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Today, Pluto is no longer a planet.... http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060824/ap_on_sc/planet_mutiny So what happens to the phrase: My Very Eager Mother Just Served Us Nine Planets ??? |
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| 09:48am 28/07/2006 | ||||
See.... I do alot of things, just nothing of interest or importance. if I actually detailed my days lately it would be.... woke up, played WoW, checked e-mail, looked at porn, walked park, played WoW, porn, e-mail, walk park, e-mail, porn, WoW.....close park, cook dinner, WoW, porn, West Wing, sleep. How exciting eh? Well, recently now some new things have come up. I am still goin to Al-anon meetings, but not regularly. With gas reaching almost $3 a gal its hard to drive 45min to Winston-Salem and then back.... thats alot of money! But the program has helped and I a goin to try and work it more now. Casey, my puppy is doing well. We started puppy kindergarden this past tuesday. Hopefully after a few more weeks she will behave better around people and actually listen when I call her name. Right now she knows her name..... only if she wants too. For instance, when I have a treat and call her she knows her name. But if she goes runnin down the road to play with someone on the other end of the park she chooses not to listen to her name. But hppefully that will change. Also joined the local Volunteer Fire deptartment. Will hopefully start trainning soon... for now though I can help with vehicle accidents, and groud/wildland fires. I will at some point work my way up to structure fires !!! Woooo Hoooooooo. And the guys there are really cool, I think I'll enjoy it. Ohhhh the drugs have kicked in now!!! "DRUGS?! What are you doing SEAN?" You ask... Well I am taking Oxycotin!!! WOOT... yea, yesturday I slammed my finger in my truck door. I sliced the underside of my finger open and got 6 stitches. I also almost crushed the second nuckle. All of this for some OJ and brownies.... I was hungry! So now they have me on some very nice pain meds which I took this morning and am feeling now. Its like a nice warm cozy feeling all over. And my muscles are so relaxed.... I feel carefree and relazed. I like this feeling.... BUT I CAN'T HAVE IT ALL THE TIME and I know this :-D The nice thing about the accident though is the money I am getting for it. I have supplemental accident insurance. Here is the break down of the check I am getting: Emergency room treatment - $150 Ambulance Transportation - $100 Accident Follow-up treatment (for stitches removal) -$50 Lasceration -$25 minimum... but could be more. TOTAL - $325 And even better.... my cost for goin to ER is only $150. That means I get a check for $175 for cutting open my finger. Woot !!!! That money is goin to buy alot of beer and strippers to make my pain worth it. Oh yea.... I also went to my first Psyco doctor appointment. It went well and I was told everything I expected to hear: > I have anxienty problems > I am depressed > I am healthy and normal > Careful about my drinking cause of family history More details though.... All my life I have played the Hero/Martyr role in my family. I have been the one to sacrafice my happiness and time to make everyone else, and espcially my mother, happy. Thats why I tend to be more responsible then I need to be and why I take on more responsibility then I can handle. Also, apperently I still have self-esteem issues. I was pretty sure I had dealt with those though and I was doing better. I can beat-up on myself, sure.... but I thought I had self-esteem under control. (Note, write more on this subject when not drugged). We also talked about Mandy, Jaime, and Me. Everything here goes back to Chaos. Living in a home with alcholism and depression is living in Chaos. I have been raised to belive that love and life should involve lots of chaos, fighting, and arguments.... and that chaos and fighting are normal. Thing is... this isn't a subconcious belief. I ACTUALLY DO CONCIOUSLY BELIVE THIS... I really do. So for almost three years now I have been in what I consider an unhealthy relationship cause me and Mandy don't fight or have chaos and that drives me crazy. Then came along Jaime, red hair included. For 7mo Jaime gave me that chaotic relationship I craved. She dragged me to load bars full of people and chaos. She would randomly call me during the day or night with problems she needed me to solve. I never knew when I would get these calls and when I did it presented a problem and caused chaos. This also satisfied another need...... being the only person who could solver her problems made me feel needed. Needed in a very tangiable and direct way... it also allowed me to solve someone elses problems which is something I need to do. So being with Jaime for those 7 monthes satisfied three things I thought I needed: Chaos, ability to solve other people's problems, and being directly and tangiebly needed. Also, when I would cheat on mandy and then tell her I got the icing on the cake.... A FIGHT! It made Mandy angry and that just made everything even better. Compare all that with my relationship with mandy. By normal terms, our relationship is a VERY healthy one. We never