how do i put anything into words???
tonight was sooooo perfect......i just can't explain it.
the movie was great, so much better the second time around.
that first touch.... i serisouly was going to melt. i feel like such a little girl....
since when does holding hands make me go crazy?
every gesture, laugh, and facial expression....he is incredible.
when you pushed me on that target cart, and i looked up, and your face...you had the biggest smile... i cant forget that face....
im completly falling for an ex baraton player...
i dont kno what this is. it is sooo something i have never ever felt before. its driiiiiiiiiiving me insaine. but i cant get enough of it. its so unspoken and so just, real....
every word he says, and like the way he just acts. the slightest touch....everything is a mystery.
his smile....its the most beautiful thing....
he is the most beautiful thing.
grateful(loooooooooongggg siiiiiighhhhhh) better.
soooo im at my moms this week. so its not like anyone is seeing this.
but my last two days have been alot of fun....spent with alot of great people. mondays beach day was exhilirating. the girl drive to jack in the box was prob the best...english accents never get old, nor does singing celien deon.....but when you hoooooooold me like thiiiis, and you touuuuch mee like thhhaaaat, it so hard to belive, but its alllllll comming back to me nooooow! gettin the food was cool, watching every guy look at lindsays assets. my jelousy is rissing.... something i learned that day...nails are hidden in the sand, alot of them, and kissing trumpet players is O.K. ...even if you are a guy.
that night was Napolian Dinomite with andrew and shane. possibly the greatest movie i have ever seen. if only the gentleman in front of us would have stuck a sock in it. thats ok tho...i wana see it agggain, and laugh some more.
i didnt go to bed till 5 that night....im getting to kno one of the most amazing people i have ever met.
woke up at 3...watched a lil dr.phill...i have missed our daily incounters after school. as i was driving to parkway today....this lady started like screaming at me from inside her car. and i didnt understand it at all....i wasnt doing anything wrong? soo i kinda just let her finish...and then i smiled, and drove off. that prob just pissed her off more.....o well...i spent the rest a the night with charles and shannne. it was a very relaxing night, i liked it.
welll this feeling is driving me crazy. i love it tho. but ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, i have no freakin idea at all like if im being completly clueless or if im right or i dont kno. a sign would be wonderful.
anxiousits 253 in the morning....ha, and i am hearing about how a boy got stung at a soccer game by a nasty bee and broke out in little itchy spider bites. cars never do move fast enough when you need them to. la la la.... im so hungry..... grrrrbbrrrrrrrlll(stomach noises). tonight was fun! charlie drew came over at 625, we drove to my mamas and picked her hot lil ass up...and went to mission. it was a good one, but i miss ben our singer. i was outa gasss, so i stoped, and i got gas. my mom named charlie drew, bob. it was funny. so then me and hottness went to dogeball!! once again, stepford wives was smashed to the floor. i WILL see it, i will. does anyone want to see it??? any takers out there? looks like jess is going solo on this one. so we try and find this movie line...cuz they up and moved it, we ended up making a big circle, only to find out that the aircondicionnnnng was broken!! we decided that hot n sweaty watching doge ball was better than not seeing it. so we open the door, and its a sauna(how the hell is that one spelled?). no worries, we had dr.peper there to cool us off. so the movie was pretttty funny...some good parts there was, i must admitt. i loved whenever there was a funny part, cuz i got to see the most gorgeous smile i have ever seen. unlike princess layyyyuhhh, with the horrid teeth. im not sure if the eyebrows were worst....it was a dead tie. oh and i missed the best part of the movie...cuz i had to pee like none other. i ran. literaly. and still missed it. thats ok tho, at least i got to see the lesbian action at the end. after that, there was a fun chat with wallly...i hope he likes that name...he wasnt in a good mood a noche. and a quick stop by Jacks and the night was complete.
i waited and waved, but construction worker was busy on the celly :(
now im sitting at this computer feeling my nice freshly shaven legs for tomorrows fun beach day with luvs from jammmmb. i have to get up in like 6 hours.....
ok i hope i get taaaaaaaaaaan tomorrow, sick of this whiteness. cuz i wana wear the color white, and my skin make it POP! cuz white is just freakin awsome on tan skin.
something of interest....hollanders are from dutch....im looking into yoddling lessons.........
cross my heart, hope to die....i swear i won't say what happened that night.....so starting today things are gonna be all right.....your best you tried, and yeah you did fine........no better than fine, perfect in my mind.....in fact, i wish your heart was mine......(sing the rest)
ever have that feeling where you just feel like the most ugliest person on the earth? what is the normal dosage you are supposed to feel like that? i think i have been overdosing way to much...pushing the boundry...i hate it.... i really think its all about who you are with .... its funny how one person can make you feel like the most beautiful thing they have ever laid eyes on, and how others can do just the opposite..... makes you think about how much power you can have over another person....
