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[26 Feb 2005|03:29pm] |
I know it's been a while since I updated. I've been doing a lot of things to my computer, and I've been really busy with work and such. I might be getting a new job. Almost double the pay, and all I have to do is sit around and answer phones all day. It's a tech support job in one of the biggest skyscrapers in Tulsa. I'll try to put a picture on here of it sometime, or you can just search for pictures of the Cityplex Towers in Tulsa. They're insanely huge. It's a long drive, but I think it's worth it.
My roommates are taking advantage of me. They're in Bartlesville right now, but last night Randy asked me if I would take the rent money to the post office and mail it. He also told me that we were $100 short. I gave them my share of the rent two weeks ago. Bastards. I got paid yesterday, and Randy knew I would have the money. Then last night Randy had the nerve to buy some drugs from one of my new coworkers. And then he bought beer. And drank the entire case within two hours. I'm getting sick of this shit. When they're both here, he's perfectly okay, but as soon as Kelly goes somewhere, he tries to get dope and drinks. And he's an annoying drunk. Very annoying. I don't care whether he uses drugs or not, I don't care what he's doing to his family or friends, I just don't want him to do it with my fucking rent money. If I get this job, I'm moving into the city. I'll get a shitty little apartment or something.
There's good news, though. I'm 20. And I got to see Matt, Amanda, and Zoe. They came down from Michigan, and stayed in Tulsa for a few days. Luckily, Dena was coming up here for some financial aid thing at RSU, so she got to meet them too. A few days later, they went down to Mena, and I took off work to go down there too. On my way, I picked up my old rummer, Zach, and his bassist, Dustin. We bought time in a studio and recorded two songs. If any of you want them, I'll email them to you, for a price (just kidding).
I'm getting tired.
Marie just called and asked me to come in early today. I don't want to, I really don't.
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[23 Jun 2004|10:53pm] |
I've decided to make my journal Friends Only. I'm too lazy to change all my old entries to friends only, but from now on that's what I'm going to do. Except for this entry.
If you want to be added, then comment.
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| Stole this from Dena |
[22 Jun 2004|09:36pm] |
RULES:
1. Put your birth month in an entry.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Leave normal anything that does apply to you.
4. Bold the four that best apply to you.
5. Put all 12 months in a lj cut
FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
( DO YOURS )
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Deleted for reasons I don't want to get into.
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[14 Jun 2004|02:19am] |
I have no idea where to begin, so I'll just start from the beginning. Friday morning I left to go see Dena. It was the first time I've ever driven on a major highway for more than fifteen minutes. I think I did pretty good, and I didn't have any problems at all. It was a two and a half hour drive from here to there. At 9:00 I got to Chickasha and checked into a hotel. The room was $80 for two nights. Such a rip off. Plus they were remodeling, so there was constant banging and scraping (which is a real mood killer). After I got checked in, I drove to Dena's house and woke her up by getting into her bed and kissing her. It was a great feeling to kiss her after being apart for so long. I held her for a little while, but she had to go babysit at noon. I then went back to the hotel to take a nap and watch tv while Dena was babysitting. She called me and told me to go up to the park, because the girls she was babysitting wanted to go up there. After we left the park (where Dena and I had shared our first kiss a few weeks earlier), we got snowcones, and Dena took the girls back to their house. She had to babysit for a little while longer, but then she came over to my hotel room. We were going to go out to eat somewhere, but we went up to my hotel room and made out all night instead.
Well, that takes care of day one. With Dena's approval, I'll finish talking about the weekend soon.
Matt and Amanda found a place in Michigan. They've moved out of the hotel that the company was paying for them to live in while they looked for a place. Their house is pretty big. Two stories and a basement. That's insane. They want me to live up there with them, but I don't want to be any further away from Dena. I'm too far away as it is.
I can't really think of anything else to write about right now.
