| And after all, you're my wonderwall |
[10 Jan 2004|07:35pm] |
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Oasis - Wonderwall |
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I hate John.
But what I hate more than that is the fact that I don't hate him at all.
This song, word for word, describes my feelings for Ben. It just.. clicks. It's everything I want to say but can't. It evokes this weird feeling in me, because it seems as though I should be writing this, not listening to it. I feel like this song is pulling on a string wrapped numerous times around my heart, causing it to spin uncontrollably, kind of like a spool of thread.
Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw me back to you
By now, you should have somehow realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
Backbeat, the word is on the street that the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before but you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you but I don't know how
Because maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all, you're my wonderwall
Today was gonna be the day but they'll never throw me back to you
By now, you should have somehow realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody feels the way I do about you now
And all the roads that lead you there are winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you but I don't know how
I said maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all, you're my wonderwall
It's funny how I've heard that song hundreds of times, but now it takes on entirely new meaning.
I am thisclose to calling John right now, and it's taking every ounce self-respect in my body and then some to keep from doing so.
This post feels incomplete. I don't know what else to add... but I feel like I didn't get the job done.
"Maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me..."
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