Blondie

11:27pm: trueblue
hey,

sry it's been a while... well, it's a true blue fact: NO ONE READS THIS!!!!! Not one singal soul. maybe i should send it again to a few friends? uh, right... they have lives of their own. well, i'm going to aussie in 5 days Mr. internet. i know you'll always listen to me. you've never failed me Mr. internet. Only when you cause troubles with Mrs. Computer and she fucks up all my data. and when you cannot open my page, or when you refuse to let me into a username becuz i forgot my old password and i have to get a new journal. ok... so you do fail me... but at least you listen. talk with ya latez Mr. internet. nights!~Blondie

4:18pm: last day
hey,

another day of no life... nothing to do, nothing to say. just finished spanish I review. i passed with an A...thats a 95.4 percent. i'm happy with that. got a 40/40 on the final. i think i need glasses though. it hurts to read stuff becuz i have to focus so much. probably have glasses before the school year starts. i got my exchange of aussie money today. it's really funny looking. the $5 bills are purple (hehe) and all the different bills are different sizes. well, i'm done. talk latez!Byez!~Blondie

4:36pm: hyper/bored
hey,

whazup? nuthin much with me. i'm just being a loser and kickin' back. gosh i wanted to see 'pirates of the caribbean' today but it's like a 2 hours line to see it and there is no frickin' way i'm waiting in a fucking line to see a movie. i'll just see it another day. maybe i'll just go see legally blonde 2 instead or just sit on my fanny at home. my life is kinda boring today, not really anything interesting going on today. miss the boyfriend and i want to see him!!! manana is the last day of spanish class. then i've got my 10 days of summer before i leave for aussie! well, i'm going to go study for the examen talk latez! ~Blondie

1:31pm: recess
hey,

today was interesting. my teacher was upset becuz the class is having trouble getting along. this guy clark pissed him off so bad today that Mr. Cullen had to treat him like a 7th grader (note: Mr. Cullen is a 7th grade teacher but teaches high school spanish in summer) by telling him to sit in the middle of the floor which he then named 'the special spot'. of course the class laughed at the 'dirty' name for punishment and then we went back to work. i finished up my work and then sat back, just by chance i glanced at clark and thought... hum... he looks like one of the kindergardener's from that cartoon 'Recess' on abc mornings for kids. and don't you tell me that you haven't watch it becuz EVERYONE has watched a lump sum of cartoons in their life. anyhow, i sat there like a moron giggling to meself without realizing how loud i was. i looked so dumb. well, talk latez. ~Blondie

6:25pm: >:o !!! kill...
hey,
i guess i'm just not having good luck lately... this burn is so ugly and it hurts. uh, it looks better than yesterday though so i'll shut up. damn i'm getting tired of spanish class. i think we're all getting tired of it. this 'wanta be funny' guy named Clark in my class is making everyone (including me) want to kill him + this chick jami is being a litl' smart mouth. her voice is SO HIGH PITCHED and she swears becuz she's a junior that she's god. it doesn't help that it feels like she's always directing smart ass comments at me. today i just wanted to scream 'bitch' all day. it's like 'ok... so? your a junior and a bitch... we all know that, you silly goose!' maybe that would shut her skinny ass up for a few seconds while her tiny brain proceeded to run the thought over and over until it soaked into her brain and started to hurt her feelings. well, i'm done bitchin' for tonight, talk latez! Byez.~Blondie

6:39am: burned
hey,

i feel so dumb...lol!! i burnt the crap out of my wrist yesterday! i was cooking dinner and when i went to make the shells (tacos) i like dropped the tortilla in the oil and it like splashed up and got all over my hand. it hurt like a bitch! but it's better now... i'm going to have a scar FOREVER... but thats ok :( . anyhow, i've got to go take a shower... byez! ~Blondie

