I'm never alone...
..I'm alone all the time
mLe

[Could have been easier on you...]
[ I couldn't change tho I wanted to ]
[ Could have been easier by three ]


[Our old friend fear and you and me]

[09 Nov 2009|01:33am]
I just don't know.

As You Like It closed last night. Shakespeare on the resume, check. Auditions for next semester's shows are next week. I'm supposed to SM a medieval acting class going to Toronto, but I haven't spoken to the professor about it since September. I ought to speak with him... If I don't do that, I'll SM Gifford again (the children's theatre at school I worked for my first two summers here). Steve already offered it to me. He told me I'm his favorite SM ever. ♥ Steve.

This semester is trucking along and swallowing me whole. I have work to do and I must must must figure out wtf I'm doing next semester. The end.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[28 Oct 2009|01:29am]
Fuck my "friends" here. Kari and Terry are the only ones who ever ask me to do anything, so I love them, and everyone else can go get herpes.
2 sang don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[25 Oct 2009|12:40am]
Yesterday, I got a midterm back, and I am super pissed with the results. I got a 144/150. I got one T/F question wrong and two points off one of my mini essays. Worst freaking way to lose points. Sooo close to an A+.

Of course, if that's the worst thing in my life, I'm lucky. I currently have a solid A in that class, and I think an A- in Context... The others, I'm not so sure about. I'll get an A in my independent study, probably a C in religion because so much of my grade is chapter summaries, a B? in philosophy, and I would guess an A in training the speaking voice, and I'll pass my two P/F classes definitely. All of the work for them is basically done already. I hope I can keep it up for the end of the semester, because it is rolling right along with or without me.

Thursday/yesterday, we worked for the Dashboard Confessional/New Found Glory concert and I am battered as a result. All of my muscles are sooo sore, and I have lumps and bruises galore. I face-planted because I was carrying a platform with 3 other people and the girl next to me (freshman, Jade [my asm]) tripped... I ate it so hard and all of the big roadie guys were freaking out ... I was fine, just embarrassed and wanted them to stop asking if I was okay. They thought I was going to break my wrist or something. Also, we dropped a HEAVY steel barricade on my right big toe on Thursday, so that's all purple and fucked up. And then a whole section (8x6, I think) of the metal framing that held up the stage collapsed on my leg. It has the nastiest bruise already and was crazy swollen last night.

Tech was alright today. We only did the first half of the show, but we did it in 4 hours. Hopefully tomorrow is even quicker.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[22 Oct 2009|03:32am]
I've just realized: Context really ought to be kicking my ass, but instead, I'm kicking its ass. I guess I was right when I realized last year that I was done here.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[22 Oct 2009|03:28am]
Who is more of a child?
Me, for never wanting children due to my own selfishness and admitting that's why, or you, for wanting children despite the fact that you hate them, are awful to them, and are completely financially irresponsible?
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[22 Oct 2009|03:24am]
Where there's a will, there's a way.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[20 Oct 2009|03:19am]
In Context (capstone), we have to do presentations at the end of each of our projects. The play we're starting working on now is When We Dead Awaken, but Ibsen. Main themes include the destructive qualities of first love and the way loss can overtake us.
Our presentations are all supposed to start with "attention devices," which are little things to make the audience sit up and listen. There's about a 95% chance that I'll be a director for this project, and thus expected to lead my presentation. I am so badly tempted to go for the horribly awkward attention device of making direct eye contact with Mike and clearly telling him that he broke my heart and rendered me dead and useless... To show how the play is still relevant today. It would be so delightfully awkward, but I would get shit for it. Sometimes, people just don't get my ability to abuse myself without it being self-pity. That would just be me taking advantage of a great opportunity for really getting the audience on edge, as they all know basically everything about us.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[20 Oct 2009|02:17am]
This week's schedule:
Tuesday: class 1-8:30, rehearsal 6-10. Due: production proposal, reading journal.
Wednesday: class 11:30-12:20, work 12:20-1:20, class 1:30-2:20, work 2:30-4, rehearsal 6-10.
Thursday: Dashboard concert load-in 12-1, class 1-3:45, Dashboard concert load-in until forever. Due: drawings.
Friday: Dashboard concert load-in 10-11:30, class 11:30-12:20, work or Dashboard load-in 12:20-1:20, class 1:30-2:20, work or Dashboard load-in 2:30-whenever, rehearsal 6-10, Dashboard load-out 11 until we're done.
Saturday: Tech starting at 10, work box office at the Redhouse 7-8:15 (woo $30 for an hour and 15 minutes of work!), see the show at the Redhouse for free.
Sunday: Tech starting at 10 until we finish.