fight, we both give and take equally (ok I may take a little more than give). We never push each other past our boundaries. And it drives me crazy cause I have no idea how to act, feel, live in this type of relationship. Without fighting I can't express my true feelings... without being able to solver mandy's problems I dont feel needed... there is no chaos to distract me reality. So..... I need to get better and I will continue to meet with these doctors. Eventually I will get better... I won't be depressed, I won't have so much anxiety about the future, I won't be embaressed by my family or past, I will be able to accept and be happy in a truly healthy relationship. Hmm new subject... I am still loving my job. I plan on being here through the summer of 2009 and then I will go to grad school. Why 2009? Because 2009 will be the 100th aniverssary of the park and we need to start planning something for it now. I would hate to start all the planning and work, and then leave befor the event occurs. Went to another DAS retreat last weekednd. It was fun, short though it seemed. Still haven't connect well with those guys though.... I mean, we all had good laughs together and shared some good times. But I still felt like a bit of an outsider. Oh yea.... I am considering going back to Church. The second step of Al-anon is "We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restor us to sanity." Well.... the only way I know how to interprett that is a God like being. So I am going to give it a try again. My two biggest fears though relate back to the Religouse Right and religous nuts. 1) I fear that by going to church peole will assume I am from the religous right just cause I go to church. Because I am guilty of making that assumption myself. 2) That my assumption is actually true and that everyone in the pews want to blow up abortion clinics, hate homosextuals, want to force christianity down the throats of every person in the world, and believe God is the SOLE reason anything good happens, and believe science is evil... etc. But I shall go anyways.... dont know when I will start, but I am going. Dr. Clapp helped to assure me that my fears were wrong though. He told me that the Crazy Religous Right are just a small fraction of most church goers. However, because they are the only vocal church goers it makes it seem that everyone is there way or atelast agree with them. So... we'll see. Alright.... too druggy to continue. I have lots of topics to write on I think so maybe I will pick back jounaling here again. By Bye |
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| 11:48am 06/06/2006 | |||
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So today is the apocolyps huh.... I hope god's furry is unleashed today and we all die. That would be so nice |
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| 04:06pm 20/05/2006 | |||
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Mother: Hi Justin! This is your mother it is 2:33 on Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous, and a little, well it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous too. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya and take care honey. See ya. Bye Bye! In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take Hate me today. Hate me tomorrow. Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you. Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow. Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you. Blue October (Hate Me) |
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| 01:19pm 09/04/2006 | ||||
Its been helpful hearing that they have gone through the same things and they feel the same way I do. It also helps because I see that they are getting better and it give me hope. Also, things sound like they are improving back home also. My mom has recieved some intensive and aggresive therapy which have helped bring her back from where she was and pointed her in the right direction. In addition to the therapy which will be on going, she is seeing a doctor to get medication. Instead of a regular physician though... she is going to a someone who deals just with mental illness for medice so it will be monitored correctly. Now that people know I am getting better... I guess I can up-date about whats been going on. Well I had a pretty wild weekend. Went down to Charlotte on Thursday to protest bush and almost got arrested. Starting chanting, "Save a Tree, Kill a Bush". I didn't real think about waht I was saying until a cop starting moving towards me... it then clicked and I stopped and tried to motion I didn't mean it. The cop backed off. And for the record... I really DIDN'T MEAN IT!!! I would never ever call for the assisination or untimely dealth of any US president no matter how much I disliked their policies. Then on friday helped at the Special Olympics which made me uncomfortable. I know I shouldn't be.... but I wasn't comfortable around all of these special needs and disabled people. I dont know why and I am sorry for feeling that way, but it was just well uncomfortable. Then that night I drove to Raleigh with Denise to see Rocky Horror Picture Show. Her friends Nicole, Angie, and someone else also came along. It was alot of fun and I actually do want to go back now.... to bad its a 2hr drive ugh. Didn't get back until 3:30 in the morning. Then saturday night went to Olive Garden with Dave, Steven, Steven's sister, and Krista. Had a bit of food then went bowling with them. So it was a good week and I am happy to..... well be happy again. I am not completely happy, but no long in that deep dark depression I had entered earlier. Oh yea..... I have been catching alot of fish two. They are pretty taste, yum |
