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[7-2-05 at 3am] |
all i can do is think about him.
this isn't right. this isn't normal.
i'm not supposed to care about
someone this much.
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[6-30-05 at 4pm] |
last night i just sat at my computer, and for an hour straight, looked at everyone's profiles and myspaces' and livejounals. the only thing i could be was jealous. i mean, looking at all their pictures and seeing what they do with their lives, it makes me realize that they have everything that i want. they have the popularity and they have the integrity. me, i just sit back and wait for everything to happen. i'm not a go getter. i just stay locked in this dark place, waiting for someone to come and rescue me. i constantly am asking myself what did i do to deserve this? am i really that horrible of a person to deserve these unwanted looks and insuperior personality. i just dont get it. why do some people get it all? for once in my life, i want to be known as something, as having done something. i've dug myself this six foot hole, and there are no hands to get me out.
so, do you care what you wish for,
it may come true,
but the september sky, how it
whispered " i love you "
but i couldn't take it any longer,
no i couldn't stand it
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[6-30-05 at 4pm] |
you could always keep her laughing
because she's gonna need a lot of that
take her out to a movie
it's gonna take some time
before shes back on her feet
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[6-25-05 at 1am] |
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whose the smart ass that said "high school will be the best time of your life?" i'd like to know what they were on. seriously. i find that more kids are saying they hate high school then those that say they love it. it's just a constant pressure to fit into this perfect, plastic world. i'm not going to sit here and critize those who follow, because i will be the first to admit that i am one. i wear the designer clothes and paint my face with makeup to cover up what i hate, but without it, i don't think that i would of made it this far. i think high school is just one big excuse to party hard and lack in academics. why would you waste 7 hours of your day sitting there and then just not do your work. people are so fucking ignorant. i don't get it. i can't stand those who enjoy high school and love it. i dont know, maybe i'm just being jealous.
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[6-13-05 at 8pm] |
i wasted my whole year
staring at him, wishing
he spent the whole year
staring back, wondering..
LYRICS?
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[6-8-05 at 11pm] |
I'm a slow motion accident
Lost in coffee rings and fingerprints
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[6-8-05 at 11pm] |
Getting tired, hating all I've known.
Holding on, like it's all I have.
Count me out, when it's clear that I, find it hard to say.
And you, find it hard to care
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[6-8-05 at 11pm] |
THIS ISN'T HOLLYWOOD,
ITS NOT FINE
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[6-6-05 at 11pm] |
Don't look now, it's telling lies again
Don't you know that the mirror is not your friend
Unless you're beautiful && then, it could be the
answer to your problems ©
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[5-27-05 at 10pm] |
i don't do it for show.
i don't do it for you to see.
i do it to rid of everything.
why do you care so much
when its not even hurting you.
its hurting me
and thats all the counts
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[5-13-05 at 8pm] |
they say when your mean to people
its because of insecurity.
i've now realized they were right.
as much as i hate to admit it.
they were right.
i've put down everyone in my
path to make myself see so much
more happy
yet, the more i put people down
the worse i get
life works in funny ways, eh?
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[5-12-05 at 4pm] |
i was asked if i was happy?
i answered yes.
but as soon as i did
i realized that if i was
really happy
i wouldn't have gashes on my wrist
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[5-12-05 at 3pm] |
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ITS ALWAYS YOU IN MY BIG DREAMS
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[4-21-05 at 1pm] |
Depressed.
What an overrated word.
You have overpriveleged kids saying
they have everything, yet they're broken
inside, depressed.
It kind of makes you wonder, the more you have,
the more broken you are inside.
take it from me.
i'm the textbook case.
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[4-21-05 at 1pm] |
Depressed.
What an overrated word.
You have overpriveleged kids saying
they have everything, yet they're broken
inside, depressed.
It kind of makes you wonder, the more you have,
the more broken you are inside.
take it from me.
i'm the textbook case.
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[3-31-05 at 1pm] |
I CAME OUT HERE TO TELL YOU
IT RAINS IN HEAVEN ALL DAY LONG!
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[3-29-05 at 2pm] |
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& YOU WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH THE MOONLIGHT
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[3-20-05 at 12am] |
& TO BE COMPLETELY HONEST
YOUR NOT LIKE ALL THE REST
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[3-16-05 at 3pm] |
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i think i'm the unhappiest i've ever been.
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[3-13-05 at 2pm] |
lets make a list of who we need,
then we'll throw it away
because we don't need anyone
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