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[14 Jul 2008|01:17pm] |
Tour may not have been awful. BUt this weekend was the worst moment of my drum corps career, EVER.
Usually on Friday nights we practice from 7-10. This friday they decidedt o make us rehearse until 7- almost 12am. (normally we go to sleep at 11:30). So, that was bullshit. Because they didnt tell us... we just kept on rehearsing. So that meant we didnt sleep as much (because we stillw oke up at 6:30 the next day) and then that also meant we didnt get to eat. So we were all pretty much just pissed.
Then Saturday... we woke up normal time but they decided to chop out a half hour of our morning time to get ready and eat. Which sucked because being on the cleanup crew already means I dont get as much time as anyone else. Esp. since im in charge. But anyway, so... we spent the first practically two hours doing the most tedious shit to create a "wave" like visual in the beginning of our show. Then, we had a short break to eat a littel bit.. and then the rest of rehearsal sucked cause it was just so hot out and what not but we ended at 1:45 (rather... 2.. because they never end us on time)... and ate... packed and wetn to our exhibition show. which sucked becuase it was SO fucking windy. then... we practiced AFTER the fucking show from 7:30-10 because PJ is an asshole (so we rehearsed a half hour later than the rest of hte drum corps). It sucked because a lot of peoples parents came because its closet o home.. but no they couldnt see us after the awful show because we had to fucking rehearse. ANd after the show, by the way, we had about... 45 minutes to change, eat dinner, and "relax" before we had to practice. BULL SHIT.
Sunday was even more awful. But Ireally dont feel like getting into it. Except for the fact that we rehearsed 2 hours later than we were supposed by schedule and about 20 minutesl ater because they never let us out on time. And they didnt tell us this until LUNCH on sunday. THANKS.
and through all of this my neck and my shoulder were killing me (which i got xrays on.. on thursday, so hopefullys omething good will come out of that) and Pj said "I don't care." He asked me finally on sunday night an hour before rehearsal ended if i was okay.... thank you, you faggot asshole.
ANd bean broke RObertas sickle so.. she had ot pick one of the "Extras" which me and karen spin and she watned mine.. so she got it.. so now I can't spin MY OWN weapon that ive been spinning ALL season because she WANTS it.
FUCKING BULLSHIT.
than last night I was so fuckign tired. BUt i went with Mike and the drummers (and JOn) to Applebees... which sucked because its like drummer time. NOrmally its cool.. but they never stop talking about drumming. especially with their instructors there. It was sort of miserable.
sort of.
This weekend just blew.
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[07 Jul 2008|08:44pm] |
home from first tour. it was not bad. it rained too much. lot of pain. lot of crap. etc.
and i think i pushed this too fast. in the wrong direction.
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[27 Jun 2008|05:26pm] |
i have the best relationship in the world.
all we do is watch movies and have sex. haha. woo.
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[27 Jun 2008|05:26pm] |
oh! and im going on tour tonight. until july 6th. going to be around the north here. CT, NH, NY, and MA. And then Im home for two weeks and on tour again for 24 days.
Yeah, Im excited. :) Our show is killer.
Were small but we're dangerous =P
And so is getting hit in teh face with a sabre.... (when I dont even spin sabre).
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[18 Jun 2008|01:38am] |
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The very moment you stop looking for something, you'll find exactly what you were looking for.
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[10 Jun 2008|12:26pm] |
I need to give Kelly Clarkson mad props for the song "Since You Been Gone" because I used to think the lyrics of 'since you been gone, I can breathe for the first time' were completely false..
but now, I'm realizing that's a totally accurate statement. Its hard to give up something when it's still around. It's gone completely, and now I can finally breathe. :)
Yeah, Kelly Clarkson, you're smart.
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[09 Jun 2008|02:47pm] |
It got to be 120 degrees this weekend on the blacktop we practiced on.
Oh My God. Thats almost like Lake Havasu in Arizona where we were last year for 2 days.
Shit's ridiculous. Fuckin' Global Warming.
It's not supposed to be nearly as bad this weekend, but.. damn.
I had a hot, disgusting weekend. With 3 good nights. :)
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[05 Jun 2008|06:36pm] |
I was trying to not like people... this summer. To not get involved with anyone. I failed. I failed miserably. And if that's not enough, he goes to school at UMD. Which is 3.5 hours away from here. So... that puts a damper on things.