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pleased| My Second Protest (Flicked Bush Off) | |||
| 05:46pm 08/04/2006 | |||
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I was here: Dozens protest president's visit 4/7/2006 8:18 AM By: Lisa Reyes, News 14 Carolina CHARLOTTE, N.C. – As President Bush spoke Thursday inside Halton Theater on the campus of Central Piedmont Community College, dozens of people gathered outside hoping to have their voices heard. More than 50 people lined Elizabeth Street holding signs and chanting in protest of the Bush administration. Although they had a permit to stage the demonstration, there were rules that had to be followed. Those who failed to comply were removed by police. Police escorted a masked man off the property, saying they warned him several times that a person's face cannot be covered during a public protest. Another man was arrested after he pulled out a pair of pliers. Several different groups mobilized together to stage the demonstration. Most came to protest the war in Iraq. "What did Iraq ever do to us?” asked protester Paul Barnette. “What did the people of Iraq ever do to America? Nothing." But others say they came out to rally against the president’s stand on religion. "I do not support Bush because Bush is trying to put biblical law on people,” said Sydney Wolffe. “The Bible has no space in politics; gay marriage has nothing to do with politics." Peter Murray was among the few Bush supporters to line up outside. He believes in a stronger homeland security plan, even if it includes war. He says without it, the opposition would not even have the right to protest. "God bless them. I wish they'd double in size,” he said. “It shows the type of country we have and it's worth defending because if they were in another country, they'd be taken to the back of the building and shot." The protest ended shortly after the conclusion of the president’s speech. Bush rules out apology for domestic spying program www.chinaview.cn 2006-04-07 06:31:57 WASHINGTON, April 6 (Xinhua) -- U.S. President George W. Bush, confronted face to face by a critic, said on Thursday he will not apologize for his decision to authorize the domestic spying program. The confrontation took place at the World Affairs Council of Charlotte, North Carolina, where the president took questions fromthe audience after delivering a speech defending his war policy. The challenger, identified himself as Harry Taylor, told Bush that he has never felt more ashamed of the leadership of his country. He said Bush has asserted his right to authorize domestic eavesdropping on U.S. citizens, to arrest people and hold them without charges and to revoke a woman's right to an abortion and so on. "I would hope from time to time that you have the humility and grace to be ashamed of yourself, " Taylor said. Saying he authorized the program to protect the country, Bush responded, "You said would I apologize for that? The answer is absolutely not." In his speech, the president acknowledged the concerns of Americans that Iraqis will not be able to take control of their violence-torn country. But Bush again defended his decision to go to war in Iraq, saying it was important that he follow up his words with action when Saddam Hussein refused to cooperate with the United Nations. Outside the auditorium, hundreds of protestors held an anti-Bush rally. They chanted, "Do your job!" and held signs with phrases such as "Liar" and "Worst President Ever." The speech was part of the White House's ongoing campaign aimedto boost support for Bush and his policy, at a time when the president faces weakening poll numbers, an increasingly unpopular war in Iraq and a rebellion in his own party over issues such as immigration reform. Enditem Editor: Wang Nan Bush draws protestors Posted on Thu, Apr. 06, 2006 Carrie Levine clevine@charlotteobserver.com Between 300 and 400 people protested the president’s visit on Elizabeth Avenue outside CPCC this morning. Around noon, as Bush finished speaking, about 150 protestors marched over to Fourth and Kings streets and gathered on a hill overlooking the motorcade route. Police kept them well back from the road, roping off an area with police tape strung from trees and a billboard. Signs and chants criticized the war in Iraq and Bush in general. They ranged from “To stop terrorism, stop terrorizing” to “Worst president ever.” Two arrests were made, police said. One man walked up to the building where Bush was speaking, and when stopped and asked for identification by police, pulled out purple flowers and a pair of pliers. He flung the flowers onto Elizabeth Avenue. The second man refused to take off a ski mask – even after police brought him a copy of an N.C. state statute that makes it illegal to cover your face a protest rally, Charlotte-Mecklenburg Police Capt. Mike Campagna said. Protesters also greeted the motorcade when the President arrived for his speech. Several of them stood on the hill near the motorcade route and shouted, “Do your job! Do your job!” at the arriving vehicles. |
