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(2 | 44. caliber love letters)

Subject:	I LOVE YOU GINA!!!!!!
Time:	2:02 am.
Music:	manson // the speed of pain.

ginizzleeeeee: The Old Oak Tree
by: Gina Howes

There once was and old oak tree that sat in the middle of a field full of the greenest grass.
On this tree it said jack + susie = love cause every day at 12:00 school lunch they sat under that tree and ate . Just everything just felt so peace full there like there wasnt a care in the world . Days and days go bye and it started to get cold . The seasons were changing the floors got covered in snow and it was way too
ginizzleeeeee: cold to go out side and eat . So that school year passed and by that time the weather was hot again , jack and susie were still happily in love . Well sooner or later the both of them got married and moved to a different state . They one day a thought came to the mind of susie '' i wonder if our names are still carved into the bark of the old oak tree '' '' she said to jack '' Hes like yea the old oak tree lets make a trip there
ginizzleeeeee: tomorrow to see if its still there. Next day they wake up excited to see if there names are still carved into the tree and when they get there all there is is a parking lot and there all like wtf where the hell is the tree this story is so lame why the fuck did the build a fucking parking lot on my fucking tree gesh do we have to sit here and guard it damn .
ginizzleeeeee: tell me if you like it

(2 | 44. caliber love letters)

Time:	4:46 am.
Mood:	worried.

my life is slowly crashing down again. im losing everything. julie put it brilliantly "everytime i find happiness it gets taken away" why does this happen to the best of us? everything around me is just pounding into me in the worst ways. its like i was put here as a joke. for others entertainment. to toss and throw around like a rag doll. to be played with like a game. to be laughed at. this isnt how lifes supposed to be. no one should be living this horribly. i keep having mood swings. ill be fine and then its like im standing on the edge of the world. and the simplest stupidest most childish thing pisses me off and i just throw myself off the edge and break promises and ruin everything and just disappoint everyone. i cant keep this up. i just want to confess everything to the whole fucking world. let them know who i am and what i am about and what i stand for and why im here. let them know every fucking thing about me and him.

i need help.

( 44. caliber love letters)

Time:	6:52 pm.
Music:	evanescence // going under.

Today sucked like a lot. Because no one has talked to me all day. Except a couple people. And the Cadiz people arent on. They probably did something or are being antisocial today. Guys please come on and unbore me! haha

I didnt go to sleep til 9:30 am and I woke up around 4. Im screwed up soooo bad. Eep! I showed my mom the hair and she rolled her eyes. Whatever mom, Im sick of youuuu.

Someone needs to buy me this goddamn Evanescence CD like right now. Or for my birthday. hint hint nudge wink giggle. Okay i dont knowwwwww. I miss Baby Sam and Baby J! I think Im gonna watch the OVAC game until halftimes over then National Lampoons Senior Trip kuz Jack said it was funy or some shit like that.

Ben I need my bookbag and hoodie. *cries*

(4 | 44. caliber love letters)

Subject:	01.
Time:	4:35 am.
Mood:	bored.
Music:	casualties // get off my back.

hey world. i decided to get a blurty journal thing so paloo and everyone could read whats going on in my life. i have a livejournal (x_hopeless) so add me there if you care too. aim = clickkissbang MESSAGE ME IM BORED!

not much has been going on really. its wierd typing without being under friends only. hmm..from nothing has a show on the 9th of august at the rbi! everybody go. it makes or breaks it. good enough turn out = more shows. bad turn out = no more shows there! so everybody must show. i have fliers if you need a few and stuff.

ozzfest is coming up. i hope me and julie get ourselves a ride there. things are looking up for people it seems. yay im happy. i hope something happens with me thats good. today was shitty. no more days like today! i need to talk to steve. and i need to hug jack, i miss him so much. chris got home tonight! finally. :) gonna go now, check back later!
( Stevie Wonderrrrrr )