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PICTURES! [27 Oct 2003|02:03pm] what it is to burn

sights by christine [08 Mar 2003|10:54pm] moi; making love to the camera. bad Ramsay.. bad, bad Ramsay!! Nick. Cassidy. My hand. "It's muurrrrrdahhhh!" that is all. xo 7 who know... what it is to burn

[06 Mar 2003|10:55pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | onelinedrawing ] ATTENTION! ATTENTION! Alright boys and girls, you're all on a mission: Help Roxy Find a Good Guy requirments: [+] good personality (funny, sweet, kind, caring, etc..) [+] good looking (6 ft. or higher, shaggy hair) [+] location doesn't matter! [+] doesn't lie, cheat, and screw girls over. [+] age range: 17 - 20. [+] must love making out. <333 [+] good taste in music. [+] loves sillyness and is very outgoing. [+] artistic in some sort of way. that sounds just about right. alright, stop wasting time, FIND ME A BOY! xo 1 who know... what it is to burn

my oh my.. [30 Jan 2003|06:52pm] [ mood | bitchy ] [ music | Bright Eyes ] Wednesday was just wonderful. I took my American Hisotry midterm (and I totally kicked it's ass!) and it was a breeze. Laura gave me a ride home and I cleaned up around the house. Then I made plans with Jenn and everything worked out.. sorta! I took the train out to Babylon and got in @ 5:15pm. Jenn picked me up and gave me a huge hug! She's so awesome. We went to her house and yes, I'm going to steal Squeeks or whatever his name is, lol. Nick Mac picked us up and we drove to Rich's house and picked him up. Once again, the windshield wipper broke. It only breaks when I'm in the car, haha. We drove to the St. James Dinner because Lindsay was having her lil' birthday shindig there. Jason and Tym were there! <3 I met Christina and she's super rad and has such beautiful eyes! It was a lot of fun. Our waitress was disgusting. Her name is Floppy. She was so drunk.. so so drunk. After the dinner, we went over to Lindsay's big ass beautiful house and watched a little bit of Requium For a Dream. Tym and Jason are hysterical. They're the reason why I need to learn to drive and get a car, hahaha! Prank phone calls are fun. Jason's skinny feet and and assless.. umm.. ass are funny, hehe. Gosh, I wish I lived closer. So Nick Mac, Jenn, and I leave and we drop Jenn off. We go to Nick's house and meet up with Sean, Kyle, Tim, Adam, Charlie, Evan, and a few other people. We watched The Dave Chapple Show which was fucking hilarious. We went to The Forum Dinner in Bayshore and then Kyle drove me home. Kyle is the easiter person to talk to. He's one of those people who I can say anything to and I don't have to hold anything back. He rocks like that. Umm.. I got in trouble.. AGAIN! I came home all sorts of late. Blah. Screw my parents seriously. They don't know what it's like to have friends that live soooooo far away. Curfews = RAH RAH RAH! Yea.. um, anyways.. Tomorrow, it looks like I'm skipping school. I'm going to the David Gray concert @ Madison Square Garden. Fun fun fun. Goodbye all. :/ 3 who know... what it is to burn

this is our party [28 Jan 2003|11:43am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Orchid ] Last night was the first rehearsal for "Grease." It was silly. Sitting in the auditorium between Bobby and Balki, I read my script. Something didn't seem right though. Oh right - I didn't have one line in the whole musical. I guess that's what happens when they decide to put you in the Chorus. It was really weird not doing the read-through.. I feel very useless. Whatever. On the positive side, I don't have to go to many practices. That rocks so much. Haha, I was on the phone with Tym for at least 2 hours last night too. That kid is hysterical. He made me laugh a lot. I'm going to go to his house someday soon and just totaly use him for his IO Digital Cable and watch movies to the max. Mwuahahaha.. I mean - what? Nahh, he's really, really funny. And I hope I can get a ride out to Smithtown tomorrow.. A LITTLE HELP PLEASE!!!! Today I had my English Midterm and I kicked it's ass. It was all sorts of easy which made me happy. Blah. I have to clean up my room and do some laundering. Tonight, Bennett and I are supposed to go out to dinner. I'm totaly skipping dance because my back hurts anyway. So we'll go get food over on the North Shore or something. This will be interesting.. since the last time I saw him I was completely shitty and don't remember much of what we said to each other. All I remember is crying.. a lot. BLAH! NO MORE CRYING OVER BOYS! Especially Bennett.. he's one of my really goods friends.. he was before the whole "us" thing occured. In the words of Austin, "Rah Rah Rah.." Anyway. I'm going to go get my clean on. And then my launder on. Word. xo 1 who know... what it is to burn

