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[04 Nov 2003|10:43pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | thank you mom // gc stupid emo music ]

im the biggest bitch in the world. i hate everything and im so mad at myself for taking my anger out of my friends. GOD i suck horribly.

yeah, that's all i was gonna say. i wrote more in my other journal. maybe 2 sentences more. it's not worth checking out, trust me.

i suck.

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[31 Oct 2003|09:59pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | Figure .09 // Linkin Park ]

Happy Halloween, Fuckers

whats up? did everyone have fun running around, reaking havoc? Or are ya'll still out there kickin ass? Ah, its all good. I had to stay home and pass out the fuckin candy to all the little children. But little did they know that I POISONED THE CANDY! MWAHAHAHAH. no, im kidding. but that would be fuckin awesome. It could be candy that makes the kids so fuckin sick, that they wouldn't even THINK about coming to our house next year. And my problem would be solved. I'd be able to go out and be a bitch to all the boys and girls. *smiles*


gah i need some new cds. Mine are getting old and I don't wanna listen to them anymore. what to do, what to do. *sigh* aw well. i need to get clay aiken's cd. hahaha dont look at me like that! Clay fuckin Aiken is the man, man! haha. I wanted him to win american idol so bad. I yelled fuck at the TV screen when Reuben won. stupid bastard. anyway, i think that's enough for jen. remember, i've had lots of sugar, so that would explain the .. oddness? lol.. yeah..

GOODNIGHT
and dont forget to scare the kids shitless

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[31 Oct 2003|12:43pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | lost, broken, confused // Mest ]

moo cows are your friends.




message over

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[28 Oct 2003|09:59am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | rooftops // mest ]

woo, jen, super bitch, is still alive. I know. Miracle of God, right? Sorry that I haven't kept this journal up. I've been working on RPG journals, and other journals and blahhhh. Just gets too much to keep up sometimes. It's not like I didn't WANT to update.. it's just that I haven't. haha. Well, I'm gonna copy and paste my update about the gc/mest/goldfinger concert on the 25th, from my other journal. here it is.



SO.. do you wanna hear about the concert? *hears people screaming "no, god you wanna kill us?"* GOOD! I'll tell ya'll anyway.

we left early and the ride there was probably my second to favorite part of the whole day. this big breasted lady was walking on the sidewalk as we drove by (mind you, we were in baltimore) and my brother was like "OOoh, the prostitutes tits around here just keep getting bigger and bigger" which made everyone in the car laugh. and when I say everyone, I mean me, my two younger brothers jeremy and josh, and brandon, my older brother, the one who made the comment. yeah.. so then this bum passed by next.. and my older brother was like.. "man, I wouldn't pay three cents for that motherfucker" and then josh goes "What? you'd pay 2 cents for that motherfucker?" hahahah it was so fuckin great. I fuckin love my brothers. they are hilarious. anywho.. so we got in line.. and it took us 2 and a half hours to actually get into the fuckin building. But while we were outside waiting, we made this "gum crossing" place. See, what happened, was josh spit out his gum and it landed on the sidewalk.. and this kid, prolly around josh's age, stepped in it. hahah he was like "Aw, what the fuck?!" then i made the comment to josh "Woo good job with the gum" the kid was like "this your gum?!" then five minutes later, we had 6 peices of gum laid out on the sidewalk and when people walked by, we were like "watch out, theres gum" and I was like "No no, step in it! it's good luck!" haha it was fun.

SO we get into the arena. FINALLY, ya know. So yeah.. they put this blue bracelet thingy on, so we can get on and off the floor without any complications.. and the guy put mine on so fuckin tight, I thought my HAND was gonna fuckin fall off. I was like.. "UH, what the fuck?!" haha yeah. not to his face, but afterwards. So we get in the actual arena and it was pretty vacant when we FIRST walked in. We took a nice seat up on some stands.. it was nice. then I RAN down to the pit for MEST. DUDE, they were fuckin awesome. when they played the first song, TONY KISSED MATT! on the cheek, BUT HE STILL KISSED HIM! I thought it was great. Anyway, they did some good songs.. ya know, rooftops, until i met you, drawing board (in which tony said "guy" instead of "girl" and "he" instead of "she") and when they did hotel room, JERE DANCED!! THAT SEXY MOTHERFUCKER DANCED and it was MEGA HOT! man, i swear i orgasmed the whole time. haha. So, When they did jaded, benji came out, of course, and him and tony hugged. i felt the love. haha. Erm.. they did fuct up kid.. Dude. Tony was like "i wanna see everyone jumping in this bitch, got it?" and then they played a couple chords, then tony stopped matt n them and was like.. "You three!" pointing to these three girls over in the stands. "What the fuck? you ain't standing. Well you know, fuck you. You suck, you ain't even that good looking, and i probably fucked ur mother backstage, so fuck you!" he flipped um off and EVERYONE WAS LAUGHING. god it was so fuckin hilarious. i swear to god, im gonna have tony's children haha. So, they played some other songs.. and they ended with Cadillac.. Chris (from GC, duh) played the geetar, and he did awesomely. yesh yesh, it was grand.