Dena's incredible. I love her so much. I'm going back to visit her again this weekend. I'm gonna be broke. :P
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[04 Jun 2004|10:58am] |
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Matt, Amanda, and Zoe just left for Michigan. It's kind of sad to see them go. I'll miss them. Yesterday was Zoe's birthday. She's 2 now. All day she was singing "Happy Birthday to you Zoe, Happy Birthday to you Zoe." She just kept saying that over and over again, which is strange because no one had sang her that song since her first birthday.
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[29 May 2004|08:49pm] |
The past few days have been hectic. When I wasn't working, I was either helping Matt and Amanda pack or trying to stop them from arguing. I need to get a life outside of this house. I'm working on it. My coworker Mike, who I went to the Renassaince Fair with, wants to play music with me when he gets ungrounded. He also wants me to join his D&D group. I've never really played D&D before, but some of my friends in Mena did a lot. I've never actually seen a game, but I think I saw a character sheet once or something. And a few of the dice. Those things are crazy. I don't see how any game could be played with a 48-sided die.
A few days ago I changed the oil in my car. It sucked. The ground clearance is only about ten inches, so I scraped my ear every time I got under the car. Next time, I'm going to Wal-Mart.
I'm home alone. Matt, Amanda, Zoe, and my dad all went to Mena for the weekend. I wish I could've gone, but I have to work. I've had to work every day from Wednesday, and I still have to work tomorrow and Monday, but I get three days off after that. I'm just going to lay around all three days. If I had any money I'd go visit Dena, or Mena, but I don't get paid until this coming Friday. It will be a fat check, though. And I'll ask off for a few days to go see my baby.
For those of you who haven't heard, Andy Kaufman is alive.
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[23 May 2004|12:04am] |
Work has been kicking my ass. I worked every day from Wednesday to Friday. Wednesday was alright, I guess. It was mostly just a training day, but I still did a lot of work. When I got home, I just laid on the couch for the rest of the evening because my feet and legs hurt so bad. Thursday was a better day. It was slower, and I made a sandwich all by myself for the first time. But my legs and feet were still killing me, plus Amanda got me sick the night before, so my nose was running and I was coughing and sneezing all day. Friday was horrible. There was a mad rush from noon until 2:30. We had people lined up to the door the entire time. And I was still sick. I didn't get a chance to sit down all day until I got in my car to drive home. I wanted to get out of there so bad that I didn't even make myself a sub for lunch (which is free for employees). When I got home, I slept until 8:00 pm. Work sucks.
I'm off until Tuesday, which is really nice. Today my coworker Mike, his girlfriend Noreena, and I went to the Renaissance Fair in Muskogee. It was awesome. When they came to pick me up, they were all dressed up. Mike had some lowly peasant clothes, and Noreena was wearing a dress and a corset. I don't really see why anyone would want to wear one of those things. Anyway, when we got there I rented some peasant clothes for myself. They were really comfortable. As soon as I had my costume put on, we started walking around, taking in the sights. A minstrel named Cedric hit on Noreena and gave us all passes to his show, the "Bedlam Bards." It was a great show too. We also went to watch swordfights, a Royal Chess Match where England battled Scotland. There were actual battles when pieces attacked each other. In the end, Scotland was victorious. After the chess game, the Gypsies came on stage to do a belly dancing act. Two of the gypsies had beer bellies. No, they weren't pregnant. I can tell a pregnant woman when I see one. These girls just had pot bellies. But other than that, it was a pretty nice show. One of Noreena's friends is a gypsy, so when they did the audience participation part of the show, she immediately jumped off the stage and told me to take her hand. I said no, because I can't really dance, and I'm really shy, but she pulled me up onto the stage. I wasn't the only audience member up there, but I was still nervous. Plus I was wearing a shortsword on my sash, which made it very difficult to move. Other than that embarassing moment, it was an awesome day. Matt and Amanda are going there tomorrow, but they don't know how to get there, so I'm going with them, which will be really cool.
