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It's been awhile since I've even thought about coming back to this place and updating about my life. Everything is crazy. I'm doing really well in my trade school though. I love life. It's beautiful where I live and I wouldn't change it for the world. I am going home this weekend for the labor day holiday, that should be nice since I'll be home for a good four days. Although, my mom is going through her own problems at the moment. She lost her job and has no way to pay rent once again, I feel bad and I worry about her all the time by being here. It scares me to think that she is going to be homeless or something one day and I won't be able to see her for awhile or something. Yet, in the end I know that she will pull out of it and be okay, hopefully. I just wanna get home this weekend and see my family and some friends and just lay back and relax while I'm at home. That may or may not happen. I do have tons of plans this weekend with friends, but for some reason I wanna go back to being my non-social self and just lock myself up in my room and be the old depressed girl that I use to be. That's not healthy for me though. When I left home I never thought in a million years that I would enjoy being away from home, enjoy being away from the online life, I was so addicted to it then, and now I don't even notice it. yeah I work on a computer all day long for my job, but I don't ever get on the internet anymore and check my e-mails, I try to check at least once a week to see if family or something has e-mailed me but other than that I never get online. This weekend will be different though, I'll be coming home and I am just itching to get back online, get on myspace, play counter-strike, play WOW get back on HALO live everything that I use to do. But, it's so easy for me to get addicted to that all again it'll be hard to leave on Tuesday.
My life isn't all that bad out here by the Columbia river. This town has a lot of history and I like it that way. I started my trade already for business and finance and then I'll be going into the two year college program they have here. Being by the coast and river is amazing and the sunsets are to die for, really. I have so many pictures on my phone of it, its just too damn beautiful to leave behind. But at the same time I need to go home and just relax and be myself for once, be lazy again and know I don't have to get up and clean at 7am before going to breakfast and then work. Knowing that I don't have 50 million meetings during the week to go to will be nice, but then I'll come back here and it'll all become reality again and then I'll look at this place and realize this is my life now and this is how you have to get by in life. It's not bad, but it's different and I'm still adjusting. Having four roommates is pretty tough, but I still love them because I'm very close to each of them. Anyway, I guess you could say thats my life in a nutshell for the past two months.
I'll write in the next month or two, if you guys are lucky.
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