3:33pm: sick
hey,

i'm sick... and the bf is sicker than i am. man, that's what sucks about kissin' lol you get everything from each other. i've got the sore thoat/ headache + these fuck cramps are going to kill me!!! feels like someone is sticking a rod into my pelvis on the sides! uck, i'm numb!! make it go away... anyhow, i'm just up to the usually doing my summer schoool crap and trying to be 'involved' with everything. i think i'm going to go see some new ppl tonight and try to work a few of my things out. missed church last night :( so much for sticking to it. i'll try again next week. um... i feel like my head is going to float away from my body... lol. i've just got 100 things going through my head all at once. seems like i don't talk to anyone from the outside world right now + my bestfriend (or what was suppose to be at REV) isn't going to REV next year so i have a few things with relations that need attention. i've got so much crap to do next year though... you saw my schdule + the sports and activities hopefully. omg! i love this new (kinda) song by Stacie Orrico called 'Stuck'. I don't know why but my music right now is so 'stuck' (lol) on current remakes of like lisa lobe/ alanis morissette/sarah McLachlan the whole pop/rock, post grunge, contemporary songwriters. I really like 'hotelpaper' cd by michelle branch and i want this chick 'evanescence' cd. i like the style i guess. well, i'm going to go 'try' to feel better! talk latez! byez. ~Blondie

3:21pm: 4th o' July
hey,

i'm hoping to have an interesting day... we're having a party at my house. kinda a pool party/firework show. the love of my life is coming too! yea!!! hope to have a'lot of fun... well, stay sweet... have fun and don't do anything I wouldn't do! Luvz Bye!!! ~Blondie

2:17pm: acting up
hey,

seems like i'm finally getting my act together... i just went to church for the first time in like 5 years!! i'm proud of myself becuz i needed it. i totally started to become lost and confused in my religion. i've also started to bring up my relationship with my family. it's been a while since i've gone out with the family or had a family get together where i didn't bring the bf. i mean i love taking him with and i miss him like crazy when he's not there, but my mom is kinda getting tired of our 24/7 time together. so i'm laying off and getting some other things done to keep me preoccupied. well, stay sweet all! Byez! ~Blondie

10:22pm: 6th month
hey,

it was so sweet!! the love of my life, Tyler, took me to this resturant called Benihana's and the food was SO GOOD!!! It's like formal but you sit at a table with a bunch of other ppl as the chef grills all the food infront of you. they get everyone a drink and then give everyone soup, followed by salad, followed by fried rice with a mixture of veggies and shrimp, + dinner. It's like nearly impossible for anyone to eat all of it. It didn't help the we got california rolls too. I ate half my soup, half my salad, a couple of shrimp + veggies with the fried rice, 2 california rolls, and like 3 bites of my dinner (noodle and chicken). I basically took a whole box of noodles and chicken home. I'm so full! I hate this feeling, goss i wish i could just throw it all up... uck!! but damn it was good. But i thought it was cute of him to take me out and all becuz we just hit our 6TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!! i love him so much... well, i'm going to go to sleep! Talk latez, byez! ~Blondie

4:07pm: 1 week down
hey,

i finally got 1 of the 3 weeks of spanish review done! yea, for me...lol... it was so boring today though. had to sit and watch this stupid (really slow) baseball video. i was like, what the f*ck?! the teacher told us to stop complaining and enjoy the free time so i wrote a few notes and took a quick nap. it's so flippin' hot outside! life is kind of dull today but tomorrow will be better! tomorrow is my 6th month anniversary with the boyfriend! i love him so much... well, maybe i'll talk latez, byez! ~Blondie

4:12pm: creative
hey,

i guess i'm just in one of those moods where i just want to walk down the street and flip every person i see off. and at the same time i want to kiss them too. i'm so pissed that i'm happy... and i'm so happy that i just want to die. i'm so fuckin' cunfused. i'm just a ball of emotion right now and i don't know what to do anymore. i'm like ready to just go to sleep and wakeup at my funeral. i'm just sick of fuckin ppl... ex's are such assholes! i haven't fucking heard from that bastard in like months and then he calls up just to piss me off! he's tryin' to be all nice though... he's only calling to get a few gags it feels. like he wants to hear me suffer... so sad for him i don't care anymore, i found one who cares... i found one who loves. I found someone who can do EVERYTHING he can't. i'm just glade i have my current bf, he's everything to me. only down side is i can't talk to him right now... he's working... ;( i miss him... I need him... I'm such a little baby... lol (tear). I g2g talk latez byez! ~Blondie