But at least, thistime, i know how asinine it is to start off with. I thought htings would be doable last year, this year I just know its insane to even try.
So, although thats kind of sad... I know it, and its okay. At least I have happy times for the summer on tour.
I did well all year with not getting attached to people... after the one. And Im kind of mad because it would have worked my way if he would not talk to me as much as he does. haha. But Im loving every second of it. And I wouldn't have it any other way. Even if I know that it's going to be hard come September.
;)
Im happy.
Drum Corps this weekend. Its supposed to be 90+ degrees... and we're on blacktop (+5 degrees). Awesome!!! haha.
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[02 Jun 2008|10:44pm] |
Drum Corps could NOT being making me ANY happier right now.
Along with life without Ryan.
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[01 Jun 2008|10:56pm] |
So much is actually going on, in just the weekends. :)
SO raiders has picked up. We have finsihed our first song and half of our second one. Which is awesome from the end of may. completely awesome. I'm pretty much.. the go-to-girl on the flag line, whenever they need something, they always ask me.. so i feel important. For now, I have a flag solo.. and that's awesome!!!!!!!!!
I couldn't be more happier there. The flag line, right now, is so relaxed. We goof around a lot and it's so much fun. And hten the rifles are busting ass in the front, stressin' and although I love the limelight, I have to say.. it's so less stressful and so much more awesome. Even if Courtney and Marlene suck and Courtney iis the most disgusting person ever. One day, I might hurt her... verbally. She's just too annoying. And for her third year, how can you still be THAT bad?
Anyway, so.. amongst all the work... and whatnot.. the social aspect is amazing.
Last weekend was my first weekend, so i didn't really even try to talk toa nyone because people i knew. I hung out with Karen, Nat, and Nea all weekend. And then I went out to Applebees with Box, Tarboy, Jesse, and Mike after rehearsal on sunday. That was fun. I drove Michael home and at which point.. a beautiful ... friendhip? began to develop. :)
needless to say, he yoinked my screen name off facebook and then was talking to me online. We talked until 6am EVERYDAYt his week.. and well that basically explains what needs to be explained. It was a little difficult because actually, Marlene liked him and was very attached to him (they had hooked up prior, I think its funnya nd i dont care)... so I felt bad.. but... Idk. I was trying to be all sneaky about it.. bc I didnt want her to know at first.. However, friday night... I was hanging out with drumline and she was around.. and she realized that.. he was purposely not paying attention to her (even though i was being molested by Dome and Tarboy) haha.
After I explained my passion for Star Wars, Zelda, adn Porn, Dome asked me to marry him. ... and then again on Saturday. haha. So anyway, I was hanging out with Tarboy, Dome, Box, and Mike and whomever else was there.. Friday night. Didnt go to sleep until like.. 2:30, whuich was a rough time for rehearsal the next day.
The rest of hte weekend was a rough time. Losts of work.. little sleep lol. It was good though. I had a lot of fun. Im the life of the flag linea nd I keep everyone energized.
Im so happy. I donte ven know. :D
I dont even know if this makes sense.
I went to sleep at 4:30am on Thursday work up at 12pm, Rehearsal 7-10pm. Sleep 2:30-6:30am. Practice 8-8. Sleep 2:30am-6:30am. Rehearsal 8-4.
Lot of work. No sleep. lol. Thatt's why this is probably incoherent. I need sleep.
Im going. hahaha.
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[30 May 2008|03:13am] |
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TOO MUCH HAPPINESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. HAHAHA.
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[26 May 2008|08:07pm] |
This weekend was soooo good.
I worked Friday and reluctantly went to rehearsal at night. was a little over an hour late, but they didnt care, they knew. Went to guard rehearsal because I couldnt find tommy to talk to him and it was okay. We just did dance stuff. We're doing a lot more dance this year than last and I really like it. I hated flag basics in the morning.
Anyway, So... friday was nothing really. Just dancing. A lot. Then Saturday we woke up at 6:30am (ugh!!!) then started the day.
breakfast & stretch and run. First block was all dance followed by finishing the first song of our show in drill. then lunch. then sectionals NOT on the windy grassy patch where we learned flag work and then learned this ridiculous partner dance. Mop is my partner. And we were the only two who would do it right and Vanessa was like "what's your secret?" and we just looked at each other and laughed because neither one of us wanted to be there. (we were both contemplating switching the the hornline at the time). Then, we had fruity juicy. annnd then third block was ensemble which was fun as hell. I don'tactually mind being on the flag line, apparently. I like it.