It's Dena's birthday as of a few minutes ago, so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY
She won't read this until she gets back from Missouri, but I thought I should put it here anyway. Friday she was less than 10 miles from me, but her parents didn't want to stop. I hope she gets to stop by on her way back. I would love that.
I should go to bed now, I have to get up early tomorrow.
I love you and miss you so much.
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| Eat Fresh |
[17 May 2004|08:17pm] |
I'm back from Mena. It was a fun week. Graduation for the high school was Friday. While I was there I got to see all my old friends. Most of them I haven't seen in months. It's crazy how much everything has changed there. Actually, the only thing that's really changed is that there are a whole lot more pregnancies. Mike and Crystal are having another baby. So are Curtis and Tisha, and probably a few more people, but I'm sure I'll be the last to know like always. Matt brought his friend Dave down there to see how beautiful Arkansas is, but he was kind of sick the whole time because the night before he came down, he mistakenly ate some food with wheat in it or something. Dave is allergic to gluten. He can't eat or drink anything with wheat, barley, rye, hops, etc... or he gets horribly sick. Anyways, Saturday we all went to jam out in Nunley, where we always jam with my uncle's friends. I really enjoyed that. I got to knock some of the dust off my bass. The only time I ever play it is when I'm in Mena. I need to get my own amp and try to get a band together up here. I also played the drums for the first time in a while. It was for a few old Black Sabbath songs. I messed up a lot, and I'm a whole lot slower than I use to be, but I think I did well enough.
While in Mena, Matt bought a new(er) car. It's a '98 Pontiac Grand Prix SE. It should fare well in Michigan. So now the Taurus is all mine. It's a piece of crap, but it has a V6, air conditioning, and a nice stereo, and that's all that matters to me.
Today I got a job. I'm working at Subway. I pretty much knew I would get the job, considering they need people really bad, and both Matt and Amanda worked there for a while. I have to get my Food Handler's card and my Hepatitis A shot tomorrow, and I start working Wednesday.
My life is finally starting to work out. I've got a job, a car, and a great girlfriend. Now I just need to move out of my dad's house and start college and I'll be set.
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I would really like to elaborate more on everything (well, maybe not everything) that happened last weekend, but I'm leaving for Mena in a little bit, and I probably won't be online much. And I'm sorry if I haven't commented in a while for any of you, everything's been crazy these past few weeks.
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[09 May 2004|03:59pm] |
I have just returned from the most incredible weekend of my entire life. Dena really is amazing. I am so lucky to have her. I might go into detail later, but for now I'll just leave you some pictures.
( My hair didn't always look like this )
Dena, I love you and I miss you.
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[07 May 2004|03:29pm] |
It's finally here. I'm just about to leave for Chickasha. The tux will be ready at 4:00, otherwise I would have left already. I'm starting to get really nervous.
Last night Dena and I talked for 6 hours on the phone. It was amazing. I love her so much.
I wish I could talk more, but I'm going now.
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[05 May 2004|03:50pm] |
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Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I've been busy. I went to Missouri last weekend. I didn't go to Memphis, though. But I'll save that update for another time.
Dena's prom is coming up Saturday, and I've been trying to get all the arrangements set up and all that crazy stuff. Between my dad yelling at me for reasons I don't know, my grandma bitching at me for not having a tuxedo yet (among other things), I've been sort of freaking out a little. But now I feel confident that everything will be alright, even if I do get bitched at some more. I just got back from the tux rental place a few minutes ago, and I think I've got a pretty nice tux picked out. Here's a picture of it:
( Is this sweet or what? )
It's a great tux, and it was surprisingly cheap. You have no idea how happy I was to be able to get a tux at the last minute. I almost gave the lady who works there a hug when she told me that I could still get one. I feel good now that I've got that problem taken care of. Now I just have to debate some things with my grandma, and plan. I've got lots of planning to do. I think I'm going to go do that right now.