10:01pm: Sexy Guy
hey,

i got a comment on the fact that I don't talk about that sexy man of mine anymore...lol... So here we go... I love you baby!!! i'm sorry things suck so much lately... Schools out and i'm back in it for no good reason...;(!!! I promise after i get back from aussie things WILL get better, babe. Anyhow, back to the public... summer school sucks ass and i'm bored as all hell in it. oh well, at least i have ppl to talk to during class. i just wished i had a laptop to use during class so i'd have something to do. Well, lifes boring... talk latez, byez!~Blondie

7:32pm: over and over
hey ppl,

sry it's been a while... as if anyone reads this damn thing anyhow. I'm just sick and tired of my mom saying how I need to break with the bf becuz we're 'too clingy'... isn't that the regular teen relation? I mean really? stupid huh? I start summer school on monday, review for a class I 'passed' (yes mom, p-a-s-s-e-d) with a C. If you don't get the point my mother doesn't think a C is 'passing' or good enough. So I get to waste 3 weeks reviewing god damn Spanish I. 4th of July party at my house (cuz the pool) and july 5-6~ Camping at lake silverwood. Then I get my lovely 12 dayz of summer followed by 19 days in Australia just to come home and sleep in my bed for 8 hrs. Then I wakeup, shower, and get on another plane to go to mississippi for 9 days. Few days home after... followed by band camp, school shopping and class. Hoping to fit this schdule in:

Geometry H (advan)
Biology
English 10
Symphonic Band
World History
Spanish II
Marching Band
+ I wanted to add swimming and water polo during the winter and spring for a 7th after marching season is over.

I'm going to DIE! Next year's schdule is a death note. wish me luck. If I don't kill my mom first.. huh! j/p, g2g, byez! ~Blondie

4:47pm: Grad 2003
Hey,

Well, the Bf graduated last night and is now nowhere to be found. I guess I shouldn't be so controling but he's been so clingy with me this whole time, that it's hard for me to just stop having him 24/7. I saw him about 23 hrs ago but still... He didn't even bother to wait for my call after I was out at 12 or call me today!!!! I'm just too emotional right now... I'm alone and at home with no one who cares. I don't know if I'm sad or just tired. i think alittle of both, whatever. I'm going to go to sleep. Hope it'll be better when i get up! Byez! ~Blondie

9:55pm: Hard Days Work
Hey,

I was so lucky today as to have: painted my room (cream/off white), move all the stuff out of my room (to get the new carpet in tomorrow), go to lunch, go to walmart, home depo, mervin's, kohl's, and the stater bros. Basically it's 10pm right now and I just finished it all. Tomorrow's plan... sponge paint one wall lavendar and put up the new draps and closet linen. + got new sheets... ah! So happy... perfect room. new everthing but new furniture...(working on it) but I'm dead so goodnight! yez for now!! ~Blondie

11:30am: New icons
Hey,

Just had to give credit to bunnie's live journal icons for letting me use her cute little icons. thank you!!! byez! ~Blondie

8:48pm: Lights Out
hey,

got into a fight today... no ppl not a fist fight (sry;() but a really bad verbal with the bf. Here is the shortened 'down to the point' story...

~Me and bf joke about how his friend's muscles are big than the bf's muscles.
~I go up to the friend and ask him to flex. (he flexes)
~I ask bf to flex. (he does... duh!)
~Friends are bigger.
~Bf get all upset.
~ He says that i'm comparing him as if the friend is 'better'.
~I say whatever.
~I know bf is only hurt becuz his ex'girlfriend use to tell him how other guys were better (in all ways, shapes, and forms) than him 24/7 in the past.
~This means he's comparing me to the ex'girlfriend.
~I get pissed off and think 'what a f-ing hipocrite!'
~He gets all sad and pissed too.
~He plays a game of bloody knuckle with a metal door.
~Fucks up his hand.
~He says sorry.
~I end up feeling like shit and say 'let it go'.
D-O-N-E!!!