Goldfinger played next. they do a GREAT show. I was all moshing like a motherfucker when they played "superman". dude, it was so awesome. when they first came out, the drummer only had a thong on. HAHAHA it was great! He smacked his ass and danced around. hahah i enjoyed it lots. more than i should've. *blushes* so anyway.. their LAST song, they did this cool thing with their guitars.. they all swung them around their necks at the same time and kept playing. it was all done simultaniously. or however the fuck you spell that word. yeah, they are awesome. did you know their guitarist JUST turned 18?! THAT COULD FUCKIN BE ME UP THERE ON STAGE, DAMMIT!

onto good charlotte. dude, those girls were driving me fuckin crazy. there's this one roadie.. who tunes benji's and billy's guitars.. and he dresses just like benji.. so everytime a girl would see him, she'd start screaming, then everyone else started fuckin screaming and i was like "OH MY GOD, THE TUNER MAN! HE'S SO FUCKIN HOT! I WANNA RAPE HIM!" ya know, just to get them to shutup. they all thought I was fuckin nuts. but i didn't care! yeah, so then they were lifting up the big young and hopeless sign.. and the girls screamed for that too. and i went "OMG A PICTURE!! I've seen what I paid my $30 for! LETS GO!" haha they gave me mean looks. but i was having fun, yo, so i didn't care if they threatened to chop off my fingers. hahah ew morbid. SO ANYWAY, when good charlotte actually started playing, i fuckin flipping out, man. PAUL looked so fuckin hot. I wanted to rape him. And if i were any closer to the stage, I prolly would've. yeah, so it was great. except when they played..uh.. waldorf worldwide. i got hit in the fuckin head with a water bottle that was still fuckin half full. I HAVE A BUMP and it hurts. YEAH PAUL DID THE SPIN DANCE LIKE EIGHT FUCKIN TIMES. dude, that was fuckin hot. I swear to god, that man is gonna fertilize my eggs, as paige would say. haha. i love you paige. Well, before they played riot girl, i was waving around at the wrong part.. ya know, when everyone starts jumping right when the chorus breaks in.. well, I was waving and shit before the chorus and billy fuckin waved back. I was like.. WEEE RACHEL LOVES YOU! of course i got some looks from people, but I was like.. mind ur own fuckin business. I flipped joel off. hahaha. I like.. just flipped him off. it was great. i wanna do it again. Then before some other song, the mosh pit was getting a little crazy.. and benji was like "okay, big guys in the pit? Watch out for the little girls, okay?" then this one guy was doing something, i dont know what, and joel was like "hey dude, dont be an asshole" and then the security went into the mosh pit and got that motherfucker out. it was pretty neat. THEN joel n Benji introduced their friend Dave.. he owns this place that good charlotte used to play at when they were just punk ass kids from waldorf.. not GOOD CHARLOTTE *gasp* haha. Uh.. he brought his girlfriend onstage and proposed to her. it was so fuckin sweet. yeah, so i cried when they played emotionless. yes, the little emo bitch that i am fuckin cried when they sang that song. *sniff* yeah. i think that's all that is worth updating about. I had a great time. I love my brothers, I love mest, I love goldfinger, I love good charlotte, i love my friends, I fuckin LOVE TONY LOVATO for kissing matt and for hugging benji and for saying fuck every 3 seconds.

i probably forgot some stuff.. if i did, i'll just update that stuff later. *smiles* good night everyone. go to bed tonite and have dreams of tony telling you that he boned ur mother backstage.


oh and p.s. joel's a fag.
thank you

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[27 Sep 2003|07:23pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | Breathing // Yellowcard ]

i feel really bad.

i have the next 3 chapters of SiNNiNg written, and im too damn lazy to type them up and update them. I am a lazy peice of shit. Poor sam. she wants to read my shit, and im a fuckin asshole about updating. *sigh* im sorry sam.

RACHEL'S HOME.

thought i'd share that.
yeah, im out.

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howdy [13 Sep 2003|10:10am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | S.uicide P.arty x V.endetta R.ed ]

I update for SAM NOW!! because she's the only one I talk to anymore!! at least on blurty. ::smiles:: HI SAM!! lol. So, what's up? I've been listening to the ataris and vendetta red off and on since last week. ::nods:: I'm an idiot. I run my music into the ground, and then I can't look at that cd for weeks.. then I listen to it again..eventually. EXCEPT yellowcard. I listened to that for two weeks straight, and I'm STILL not tired of it. lol. I know im retarded.

Scars they cut into you
Blistered, rose colored hues
Mayday we're going down
...

words I dont know haha. I guess I could look in the little cd booklet thing.. but I'm too lazy to do it right now. Yeah, too lazy. My older brother left to go get my GC.Mest.SoCo. tickets from the ticketmaster at the Hecht's down the road. We're getting 4. One for Brandon, Me, Jeremy n Amanda. It's in BALTIMORE, not DC. So it'll be a shorter drive.