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[28 Apr 2004|10:18pm] |
I've got so much to do in such a short time. Here's everything I have to do in the next month:
spend less than $50 at Memphis in May
rent a tux for Dena's prom
go down to Chickasha for the weekend of Dena's prom (it's gonna be the best weekend ever)
find a college to go to, and apply, enroll, and get everything sorted out
It doesn't seem like much, but I know that last thing is going to be a real hassle. I don't know how to apply for colleges. I need you guys to answer some questions for me:
Do I get the Graduate Admission form or Undergraduate form?
How do I send my ACT scores and GED to 5 different colleges if I only have one copy of each of them?
Is it too late for me to apply to a college for the fall semester?
Is there an easy way I can do all of this?
Is there anything else I need to know that I forgot to ask?
I shouldn't have waited til the last second to get my college stuff started. I always do this. I can feel the pressure growing with every second that passes. I have to go to college this year. I have to. I don't want to end up like... well, I won't mention any names here.
But on the brighter side, I've got two good weekends to look forward to. Memphis in May is coming up this weekend. The only real reason I'm going is so I don't break the tradition I started almost 3 years ago, but it's still going to be fun. And Dena's prom is next weekend. I'm so excited about it. Only nine more days. This past month has gone by a lot quicker than I expected. I know this is going to be a great weekend. How can you go wrong with lots of candy and some playful wrestling?
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There have been a lot of storms here this week. It's supposed to continue like this until the weekend. Yesterday a tornado lifted a big metal building into the air. Other than that, and a lot of power outages, there hasn't been much damage. Although, the wind and rain scared the shit out of me last night. I was sitting here at my computer at around 1:30 or so, and I heard the wind pick up, and the rain started pounding on the huge-ass window in my room. I got up to look, and I saw that the little tree in my front yard was being bent at a 90 degree angle by the wind, and the rain was so thick I could only see to the road. I watched in amazement for a little while. Then, all of a sudden, without any hint or preview, the power went out. For some reason, I thought the roof was being torn off. I freaked out and ran to the foot of my bed, ducked down, and stayed there until the wind died down. I thought the window was going to shatter everywhere.
I wonder if anybody caught the obscure Desperado line in that paragraph. I'll give you a hint, Quentin Tarantino's character says it towards the beginning, when he's telling the story.
Matt isn't flying up to Michigan tomorrow. The company changed it to May 17th. Matt doesn't really mind, though. His last day of class is May 6th, so he'll get an 11 day break from responsibilties, except for Zoe of course.
I've decided to go to Memphis in May, but only on Sunday. I need to save up for prom. At least I'll get to see Live, Foo Fighters, and Steve Miller Band.
As of an hour ago, there are only 13 days left until I see Dena. And it's going to be an amazing weekend. I guarantee it. If not, then her parents will shoot me. :P
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( Stole this from Dena (like always) )
I forgot how windy it gets in Oklahoma during the spring. When I was a kid in Weatherford, it didn't ever bother me. A 25 mph breeze was nothing to me. Now even a 10 mph gust is annoying to me. Living in Arkansas, there really wasn't much wind because of all the mountains around. I'm sure I'll eventually get used to the wind again, although it'll give me a perpetual afro.
Wow, I just wrote an entire paragraph about wind. I think I need to get some sleep.
In exactly three weeks I'll be meeting Dena in person for the first time. You have no idea how excited I am. I've been keeping track of the days for a while now. I'm really nervous, though. I'm always asking myself questions. What will she think of me? What if she doesn't like me? Will her parents like me? Will her friends like me? Am I going to do or say anything stupid? There's a thousand more. That's just the way I am. I worry too much about what people think of me. And then I get nervous. And I don't talk. I guess it's some kind of defense mechanism. It's a really shitty one, though. It leaves me even more vulnerable (even though I don't really show it). Why can't I have a good defense mechanism, like making jokes or something? Hmm... this paragraph started off good, but then it took a bad turn. It's amazing how quickly I can change tones when I'm writing. I guess I'm done for now.
