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Thursday, July 17th, 2008
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11:38a
backkk from the gym.... blah im a sweaty mess haha...
hmmm i have a slight feeling that i'm going insane... sad/very sad/normal/cry/normal/good mood/normal/cry... blah... annnyways... just wanted to update that my intakes have been pretty good...
yesterday i had a breaded chicken platter from chillis for dinner and SO WHAT? haha.. i probably chose one of the not-so-healthy but SUPER good and i had eaten super healthy and light all day and we were celebrating my mom's birthday(which is actually today)... plus, i was more scared of having to eat a boring salad that would still have 1000 calories... oh well... i really don't mind the meal that much...
today i've had a banana and then a 140-cal fiber one bar thingy after the gym because i was DYING... it was actually pretty good... i dont know what i'll have afterwards.. we'll see...
i have to go to school and do TONS of homework...
i still haven't talked to the boy... im having second thoughts... im not sure i should whine to him about stupid crap that i'm not sure i care about that much... maybe i am hallucinating and making stuff up... or maybe he lies to me... should i question?... which will probably take me nowhere.. or wait it out?... trust and trust that the truth will show itself sooner or later?... should i just let my fucking guard down already?... i hate when people lie... and i can't stand it when i think people talk behind my back... problem is... i think everyone lies and talks behind my back... le boyfriend included, of course... blah...
i think im not going to say anything... i don't even know WHY i would question him, its not like anything's happened lately...
conclusion?... yes, actually going crazy and should shut up or else will compromise relationship...
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