Brandon FINALLY got his license back yesterday. He's been driving around since 8 this morning. he's stupid lol, but I love him. HAHAHA YESTERDAY my gramma took bob and I out to applebees to like, ya know, celebrate that he got his license back and everything right? Well, I spilled a little peice of lettuce with ranch dressing on it, right onto my shirt. I was like. AHH almost made it through the meal without taking food home on my shirt.. so ya know what my brother does? He hands me a barbeque covered napkin.. (since he had riblets) HAHAHA isn't that hilarious!? To clean up a mess, he handed me a messy napkin! ::laughs like a crazy maniac:: I had fun. But then my gramma's like "You two can't even act civilized when we go out to eat! I'm not taking you out anymore." And ya know, I have enough trouble getting along with my brother as it is.. and she has to go and ruin our fun. GRRR.

Okay, I think I'm gonna go. ::laughs:: I love my older brother. He makes me laugh AND he's driving me to the concert. He's the best. ::claps::

>>.jrt.

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sorry.. [09 Sep 2003|05:39pm]
[ mood | content ]
[ music | S.o L.ong A.storia x T.he A.taris ]

i haven't been updating this journal as often as I should. I'm sorry. I KNEW this would happen if I went over to Caleida. Actually, I don't update on that journal very much either. ::sticks out tongue:: I'm just wrapped up in my paul journal.. have no time for this silly one. ::laughs:: Yeah, ain't that grand? This journal is "silly". Ah, I don't know what I'm talking about. At this moment, I'm on aim, rping as paul. Yeah, my head really isn't in this journal entry. Guess I'll go.

Later!!!!!

>>.Yankz.<< (I think? lol)

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and.. [04 Sep 2003|01:20pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | F.rom T.he I.nside x L.inkin P.ark ]

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i love you so much, honey. ::hugs::
>>.Yankz.

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hi [04 Sep 2003|11:24am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | W.ay A.way x Y.ellowcard ]

im passin the time by hanging out in the library, on the computer. Yeah, I'm stuck on campus til about 1. It's only 11. Woohoo, two hours to do whatever I want. So I'm probably going to update all my journals like 80 times. haha. That's the only thing to do!! I can't d/l aim. I'll get in trouble.. but updating my journals is fun. ::nods:: Anyway, in my one paul community, Michelle (Branch) and Paul (Thomas) finally told each other that they love one another.. then you know what Michelle goes and does?! She tells Paul that she slept with someone when her and Paul first started going out. Yeah, and you know who she slept with? JOEL! How fuckin hilarious is that?! MAN, that's great. I couldn't believe that, man. I laughed for like..half an hour. Oh man.. so now I have Paul all mad and not talking to anyone. I mean, Joel actually IM'ed him and told him.. then he was like "Paul.. talk to me, man". And I talk to Sarah too. "Sarah Madden", that is. Man, this community is great. Well, on my Billy community, I'm "supposed" to be with Ginger, but Craig, as in "Craig Nicholls" is interested in her too. So, it's wonderfully drastic drama. Can't you just hear the Law And Order music playing? haha, so I need to tweak my interests a little. I'm going to take some bands off and put some other stuff on. Or maybe I won't put anything else on? Who knows. Playin by ear here. Arg, my head hurts a little. I'm listening to yellowcard. HEY I actually STOPPED listening to them for TWO DAYS! That's pretty damn good in my book, okay?! YEAH. So shove it. I'm not obsessed, I just like that cd a lot. It's good! 'Specially the song "Believe" about the firefighters who went into the rubble on and after 9/11 to look for survivors. They were brave guys and I'm proud of them. A lot of them died, which wasn't fair. I hate the damn terrorists. I say.. KICK SOME ASS! But I don't think our men should have to die for those Iraq people. They don't even WANT our help! They're killing each other. If Bush was smart, which we know he's not he'd get those men out of there. He'd send home sons to their mothers.. fathers to their children.. friends to their friends.. it's just the right thing to do. But Bush is a complete ass. I don't like him. ::laughs:: Did ya figure that already?

Woo, I joined the sXe community on Caleida. Yeah, I have another journal, but I don't like it better than this one. I love this journal. Blurty kicks major ass. I'm never leaving it so dont you people worry. Although I don't think I have any friends on here anymore. ::shrugs:: Okay then. I'm leavin. Later all.

>>.Yankz.

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poor paul [28 Aug 2003|11:50pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | breathingx yellowcard ]

hi everyone. just got done watching the VMAs. My boys got one! Woot! lol. Eh, I'm proud of them. Yeah, only one out of three. But everyone makes fun of them now, and I mean, that's not necessary, is it? Really now, people need to learn to keep their comments to themselves. And Chris Rock wasn't that funny this time. Really, he wasn't. He wasn't even funny the first time. I just think the VMA's have lost their touch to me. I just.. I've grown out of them, I guess. Yeah. I didn't watch Metallica either. I don't like them. And MAN did the Good Charlotte performance suck. What turned me off.. two things. The fact that ya rarely ever saw billy or paul... AND the fact that they trashed all their instruments afterwards. That completely turned me off.. pissed me off, matter of fact. Why would they do that?! That's just ASSANINE!! :sigh: They need to get smacked, and I think I'm the one to do it. Watch out, Jen's coming through! :sigh: haha. Did you know that someone in Paul's family died?! Omg, it was on after the award show finished. They said that they were dedicating their award to someone in paul's family who died. That is so sad. I'm crying. Really, I'm seriously crying. I feel so bad for him. To have to get up and perform even though you're so sad, you feel like crying ur eyes out? Man, I couldn't. And when they were accepting their award, Paul was all smiles, holding the moon man, waving saying hi mom, hi dad. Man, poor paul. ::hugs him::

