Below are the most recent 13 friends' journal entries.

Saturday, September 6th, 2008
blurtysecret [ deepxtrouble ]	11:42p	(Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 3rd, 2008
blurtysecret [ ___looselips ]	10:45p	I'm completely and utterly obsessed with EVERYTHING that has to do with the Twilight series. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
hella_quotes [ xflipp3floppx ]	9:07p	here some good one girls! [1.] And when you figure out love is all that matters after all, it sure makes everything else seem so small. [2.] Be with someone who knows what they have when they have you. [3.] He has the most adorable eyes I could ever fall for and the cutest smile. He has the ability to make me laugh every time he speaks and takes my breath away. [4.] Honestly, I don't care what anyone says. You're the one I want and it doesn't matter what they say. [5.] I absolutely love everything about you, your big head, your big blue eyes, and mostly who you are deep down inside. [6.] I can't help losing myself with every kiss, every kiss goodnight. I can't help losing myself; I can't help losing myself in you. [7.] I'd walk to you if I had no other way. [8.] I wonder how many people never get the one they want but end up with the one they’re supposed to have. [9.] I’ve learned that when you love someone you should treat them the way that you feel because sometimes words just aren’t enough. [10.] If someone loves you give love back to them in whatever way you can, not only because they love you but because in a way they are teaching you to love & how to open your heart & eyes to everything. [11.] If the words are in your heart they should come out of your mouth. [12.] It all comes down to what’s on your mind at two in the morning. [13.] It’s kinda like.. The difference between putting your hand on your knee, and him putting his hand on your knee. When you touch your knee, you don't feel it; nothing happens, its just there. But when he has his hand there, you feel everything; every move of his palm, every squeeze of his hand, and every brush of his finger. And you feel it right down to your toes and up to your neck and everything in your body tingles, but it’s the most wonderful thing ever. [14.] Just promise me one thing. You won’t turn out to be like all the rest. [15.] Kiss her likes she’s famous, hold her likes she’s everything & tell her that she’s the only one for you. [16.] Look, a lot of people lost themselves in love. It’s no shame. They write songs about it. The hitch is you can’t stay lost. [17.] Looking back at what I've been through, I'd be a complete mess if I didn't have you. [18.] Love cannot fail but people can make it fail. [19.] Love doesn’t begin & end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle. Love is a war. Love is growing up. [20.] Love is giving up everything for someone who makes you forget what was important in the first place. [21.] Love is when you’re having the worst day & you see him & everything gets better. [22.] Love is when you do things you swore you’d never do. [23.] Once you care so much about someone to say ‘I love you’ & mean it with all your heart you’ll never forget them no matter how hard you try. [24.] My world was crashing around me. Then there was you. [25.] Real love stories never have endings. [26.] The world moves for love. It kneels before it in awe. [27.] To fall in love is awfully simple but to fall out of love is just simply awful. [28.] True love is when you can’t describe what you like about him. [29.] Want to know where you heart is? Look where your mind wanders. [30.] We live for the people we like & die for the people we love. [31.] When you love a person you’re giving them the power to hurt you. [32.] When you love someone all our saved up wishes start coming true. [33.] You can’t control when you lose your heart. All you can do is pray that the person who has it realizes its value. [34.] You don’t realize how much you’d give up for that one person until you have nothing at all except them. [35.] You only fall in love once. The rest is just practice to make sure your heart can take it. [36.] I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love and I can't let you go.** [37.] If I could choose any guy I wanted, I would still choose you.** [38.] Oh, kiss me and smile for me Tell me that you'll wait for me Hold me like you'll never let me go.** [39.] Take my hand and close your eyes, say the sweet little things that make me cry.** [40.] The way our hands fit, the way our eyes meet, the way I melt when you're holding me. There's not a piece that’s out of place. I can see the way I feel, it's written on your face, and there's no mistake.** [41.] We are all born with half a heart and it takes a while to find the other part but I found you and your half fits perfectly.** [42.] Why is it everyone looks at him and doesn't see how wonderful he is? Because I saw it the first time I laid eyes on him. I don't think I knew it then, but I guess I was falling in love.** [43.] You don't know what you do to me, you don't have a clue, and you don't know what it's like to be me, looking at you.** [44.] You know you're in love when the hardest thing is to say goodbye.** [45.] You told me I was beautiful. And even though a lot of people tell me that, I think you're the only one who really meant it. For you were the only one who really took the time to look.** [46.] You've got the arms I want around me, the eyes I want to loose myself in, and the voice I could listen to forever.** (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008