Busy busy.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[19 Oct 2009|04:27am]
Oh, and I brought Brendan and Lauren's present back with me by accident. Fucking cherry on top of the weekend.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[19 Oct 2009|04:26am]
My weekend was a fucking adventure and a half.
First, my flights Friday fucked me over and I stayed in Syracuse for the night. I saw Spelling Bee, good show, whatever. Didn't realize I needed to wake up at 3:45am until about 1am.
I drove to the airport at 4am without incident, left my winter coat in my car, checked my bag, went through security with no problems, sat down and played on the internet on my iPod. We boarded late, but with the 3 hour layover in Philly I had scheduled, it was no problem. We landed in Philadephia and it was freezing and pouring. I found my gate and camped out, inadvertently signing up for a US air credit card along the way (it was 6:40 in the morning, shut up). I ate pizza for breakfast at 8am, as it was the only place open that had anything other than eggs.
Boarding time came and went with no explanation. At the time we were supposed to take off, they made an announcement that the crew hadn't landed from their last flight yet. The plane we were taking was there, but we couldn't board until there was a crew. I got nervous, but my flight was supposed to get in about 2 hours before the wedding, and the airport is only 10 minutes from the place. We finally boarded the plane almost an hour after we were supposed to take off... And taxied for probably 45 minutes.
I fell asleep as soon as we started moving, but I woke up at 12 o'clock still in the air. I changed into my dress in my seat on the plane, realizing that I was going to have to bust my ass if I wanted to get there on time. We landed at 12:25. My dad was there to meet me with a driver from the hotel. We waited for my checked bag. Lost. Had to file a claim. Southerners take for fucking ever to do everything, and my dad was freaking out.
We run to the hotel van and jet. I take off my leggings and change my shoes on the way. At 12:57, Brendan (the groom) calls my dad to see where we are. My dad tells him we'll be there in like 2 minutes and to please hold! We got there at exactly 1 o'clock, to cheers from everyone in my damn family. I still had my bookbag (of course my carry-on was homework and my dress), and had to hide it behind the door of the church.
The ceremony was 10 minutes long, so it's really a good thing we made it in time. As soon as it got quiet, Xavier said "MOMMY" really loudly. Q started speaking to him in a low voice, telling him to be quiet. With perfect timing in the dead silence, you just hear him go "BUT I don't LIKE to be quiet!!" She took him outside, of course. It was a good laugh for the rest of us.
The reception was fun. The tables were all named for songs, and the centerpieces were vinyls. Apparently it decided to be Wilmington's version of winter, though. It was in the '50s and it felt nasty. You would think I would have been prepared, but no. I was excited to be going down there and expecting normal October temperatures (70s). So I put my leggings back on under my dress, changed back into my cons from my open heels, and wore my dad's suit coat. Jon declared that I looked like "the weird girl from an '80s movie."
When the reception ended, we went to the hotel and I put my stuff down. I wanted to change, except I had no fucking clothes other than what I'd worn to sleep and fly in (which all smelled just delightful). So I wound up wearing fucking black leggings (why would I ever wear leggings to fly?), a dirty tank top, a light cardigan I'd brought for my dress, and one of my dad's button down shirts. I looked like I was making a statement. My parents and I went to dinner with Dave, X and Q at a delicious Carribean place. Then Dave Q and I went to meet up with everyone at the first bar of the afterparty.
It was a really cool bar, but it looked dingy and smelled like a dirty bathroom. There were games everywhere, though. No TVs, so most of my cousins and uncles left around 8 to go watch the game. We headed to another bar and pretty much camped out. Everyone who was there at some point or another: Dave and Q, me, Dad, Jon and Tara, Steve and Patty, Carly and John, Brian and Jackie, Mark and Monica, Eileen and Mike, Paul and Liz, Laura, Tommy, Dan.
North Carolina is not exactly Yankee territory, or baseball territory period. The environment got a bit hostile once it was just Mark, his kids + Liz, my dad, Jon, Tara and me. Some guy really wanted to fight Tommy for no reason other than we cheered when ARod hit his homer... and we're loud fans. It was ridiculous. Then he was going to try to start something with either Laura (who's 13) or myself in the top of the 13th inning, but my dad and Paul took Laura over to a booth they'd commandeered. It was just retarded. Anyway, they finally won and it was amazing.
Went back to the hotel, slept, whatever. My bag came today! My parents woke me up by telling me we were an hour late to Eileen's house and we had to go. So I opened my bag.. only to find all of my nice clean clothes were fucking soaked. Gee, thanks US air/Philly. My dad suggested that my bag was so ill handled because it was a Yankee bag. I found one mostly dry shirt and managed, still wearing the fucking leggings. The other pants I brought were the wettest thing in the bag. I opened my deodorant to put it on (because yes, I checked that like a moron) and it crumbled. It was a really sad moment.
Went to Eileen's. They ran out of food before we got there. Thennn more food came and it was delicious fried chicken and I was in heaven. At 4:30, my parents drove me, Tommy, Paul and Liz to the airport, because we had 6ish flights. Both of our flights were delayed about an hour, and my fucking keychain swiss army knife was confiscated by security. The blade on that thing was under 3 inches and totally complied with TSA regulations, but I was too stunned to argue. I also didn't want to be arrested as a potential terrorist, so I didn't bother. Luckily, my cousins/Liz had a straight flight, and I had another 3 hour layover anyway, so our delays didn't cause any real problems.
My last flight was perfect, strangely enough. The Charlotte airport is so big! I got blisters from walking though it. I camped out on my ipod again and ate dinner/did some homework. When I got back here, Nadia gave me a deodorant that she'd been wanting to throw away but not waste so I didn't have to go shopping at 2am.