Billy looked hot. MAN did he look hot. haha. SEXY is the word, but don't tell paige. Shh, keep it on the downlow. Ah, Paul looked good too.. i just feel horrible for him. I'm sorry sweetie. Come on back home to Maryland. Jen'll make it ALLLLLL better. Just come over to my house now and get yourself some lovin'. ::smirks:: i wish, eh? Ahh, it's just horrible that they have to do stuff even when they're sad. They shouldn't have to. Obligations, my ass. Fuck that. When you have to cry, you should be able to just.. cry. Hell, DMX flew the coop twice.. missin the VMA's. Who says the bassist to Good Charlotte couldn't do that?! my poor paulie.

Okay, that's enough about him, right? haha. Naw, i love my paul and I'm done talking about it. ::pats pauls head:: He's alright because im here. And now I'ma leave.

Later.

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ugh [26 Aug 2003|04:02pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | breathing x yellowcard ]

we just got the cell phone bill from when i was down in florida. i txt messaged lindsay all the time.. $250.00. my gramma's having a shit fit. I haven't txt'ed for almost a month now, but she's still mad. She might take away my phone. that's fine. that's FUCKIN fine! I.. I'm just so mad about her being so lenient on my brother! He has been nothing but a PAIN in her ASS since he got his car FOUR months ago! And she STILL lets him off the hook when he does something wrong. There is no DISCIPLINE!! :cries: And i just get shit on over and over again. Ain't that wonderful?

Arg, it's just a bad day. Cept the fact that I got Paige's Birthday present today, and i sent rachel's. :nods: I hope they both like their cards and stuff. :sigh: I just wish I could've given rachel more. but my gramma was being an ASS.

Okay. im done. Later.
>>.Yankz.<< (although, my wife isn't around that much anymore. She has someone now. im happy for her, just lonely without her.)

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:sigh: [25 Aug 2003|08:06pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]
[ music | view from heaven x yellowcard ]

hello everyone. Sorry i haven't updated for a while. I've been.. well, updating on other journals. haha. Yeah, theres someone else, blurty. please dont cry. :smiles: It's okay. I'm not going to get rid of this journal. I'm part of a zillion communities that i love and i have some friends here. i only joined caleida, because everyone else is over there. :sigh: Yeah, but over there i get to comment on paiges, nikis, and chris' journals. They don't like blurty cuz they're picky. Dont be offended, blurty.. they've just moved on. You should too.

haha, im crazy. im gonna jet now.

be good to urself and others.
>>.Yankz.<<
and im sure the view from heaven, beats the hell out of mine here.. and if we all believe in heaven, maybe we'll make it through one more year

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><><><><><><><><><><><><> [21 Aug 2003|05:06pm]
[ mood | irritated ]
[ music | in this diary | the ataris ]

yeah i got bored.

and now im done updating.

peace.

>>.yankz.

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howdy [19 Aug 2003|07:17pm]
[ mood | good ]
[ music | figure .09 | linkin park ]

Hi. ::waves:: how is everyone? haven't updated for a few days, I'm sorry. No, it's not that I've been busy, I just haven't updated and I'm lazy like that. But I'm sorry that I kept you guys from hearing about my wonderfully full and happy life!!! ::so much sarcasm that I'm choking on it:: So, my gramma is doing a LOT better. She has to be kept on oxygen, but she can walk around and do things normally. I'm so glad that they didn't have to keep her at the hospital for the next month, which could've happened, but everything is okay and I'm glad. Uh, I've been so tired lately. I went to bed at 1 am last night and got up at 10 am. then I fell asleep on the couch at 10:30.. and didn't get up til like.. 2:30. I mean, what the hell? It's not like I was tired or anything. My grams is making me go to the doctors. I have a problem going to sleep at night. Last night was like, the first time I've gone to bed before 4 am for like.. two weeks. So my gramma thinks I have a problem. ::sigh:: why not? I mean, I don't have enough problems as it is.

Now, this really isn't a problem, just me blabbing and going on about things in my life. Like I'm supposed to do in a journal! oh wow, imagine that. So anyway, Mike and I were together for like.. almost 9 months and it was great and wonderful and we cared for each other..blah blah BLAH. :sigh: We talk every like.. week or so, just to say hi and how is it going? I mean, I'm glad that we can talk, ya know? But I don't know why I'm feeling like he doesn't deserve me to be so nice. But it's not his fault things didn't work out. I mean, it was mostly over the internet, right? (yeah i know im a loser.) But I just.. grr, should I be mad at him? he just ended it and it was for crappy reasons anyway, but I was understanding. Do you think that I just.. dont really care because it wasn't a "real" relationship? ya know what i mean. I mean, it was real, we are two people with feelings, but did we expect it to actually be something more? I don't know. I don't know if he expected me to move up there by him, I don't know if I expected him to move down here. I just think we were moving in two different directions.. but i miss him, ya know? Whenever his little IM pops up and he acts like nothing is wrong, like nothing happened, I get sad. I just.. I miss being with someone. :sigh:

Okay, the sad part of the journal entry is over. School starts in two weeks for me, since I'm in college. My brothers start next monday. ::laughs evily and points and my brothers:: GOOD LUCK!! lol. Ah, high school's not that bad. it really isn't. I miss it actually. You can have really close friends in high school.. gossip about teachers.. pass notes. You can't really do that in college. First off, people are very mature in college.. like, my first semester of college in my business computer applications class, I sat next to this 23 year old. Now she was REALLY mature for HER age, and she was like.. 6 years older than me. (i wasn't 18 yet.) So i had to like.. act mature too. Do you know how hard that was?! haha but really, it was! I had a hard time talking to her. I mean, because outside of school, i really have no life. I have internet, music, and writing. But she was into business and stuff. I looked at her like she was the smartest girl in the world. AND we were kinda friends. I gave her a birthday card and everything!! Although she didn't get me anything. :sniff: lolol im kidding. She got me a CUTE stuffed bunny.. that my dog chewed up. damn dog. can't leave him alone for ONE minute.

Oh, he's doing okay too. :nods: Doctor said that other than the fact that he's a little chubby, he's in good health. I really needed to hear that. I've been worried about him for quite a while. Although I know that just because the Vet said that he was healthy, doesn't mean that he's gonna live for many many more years. He's an old dog. his time will eventually come. And that's okay. I think I can handle that. he's been a great dog and I got to spend about 7 of his 12 years of his life loving him. At least he'll die happy, ya know? BUT let's stop talking about pets dieing. It's depressing. Did anyone see the movie SWAT? Dude, they had a Linkin Park song in that movie!! ::giggles:: but that's not what I liked the best. Did you SEE Colin Farrell!? DAMN that guy is FINE! ::skanks:: really, he is the SEXIEST. ::skanks::

Omg. my mom just IMed me and said "I love you Jennifer Rebecca Schuster Webster." haha, that's mike's last name. :sigh: my mom must be dreaming. Mike and I don't have a future.. at least, i dont think we do. ::sighs again:: Aw well, I'm gonna go. Later everyone. Thanks for listening ya'll.

>>.Yankz.<<
giving up a part of me, I let myself become youu

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stole this from sammm [19 Aug 2003|07:12pm]
[ mood | productive ]
[ music | session | linkin park ]

1. Good Charlotte or Wakefield? : Good Charlotte
2. Blink 182 or Box Car Racer? : Blink 182 (GO MARK!)
3. Simple Plan or Sugarcult? : Sugarcult
4. New Found Glory or Sum 41? : New Found Glory
5. Goldfinger or Green Day? : Green Day
6. Rancid or Nofx? : Nofx
7. The Clash or the Sex Pistols? : neither b/c i dont listen to either of them
8. The Used or Rufio? : RUFIO!! yay, but I choose the Used. <333 on quinn.
9. All American Rejects or Riddlin' Kids? : All American Rejects
10. MxPx or Fenix tx? : MxPx
11. Something Corporate or The Starting Line?: Something Corporate i love me my piano rock. lol.
12. Saves the Day or Taking Back Sunday? : Taking Back Sunday
13. Pennywise or Bad Religion? : Pennywise, baby.
14. Nirvana or Foo Fighters? : Foo Fighters
15. h2o or Homegrown? : Homegrown!!!!
16. Alkaline Trio or AFI? : AFI (havent heard alk trio.. i mean, i've heard of them, but i haven't heard their music)
17. Bowling for Soup or Auto Pilot Off? : Autopilot Off
18. Dropkick Murphys or Dead Kennedys? : neeeeither
19. the Distillers or the Eyeliners? : The Distillers
20. Live on Release or Tuuli? : neeeither
21. Dashboard Confessional or Unwritten Law? : Dashboard Confessional
22. Jimmy Eat World or Less Than Jake? : Jimmy Eat World
23. Screeching weasel or the Queers? : neither
24. the Donnas or the Ramones? : neither. the donnas suck.. and i haven't heard the ramones.
25. Finch or Glassjaw? : FINCH!!!!! ::screams:: sorry.
26. Slipknot or Stone Sour? : Stone Sour b/c i dont like slipknot. lol

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uh hi [15 Aug 2003|09:05pm]
[ mood | hyper ]
[ music | bleed black | afi ]

Uh.. I've been on a Silverchair kick for a few days now. I haven't stopped listening to them. I even took them to the store with me today. Had my earphones in and down the aisle, I was bopping my head.. "Oooooooooooooooooooh, wait til tomorrooooow." ahah, ppl looked at me funny. I was like.. WHAT the FUCK is ur PROBLEM!? haha, it was GREAT!

