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yooo sons of a bitches go to my livejournal
www.livejournal.com/users/episode_22
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"where do you run to, so far away?"
hi.
i love the new and improved Bri Unit. ahh <33333
Alecia, your "The Oprah" this means, that
your always there for everybody. your house is
the place to be, and your always surrounded by
your friends. your one of the funniest people
out of all your friends and you know it!!
everytime anyones with you, someone pees in
there pants you its true!! your really
understand and everyone loves your crazy
personality...holler!!
The New & Better BRI UNIT...who are you??
brought to you by Quizilla
BOOBIES IN YOUR FACE...so yeah today was fun, supposed to hang out with john...ditched me. i mean i ditched him yesterday and i was sooo sorry for it. but he did it to me back? i dont know, either hes 1) Immature, or 2) "Doesnt Care"
i dont know. im just really upset. im not mad, im just really upset.
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wow.
wow.
i smell like pee :)
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[07 Jan 2004|08:13pm] |
"i know you feel like the walls are closing in on you, its hard to find relief, and people can be so cold. when darkness is upon your door and you feel like you cant take anymore."
i have only a few things to say. one of my best friends is going away, for a long time. i just dont know what to say about this girl. she has given me so much in these past two years. i love her more than words can describe. she has impacted my life in so many ways, all the memories that i share with her are going to last me a lifetime. all the times she slept over my house, all the stupid shit we did and no matter how much trouble we got in, i dont regret a second of it. and all the punishments i received i still would never take back anything i did, knowing how much she means to me..
right now it doesnt even feel like she is leaving. i just cant come to reality with it. last night i cried when i found out from a close friend of mine. and i was sitting in bed just going over everything that i had ever done, said, thought about with her. everything and anything. i never truely thought this day would come. tomorrow morning, she will be gone...and wont be returning for quite some time. and it fucking hurts so much. i wish i could take away her pain, i wish i could take away her sadness but nothing i do now is going to help her. all i can do is express how much i love and appreciate everything she has done for me. all the stupid fights lasted about 2 days maximum. and i owe her. i owe her for being my friend, my best friend and staying with me through thick and thin. and i will count down to the days i see her again, and all the memories we will have yet again. more times to fuck up and be young, more times to just hang out and be kids.
so let me sit here and thank you for all you have done for me and the people around you. i can honestly sit here and say that you will be loved no matter where and no matter how long you are gone. and when that day comes when you return i will be waiting at your doorstep with arms wide open.
i love you best friend.
"if you need to fall apart, i can mend a broken heart, if you need to crash then crash, burn your not alone"
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[03 Jan 2004|09:33pm] |
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"You dont love me at all, but dont think that it bothers me at all..."
hi.
today was very pleasant. this morning after i put the christmas shit away i went to breakfast with nay, dave and mike. it was very very fun. and the waitress was way too nice. then mike left and me nay and dave went to the bowling alley and fucked around..then we went to nays house and we pierced my cartlidge. it looks fucking awesome. then we pierced hers. after that we left and walked around, you know how we do the usual rebel shit. HA im fucking gay. then we went back to nays and played video games. i own. then just hung around, watched TV fucked around. then i came home and was bugging out about my mom seeing my cartilidge but whatever.
tomorrow ehh? well i wanna go out to dinner or some shit with everybody, and yes alex that means you too. shit. then walk around and be the rebelious little kids we are...and if we dont do that, lets at least do something the last remaining hours of hour freedom. BAH! i hate school :\
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"Let the stories be told, let them say what they want
Let the photos be old, let them show what they want."
hi.
well i havent updating in a while. i have been hanging out with nay john dave steve alex mike erin and mel. its been alotta fun. i love you guys so much. thank you for making my break amazing.
well, tonight i attempted to dye my hair. [keyword: attempt]..i mean it came out fine but its not light. it is how my hair was just a lighter color. but anyways after i dyed my hair i went to johns..we hung around and shit and i learned how to play the first verse of The Sacrement on guitar.. :) i felt all cool. then we walked to 711 it was a nice walk and then we chilled at this garden thing on some bench eating our food. then we walked home and john called jill and they were fighting about shit and some of it involved me and i feel like shit. i mean i dont want her to hate me, but me and john are best friends and she has to deal with that. i <3 that girl i thought she was awesome but she hates me and i dont know what to do.. then we got back to johns and we were just talking and shit on his bed and i gave him a purple nirple and he gave one back. BASTARD THAT HURT! then i came home. good night with my brother.
tomorrow, i am going to go to ihop with nay mike and possibly steve and justin. then whatever. i cant believe break is over in 2 fucking days. and that saddens me SOOOOOO much.
ohh yeah and happy new years. my new years was simply amazing. simply amazing. no fucking words.
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[01 Jan 2004|03:30pm] |
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"Heres to the nights we felt alive..heres to the tears you knew youd cry..."
hi.
it is a brand new year and for some reason instead of thinking to myself "Oh a great way to start all over, change the things that i regret.." i am sitting here fucking freaking out. thinking of the future. we are all growing up soo quickly and theres nothing we can do about it. i was talking to john and nay and they made me feel like 100x better than i did before. thanks guys. i love you.