I'm tired of writing. The end.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[16 Oct 2009|06:54pm]
So angry right now. My flight to Philly got delayed, so I would have missed my connection. So here I am, still in Syracuse. I have a flight at 5:fucking30 am, and will get there about an hour and a half before the ceremony. Ughhh.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[16 Oct 2009|11:01am]
Nadia: "Are you okay? You look like..."
Me: "Death?"
Nadia: "Yeah."
Me: "No, I'm just tired."
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[16 Oct 2009|04:40am]
In my packing, I stuffed a purse full of candy. That probably means that I fail at being a girl and a pseudo-adult.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[16 Oct 2009|04:18am]
Why I started writing the last entry in the first place:
I went out to dinner with the girls in my appartment this afternoon. Nick D. came up in conversation, and I realized none of them knew about the whole him trying to kiss me at Cotillion thing. I told them the story, including how I was rescued by Jordan wanting to "have a moment" with me. Nadia said I should hook up with Jordan. I responded "no, anyone I hook up with has to be someone who would make Mike reallyyy jealous." Without missing a beat, all three of them go "DAVE!"

Too bad he's (mostly) gay/also one of my best friends, because it is the perfect solution.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[16 Oct 2009|04:01am]
A few things:
1. We've booked a hotel for the conference Easter weekend. Kyle is a dizzy bitch, and it turns out that our room is 2 double beds, for 4 people. One of whom is my ex boyfriend, and all of whom but me are penis owners. I don't mind sharing a bed with any of them, but I worry that they'd mind sharing with me. Oh well.
2. Vinny (and I believe Christine) are coming to visit next month! Downside: they're coming the weekend of Founders' Day, which is when I work all night Friday. I guess it'll work out, though.
3. I cut my own bangs today. I'll see how they turned out in the morning, when they're dry. I hope I haven't made myself look like a fool.
4. I have a paper due in 10 hours that I have not done. It doesn't look likely that I will.
5. It's supposed to be snowing right now.
6. I don't know how to pack!
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[13 Oct 2009|01:34am]
Sometimes I see all of these ads on Blurty, and I wonder how the hell these people make money off of spamming with fake gold for WoW or writing about folding chairs. It's so peculiar.

I'm back at school. On the bright side, my week is not looking too shabby:
Tuesday: rehearsal 10-5.
Wednesday: class 11:30-12:20, work 12:20-1:20, class in which we'll watch a movie 1:30-2:20, work 2:30-4ish, rehearsal (run-through) 6-10.
Thursday: maybe work in the morning, depending on where I am with homework, because we really need to get the set going, class 1-2:15, class 2:30-3:45, rehearsal 6-10.
Friday: class 11:30-12:20, work 12:20-1:20, class 1:30-2:20, gastrointerologist appointment at 2 (I'll use my Hermione time-turner to manage that one), fly out of Syracuse at 6:17, land in Philly 7:36 for an hour and a half layover, fly out of Philly at 9:05, land in NC at 10:41. See whole family!
Saturday: Brendan's wedding.

Except I have a paper due on Friday for my 1:30, and I have to read a play for Thursday and do bullshit reactionary notes to it. The paper is really the only problem. I'll work it out, because I need this professor to continue loving me.

This past Friday, I finally got approved to take 22 credits this semester, but my grades at the end of the semester are going to be reviewed in order for me to receive all of the credit. I just really need to graduate, so I'm working my ass off. I may have failed some classes which I really shouldn't have, and I'm working to do some work for those retroactively and up the number of credits I've completed, since I have actually completed those courses with near mastery of the material. My graduation is a very touchy subject, because I'm not so sure of its likelihood of happening.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[11 Oct 2009|11:40pm]
Holy horny, batman!
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[11 Oct 2009|03:11am]
My boobs (what little I had to begin with) are shrinking! This is not okay.
4 sang don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
a very disgusting entry [11 Oct 2009|02:12am]
As a result of being sick, I snotted all over myself last night while sleeping. When you have a loft bed, tissues aren't always the easiest thing to come by... Suffice it to say, my white blanket is no longer white. Weirdly enough, it's orange. I don't really like that my snot is that color, but what can I do? It's what happens when I get sick lately.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
[10 Oct 2009|09:12pm]
notes for myself )

Home for the weekend! Unfortunately, I'm sick and congested as hell. I'm finally getting around to my summer goal of reorganizing my bookcases.
don't let the days go by


*glycerine*
everything's gone white and everything's grey
[ now you're here|now you're away ]
[ i dont want this, remember that... ]
are you at one, or d o y o u l i e?

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