well i hate the feeling. i hate how there is always someone or something out there better than what you will ever be able to be. there is soo many things i want to change. sometimes i wish i could just erase, fresh chalk board, and start over.
i just wish i could come to that point, where you are utterly in love with yourself, every imperfection....does anyone ever reach that point anyway?
besides all of my yiibbber yabber....lets talk about tonight.shall we begin... tonight. alright tonight..interesting night. so we had a family gathering at the household of the grandview winets. was uncles and grandmas birthdays. she had him on her birthday...its a pitty if you missed out on the story. i kno 3 lucky people who didnt! we ate special cake, and they opened presents and such. andrew my love and new luvie shane were the entertainment. who matt grew a quick attatchment too. sooo it was coool man, we went miniture golfing at BOOMERS! waaaaaah! even after the "party pack" it still was a crap load a money for what we got. we couldnt see anything, and we forgot the score sheet...so we more so "bowled" the balls into the holes...we had full house in front of us, and make out bees nick lache and jess simpson behing us. gettin the picture? matt came along too. in the end we got a free(?) golfball outa it. it was reeddd :). green would have been better. ok soo then after the boys had a bitting head butting game in the back seat, we watched GYMNASTICS! only the most exciting thing ever, and Pam anderson was on it, what a deal. watched a lil more tele...then we took lay nays car allllllllllllll the way up to hill ( we so could have walked....im still bitter) to see the great view? yaaa it didnt really pull threw tonight. then we went to go jump on a girls trampolean that lived across the street only to descover it totaly killed. looked like it had been threw a tornado...poor thing. then i drove!!! wooohoooo!! got lost...not really tho...we ended up in the kyle ghetto part of town...where a hardcore gang banger was finaly gettin a home(are there any windows in jail?) 7-11 so is on my bad list lately...didnt even have my fav candy ever....what are they thinking? charly-drew gave all my money away with out me knowing, it was cute, real cute (do it again, i will kill) we sent cheetos in...."but he has a gun" .......and we were so cruel, we left and parked acorss the street. hahah, if it were me,i belive i would have peed. then home sweet home, and my buddies left. i got a nice taste of cheeto slurpy before i went inside, a nice little treat from mr. back wash shane himself. ok....so even tho tonight wasnt one of the most thrilling nights, i had fun, alot of fun, i was with great company :). and i love my killer kat spacer random, ah i missed her dearly!!
so now i am here, back to my nightly rituals.... and thinking...about things i shouldnt be thinking about. things that get me to no where....
and my tf, lindsay ann i hope you had a wonderful night, i adore you woman.
and a special note to my own personal HURTY....
reasons why im sooo in love with you.....
WeerdMan15: i just felt violated
WeerdMan15: who needs to be in a blurty when im my own hurty
WeerdMan15: come on you skany ass bitch lets speed this up
WeerdMan15: (tries to act all tough)
WeerdMan15: just remember...i luh yoo
you mean more than you will ever know....
indescribabledamn damn damn, i thought i saved it! but i didnt, geeeeez danggg naabbb it. i am soo not happy with myself right now. arrrgh. andy, and you didnt ither, :(. o well, it will be remembred....
twinkle twinkle little..................................
PracticalHope28: thank you for proving once again you are the best person i have ever known
WeerdMan15: thank you for proving once again that you are so freaking awesome
ok ya oc...you are indescribable.
tonight was kinda a huge bummer. one of thoes nights that lead to freakin no wheres. highlight of the night... wanda and mines new belts that were insainly over priced. still...we are prepairing. we havent even begun to start the real shopping. we will have everything we need for these 2 best weeks of our lives. haha...just wait....for our tuuurkkoooiisseee and bnw high top chucks.... we listend to aqua....danced in the parking lot...an experience in its own. ummm other wonders of the night.....tacobell pulled threw with finding my cds...i would have died....lindsays intence driving abilities....the car that like tells you with actual numbers how fast you are going....soooooo weird, but awsome. james borrowing(?) the purple diamond glasses from the sunglasses stand. and me proving myself worthy of my stick driving abilities on the vehicle of J.rawland lienhard. who gets his own beach house in 2 weeks. me and wand will be over there everyday. yes we will, and on the weekends, we get the maiiin house. hot damn!
KAMALA CONNERS is home for the WEEKEND!!! i am overly joyed with extreem HAPPYNESS!!!!! she is my love of all loves! i cant wait to see her sunnnday!!!