Grandis3: dude im gunna be right next to you right after we graduate
fucxkxyouemok1d: i know how we lost our truce with never getting into fights and shit, but right now i just pretend it never happens, and im glad we can talk about it. but i agree with john when they say congrad class of 06 and we're inthe football field of CHS me and john will be standing there right next to you, "saying i cant belivee we made it"
ahh i love my friends. thank you for an amazing yet dramatic year.
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"All your wounds are full of salt."
hi,
well i havent updated in a while. i think since tuesday :\ well christmas eve, went to nays :) it was fun. i learned how to play clocks on piano. christmas = disaster, i dont wanna talk about it. Friday mel came yay! that was fun..i love her so much. here are some pictures of that night...
"Make you sick, make you ill.."
then saturday night, me and mel hung out with john and had such a kick ass time. nathans, pathmark, mandees [oh god] uhm..207. bitch! and best buy all and all the night = major fun. here are some pics of that night...
"the competition has to stop"
well that has been my last couple of days kiddies. tomorrow i am supposed to hang out with john. yeah should be fun. tuesday, im sleeping at alexs. so i probably wont update til wenesday. so i guess until then. goodbye.
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"Nothings gonna stop me now, California here we come, right back where we started from..."
hi,
school *gay* as usual. although during the pep rally [ra ra ra!] i was pressing the orgasm key chain when it got really quiet so that gave me a couple of immature good laughs. after gayness i went to johns and we chillaxed. watched *hey arnold* then played DDR which by the way [isuckroyalballsat] then i tried to skateboard [keyword:tried]. OH GOD! i was skating when all of a sudden my back leg goes up in the air and i fall like 3 feet in the air on my back. it was SOOOOOO great. john almost peed. then we hackeysaked. then i learned how to play some of The Sacrament on the guitar. then right before jill came john was playing with a lighter and i guess he thought it would be funny if he took his deodorant and made some sort of flame thrower out of it. so then he torched my arm. HURT SO BAD! made him feel bad about it :) i rule. then chilled with jill<333. played mario kart. I DOMINATE. then watched Freaky Friday with johns little sister Jenna aka Killah. i love killah sooooooooo much. she owns. then yeah i went home. fun yet *painful* day.
Grandis3: my parents like u
mnpltd dream: how do you know?
Grandis3: how do i know..
mnpltd dream: yes
Grandis3: they said
mnpltd dream: whatd they say?
Grandis3: tey say ur sooo sweet
Grandis3: and funny
Grandis3: my sister likes u
tomorrow is christmas eve! and i am going to nays house because her mom invited me to a christmas party of some sort? possible riots may break out? along with genocides..yes possible.
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[22 Dec 2003|09:46pm] |
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"Take me in, im yours again for a while...just like the last time."
hi,
i feel like shit lately, and i dont understand why. these past two weeks have sucked so much. i feel like i am being cut off from air and all i need to do is breathe but my body wont let me. ugh :\ i dont know what to do. i feel so out of place and soooo overwhelmed. i just need to get out of here.
tell me why you even care..tell me why im worth it..just say the words i want to hear.
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[21 Dec 2003|07:06am] |
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"Just one thing makes me forget -- red, red wine..."
hi,
friday, went to the mall with nay, tom, dave, erin, zach, and chuck. first we walked around looked at shit. we decided we were hungry. but we had to wait like 15/20 mins so we stood outside & we started dancing infront of this massive amount of people. me & tom were doing like some african ritual dance? me and nay were square danced *promenade your partner* then we got food -- went to fye and chilled, then we had to go. car ride? oh god.
BUT the best part of the mall is when nay bought me my christmas present. we were walking and like THE PICTURE PLACE had a black and white sketch of johnny depp in a frame. and i like shit and nay was like thats it im buying it for you for christmas. your my best friend. aww nay i <33 you so much. thank you.
erin came back to my house. we were just chillin & what not. then i was air guitaring for like 2 hours while she was on the fone with d'mar. after chillaxin, its about 330? and we are hungry. so we sneak out and go to pathmark and get marshmellows, hot cocoa, vanilla and deuche a la leche haggin daaz. run back to my house eat it. do the same thing we did before then went to sleep at about 5. when we woke up we just chilled for like the rest of the day. it was relaxing.
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"want to be able to tell you whats going on in my life..."
hi,
well yesterday i went to school *derh* and it was a little weird with matt but then we got better and now i think we are ok. and then after school i hung out with john and we went all crazy with our [MASSDESRUCTION] --ha! were such rebels. yeah after all the crazy-ness, he left. much fun and love johnnayy boy<3
--today
i wore my BK hat [that me&john] got the whole day, it was amazing!
ha it was so great. so many people we like whered you get that? and im like
DONT YOU KNOW?!?! IM THE MOTHER FUCKING BURGER KING!! ha great<3
well right now, i am going to eat dinner...then go to the mall with nay, tom, erin, dave, and his friends. should be a memorable night as it always is. THOMASS I WILL MISS YOU SO MUCH ON YOUR MONTH TRIP!! well its more like 2/3 weeks but still thats close enough :\
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"it just takes some time, little girl youre in the middle of the ride, everything will be just fine, everything will be alright..."
hi,
today wasnt good. me & matt broke up. although i am upset about it, it was probably the best thing to do in our situation. i just dont want it to be weird tomorrow when i see him but i know there will be alot of awkward silences but i will try hard to not do that. hopefully we can still be friends like we were in the beginning.
but other than that, i am ok.