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| 08:34pm 26/03/2006 | ||||
And it took me awhile, but I finally got internet out to the cabin also. They can't run a cable line cause its too far out so right now I am running off of dial-up. I am hoping to get DSL soon though. As far as the place I live. Its a really nice cabin that sits on a 100-acre wooded park (I'll get pics up soon). I don't pay rent or utilities, so my paycheck goes to all my debt and myself, not the house. Its a simple cabin, but plenty of room for me. Location is a bit rough though.... ~1/4-mile to my nearest neighbor ~20 min to the nearest wal-mart ~County I live in is Dry ~Closest city is bone dry (no beer) ~I have to drive my trash to the dump ~I have to drive to my mailbox I guess I was spoiled living in cities. I could walk to summits if I wanted too where they have a selection of 300 beers. Now I have to drive 30-40min to Winston-Salem where the largest selection ins 30 beers I also miss the Office.... people watching and actually kinda slipping into the sub-culture of america that I am absolutely enamored by. But nothing like the office is around here. It was also cool knowing two strippers (which has now become three). I miss the Farmers Market, having an entire warehouse of meets, produce, ect. from all over the world and at a decent price. Alright..... let me just get it out: I hate Atlanta... I would never want to live there again, its a pain in the ass city to travel in, the sprawl is horrible. However, I am not so thrilled living out here in the middle of fucking nowhere surrounded by stupid, rude, closeminded, destructive rednecks. I love my job though and I actually do love the idea of having acreage to live on with my own cabin. I guess I want my cake and eat it too.... city ammendities and people, but with acreage and a cabin to live in. Its only been 7weeks though...... so I might come around and aclimate to it sometime somehow. News about Mom She is checking in at Summit Ridge in about 15min for a week or two. Apperently things have only gotten worse down there since i have left and I am really starting to worry about how long I will have a mother. Everytime I see a call from her or dad I get a gut renching feelign that This could be the call. That I might have to drive home and put my mom into the ground. I heard a term on NPR a few weeks ago.... Anticipatory Grieving. Spouses of service men suffer from this..... they get so worried they may die in action that they actually start grieving there dealth befor it ever happens. I am doing that now.... and have been for about three months. Once my new health insurance kicks in, I am going in to talk to someone about this. Cause dispite how much I try to hide it... I am getting depressed myself. Hence the reason I probably can't fully enjoy my job, where I am living, or even the people around me. Shit... I can't even get aroused half the time anymore which I imagen is getting on mandy's nerves. I am a mess......... LOL and this post was just supposed to be about me moving back to NC. I really hope my mother checking into a hospital helps here.... though I imagen she is going into it with a huge chip on her shoulder and hating everyone involved and that it won't help a bit. But I hope it does.... and I hope I can get me some help soon too. Money issues both within my family and myself, this emotioonal rollercoaster I take with my mother's ups and downs, and me dealin wiht the stress of a new job, new house, new location, moving. I dont know how much more I can take. Alright I have to cut myself off here. Bye |
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| 12:53pm 01/02/2006 | ||||
Two nights ago befor my dad went to bed they hugged and exchanged kisses and told each other they love them. There seems to be a little tension still left in the house, like we are all walking on egg shells still...... but it could all be in my head. Despite the fact they are getting along, I still feel uneasy. There are random moments in the day where I feel like I just want to cry without knowing why. I feel so weak.... like I'm a pansy or something. I hate these feelings. There are things not right in my life and I can't quiet explain them.... but things just don't feel right. I feel I do need to add though.... I am glad to still have my mother around. Those feelings from two weeks ago I wrote about were my feelings, but despite them I would rather my mother be here with us then dead. God, I just wish I could feel happy again. Happy with all my desicions, life, relationships, work, people, family, money, everything.......... but I can't. I always want something else, something more... and I know I can't have it and it hurts. I just want to be happy again. |
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| 07:47am 24/01/2006 | |||
