||Beating Heart Baby - Head Automatica
Wow.. it's been forever. I completely forgot that I even had this thing! Lets explain everything.
Summer 2004- Drew cheated on me with Kailee, more than once. I couldn't believe he did that. I trusted him soo much too. He's the only boy I've ever been in love with. I cheated on him with Mike in return. I tried ecstasy for the first time. I hung out with Drew, Jenni, and LoOla a lot during the summer. We were best friends.
October 2004- Drew and I broke up after 11 months. I broke up with him for this boy Charlie. It was obviously a big mistake because Charlie just fucked me over and was definately too good to be true. Surprise Surprise.
October 2004- I dated Charlie for a month, he like.. pretty much upped and dropped me out of a no where, it really sucked because I had genuine feelings for him.
November 2004- Jeff had a huge party, Drew and I hooked up, he cheated on his girlfriend Gina with me(no not my best friend). I met Matt for the firs time. Big mistake there. Thought for sure me and Drew were going to get back together, but I started hanging out and partying at Matt's with everybody. Drew started sneaking behind my back with Char. I started dating Matt. He is a 23 year old abusive alcoholic who lives in a hotel. Drew and I didn't get back together. I got expelled from school for skips.
December 2004- Matt beat the shit out of me quite a bit, I broke his nose. Finally left Matt for good. Met a boy off FaceTheJury who's name is Alex. He is gorgeous and we used to hang out a lot on the weekends. I spent New Years with Alex, when I probably should of been with all my friends at Matt's but Matt hated my guts and such and I really liked Alex.
January 2005- Finally told Matt to get the fuck out of my life, I hate that mother fucker. It is not okay to beat up a girl. He got hit by a car and thrown 20 feet, haha bastard deserved it. My friend group kind of split from each other and no one really hangs out together as much anymore. Drew started dating a girl named Monica. Alex randomly stopped talking to me out of no where, and like.. broke my heart. I'm easily heart broken I guess. I hung out with Danny for the first time by myself. My birthday was at the end of the month, my party was supposed to be huge, but it got really fucked up and ended up being me, Jeff, Patty and Charlie in a room since Drew, Uncle Joe and Kook left. I hung out with my BFF Courtney a lot and still do. On my birthday, January 30th, Drew cheated on Monica with me and completely led me on and fucked me over.
February 2005- I hang out with my BFF all the time. I sleep with random boys some times. Courtney and I don't like FaceTheJury boys so much. I really like Danny, and he likes me back. I had a second birthday party on Saturday. It was so fun, minus the little bit of drama that happened with Danny and I the next day since he lied to me about doing shit. I really like him a lot. I had sex with him in his car, so we consider ourselves Backseat Lovers. He really is amazing. But um.. what else.. I don't know.. I'm not really sure if there will ever be a Drew and Jackie again, I think I'm fine with that though.. I mean.. he's just too fucked up now. He cheats too much, he does too many drugs.
Anyways.. for the most part now, my life is genuinely happy. I mean.. I'm trying to get my life back on track, like going back to school and not partying as much. Well the not partying as much isn't true.. it's just.. I don't really get a chance to do it much lately haha. I'll try to remember to update this shit from time to time. Not that anyone reads it.. but you know... it's just how I do.