Dumb or what? Fuck it!!! It's over... so why am I still mad? Until next time byez! ~Blondie

9:39pm: Summer of Hell
Hey,
one more time to bitch and then i'll be done...

Summer 2003
(for me)

June 12~ Schools out!!!
June 13-June 22~ 10 days of rest.
June 23-July 11~ Summer School (spanish review/didn't do 2 well).
July 12-July 22~ 10 days of rest.
July 23-August 7~ Trip to Australia.
August 8-August 16~ 10 days of rest.
August 17-August 26~ Camp for season.
School Starts the first week of September!!!!
Worst is I have to fit 7-10 days of this small opening to go to visit family in Mississippi.
Isn't that a bunch of shit?!
When will I ever see the bf?
Well, wish me luck...The stress is already killing me + finals coming up! Is everyone this stressed??? Yuck! Save me... Until next time, bye! ~Blondie

7:09pm: Prom 2003
Hey,

i'm going to prom tomorrow... gosh!!! i'm SO nervous. what if screw something up>>>? wish me luck and i'll give you the details by sunday. Luvz, until next time, byez! ~Blondie

6:30pm: F**k them all
Hey,

Sometimes... i feel like all my friends at rev just suck! it's like minus the bf, life at school sucks major ass. lucky for me he was at school today, but i was so fucking pissed anywayz. josh like had to be an fart-knocker and picked me to be the victim. he was being so dumb & talking about this stupid shit from my past! he found this stupid can of stew a few weeks ago at school and so now at lunch (and before school sometimes) he pulls it out of his bag and announces it's 'stew time'. this is a cheap excuse to pick on ppl and their problems w/o sayin' any names basically. so go figure i was the topic of the day. they talked about all the troubles with the first 2 times me and the bf got together and how I was 'the cheese' and josh would like ask a Q like 'what do you think of cheese?' and shit. stupid isn't it? need to fix that, huh? well until next time, byez! ~Blondie

4:31pm: Laughlin
Hey,

Wish me lucky, i'm traveling to laughlin (wanna be las vegas) tomorrow! hope merisa and i have fun. we've got the pool, arcades, movies, bowling, man-made beach, etc. sounds lame i know but i'm sure we can keep ourselves preoccupied. have a fun weekend you losers! i'll tell u how it went when i return... until then, byez! ~Blondie

4:20pm: She says goodbye
hey ppl,

She kisses everyone goodbye
And waves her middle finger high
They're never gonna mess with her again
The drama queen is seventeen
And sleeping with boys for free
She's got a reputation of being easy


Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away


She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's wasted all her lonely tear drops
She's saying goodbye and leaving tonight
She's used up all her lonely tear drops now


She thinks about herself and cares about nobody else
because the only friends she has all put her down
They hate her when she's beautiful and even more when she's a fool
They talk behind her back when it's her birthday


Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away
And everytime she makes a friend, the vicous cycle starts again
She's never, ever, ever looking back


She's saying goodbye, she's wasted all her loney tear drops
Saying goodbye, she's used up all her lonely tear drops now


Everytime they put her down, she makes a fist and the tears roll down
She packs her bags and plans to run away from here
And everytime she makes a friend, the vicous cycle starts again
She's never, ever, ever looking back


She's wasted all her lonely tear drops now

I don't know if any of you have ever listen to this song but I'm sure almost all of you have heard this bands song titled 'pretty girl'. Like them or not the cd got me. ~Blondie

6:12pm: connections
hey,

what to do... what to do...
i can't tell if i'm just being a total bitch
or if he's just over sensitive.
why doesn't he just understand?
doesn't he see it hurts me?
when will it just...
go away.

I want it to just go away...
disappear,
evaporate,
perish.

take it away...

3:44pm: hey,

I was so flipping pissed off today!!! Stupid FAT-ASS Josh kicked me on the side of my leg with his huge fucking camo boots!!! It fucking hurt so bad! I wanted to kill him! I felt like there was a gaint fucking hole in my leg all day!!! Anyone take cash to kick his butt? lol... j/p! Well, until better dayz byez! ~Blondie