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She came home lastnight at some point... I am happy she is safe, healthy, and here, but........ I am afraid what the next few days, weeks, months are going to be like. |
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| 10:50pm 23/01/2006 | ||||
both my parents just left us..... they had a huge fight and now I am left to take care of my littlest sister I am tired too tired to talk.... thats why I am here (just so you know) I dont even know what the fight was about.... I couldn't do anything to stop it, or slow it down, I couldn't do anything actually.... I choose not to do anything I let them both walk out on us I dont want her to come back :-\ do you know how much it hurts to think that..... that you don't want your own mother to come home I often wondered how people could seperate themselves from there parents..... Like Mary did wiht her mother. I never knew how you could do that.... now I wish I knew how. I wish I had the strength to leave my mother but I love her too much to hurt her like that so... I suffer for her as I have done for 22 year She left driving the truck.... very very very erraticly. I dont know if she left to find my dad or to kill her self in an accident............. I wish, for her sake and ours, she left to kill herself I don't mean it out of hate.... I mean it with the most love I have in my heart. I know she is tired of living... and that this life is not what she wants and that it will never be what she wants. That she will never be truly happy until she is at final rest....... I want that for her I will miss her, it will hurt so much not to have her...... but she will finally be happy So.... I'm tired |
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| 11:12am 18/01/2006 | ||||
I get a call from the shop this morning explaining this to me and he's asking me to help him recover my credit card information so that he can re-bill me (again despite the fact that I have a reciept showing I paid for the puchase). If I was a jackass I would fight it and say, "Umm no, I have documentation I already paid and I am not going to help you recover information that your credit card company lost." I could look at it this way.... I write you a check for grocerys at Publix and if they loose my check they can't call me up and say, "Uh can you write us another check." They lost it, its there fault. But alas... I am not like that, and now I am going to go up and help them bill me. ** Edit ** Of course I did not give this guy any information over the phone, nor will I. I am going to the shop itself to speak with the person I met with the first time face to face to ensure this isn't a scam. |
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| 08:26pm 17/01/2006 | ||||
Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not considered by us to be opportunities to see if we can find the perfect present . . . . again! Sometimes we are not thinking about you. Live with it. Sunday = sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. Don't cut your hair. Ever. Long hair is always more attractive than short hair. One of the big reasons guys fear getting married is that married women always cut their hair, and by then you're stuck with her. Ask for what you want. Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it! We don't remember dates. . . .Period!! Most guys own three pairs of shoes - tops. What makes you think we'd be any good at choosing which pair, out of thirty, would look good with your dress? Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us. We've been tricked before!! If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one. Let us ogle. We are going to look anyway; it's genetic. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials. Christopher Columbus did not need directions, and neither do we. The relationship is never going to be like it was the first two months we were going out. Get over it. And quit whining to your girlfriends. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that. We are not mind readers and we never will be. Our lack of mind-reading ability is not proof of how little we care about you. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as porn, the shotgun formation, or monster trucks. Foreign films are best left to foreigners. (Unless it's Bruce Lee or some war flick where it doesn't really matter what they're saying anyway.) BEER is as exciting for us as handbags are for you. Thank you for reading this; Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight, but did you know, it's like camping. |
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| 12:22pm 15/01/2006 | ||||
It also helps to know one of the future strippers when you go!!! My friend Chrisitie has been waitressing there for the past month or so.... she'll start on stage next weekend. Got to favorites up there other then Christi... Kasey and Roxy. Though Kasey is a much better dance, both on stage and in the lap. The cool thing about this place, Maxin Caberete, is that they have a guys and girls side. So since I have been goin to MC with Jaime (She is friends with christi also) it works out cause we both get what we want..... including free drinks when Christi can sneak them. Well thats all I shall say about MC for now...... don't want to give away too many secrets and get myself in trouble. Ugh... all i will say is I can't wait to next weekend when i have my goin away party and the 'hot seat' :-D |