dun dun dun [27 Jan 2003|03:28pm] [ mood | listless ] Well now, what a weekend I had. Friday ending up sucking. Plans fell through with Bennett. He was out in Brooklyn and wasn't coming home until Saturday morning. So I stayed home and just chilled. Saturday I woke up around 10am and went to a 2 hour yoga class which was soooooooo nice. Came home, showered, cleaned my room, and had breakfest. Around 1:30, Mom drove me to the Speonk train station and I took a 1:59 train to Babylon. Paulie picked me up and brought me to Nick Mac's. Evan showed up and we went to Taco Bell and Looney Tunes. After, we drove to the Local 7 and it was shutdown. No Vince either. Nick (broken face Nick, lol) was in his car and we started talking to him. He tells us that his friends are hanging out with Badluck 13 @ Jillian's, so Nick jumps in Evan's car and we drive over. The show ended up moving to the new venue, Long Island Headquaters. Hahaha, the whole fucking scene followed Evan down Southern State. It's was the LIxHC Caravan and Evan was leader. So we get the the show and oh my god, Badluck 13 played first.. it was FUCKING INSANE!!! I was a pussy and stood in the back room though. But still, it was just great. Now this is the bad part of the night. During For Dear Life, I was standing near people dancing because I was actually planning on dancing to my boys. So I'm standing there and out of no where, I get hit in the face really hard and fall over. I really don't remember much, I guess I was a bit unconcious. All I remember is telling someone to stop putting ice on the abck of my head because I didn't want my hair to get messed up, haha! Anyways.. thank to you everyone who helped me out. I seriously appreciate it soo much. It's nice to know that I have friends who look out for me <3 I have a huge ass bump on the back of my head. Oh and it was John Assip who hit me, lol. My neck and back hurt a lot too.. maybe I should get check out or something by a doctor just incase? :/ My camera broke too. I need to figure out what's wrong with it. That really pissed me off because I was really looking foward to taking pictures of Aeschylus (and they played wonderfully). Dave sent me much love and that made me happy. During the show, I hung around Jason and Tym. They're amazing and I need to hang out with them more. I met Cristine and she was so sweet and really funny. We were all doing slow sloppy mosh and skipping.. The Fellowship was fun to dance to. We were throwin' up the hoods.. gangsta stylie, wow.. this is ridiculous, lol. It was all sorts of fun with the 3 of them. After the show, Meagan, Nick Mac, Kristen and I went to Gavin's for a party. We met up with Smally, Steve Mosh, Bennett, Evan, Tim, Joy, and Bob. Now that was soooooooo much fun. I met this guy Adam who was really nice and such a sweetie. Um.. I drank way too much and got completly sloshed. Bennett and I spoke about "us" and that didn't go so well. I cried.. a lot. Tim was a sweetheart to me. And then Smally pulled me into the bathroom and talked to me which made me feel a million times better. Thank you, Smally. <3 I was in such a dancing mood, haha, we were dancing to Madonna and Biggie.. it was a lot of fun. I ended up not going home either. I stayed at Gavin's with Nick. Holy shit, Sean snores so fucking loud. Blah there was a fight and I still don't know details. All I know is that Steve got hurt and so did Bob. Around 5am, everyone started falling asleep.. I think? I woke up at 9am and called Mom & Dad telling them where I was. I took a 10:24am train to Speonk and Dad picked me up. He lectured me the whole ride home. I deserved it though. So I had the worst hangover ever too. When I got home, I showered and fell asleep from 1 to 6pm and then had dinner. Went back to my room and watched "Gone With the Wind" (my most favorite movie) and cried like always. I called Bennett and we're hanging out tomorrow. I called Joy and told her I was sorry for being a bitch and thanked her for helping me when I got hit. Me and her are hanging out soon and I'm happy. :) She's so wonderful. I'm not sure if I'll be using my computer at home anytime soon.. lol. So I'll try to update as much as possible. I hope everyone had a better weekend than mine. Blah.. midterms = stupid. Tuesday: English 11 Honors. Wednesday: American History. Thursday: NOTHING!!!!!!!! Good luck all. Have a good day/week. xo 5 who know... what it is to burn