unsent [ stonedfairy ]	10:27p	hopefully the last letter to you dear raphael, I understand completely your position in the situation. I can't force you to want to be with me and I understand and appreciate the fact you don't want a relationship. however, as understanding as I am, I also have to look out for myself. I can't continue whatever semblence of a friendship we have when inside I know I want more from you. I can not and will no longer continue to have a physical relationship with you knowing we will never be as we were before. it's detrimental to my well being and driving me insane. so when I told you that I had to take some time away from you and had to stop talking to you for an undeterminable amount of time I knew you wouldn't be thrilled. but for you to be angry really hurt my feelings. I expected you to at least try and be understanding of my situation. I love you and you don't feel that way about me anymore so I can't hide my feelings everytime I'm around you just so you can have your cake and eat it too. if you were a true friend you would respect the necessary measures I have to take for me to be okay instead of being rude, mean and turning around and playing the victim. but I suppose I should stop being surprised at you disappointing me. all the best Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: jeezyy =) (Comment on this)
blurtysecret [ chopxsuey ]	5:30p	the first picture was taken in april when i group of kids from my school went down together to help clean up. we're going back this february and by the looks of it, there is going to be a lot more work to be done this time around... i'm really worried about new orleans =/ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 1st, 2008
blurtysecret [ unodosthrice ]	1:21p	I don't want to meet your family. Because I'm scared... Him and his family are Spanish and I'm white. It's not that I'm afraid they won't accept me, because his Aunt already married a white dude. The thing that is freaking me out is that I'm afraid they will speak in Spanish around me. I don't know Spanish...and it makes me uncomfortable because I don't know what they're saying. What if they're talking about me and what they think of me? I'm being paranoid aren't I? Current Mood: restless (3 Comments |Comment on this)
hella_quotes [ allyboo ]	1:18a	just some poems i've written hey girls. i was just looking through my drawers and found these old poems i wrote throughout last year. i know they're not great, but let me know what you think! i hate this. everything. drama. boys. girls. petty arguments over nothing. it's a waste of time. why argue with someone you won't remember 20 years from now? pointless. ridiculous. it makes someone want to escape. sometimes permanently. what does that feel like? how can a stupid problem make you so upset it's worth risking it all? some people don't think it's that stupid. they just don't understand. they toy with people's emotions. build them up, then tear them down. it's selfish. fill your own greedy quota of the day-- make another one love me! why? you have your own, why do you need more? look for more compliments. one day there won't be anyone left to give them. good luck. do you remember that night? that one night that you honestly thought you couldn't live through? the night that time stopped and the only way you knew you were still alive was by finding your pulse? she had one of those nights. sitting in her car, her tears were disguised by the rain, just as her heartbeat was muffled by the windshield wipers. how could this have happened? she was young, she was in love, she was looking forward to a life with her husband. the side of the road is no place for a widow. her phone was lying on the seat beside her, still counting the seconds of the phone call. how long had it been since she'd answered the phone? 20 minutes -- 30? was that how long the baby had been screaming in the backseat? their baby. no longer was she catatonic. noises, smells, everything came crashing down on her at once. sirens blared, dogs barked, cars raced past her window. was her son tired or hungry? either way, he'd go home with his mother and be tucked into bed, not knowing what life with a father is like, not knowing that being in the wrong place at the wrong time can kill you, not knowing that by the end of the night he'd be an orphan. Current Mood: nervous (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 27th, 2008
unsent [ xyour_suicidex ]	9:20p	Dear A, I know i laughed when we fell for the same guy, but it's. not. funny. I'm pissed he picked you. I'm pissed no one wants me. - your best friend. or whatever. Dear Miss Mora, I wonder if you know you are the cause for my anxiety attack tonight. Okay, maybe that's not fair. I forgot my book. I need to take responsibility. But if i think about having to tell you tomorrow I don't have my homework, i will throw up. Coming back to this school was the worst idea I've ever had. I hate this. Love, everyone's favorite student, drea. (Comment on this)
unsent [ xyour_suicidex ]	9:20p	DEAR JAUSH YOU FUCKING WA. WHY ARE YOU SO GODDAMN OBLIVIOUS? OR MAYBE YOU'RE JUST SELF CENTERED. Fuck you. Fuck Kat Varone. Have fun with your new best friend. Don't think of this as jealousy, think of it as rejection, okay? Love, your old best friend. PS. Guess staying best friends at different schools was a load of shit, wasn't it? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2008
hella_quotes [ obscurityx ]	8:44p	Instead of requesting, requesting, requesting, why not type a little into google and share quotes with everyone else? It's not hard! Go to google and type, "Heartbreak quotes" or even better, "Heartbreak quotes forum" or "happy quotes" or "love quotes!" You'd be AMAZED that you can find your own quotes, and even help hella_quotes become more active with actual quotes instead of simply requests. =] ◄I didnt sleep last night. My mind wandered off to you. Not how great you are or about distant memories of us, no, that ship has sailed. I thought about how you shattered my heart and all of the ways I could set fire to your things without getting caught ◄&&if you listen carefully, you can still hear the beating of his broken heart. ◄You used words such as Beautiful & Perfection.. What I would give to hear those words leave your mouth now. -->So Tell Me, How do I Loose Everything I Never Really Had? ◄It's no big deal. Break her heart, let her down. Make her cry. You love her, right? Everything is fine. Don't call back, lead her on. It's no big deal, she's just a girl in love. ◄I'm your five minute romantic tragedy. ◄Kiss kiss, fall in love. ◄Save yourself, the secret's out. ◄We attach ourselves so strongly to people; when they're gone a part of us is too. ◄Put on your game face, cover