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Matt is flying up to Michigan next Friday for his interview or something like that. He's pretty much got the job, but they want to meet him and let him check out the area where he's going to live. Matt has never flown before, and he's a really nervous person, so the day before he has to go he'll probably start freaking out like he did when he was supposed to ship off for the Air Force. I don't think he'll chicken out this time, though.
I just had a bunch of stuff in my head that I was going to write about, but I forgot all of it. Dena occupies too much of my brain. ;)
I will give $30 to anyone who can eat five saltine crackers in 60 seconds. Try it, it's impossible. I thought I could do it, until I put the first one in my mouth and all of my saliva was immediately absorbed.
Dude, Matt's getting a Dell. I helped him pick all of the features he would need. Finally my knowledge of computers is being put to good use. It's probably going to get here a few days before they leave for Michigan. Everything is happening in the second week of May. matt graduates on the 6th, and that's also when his computer is supposed to get here. On the 7th Dena is coming to pick me up for her prom (if her parents let her). I'll be staying there the whole weekend, and on the 9th I'll be back up here. Matt, Amanda and Zoe are leaving on the 10th. Then it will just be my dad and me living here (which is really going to suck). But I'll be going off to college in August, so it won't be too bad. Actually, it will be bad. Most of the people I know, I know through Matt. After they leave, I probably won't see any of them, and I'll either just stay at the house all the time, or go out and try to meet random people, and hang out with them.
I would rather get the hell out of Tulsa and start over in a smaller town. But if I just left and went somewhere, my grandma would probably think I've turned against the family and I'm following a path to hell and there's no hope for me, or something like that. And she would probably find out where I am and call there every week and tell me everything that's wrong with what I'm doing and try to get me to move back in with my dad. I know it sounds crazy, but that's how I got up here in the first place. I just got sick of her doing all that crap, so I just gave in and moved here. If I were to go somewhere, it would have to be a sudden move with little to no planning, and I couldn't let too many people know about it, or else I'll get tracked down (I may sound paranoid, but my grandma has a lot of connections).
Alright, I'll stop ranting about my family. It depresses me anyway.
I want to learn a song, but I can't think of anything. Any requests?
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[07 Apr 2004|08:29pm] |
( Thing I stole from Dena )
I'm remembering stuff that I've failed to mention here. Here's a short list:
- My younger sister Erin is pregnant, she's due in July
- My older sister Tiffany is pregnant
- I got a case for my guitar
- Matt, Amanda, and Zoe are moving to Michigan on May 10th
- I'm not going to Memphis in May. I need to save up for a car.
- I'm taking Dena to her prom in 31 days
- Dena's incredible
That's all for now. I'll try to think of some more stuff later.
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Matt finally got the concert pictures developed. Most of them are completely black. It sucks. I was hoping he would get at least one picture of Maynard, but I guess he wasn't close enough. In one of the pictures, you can kind of see the drummer. That's all. Oh well, it was still a memorable experience.
I had to watch Zoe today for a little while. I didn't really mind, considering I haven't really seen her in over a week. We were watching The Wiggles, and I tried to dance in sync with the Wiggles to one of the songs to entertain her. The song involved a whole lot of jumping, and somewhere during the last chorus I pulled a muscle in my leg. I should've stretched first. Now I'm hobbling around. It wouldn't be so bad if Zoe didn't want me to dance with her every five minutes.
I've got some really good news, though. Dena and I got back together. Surprisingly, she didn't make me suffer, or even beg. She just took me back. We're gonna take things slow this time. I don't really think we need to, but I don't want to take any chances. I would die if I hurt her again. I can't believe it's been four months since I broke up with her. We really went too far too fast, but I think mostly I was just scared of what I was feeling. I never wanted to hurt her, but I was just overwhelmed. I thought that we were bad for each other because we both get carried away too easily. But in reality, she's the best thing to ever happen to me. She's probably the only person in the world who truly appreciates me. It feels good to be happy again.
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