are I guess. Fern has to be the most entertaining person I've ever met though. She's the big friendly Black Hospitality Woman at McD's and she'll sing to the customers and invite them to her house for Tea. :
Anyway that's enough out of me. Time to go listen to Phleggy Jam. Because it's hard not to.
 
     

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Apartment Problems?   
05:44pm 04/11/2005
 
mood: frustrated
music: Mr. Bridgeo's Riffs
So we want out of the dump of an apartment we're in right now. But they say if we just pack up and leave they'll take us to court. But If we go to court, we'll win. The apartment isn't fit to live in. Walls are stained yellow, Carpet stained yellow, giant holes in the walls, rust in the bathtub, mold on the bathroom ceiling. It's Disgusting. I think it'll all work out either way. But stress up the ying yang.
 
     

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07:59pm 02/11/2005
  I've got a Job. Backshift at McDonald's, but it's Money. It'll Pay Rent and buy food. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JILL!!!!!!!!!

I didn't forget.
 
     

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Yarmouth it is.   
09:11pm 11/10/2005
 
mood: anxious
music: Star Wars!!!!
Yup, Visiting Yarmouth for 1 whole week. It's been grand. Formal Bowling Tomorrow, that will be Retro as Ashley would say, good word. Anyway, I havn't really updated ina while, because we havn't had a computer, but I may be taking this computer back to Halifax on Friday with me, because Dad decided to be nice. I may not though, you never know with Dad. He's a confusing one. Alright I havn't got much to say. So Goodnight.
 
     

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feet hurt....tired....bed   
12:55am 16/09/2005
 
mood: cranky
music: Trev playing Guitar
DAMMIT the phone got disconnected. We need to get it over in our name now.
I'm in another movie :) "Vampire Bats" filmed down here in Halifax. Rave Party everywhere, lol. I got paid $103.50 for 11 hours of dancing, screaming, runnig in circles, and looking confused while the director shouted "bats" at us. It'll be airing on Oct 31st on CBS. I'm sure I'll find out a little more about it. But for now, I get to laugh at the money I've made through being an extra in movies. :)
 
     

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05:01pm 07/09/2005
 
mood: gloomy
not registered in school yet. stress. i miss home. but i'll get over it.
 
     

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01:44pm 04/09/2005
 
mood: calm
Okay, everythings fine now. We're in Halifax, getting settled it. I do miss home, I miss Mom especially. But I think I'll get used to it here. Mat and Crystal's place is awesome. I love it.
Had a hard night last night. Things are better now. I'm not feeling so good now. Stomach is weird.
anyway i'll update once we're completly settled. :)
 
     

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04:58pm 30/08/2005
  I should of known this would happen. It looks as if Trev and I will be staying in Yarmouth...because no one can make up their minds...Mat wont settle for a half decent place he wants a fuckin beesknees...and I can't afford it. I'm completly stressed out, tired, pissed off, and slightly depressed. Trev left, mad at me for something, dont know where he went. Mat, Crystal and Craig all left to look at places..So i'm stuck here alone. I have no idea where anyone went.

I dont even know what to do...I can't handle it. Right no Yarmouth is looking good for another year.

I dont know what'll happen.
 
     

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01:24pm 21/08/2005
 
mood: anxious
What a Night! need some sleep.

halifax is so close, i can taste it.
 
     

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it's getting closer!   
08:02pm 18/08/2005
 
mood: drained
music: Jimmy Santos - Called to say
this past week or so has been even more stressful then the last....sept 1st is getting closer fast. but i've gotten a bit taken off my load. i finally told dad. he hung up on me. but that was expected. we dont have a place yet. but we called about one today. he's going to call us back tomorrow if we get accepted. a few days ago we weren't even going to live with mat and crystal. mat changed his mind on us. so trev and i started looking for a smaller more affordable apartment. we found a good one. but then we worked things out with the other two and we're back on..but not in lower sackville because that place has been taken. we just missed it. oh well sackville was too far from halifax in my opinion. this place we're looking at now is still quite the distance but it's closer and there are buses running. it's a 20 minute bus ride i guess, 10 minute drive. it doesn't bother me how far we are i guess as long as there is a bus. trev and i would rather be closer to the city because we can't drive and we both need to get to work somehow. but we'll figure that all out later.
 
     

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12:51am 10/08/2005
  what a fucking stressful last few weeks this has been...i'm an emotional wreck...and i dont know how to control it.
list of things that has been/is/will be bothering me:
1. i need to tell dad i'm moving
2. i'm moving in less then 3 weeks
3. mom's getting married in 11 days
4. earl's a complete dick
5. trev is stubborn
6. dad is stubborn
7. mom is stubborn
8. i'm stubborn
9. we deffiently dont have enough money.
10. i dont think we will have enough money.
 
     

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dum dum dum   
02:27pm 02/08/2005
 
mood: indescribable
music: commercials music
So the Pre-Mongolian party was a blast. My first time out to Falcon's View. Love it. Can't wait for this weekend, Mongolian BBQ everywhere.

I'm off to Trev's again tonight, his Birthday is tomorrow. The big 1-8. He can legally rent porn I guess, haha.

I havn't really got much to say, I'm quit bored at home.

I want to do something with Jill and Megan, are they going to the Ex this year?

That reminds me, Crystal's playing in the talent show this year, I'll have to go watch her...
 
     

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How quickly things change...   
11:36pm 18/07/2005
 
mood: crushed
music: damien rice - the blower's daughter
Acousti-Mule turned out good. small problems during, and nearing the end. But they've been overlooked. All together I'd say the show went well.

more disagreements. more arguements. more problems. more negative attitudes. more of everything that always happens.

Im sorry.
 
     

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I feel sort of sick....   
11:33pm 08/07/2005
 
mood: numb
Trevor just did the meanest thing to me, I guess Bill told him to because he thought it would be funny. He told me he was in Quinan at some party, and that he'd messed around with someone. I mean my heart stopped right there, then he told me it as with someone I knew, I started shaking. And then he told me it was Bill Bullerwell, which I was already to scared, and hurt to ever think..and I'm still shaking.

I'm kind of upset now, so I think I'll go lay in bed....
 
     

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Holy Hot Batman...   
11:50pm 07/07/2005
 
mood: hot
music: Nik Kershaw - wouldn't it be good
aw, back into the rut...
everythings back to normal in the porter-bridgeo residence, knew it would be, but it still bothered me...
so much drama within the last week, lord....i can't believe the world is still in on peice...
okay this is a short post. but that's about the "jist" of it all...
it's hot.....
 
     

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we're rolling in the money now...   
10:04pm 05/07/2005
 
mood: cranky
music: Pearl Jam - Man of the hour.
money problems are solved...trev's got full time...takes a lot off my mind...i feel twenty times lighter...

so Sunday night Trev came to forest glen with me, we camped down to the cottage, even meg came out for awhile..we tried to light a fire...didn't work so well...meg didn't stay to long, but it was fun while she did...long night, couldn't sleep, very uncomfortable...monday was hooootttt, got trev to come swimming...started cleaning the cottage....then went into town, went to visit mat and crystal, headed over to the shack on the small gains road to get some gear of mat's...well mom picked me up from there and ive been home since...

the Lead Mule was burnt to the ground last night...
plans for a newer, improved Lead Mule are already on the go...
R.I.P Lead mule
 
     

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