anyway, my gramma had a spell today. She almost passed out at the store once again. :sigh: It was really humid today. I told her to stay indoors, but my gramma never listens to me. Never. Now I'm listening to AFI. Wow. This is the first non silverchair thing I've listenined to. Wowzers. So anyway, I love AFI. Well, maybe not LOVE, but I like um. I'm listening to Bleed Black. Good soooong. :nods:

If you haven't noticed, I'm all about music. Really, music is my life. That's why I hate when people bash what I listen to. It defines who I am, so they are basically bashing me. Isn't that just shitty of a person to do? Bash someone else? :sigh: But I'm used to it. :dances to my song: Yeah, after Morningstar, another AFI song, I'm turning it back to Silverchair. :nods:

Okay, I'm done here. Done my bitching. :does the rock on sign: If you haven't listened to AFI or Silverchair, then do it. They are awesome bands. Oh, and Finch. :nods: They are the best. Okay, bye.
>>.Yankz.<<
if u listen for, bleed black bleed

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i remember..stormy weather.. [14 Aug 2003|04:28pm]
[ mood | flirty ]
[ music | breathe | m.branch ]

hiya, from jen on a mediocre thursday afternoon. My G Ramma went out to dinner with friends.. jeremy went to work.. brandon's about to go out with some of jeremy's friends.. and josh and i are going to be left here til 6:00. Which I don't mind, of course. Besides, I have my doggy to keep me company. so, how is everyone out there? Sorry that I didn't update yesterday. It was crazy when I was online. Uh, but the night before last, I went to dinner and the movies with Zach, Matt and Lizzie. It was so great seeing Lizzie again. Haven't seen her for quite a while before then. ::claps:: The movie was good, and so was the dinner. actually, the dinner sucked.. but it didn't matter because my boys n chik were there with me. I love them like whoa. hahahahah I stole that from paige and rachie. ::shrugs:: Although I'm never going to say it again. lol. I think my puppy is okay. He's going in for his appt in.. three days i think. my gramma has the date on the calender and Im too lazy to go into the kitchen and look at it. haha.

Ah, three days grace. I love that one song they have.. I hate everything about you. That's a great song. :skanks: Okay, I must leave you now. Peace.

>>.Yankz.

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gots to fix something.. [12 Aug 2003|05:26pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | i showed her | otown (it was on TV) ]

On that survey i did, I wrote that "tenni's n vans" were my favordis shoe. Well, I was wrong. Soho's are.. but I didn't think of them because my pair got destroyed at HFStival.. but they still are my favordis shoe.. ::nods::
>>.Yankz.

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a survey .. from my cici .. who i miss .. [11 Aug 2003|09:25pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | go the distance | hercules sndtrk ]

[name] Jennifer Schuster
[nicknames] Jen, Jenni, Jenni Jen Jen, JiJi, and whatever else u wanna call me
[home] same place for the last year.. in bel air, md
[birthday] Dec 19th
[sign] sagittarius
[eye color] blue
[hair] brown with blonde streaks
[school colours] uh, i go to a community college.. we dont have school colors.. lol
[mascot] we dont have one..
[clothing style] jeans and shirts.. its worked for me so far. lol
[pets] my doggy
[label] im not labeled.. unless u consider me a label. I am a Jen. Wanna be one too?
[movie] Goofy Movie, both Harry Potters and Pirates of the Carribean
[TV show] Charmed, Family Guy, My ABC soaps, That new one coming out with Chad Michael Murray. God, he's dreamy!
[color crayon] Black
[kind of pens] black n blue ones
[flowers] i ono
[drinks (non-alki)] pepsi
[drinks (alki)] none.. i dont drink..
[juice flavor] orange
[toothpaste] crest
[cereal] cinnamon life
[candies] snickers bar
[pie flavor] apple
[ice cream flavor] cookie dough
[skittle flavor] none of them
[color m & m] all of them
[poptart flavor] brown sugar.. mhmm
[kind of cookie] chips-a-hoy
[pizza topping] EXTRA CHEESE
[salad dressing] ranch
[hangout] wherever i want.
[saying] whoopah.. i say it online and off
[quote] "i wish i was ken so i could be getting up on barbie all day long." -billy fuckin martin :)
[teacher] ms. bell.
[day] wednesday..
[month] december
[season] winter
[number] 7, 23, 99
[holidays] christmas
[shoes] tenni's, vans
[polish] ::shrugs::
[cologne] the stuff my bro uses.. it smells good
[bath and body works smell] none
[shampoo] finesse
[conditioner] finesse
[store (in the mall)] any cd store
[store (not in the mall)] record n tape traders
[fast food place] taco bell
[restuarants] applebees n tgifridays
[body part] eyes
[cars] yellow mustang GT
[star wars character] i liked yoda, to be honest. lol. NO, no, I LOVED QUI-GON. He was the best. I cried when he died.
[rugrats character] Phil n Lil
[daria character] trevor
[simpsons character] apu
[south park character] kyle
[teletubby] i dont know any of their names, and I'm proud of that.
[fair ride] none
[radio station] hmm.. 99.1 HFS
[font] verdana
[color of floppy disk] purple
[person to talk to online] my chip
[person to talk to on the phone] paigggggge!
[memories] concerts, HFStival... those are the only good ones.. most of my memories are ones of how it used to be.. how my dad abandoned me.. the night my mom moved out.. i dont have very good memories..
[thing to do in the daytime] hang out at home, go to movies or go online..
[thing to do at night] go online.. movies.. hang out..
[thing to do in the summer] go online, sleep in, go to concerts and chill, fun stuff
[thing to do in the fall] attend school and yeah
[thing to do in the winter] celebrate my bday.. celebrate christmas.. fun stuff.. winter break!
[thing to do in the spring] school..