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| 04:10pm 04/01/2006 | ||||
Christmas went pretty well. Sadly, Megan and Ashley's gifts didn't show up in time. The iPODs we orded them did show up in plenty of time, but the DVDs and CDs didn't. Megan's CDs showed up the next day and come to find out Ashley's DVDs will never arrive because Columbia House DVD won't give me a membership for some undisclosed reason. But they were happy with the iPODs... actually they were more then happy. I had a good christmas also... Mandy got me a starting set of tools including a first aid kit. My parents got me a Home Beer Brew Kit, some jeans, a shaving kit, and Season 5 of the West Wing. Then I got a few odds and ends from other family members. Of course I have enjoyed the Beer Kit the most.... just another two weeks and my first batch will be done. Mom was extremely happy with her Emeril Kitchenware set which kepted her in decent spirits by the end of the day. I say this because we went over to my Uncles house to visit my Uncle Tom his husband Robert, Aunt Jennifer, and Nana. Mom some how managed to keep a smile on her face during the 3hr visit and it didn't really seem like a month ago she had ripped all of them a new one over the phone. She was still hurt though that by the end of hte night no mention was made of Nana visiting us at the house and she never did visit before she left. Despite all of this I don't think mom has had any more major break downs lately. She can get a little emotional at times, but hasn't gotten too bad thankfully. Spent most of the remaining offtime from Xmas to New Years loungin around the house, sleeping, and surfin the net for porn. I know exciting isn't it! Then on thursday morning I left atlanta for Newport News, VA (Mandy). On the flight over I drink 2 rum-and-cokes before 8am to calm myself from the hell I am leaving. Landed in Virginia and mandy drove me to her place. Get to her house and she cooks me breakfast... eggs, bacon, toast. It was wonderful. We then proceed to spend the rest of the day watching TV / Movies. Finally the boredom is overwhelming and we get out of the house later that night and we check out what CW looks like at night durning Christmas. I was hopin for a brightly lit Christmas Villiage type deal.... but all they do is put lights in the windows cause it has to look historicly accurate. Also... they put up wreaths with real fruit. I walked up onto someones patio apparently to try and eat the fruit, but mandy yelled at me in time and told me waht I was doing..... opps. Oh yea we also went and met Dana at Sacred Grounds earlier in the day. Friday we wake up and mandy cooks me some burgers for lunch. Well they were undercook so try cooking them a bit longer and in the process burn two of Mandy's mom's burner covers. So, after lunch we go and deposit my paychecks and buy replacement burner covers. Again spend most of the day loungin around watchin TV and movies. Later that night we go out and kidnap Kristen and go to the Corner Pocket which is a really really nice, clean, nearly smokeless pool hall ( I know is that possible?! ). Mandy and Kristen played agaist me and won every game except one. The one game I won... mandy scratched on the break. We then went over to Jess' place and watched her and her bf play World of Warcraft. Now these two are serious gamers. They are sitting next to each other on different computers playing with a third mini-computer goin which they use apparently to talk with other tream members... WOW Saturday we desperately try to find something to do..... though I ban movies of any kind (By this point we had watched 5 movies). Instead I get volunteered to help there briend Robbie move a few boxes from his house to a storage unit. This meant spending about an hour or two with a family friend and mandy's dad. Just the three of us.... it was actually kinda nice. Have a few beers, move some stuff, and just shot the shit.... not bad. Oh yea.... speakin of beer. That would be a theme of the week. Get home and start lookin for something to do for New Years. In the meantime I am fed lots and lots of Red Clam chowder which her dad made from scratch and also introduced to eating raw clam. Ehh.... no so much on the raw clam. It gets to be around 10pm and still no plans for New Years and I get moppy. But thankfully Rachel calls us and we are off to her hosue for the New Years which instatly puts me in better spirits. Many beers and shots afterwards and we ring in a new year... Sunday wake up and head back to Mandy's place. Later in the day we would head to Kerry Town in Richmond.... but everything was closed up because it was a Sunday or New Years. Even the movie theature wasn't showin movies till later..... thankfully since I had banned any more movie watchin. Then I have to direct mandy on how to get back to the Interstate and out of a city I have never driven in befor. And I manage to do it really well too!! Get back to her place and watchin football with her family while drinkin more beer. Monday wake up.... meet up with Dana and mandy's friend Kate at Sacred Grounds. We chill and eat some lunch while chatting. Not really much to say about it all.... Kate and Dana were surprised at the story of how me and Mandy met and also the story of how mandy is the naked girl at all the parties unless she is drinking. Go home and guess what.... 