ok wow!!   
10:22am 22/09/2003
 
mood: sick
music: i wanna shove it up your butt by tori kistner ;)
long time no type?...yeah its been like a month but its b/c this sight is blocked on my computer and not on kristin or marj's or erica's...lol were i spend most of my pathetic life lol...but yeah lets see...before school i had the last huge shindig of the year...it was a blast...thank you to all my great friends that showed up to share the love with me...i enjoyed it...and i hope u did too...but yeah...for those who didnt come...in the course of one night @ least 35 people visited my house...then school started a couple days later :-/ yuck....its pretty cool though...not as bad as last year...im having fun jus tons of work and i really dont like that...but yeah...what whoever said school was fun i mean what...lol yeah thats bout it for now...still nothing interesting in my life...no bf no life no nothing yeah so ne ways...for those who havent seen me or dont know...i got a haircut thats really short and already needs trimming but yeah its the best one i have had so far i think...yeah well im gonna go im @ marjs hizous b/c fo a sleepover she had...last nite was awesome...after watching some movie bout the anti-christ coming and all we had a really good talk bout jesus and the bible and his second coming...wow i know soooo much more now...so yeah...but its interesting...i have had a faaantastic time so far with tori erica kristin & marjorie..but yeah...go time..later guys catcha when the sun dont shine cuz "i only come out @ night" lol
Love & Lots of Dancing
*crystle xox*

DANCE Dance dAnce daNce danCe dancE DANCE		  
     

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thank you...thank you...and thank you   
04:18am 21/08/2003
 
mood: awesome!!! :)
music: evanescence :)
thank you everyone for ur love and support i couldnt have made it thru this without yall...im feeling fantastic and ready for anything...thank you personally to erica, kristin, patrick, p. shawn, travis, tori, leanne, brettie, Johnny, cole, chris , and rafa!! yall are the greatest friends a girl could have!! i love yall so much...thank you for helping me with my walk with God and for jus my life period...i know who to count on and i love yall with all my heart...
stay strong for me and ill do the same for yall...goodnite

THANK YOU MY WONDERFULTASTICLAWSOMESTLYGREAT FRIENDS !! :) lol 		 
     

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11:16pm 19/08/2003
 
mood: worried
music: 12 stones
When I look into your eyes
I see a lot of hate
Pushing me away
You're haunted by a past
A past that brings you down
So you throw it all away

Deep inside of your mind
You're forced to believe
That nothing's gonna change...
-12 stones ...again...thats how i feel...OMG!! thats exactly how i feel...like kristin said i look to other ppl and i see the same thing in thier eyes that i see in mine and it upsets me even more...and then we all seem to be haunted by our past...and the thing is i have PRAYED N PRAYED N PRAYED bout my past over and over...been forgiven and covered everything...and yet something still seems wrong...its still there jus like the song from evanescence...
Im so tired of bein here..
These wounds wont seem to heal
This pain is just too real
Theres just too much that time cannot erase
...these wounds wont heal!!! AHH I JUS WANT IT ALL TO GO AWAY!!!

!!PRAY!! 		 
     

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read the 2 entries before this if u wanna know whats going on   
11:13pm 19/08/2003
 
mood: worried
music: 12 stones
Sometimes I feel like I am so far away
I’m lost inside my thoughts and I don’t know what to say
I know I need you now more every day
I push I pull I run so far away

And I’m sick and tired of living this way
Sick and tired of being alone

Sometimes I feel like I am so far away
I’m lost inside my mind won’t you help me find my way
And I know I need you now more every day
I push I pull I run so far away

And I’m sick and tired of living this way
Sick and tired of being alone
-my away message
...this is how i feel...im sick and tired of the same old same old...im sick of living this way...sick of chasing after things in life...sick of life!!!!

!!PRAY!! 		 
     

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read the entry before this...if ur wondering whats goin on   
11:00pm 19/08/2003
 
mood: worried
music: 12 stones
"(Lord, you know how much I want to know so much in the way of answers and explanation. I have cried and prayed but still I seem to stay in the middle of life's complications. All this pursuing leaves me feeling like I'm chasing down the wind.)(		  
     

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AHHHH WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!?   
10:55pm 19/08/2003
 
mood: worried
music: 12 stones < im in love again
"i keep looking towards people to cry out to , hoping they will make things better , but then when i turn to them its like looking in the mirror , their eyes are the same way as mine :'(
why does everyone around me have to be in so much pain ,when i look into the eyes of the people i care for i can see all the nights they cried from all the hurt they've endured, i can feel the pain and rejection put upon them , and i can see the confusion on the purpose to life , no ones happy anymore, somethings going on , i wish it would stop."
-kristin davis' away message
she said it best...something is wrong with a bunch of us in the youth group and i dunno what it is...something is wrong and jus pray...PRAY..thats exactly how i feel ...pray for us all if u arent feeling this way and if u are tell us and we can all get together wednesday and pray over what is goin on in us		  
     

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