HUGE SMILIE! :)!!
rejuvenatedwell i just got home...today has been a super day, and its not over yet. jamba called me this morning and woke me up, but it was ok, cuz they said i didnt have to come into work, so i was very happyyyyy! they were cutting hours...so me and my bengi decided to hang out, since they cut hers too. we went and got buritos, and suprised her love "adan" with them. he was very greatful. his house is like a house out of a pier one imports cataloge. its crazy, but oh so pretty. very beachy. we left, then we went to jamb, cuz we had to pick up our schedules, and we got the new straberrrrry lemonade we have now for the summer. soo good. then we visited alot of people, and went cd hunting. i still havent found Eisley anywhere. it makes me so sad. but i got the finger eleven cd instead, and so all was well. 'one thing' is soo gooood. on the way back to her insainly small parking spot...we tried to run past the grossmont jamba...but we were unsucessful, and mike #2 saw us.... o well, it happens. we called annnndy too, and turns out that there dorm rooms are like right by eachother, but separated by a 'garden'...where they are planning on having rodevus....if only i knew how to spell that too....and then we went to go visit brice, but he was already gone...rats. then the best song came on 'the reason' and we sang our hearts out. it was a great end to a wonderful day with lindz! so now i am home, and im thinking of going to go listen to my new cd while i clean the bathroom. ya...its a mandatory thing, trying to make it sound fun tho...
now i wait for my other lindsay to call meee....as soon as she gets off work....and then we are going down to shores to meet up with james for our "bon fire". ya who knows what we are guna end up doing.... but i love bob!!! and bob loves billy!!!
wow...jeans and a white tank top....doesnt get much hotter than that.
bouncyi hate computers. so today was pretty exctiting....worked all day. we got new shirts tho, soo woohoo to that. we made it 80s night too....bet your jelous now, huh? good....cuz it was so much fun....lindsay and adam came and visited me!! i love them, they are my favortie couple. happy birthday mr. richardson. on the drive home i decided to go see my cow, cuz she was supposed to be home from the river. but she wasn't there :(, i left her a note. 5 days with out her is too long. i love my new day planner. it is the most wonderful thing ever, cant even explain it. i want to cut off all my hair, and die it black or blonde. is there a disease of always being cold? well, if there is, i have it. my face today was a joke! i put on one of thoes "mask" things last night, and i guess i left it on for too long? cuz it totaly dried out my face. and today it looked like i was pealing from a really bad sun burn. so, that sucked! stupid 'beauty' products.... yaaaa its really cool how i should be at the rocket summer concert with andy and evan right now...and im not. i was looking in the mirror last night, and came to the conclusion that i was very unhappy with everything i saw. thats what happends when you stop playing volleyball like every second of your life. so cool, i decided i was guna start to eat healty and do a daily work out. im eating pizza right now, and sitting on my ass......what a great way to start it off! so do all guys wear eyelinner now??? apparently so.... i cant fine the Eisley cd anywhere....soo lame. tomorrow night is bon fire with james and lindsay and the rest of the mission crew. marryanne and wanda heart to heart time.... niiiice. allison is gone at the river until monday... and matthew leaves for camp on sunday! which is insaine, he seems too little. but wow, thoes are some of the best memories. he would have had two of the coolest counclers around...but ever since they inforced the 18 or older stupid rule, he wont. the poor children will just have to wait for billy bob, whatev. ah i just got a rush of excitment for this summer.....maus west....the sheet! (we are upgrading to blankets this year) uuuhhhmm the notebooks! sentimental tape, toilet baseball...geez i cant wait!!! and its like only with the best person ever ever ever! kevin, im still pissed at you. you are going, no football my dear. does anybody realize how hot jay hernandez is? like honestly... holy graciousness.
PracticalHope28: you got tan????
qtbabeqt456: my legs did!
PracticalHope28: hahahahha
qtbabeqt456: aand yeah i did lol
PracticalHope28: HAHHA
PracticalHope28: lol
qtbabeqt456: not as tan as ur mexican butt tho
what a wonderful obsession we have. o man love the cow hoe, linnae is such a hot one.
linds-the new addition to our list...i love this song.still listening to it, its on replay, haha.
ugh in desperate need of chapstick.....
drainedAlright, i got tired of reading lindsays and not being able to do one. so cool, here is mine. yay, happiness! tonight has been a knowledgable night. there is a diffrece between user name, and your name. i have the best user name by far, thanks to this hottie...names wanda. i have gone pee 4 times in the last hour...so much for my 'goal' of drinking 8 glasses of water a day. that is threw. 2 weeks of my summer are going to be so kick ass i cant even wait. no one understands this enjoyment, except maybe one lady. isnt it just the best tho? stop spending the money, we need to save it!! for our new high in style 'chucks', cuz no sandals are allowed. what a joke. alllllright, so how does this thing work anyways? what are you even supposed to write about? school is out, thats old news...but thank the sweet lord. jamba is really starting to piss me off. everyon i loved has gotten fired or has quit. so lame, i would too...yet i need the money. for the cool payments i have. i could write about anything, and forever. but i think this will do for now. beach will be fun, if i ever have the time to go. a little pissed that oarnge county has found his jessica simpson, and the happy ever after that goes along wtih it.
oh, i am utterly head over heals for andrew murphy...wow what a stud.
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