'watchin' a movie. Then Mandy's mom comes home and we have some dinner before I head to the airport to fly home. The flight home again was a mess. I was supposed to leave at 7:15.... but the plane didn't show up until mid-night due to weather and mechanical problems. Its the mechanical problems that bothered me the most. So we sat the airport bar and I drank myself calm. We also chatted with a few guys from Boston which made mandy cring a bit since i started picken up their accent. hehehehe...... But the plane finally showed up and I left with all my stuff after a little lost phone scare. Get home and mom picks me up from the airport.... go and and sleep (at 3:30am) Total movies watched: 7 Total Beer Drank: Unknown... Mandy's dad just kept feeding them too me |
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| 08:56am 23/12/2005 | ||||
Well this gets me all excited cause I am goin to a strip club (for the first time) with two hot red heads, one of which is also a stipper. SCORE! Not how the evening went...... Get to The Office and Jaime runs around and says hi to everyone she hasn't scene. Talks with her guy friend Denom and begs and begs for a drink. He finally gives in and the two start flirting. Long story short, Demon asks Jaime to go out wiht him and she gives him a story about why she doesn't want to date.... he gets aggervated and tells her to buzz off then. (He got aggervated cause the two have flirted every time they see each other and Jaime has given VERY clear signals she wants something) Well Jaime is upset so she starts thrown down every drink in sight and gets pretty waisted in under and hour. We finally drag (literally drag) herself out of the bar and start driving her home when she lets loose with the loudest, angriest, most hateful rant I had heard since my mom. All we can do is sit in the car we are driving in as she lets loose on the world, me, Christie, and even Christie's son. After about an hour of this we get her home and make our way to drop Christie off... Thinking I am done for the night, Christie proceeds to sit in my car and smoke two cigerettes while she gives me the sob story of her life with her dad, non-existant mother, long history with Jaime, why what Jaime said her so much... yada yada yada. Now its not that I am insenstive to her feelings. Its just.... it was 1:30 in the morning, I wasn't getting a strip club, and I had already heard everyting from Jaime. I just wanted a break... but I was a good friend and listed while I aet McDonalds (We got it on the way to drop Jaime off). Get home lookin forward to a nice bed to sleep in and...... now my mom wants to take off for a week with her car, a case of soda, and her cigerettes. She doesn't give any indication of where she watns to go or anything. Apparently while I was gone today Ashley upset mom and compound that with a few drinks and she went off again. By the end of the night she was screaming that she just wanted to Die and be done with everything. We finally get her calmed down and sobered up enough to put her to bed and I get to sleep around 3:30 am. Well its not 9 and I have already been up for an hour.... off to work. |
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| Why Gay Marriage is dangerous!! | ||||
| 04:21pm 15/12/2005 | ||||
I now know why so many people fear gay marriage and civil unions. They claimed it threated the sactity of heterosextual marriages, but I didn't belive it until today. A commonly known fact is that %50 of marriages in the US end in divorce. Well look at the numbers coming out of Vermont.... Since July 1, 2000 when Vermont legalized civil unions, 7549 gay couples have married. Of those 7549 only 78 have resualted in divorces. Just over 1% of the civil unions in Vermond have ended in divorce. That is why civil unions are so threatening to 'traditional' marriages.... the far-right religous extremists fear that gays will show them up and the marriage department. OMG(osh)!!! How can gays love each other more then straight people?! Its ungodly! |
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cynical| Failure | ||||
| 02:35pm 14/12/2005 | ||||
Go to google and type in "Failure" Then hit the "I'm Feeling Lucky" button Trust me..... its funnyF |
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| Night at Wild Bills | ||||
| 08:36am 02/12/2005 | ||||