*unfavorites*
[bands] wakefield.. the white stripes.. janes addiction..there are more.. cant think right now..
[subject] history
[food] chicken..nething chicken..
[color] brown..poop brown.. haha.

*this or that*
[boxers or briefs?] boxers
[plaid or striped?] striped
[scream or scream2 or scream3?] none.. they all sucked..
[urban legend or the faculty?] none, they both sucked..
[star trek or star wars?] Star wars
[alt or rap?] alt
[ska or punk?] punk, if i had to choose..
[classical or country?] country
[salt or pepper?] salt
[coke or Pepsi?] pepsi
[dr. pepper or mr. pibb?] dr. pepper
[sprite, slice, or 7-up?] sprite
[skim, 1%, 2%, or whole milk?] 2%
[rare, medium, or welldone?] well done, that's if i ate meat..
[skittles-original, tropical, or wildberry?] EW none
[m & m's-regular, peanut, peanut-butter, or almond?] regular
[hershey's-hugs or kisses] kisses
[tootsie roll pops or blow pops?] tootsie roll pops
[chocolate or vanilla?] chocolate
[v-8 or hi-C?] hi-c
[ken or barbie?] KEN, BABY! what a HUNK! lol
[bleh or blah?] blah
[okay, ok, or o.k.?] Ok
[mono or stereo?] stereo
[sex, drugs, or rocknroll?] sex
[shake or stir?] shake
[gray or grey?] gray
[pens, crayons, pastels, or colored pencils?] colored pencils
[bright colors or dark colors?] dark
[fruit at the bottom or pre-stirred?] pre stirred
[snap, crackle, or pop?] crackle, hotness.
[half-empty or half-full?] half empty
[beavis and butthead, king of the hill, or daria?] daria
[adidas, nike, fila, or reebok?] adidas
[spearmint, winterfresh, or peppermint?] i like the green extra.. i have since i was .. 13?
[big red, juicy fruit, or doublemint?] hafta say green extra again..
[big red or cinnaburst?] big red, out of those two..
[cinnaburst, mintaburst, or Fruitaburst?] fruitaburst..
[tic-tacs or certs?] tic tacs
[sunshine or rain?] sunshine
[rain or snow?] snow
[sun or moon?] moon
[silver or gold?] silver
[silk, cotton, or flannel sheets?] cotton
[frogs or toads?] frogs
[skaters or jocks?] gay punk boys. :smiles:
[preps or freaks?] freaks
[cds or cassettes?] cds
[wild or mild?] mild
[rupaul or dennis rodman?] ew neither
[bsb or nsync?] *NSYNC
[keyboards-the normal kind or the separated kind?] normal
[top or bottom?] bottom
[popcorn-with or w/out butter?] with
[salsa-mild, medium, or hot?] mild
[ketchup, mayo, mustard, or relish?] mayo
[shampoo+conditioner in one or separate?] in one

*what do you think of*

[leonardo Dicaprio] gay
[hanson] three times gay
[calvin klein] he's probably gay
[swing music] it died
[pamela anderson lee] boobs that could poke out someone's eye if she's not careful
[winnie the Pooh] Piglet
[anime stuff] Fun to draw.. i watch the occasional japanimation show..
[wal-mart] stupid store
[the whole clinton-lewinsky thing] he couldn't keep it in his pants and i think hilary was to blame. obviously, she couldn't put out, so lil bill went somewhere else. :)
[supermodels] TOO skinny
[clowns] ew scary
[pre-marital sex] no
[media violence] whoopah
[mp3s] ..
[year-round school] COOL
[the whole gov't system] ::shrugs:: as long as they dont kill paul thomas, im fine with them..

*if you were _______, what would you be?*
[a flower] poisonous
[an animal] deadly
[a fruit] a bad banana
[a vegetable] onions!! i can make u cry!
[a spice] paprika
[a color] black
[a bug] praying mantis
[a fish] a clown fish