Phone Check, Nigga! [25 Jan 2003|01:23am] [ mood | silly ] [ music | Comedy Central ] I claimed Alex for Valentine's Day. <3 I asked Jason to come with me to my Prom. <3 I get to see my slut, Justin tomorrow. He calls me his 'Pimp Mastah Roxy.' <3 Damn.. I'm doing well with the boys today. xo 1 who know... what it is to burn

i was a kaleidoscope [24 Jan 2003|04:35pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Death Cab For Cutie ] I have a journal where I am going to post pictures only. http://www.livejournal.com/~7brokenstrings/ Add it to your friends list.. that is, if you have a livejournal. It's open for everyone too! <3 xo roxy what it is to burn

Nothing here to fear.. [23 Jan 2003|03:03pm] [ mood | listless ] [ music | Tori Amos ] I decided it's time for an update. Originally, I was going to delete this thing because.. well just because. But then I realized that I'd eventually start up another journal online. Anyways.. This week has had its ups and downs. Monday was the day where everything, I guess you could say, came crashing down. Reverting back to a friendship after hooking up numerous times and becoming emotionally attached is always a killer. Tears were shed. My heart.. ehh, slightly broken. But friends is what we're going to stay.. I hope. He's picking me up from school on Friday and we're spending the day together. I wonder if it's true.. does sex really ruin everything? :/ Tueday was the day where procrastination officially ended. I got my mother fucking permit after.. forever. My dad took me to the DMV and I only got 5 questions wrong on the test. The lady even let me pick what picture I wanted on my permit. That afternoon, my dad took my driving after school.. and I'm surprisingly good at driving. Except, when he took me on Sunrise Hwy. That was a total mistake. It's not so cool when dad is screaming, "BRAKE! STOP! USE YOUR BLINKER! PULL THE FUCK OVER!" Oh boy, I cried. That night I had dance and my knees are in so much pain. I wore my new dance pants that I bought @ H&M and they're soooooo nice to dance in. I own at tap dancing. ;) Wednesday was the day that I had Tonic's and Kendal and I went on Mission's around the school after it was over. We even got in trouble with the school security guard. And I even got the solo in one of the songs we're singing at the Spring Concert. I got my rehersal sheet for GREASE and everything starts next week, the week of Midterms. My goal is to not get kicked out of this production... :) Today is the day that I do absolutely NOTHING. I'd do anything in the world to go see Dillinger Escape Plan tonight but that won't happen. School nights = shit. :( Friday is going to be the day that Bennett picks me up from school and we'll chill here in Hampton Bays. Maybe he'll let me drive his car if I beg and plead? Ha, I doubt it. Tomorrow will be.. I don't know, interesting? Possibly tears.. I'm so nervous. Really, really nervous. I hate that I'm such a fuck up. :'( Saturday I'm going to the show @ the Local 7. Aeschylus, Gabriel, For Dear Life, The Fellowship (aww final show), and The Ambition are playing. I'm going to take all sorts of wonderful pictures of those Aeschylus boys. They're so photogenic, haha! Nick Mac is fullfilling the honors of getting me wasted out of my mind. He has a PhD in getting girls drunk, for those of you who don't know.. Well. That sums up about everything so far. And since I have to go clean and whatnot, this would be a good place to end this entry. Have a good day kids. xo 3 who know... what it is to burn

[20 Jan 2003|10:37pm] I was right. I'm single again. 2 who know... what it is to burn

I've seen a friend killed by a friend.. [20 Jan 2003|05:59pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | Bjork ] So, there was no answer. My heart is racing so fast. The rage inside me is building up more and more. I have this need to scream at the top of my lungs. The tears are back again.. Why do I feel like something is going on behind my back? maybe there is.. :( what it is to burn