Jaime had been sick for 2 mo. and she desperetly wanted to get out of the house so she arranged to go to Wild Bills with Christie, but she had to back out cause one of hte girls at the bar called out sick. So Jaime called me and I told her I would take her out.... but then Christie felt bad so she got out of work also. SO... we all went. The sweet thing is, Christie is also VIP at Wild Bills so we got in for free and probably would have had other perks but didn't get to find out (reason to come soon). While there, watched the wait staff who were all wearin chaps and the most amazing Push-up Bras. THANK THE GODS FOR THE MAN WHO CREATED PUSH-UP BRAS!!!!! We were only there though for maybe 20min and Jaime started getting sick again... she ran off to the bathroom with CHristie and they came back a few min later and she was really rough so I ended up carrying her out of the Club 30min after we got in (Hence the reason I didn't get to see if there were other perks of VIP). Drove everyone home and called mandy.... who for some reason wasn't thrilled with any of this. Ok I know, me and Jaime have a very short history so I can understand. But what surprised me more was her dislike of a stripper, or as she calls her 'The Classic White Trash Story.' because she had a kid at 16 with a guy she kicked out of her life and started working at a strip club as a Clothed waitress. But she was offered the chance to strip and is now stripping. Apparently stripping is wrong and should never be done cause its demeaning and exploits people... yada yada yada. The thing is... she WANTS to strip. She's excited by it.... not like she is FORCED too. Oh well...... I guess somehow you can be an pro-life, anti-womans rights, anti-sextual revolution, ultra-liberal so long as you and your friends hide out in a shed in the backyard of your parents house who you still live with smoking your life away. Meanless to say.... mandy apparently does care much for my friends... 1) I shouldn't be hangin out with a married woman with a kid, even if her husband is serving his country in Iraq and she doesn't get to talk to anyone other then her mother and her 7mo kid. 2) I can't hang out with Jaime (ok this one I can understand) 3) Strippers are evil and the lowest of human life and should never be approuched cause you might catch 'White Trashiness' But hey.... the waitresses had push-up bras and a friend of mine is a stripper!!! I can't complain about life right now 8-D PS (Added at 9:08): I am sure CJ would love to know what Mandy's definition of white trash is...... |
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| My Holiday Wish List | |||
| 10:47am 29/11/2005 | |||
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Step One - Make a post (public, friends locked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want. - If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address (smbloom@graffiti.net) where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you. [Note: Your home address is not required!] - Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread. Step Two - Surf around your friends list (or friends friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part: - If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream pure-bred Basset Hound for free--do it. You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call. There are no guarantees with this project, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special. My List: 1) A Computer 2) A desicion on whether I got the job in NC or not 3) A drastic change in my boring life 4) More friends I can hang out with here in GA if I am to live her much longer 5) Some jeans and shirts ( new clothes ) 6) To fool around with just a few othe women 7) Corey to move out of my parents house 8) "The West Wing" Any season on DVD 9) Pint Glasses 10) Anything off of my Wish List |
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| Simple Manners | ||||
| 05:32pm 10/11/2005 | ||||
I invited Dr. Wear and five students from Catawba into my home this week so they had a cheap place to stay in Atlanta while they attended a confrence. After busting my ass to get the house ready, arrange for beds, stock the friedge and kitchen they didn't show. This had been planned 2 months in advance and at 9:30pm the night they should have shown I get a call, "Oh hey, we stayin at someone else's home, thanks anyways" Well FUCK, thanks for telling me after all the money I put into getting ready for your asses to get here. Oh they also tell me, "But hey give us a call when you get to the confrence and we will meet up to hand out." Well I called and called and called and called. I get a call back, THE NEXT MORNING. "Oh hey, sorry my phone was acting up, but yea goin to the CD release party sounds like fun. We'll call you later and tell you if we can make it." Well I wait, and wait and wait, and call and wait and call some more. Never a get a response. Some simple manners: 1) If you make arrangments with someone 2 monthes in advance... have the decency to follow through or change those plans in a timely manner (not 2hrs AFTER you should have shown up). 2) If you say to "call me during such and such time" well the ANSWER when someone calls you! 3) If you say you are going to call someone back, THEN DO SO ( This also applies to my friend other friends who don't see the reason in calling someone back when you say you will) Well now that I have been pissed all week we shall hope for a better weekend. BTW. For those who have asked, yes my mother is doing much better. Thank you for the support. Also, halloween was nice. I dressed as mandy's sex-slave. Though sadly she didn't really know waht to do with me, but alas. Still haven't heard from teh NC job... starting to get worried. I have signed up for the GRE And I am preparing my apps for grad school. I think that is all for now.... |
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