*short answer*
[are you left handed or right handed?] right handed
[are you smart?] can be
[whats your middle name?] Rebecca
[how many personalities do you have?] Uh... u have one, asshole. YEAH that's right, I have one!
[how many piercings do you have?] uh..
[tattoos?] wait for it..
[do you like v-8?] ew no.. i tried it and was sick for a week
[what was your first word?] dada
[are you superstitious?] about some things
[do you read your horoscope?] a few times a month..
[do you believe in that stuff?] sometimes
[can you do a cartwheel?] hahahahahaha
[do you have bangs?] kinda.. i recently got my hair cut and.. i dunno.. maybe not..
[do you have contact lenses?] nope
[do you have a retainer or braces?] nope
[can you drive?] nope
[what do you drive?] with my younger brother.. grr.
[do you snore?] very loudly. lol
[do you drool in your sleep?] Ew.. but yeah.. ::ashamed::
[do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge?] neither
[do you keep a journal?] on blurty, on woohu, and on paper..
[what languages do you know?] english and some spanish
[whats the best awards show?] MTV music awards
[do you like onions?] LOVE um
[do you like cotton candy?] ew no
[do you like pina coloadas?] no
[what instruments can you play?] bass guitar, acoustic guitar, piano, keyboard, flute, drums..
[what words do you overuse?] Whoop-ah!
[what do you sleep in?] Pjs
[whats your bedtime?] whenever my gramma is on the brink of killing me for not turning out the light by 4 in the morning..
[how many pillows do you have?] 4 but i sleep with 2
[do you like to dance?] i skank
[do you like to sing?] yes, very much so
[are you any good at it?] i like to think so
[how many cds do you have?] lots
[do you like to talk on the phone?] no.. but i love talking to paige..
[how many times have you moved houses?] four times..
[what do you think of chain letters?] retardedness
[do you like where you live?] yeah
[is your room messy?] nope..
[how many people go to your school?] its a college campus.. there are LOTS of people
[do you like your writing?] :nods:
[do you like to fingerpaint?] no
[what do you smell like?] perfume..or deoderant
[are you organized?] yeah
[what do you put on hotdogs and hamburgers?] ketchup and onions
[do you sleep with a stuffed animal?] nope
[do you sleep with socks on?] hell no..that's uncomfy
[are you ticklish?] a little
[are you shy?] yeah
[do you talk to yourself?] yes
[is your house 1, 2, or 3 stories?] 3
[do you have a basement or an attic?] basement, yes.. attic, yes.. but it's not reachable..
[what flavor fluoride do you get at the dentist?] uh..cherry? haha
[did you go to preschool?] nope
[are you a morning person?] no way
[whats your favorite outfit?] my billy outfit.. my flare jeans with my black shirt with white collar and cuffs. :smiles:
[do you have a friend that you wish wasnt?] ...no
[who has the sexiest voice in the world?] chad michael murray.. ahhh..
[who has the most annoying voice in the world?] the mom on that 70's show.. OR Janice from friends..
[whats your iq?] 126
[whats your purity test score?] Iono
[do you believe in reincarnation?] not really
[do you believe in God?] sure do
[do you believe in aliens?] yes
[do you believe in ghosts?] yes
[do you believe in bigfoot?] hahahaha nope
[do you believe in the loch ness monster?] yeah
[whats your favorite feature (on yourself)?] my hair
[what do you do when you're nervous?] i snap my fingers
[whos your role model?] my mom
[what celebrities do you look like?] ew none
[do you like classical music?] some
[how old do you wish you were?] im already old.. im 18 for christs sake..
[what will you name your daughter?] the first one.. Hayley Michelle.. the 2nd, Rachel Margaret.. ::smiles::
[son?] First, Joshua Michael.. 2nd, Ryan George
[have you ever gone skinny dipping?] yeah
[have you ever thought you were gonna die?] yes
[wheres the farthest place you ever traveled?] key west
[where do you wanna go?] england
[list all your classes] uh.. Creative Writing 2, English 101 (dont ask), Trig, and Educational Psychology..
[whats the best advice youve ever been given?] "Follow ur heart, not the crowd"
[whats your motto?] Live each day to the fullest.

*hard questions*
[would you rather be tall or short?] short
[would you rather burn to death or freeze to death?] freeze
[are the best things in life free?] yes..love.. hugs..
[can money buy happiness?] no..never will..
[overly happy but poor or unhappy and overly rich?] poor and happy
[do you think guys or girls have it easier?] Guys dont bleed for five to seven days and have cramps and have to give birth.. BUT girls dont have to join the army when they are 18.. i dunno.. its pretty fair to me.. its a blessing to be a woman, i think.
[would you eat a bowl of live crickets for $40,000?] Ew.. that's okay..
[if you could change your name, what would it be?] Hayley
[if you had a band what would you name it?] Paper Thin.
[what do you wanna be when you grow up?] A Writer
[gonna go to college?] I am currently attending
[where do you want to live?] MD
[who do you love?] my family, all my friends, my reveiwers, my future husband and kids.
[who do you hate?] people who think they are better than everyone else..
[if you had to dye your hair right now, what color would you make it?] i wouldn't
[if you had to get a body piercing right now where would it be?] my lip
[if you had to get a tattoo right now, what would it be?] wrist
[if you were gonna be stuck on a deserted tropical island forever with one other person who would you want it to be?] Either Nick Wheeler from AAR, Or Chad Michael Murray from Freaky Friday. ::whistles::



WOOO. that's it. Praise the Lord. My back hurts. I'm going to bed now. Peace.
>>.Yankz.

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the survey i did earlier.. [10 Aug 2003|10:29pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | til i get over u | m. branch ]

well, that guy jake that was on my famous guy I'd bang list, his real name is Chad Michael Murray. :nods: Oh, I'd bang him. Okay, that's all. Peace.
>>.Yankz.

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