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"With the absence of eye i can start to breath again..."
hi,
i havent updated in a while because blurty [SUCKSMYMOTHERSPENIS]. anways things are good. except for the fact that i got into the biggest fight with my mom today. ugh, sometimes i hate her so much. yeah -- this weekend [friday] i have no idea what im going to do. [saturday] matts show<33 *im excited* then after the show -- doing whatever. [sunday] bake sale for youth group, then matts show again<33 *still excited*
well if you would like to come to the shows with me, or even just hang out whenever. ahh, for some reason i think that its going to snow this weekend and cancel the shows AGAIN!! stupid snow :-O! so yeah...
i cant stand this shit sometimes. all the shit that goes on between my friends and i. all the secrets, all the "betraying" its all fucking dick. grow up and move on. who cares..you wanna forget about the past?! then fucking do it. ok well thats all i wanted to say about my current situation with my friends and i.
much love for my matthew--im so excited for the shows this weekend! i want to make posters haha i dont know why, but i thought it would be really funny. me--your only groupie...well anyways to all of you that dont know about matts shows IM him [Freedom 0F rock] and get your ass on down there.
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"...but i want you to stay."
hi,
very funny conversation with kyle:
mnpltd dream: :-!
mnpltd dream: wtf is that
Straydork85: hahah
Straydork85: its a foot in mouth
Straydork85: i get it
mnpltd dream: foot boy?
mnpltd dream: ohh
Straydork85: look the foot
Straydork85: as the mout
mnpltd dream: yeah thats gay
Straydork85: hahaha i never knew that
mnpltd dream: foot boy is better
Straydork85: yeah
Straydork85: thast its new name
Straydork85: foot boy
mnpltd dream: foot boy
mnpltd dream: :-X<----WTF IS THAT?!?!?
mnpltd dream: ahh its all a conspiracy
Straydork85: no idea
Straydork85: train track mouth?
Straydork85: :'(
mnpltd dream: "x" marks the spot kid?
Straydork85: whats that one?
Straydork85: i dont get it..
mnpltd dream: emo boy
Straydork85: haha
Straydork85: he needs a sweater then
mnpltd dream: and eyeliner
-- later on --
mnpltd dream: wow im so lame.
Straydork85: naw its ok
Straydork85: your cool im a dork
mnpltd dream: a stray one
Straydork85: so lame is an upgrade for me
Straydork85: yes
mnpltd dream: well we can just be big lame dorks together and play chess and drink soy milk and buy pocket protectors and go to sciene fairs and put noxema on each other
Straydork85: i drink soy milk lol
Straydork85: i was drinking it the other day
mnpltd dream: see
mnpltd dream: we are big lame dorks
Straydork85: noxema ahhaha
mnpltd dream: and i went to a science fair the other day
mnpltd dream: it was destiny.
-- ohh the greatness --
oh man i love you kyle
getting ready for alex's, then nikki is coming back to sleepover then in the morning going to get breakfast, visit cheesy, and then go to the mall to get my matty a present...i love you matt
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"the beautiful people, the beautiful people..."
hi,
well today i found out that apparently i look like Marilyn Manson. i <3 him so much. ya know what else i love? i love when even AFTER the fact that we put everything behind us and i honestly thought that we were ok, she goes and says that i look like him and make fun of me. i fucking love it -- also i wasnt even in school. shows how tough she is, cant even say it to me. she really is from commack. damn man, you people make me proud.
well here you go...compare and contrast...
 THE BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE, THE BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!!!
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"Its empty tonight, and im all alone, get me through this one.."
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i was origionally going to get rid of this journal because of the links..ahh! i dont know whats wrong with them. can someone help me?---
right now -- home from school baby.
well, me and matts one month is this sunday and i dont know if we are going to be able to hang out because his parents are mad about his report card..err! but i will walk to his house anyways and he will sneak out. i dont care what the quakers say to that one. bastard quakers! well anyways here is a pic of us, so click the link.
--a picture is worth a thousand words--
...ahh the cuteness.
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I HATE THE MOTHER FUCKING SNOW WITH A BURNING SENSATION!!! (that means alot)
although nikki does get to stay here from being snowed in, everything is somewhat better...matt! madness was cancelled but hopefully today & tomorrow wont be. and if they are, then dont be all mr. sadface because theyre will be more shows for you guys to play amazing in. i love you.
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fucking way too sad...
hi,
ugh..i dont even know what to say. everything with mare....everything! and matt i never talk to you after school because of band practice and youre quaker parents and my grandmother and her fucking clients and not being able to go online until she and my mom are done with work which is always at like 1030..and youre already offline. ugh its not fucking fair. why does this have to happen? mare. its not fucking right what they are doing. i fucking hate the government.
alecia
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