up the scars. ◄She dropped __the fake [smile];; as a tear ran down her cheek;; she whispered to herself I can't do this anymore ◄She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego; and, her killer instinct tells her to, be aware of evil men. ◄And that's what you get for falling again, you can never get him outta your head. ◄And everything you ever said was just like another bullet to my head. ◄I'll draw you a picture, a picture with a twist. I'll draw it with my razorblade, I'll draw it on my wrist. And if I draw correctly, a red fountain will appear and wash away my sorrows and wash away my fears. ◄Never forget what they did to you, but never let them know you remember. ◄Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the bullshit, take chances, and never have any regrets. Because at one point, everything you did was exactly what you wanted. ◄I want a guy that I can go up to with mascara running down my cheeks and the first thing he says is, "Whose ass am I kicking?" ◄You'll wake up extra early, so you can look extra nice, for a boy who could care less. ◄While sitting on this cold kitchen floor, head down to hide the tears, I realized... I've realized that you were never meant for me. ◄Where's the beauty in a breakdown. ◄No one's in control when you're crazy ◄He's got a masters in personality, straight A's in smiles, and a PHD in breaking hearts. ◄And I'll clip my wings in this time of need, falling no more with no life of my own. ◄I'm not angry at him for lying to me; I'm angry at myself for believing him. ◄"Lie to me," she said. "I love you," he whispered. ◄&after a while it doesn't hurt anymore. Truth is, it starts to KILL. ◄And her eyes screamed the loudest apology. ◄Somehow, the conversation mentioned your name and someone asked if I knew you. Looking away, I thought of all the time we had together, sharing laughter, tears, jokes. Then suddenly you were gone. I looked up and replied, "Once, I thought I did." ◄So pull the trigger and let me go. ◄We stop loving ourselves when no one else does. ◄She loves like an assassin: cold and deadly. ◄I'm just your typical teenage failure. ◄We're as perfect as a highway car crash. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
blurtysecret [ pst_ur_old_newz ]	8:51p	My bestfriend just passed away last night from heart failure...19 years old...never smoked or drank. It shouldn't have happened. Not him..He was going somewhere, he was gonna be someone. I still can't believe its true. If anyone deserved to live a long happy life it was him. Im sorry for the request but im looking for some songs for this type of situation?..Anything is greatly appreciated. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 24th, 2008
unsent [ beautyandthorns ]	11:54p	Dear Asshat that I hate to love, For 6 years, you didn't have the balls to make a move. Hell, you barely got up the courage to tell me that you felt more than friendship. Maybe I was intimidating. But how intimidating can a 100-pound 15-year-old girl be? I grew out of my shyness, and once things started, I had no problem telling you how I felt. Once I knew what I wanted, I was not shy about making the first move, or making suggestive comments that I knew would hit home. Until suddenly, you weren't my old friend who loved me anymore, and you very swiftly made the jump to asshole guy just like every other who'd lied to and cheated on me. Then I wasn't shy either. I was forcefully distance. I made myself pull away from you, I spent time convincing myself that I was wrong, that I didn't really want you. Made the effort to regress to other boys, daydreaming about other men in an attempt to box away my feelings about you. And I was fine, really I was. I was fine until the very second we were within close proximity of each other. We talked as friends right up to the moment you looked at me and we had that spark. As always. For 6 years, you and I were both able to ignore and even deny the connection we had, the impossible attraction that wouldn't go away. And now, somehow, when it's the most amount of wrong attraction can be, you won't stop looking at me, and I can't ignore it anymore. You said and did nothing to move past friendship for 6 years, and now that you know I have feelings for you despite, not because of, who you are, you can't manage any amount of control. Despite the fact that you're the douchebag who keeps happening to me, and you know it, and don't seem to care.I can avoid your glances, keep my inappropriate tongue in cheek (with a multitude of meanings), turn my head when you hold my gaze, resist touch and close quarters. Yet, somehow, you persist, despite every inclination you have that reminds you how horrible you are for me. How did two people who used to be perfect for each other become entirely different people? How does a best and gallant guy friend become the next guy to screw me over? Without even blinking, you did it- you became the person we both hate. And I never wanted to hate you, no matter how our relationship worked out, because our friendship was always most important to me. I wish you would figure your ish out and return to the person I love, because I miss you. I even miss you as my best friend, because this pseudo-genuine version of him is not working for me. You should get on that so I can work on forgiving you. Right now, I can't. Love always, Your most recent debacle Current Mood: nostalgic (Comment on this)
blurtysecret [ xflipp3floppx ]	11:34p	guys and highschool two most confusing things in my life; guys and high school. Secret: Basically ive been crushing on this kid that i've been really good friends with really hard since second grade, no matter how hard i tried to stay away he'd always end up in one of my classes, on my bus, in a club, anywhere, everywhere all through elementry middle and highschool. its senior year now, and i want to do something, i need to do something. WHAT DO I DO?! many complications come along with each action that'd i'd take. Considering his girlfriend of a couple months heading to college, friends of group and i honestly dont know what do to! im also petrified of rejection. help? (3 Comments |Comment on this)