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Monday, July 21st, 2008
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8:03p - Any imput?
I'm normally really bad at accepting my low selfesteem issues... specially when it comes to writting about them, but im kind of concerned by my behavior, since this is something i normally do but i hadn't really made the connection to it... bleh...
it kind of goes like this... (and things like this happen every once in a while)
so the boy and I were watching t.v. on saturday afternoon and it was all good until we saw an interview or something with rihanna, and then we saw a movie with some other hot girl and then another one and then another one... and the boy couldn't help but show that he liked them... not any 15-yr-old-horn-dog comment but a simple comment (which i frankly don't even remember) and i was PISSEd... and not only that but i was furious and got mad at him and moved from his bed to the couch and refused to let him talk to me or get close to me for what seemed like forever... at that time.. it was all pretty normal and logical to me.. i was clearly angry that he would like another woman and that they looked NOTHINg like me... or something... i dont really know now... but of course he thought i was being ridiculous and i'm suspecting that i might have been... which brings me to the question... do you think the boy, doing things like this, is causing my horrid selfesteem? or ... on the other hand that my selfesteem issues are causing my anger and scenes with the boy?...
and..
what to do?!
gah i feel so stupid... thank god that we both calmed down and all but i wish i could solve this to make sure it didn't happen again... any thoughts?
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