Ever just wanna say "fuck it" and not care anymore? [20 Jan 2003|12:34pm] [ mood | working ] [ music | Susan Tedeschi ] First of all.. Happy Birthday Martin Luther King, Jr. Haha, I just had to get that out of the way. Last night consisted of Ian comming over at 11ish and stealing be from this shithole! We drove into the city again and this time we just walked aroubd aimlessly down in the village. It was so nice. I'm going to miss him a lot when he leaves for Colorado. He might be home for my birthday. Sweet. We got into Hampton Bays around 8am, ha! That was great. So I woke up at 10:30am. Did some yoga and then mom and I made pancakes!! Mmmm.. they were so good. All afternoon of yesterday, me and my sister chilled. Like, we actually got along. And my mom got scared. She came into my room and started to question us. It got to the point that I was crying because I was laughing so hard. She said the funniest shit ever. I'm surprised that we're getting along.. I hope this lasts. I really enjoy being close with her. Awww sister-bonding moment, lol. Alright, tomorrow, I'm going to the DMV (finally). And today I have to do a massive amount of American History work. As well as study for the stupid permit test. Oh, I almost forgot, must clean my room too. Wow, I'm so busy today, and I wish I wasn't. I rather sleep. I got about 3 hours today. Oh well. Have a good day kids. xo what it is to burn

It's more wide awake and dying then I'm used to [19 Jan 2003|04:56pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | Howie Day ] Last night, Ian fuckin' McGowan came home from Utah and I was the lucky girl who got to go on his fucking adventure of the day. He picked me up around 10ish and of course, we went to the diner and we got our usual breakfest. I was laughing the entire time, it was so great. I forgot how much fun it is to chill with that kid. So we did a lot of catching up and a lot of laughing. He said he loves my hair and that if he was a girl, he'd have this haircut, haha! Anyways, we had nothing to do and we didn't want to stay in Hampton Bays. So what did we do? We drive to the city. Yup, that's right. We drove down to Tompkins Square Park, got some coffee and walked in the freezing cold weather. But it was okay, because I was with Ian. We're the only fucktards that would go into the city with like 10 bucks in our pockets. We bum rushed our friend, Olivia. She just moved to Little italy and her appartment is fucking cute as hell. She gave us food and we chilled there for a while. When it was 4am, we decided it was time to go home. I fell asleep on the way home, but Ian woke me up by blasting Ludacris, hahaha! That was amazing. He leaves for Colorado on Tuesday, so it was nice to spend some time with him before he leaves again. I love old friends that just pop out from no where and you have a great night with them. So today, I went to the mall, but without Jason. Mehh, it was okay. I bought some pants at H&M and that's it. I forgot to get 10g plugs. Stupid me. Oh I forgot, I cut my hair. I was getting annoyed with how the long part was too long, so I made it edgier and shorter. It's hot sex, trust me kids. When I decide not to be lazy anymore, I'll post pictures of the show from last week, and all week at school, and lip ring pics, and the new cut. Well now, I have to go clean my room and help my mommy with dinner. Tonight, I might be lucky enough to chill with Ian again!!! Woooooo! xo what it is to burn

Choruscore, brah. [17 Jan 2003|03:50pm] [ mood | moody ] [ music | Dreams Forever Drowning ] It's cute how I didn't get a lead in the musical. I made the chorus.. the mother fucking chorus. Ummm.. let's recap: - I've had leads in the past 4 productions. - I've never in my life been a chorus girl. - I'm hardly in the musical. Oh this should be fun. Kendal even got in the chorus.. this is weak.. fucking weak. This was unfair casting at it's finest. And it's decided.. Kendal and I are going to sabtage everything.. and upstage the leads.. and ruin it all! HA! DIE! Mickey Blue Eyes will be tripped and shit. "Sparkle, Sparkle! Oooh sorry I poked you in your slanted eye!" Chorus x Crew was just invented.. Choruscore to the max! And you have to be selected to be in it, sucka. Yup.. the play is based around sabatage and food.. I guess this will be okay since I have my CxC member, Kendal <3 2 who know... what it is to burn