After practice, we had to wait forever for dinner. so we went the the DD to go to the bathroom and then Karen and I hung out in my car and just talked. It was fun. Ate dinner then hung out till 10 so we could leave. I had to drive Nea, Coop, and Karen to the Boys and Girls club. In the parking lot Phil yelled at us for loud music, but whatever. Er, then shower, meeting, and sleep. I passed the fuck out as soon as I laid down.
Sunday, woke up at 6:30. Drove to the giant parkinglot which we call a field. Stretch & Ran then breakfast. We finished early so we had extra time to chill and relax. Then first block we danced again. And then did drill, but we didnt learn anythign new, just reviewed. Lunch. ON field Sectionals which was ridiculous. Being on the pavement ALL day was killer by the end of practice. THe other Shannon kept getting yelled at which drove me crazy because I kept thinking they were ytelling at me. I was happy Bean came, because I had no one near me otherwise. Then fruityjuicy. Then ensemble which wasnt as great as Saturday's but it wasnt bad. We kept having to run the same set and it forced me to run ALL the way across the field at least 12 times.
Then afterwards, we had to clean and what not... and then Box invitedme to go to applebees with him, Mike, Tarboy, and Jesse and that was fun. I drove Mike home because it was sort of on the way. And that was also fun.
Im sore. Im sunburned. Im tired. Im beat up. But at least I had a fun weekend and I dont regret my decision to stay with teh colorguard.......................yet.
:)
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[23 May 2008|01:40am] |
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Im good now. :)
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[20 May 2008|12:37pm] |
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU YOU FUCK FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
"fuck you" and "fuck" are now... autopilot.
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[19 May 2008|12:30pm] |
So I cant make up my mind about anything, as I predicted this year would be full of - indecision.
I have 5 dogs, but my puppies Sulu & Jordi are adorable. Two Golden Retrievers.
People suck.
I'm quitting my job........................... again.
I don't condone stupidity.
and..
I need to just give up already.
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[16 May 2008|10:45pm] |
my parents just bought TWO dogs.
WE ALREADY HAD THREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
NOW WE HAVE FIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
IM NEVER EVER EVER GOING TO ESCAPE FROM THE DOG HAIR! EVER!
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[16 May 2008|04:43am] |
I had to stop today and rationally think about why I was still concerned with things that happened 8 months ago. Why I was still concerned with people who didnt I dont matter to... And whenI think about it, it's very stupid.
I hung out with danny until like 2-2:30. Latish night. My mom said I could come home whenever [in a guilt provoking way], so... she can't get mad at me.. even though I was buggin' out the entire time saying I needed to go home... when I didnt.
I mean, we were playing Diddy Kong Racing for the longest time.... And... got attacked by a Raccoon in his backyard.... ... nothing bad...
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[15 May 2008|05:27pm] |
Kent Croft (my assistant manager) really needs to be the most amazing and helpful manager I've ever had. Moe is awesome, I love George, Tiffany was useless, Ray was a dicky manager but a cool dude, Jeff was bipolar... but Kent... is really helpful. And He wants me to go on tour with the Raiders (though he thinks its an internship) and he's really pushing to help me go... when Marc wont let me simply work weekdays and notweekends... he doesnt want me to leave, but working during the weekends is going to make me leave...
Bush is offering me a spot in their Corps.
I didn't make weapon at Raiders... (i made rifle for th elast song, but thats it). Bush is offering me a rifle spot...
Raiders we go on a 24 day tour. Today my mom told me to move out (! because im "too independent" - BECAUSE I WANTTO CUT MY HAIR AND DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT STUFF). So,i feel like i want to go on tour..
but if i work all summer andmake enough money to MAYBE start paying portion of my tuition, maybe shell get off my case???
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!
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[14 May 2008|11:49pm] |
I definitely just had the most irrational argument with my mom... because I told her I didn't want to talk about something that I found to be awkward..... so.... i said that was my basic right under the Constitution.. and she started talking about her right to not spend money on me (tuition)... and she was serious... as where I was joking...
and... that was completely unnecessary... and ridiculous.....
all I could do was walk away saying "wow"
my room is A MESS.
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[13 May 2008|03:20pm] |
If I could keep getting rejected from things that would be TOTALLY cool.
>:[
stop that!
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