today i felland felt better.. [16 Jan 2003|11:01pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | The Used ] First of all, I'd like to thank VickyMouse for cheering me up tonight. I look foward to see this jig in person, hehe! <3 My auditions last night for the musical went horrible, all thanks to my father. He decided that on the way to auditions he was going to "give me sone advice." Advice given from my father = harsh insults and putdown's. Thank you, Daddy Dearest, for making sure that I know that I will never succeed with musical theatre, better yet, never make it to Broadway. Telling me to "give up now while you still can" really made my night. If it wasn't for Balki, I would have left the audition. So, overal, my audition was bad. My voice sounded shakey because I just finished crying and I read my monologue too quickly. The cast list will be posted on Tuesday. All I want is a lead. I work hard.. I really deserve it. :: sigh :: It's going to be a three-day weekend, which makes me very happy. I'm trying to arrange another Miskreant Sleepover this weekend.. Jason and I might be going shopping (this better happen, you slutbucket <3).. and Jen being the sweatheart she is, invited me to her Sweet 16 which is on Saturday. I hope I can go because that'll be a lot of fun. No Bennett this weekend, which sucks. He said he'd come out during the week though. Very nice. :) Alright.. an early night, because I have to wake up early, shower, dye my hair red (weeeeeee!) and then go to school. Goodnight. Sleep sweet all. xo so drive away your mouth from my ears and waste a day so i can think clearly and what's left to wait for here. as my hands sleep spent this last year, choking the bottle's neck that pulled you from my bed.. ~ Death Cab For Cutie what it is to burn

Aeschylus Rock Party. [12 Jan 2003|02:51pm] me and Bennett. :) Dave drinkin' his fo-de.. lol. More pictures from the Aeschylus show will be posted later. xo 1 who know... what it is to burn

Would it matter if I stayed a little longer... [11 Jan 2003|12:50am] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | Denali ] Jonah said something funny in Photo and it made me laugh.. hehe. Teeky and I are hot hot sex. Hilary = my art project. Tom = my art project. AL = my ary project. Bobby; my best friend since 2nd grade.. and piano prodigy. No joke. this picture proves that Dane sucks at life. <3 I begged Balki not to make love to my camera.. what it is to burn

well well well.. [05 Jan 2003|04:01pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Simon & Garfunkle - America ] Tim, John, Nick Mac, Kyle, Bennett, & Matt outside the church. Kyle's amazing LIKE WHOA belt. So yesterday was a lot of fun. Mom drove me to the Speonk train station and I got into Babylon @ 1pm. Bennett picked me up and we went to his house and he got dressed and whatever. John came over and we chilled there until 2:30ish, and then we all got into Bennett's car and drove to the church. And sitting in the church was Nick Mac, Kyle, and Matt.So basically, I was laughing the entire time. The bride looked beautiful. Tim showed up really late. And his cell phone went off in the middle of it. After the wedding we went to a Chinese resturaunt where they knew all the guys. So all the guys went to the reception and Bennett and I went back to his house.. we almost fell asleep. We decided to go see "Gangs of New York", and it was good.. but I was sorta dissapointed. Whatever. It was nice just relaxing with him. Mehh, we had a little problem.. that it was worked out so that's always a good thing. I feel so lucky to be with him.. I really do. :) Tomorrow, I go back to school tomorrow. And I'm not looking fowardb to it at all. I need to finish my canvas in Drawing & painting.. make something in Cermaics.. hand in really late American History homework and take a test.. ughhhhh!!!!!!! Just kill me now, with knives. I have the weekend to look foward to though. On the 11th, Aeschylus is playing a show and I believe Mia and I are going together. I plan on video taping and taking pictures too. Good times! Hopefully Bennett and I will be able to be alone for some time after.. hehehehe.. I hope he comes out to see me during the week. That would rock so so much. Ew.. I have so much homework "that I have to do." Okay.. I guess, I'm off. :( Goodbye.. xo Jason was right.. this song does make you feel infinite.. 4 who know... what it is to burn

oh? [03 Jan 2003|11:39pm] moi. Bennett English <3 pretty lights. and that was my trip to Brooklyn on New Years Day. xo 1 who know... what it is to burn

what am i to do, if i can't have you? [03 Jan 2003|06:27pm] [ mood | jubilant ] [ music | Lenny Kravitz ] He invited me to go with him to a wedding tomorrow! Yup. I'm not going to stop giggling until I see him. What a ridiculously happy mood I am in!!! And I have to read 32 chapters in Huck Finn, haha! Eeep! I need to find a dress to wear!! He makes me feel sooooooooo happy! <3 2 who know... what it is to burn

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