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|Bio:||My name is Cyd. I have been struggling with disordered eating since forever. |
When I was younger I was b.e.d. Me and my brother would get picked up from school and come home to a house filled with frozen pizzas, tuna sandwiches dripping with mayo, icecream sandwiches, and pepperoni and cheese hot pockets. We would watch reruns on TV or mortal combat and eat and eat and eat until we couldn't anymore.
As I got older I ate less. Eventually I shipped myself off to fat camp where I lost 12 lbs in 3 weeks. I was still fat when I got back but I was better. Now I could fit into jeans like real kids.
Then I became popular. I was agonizing about my weight and often spend my time lying in front of the toilet just havng purged half my meal, too weak to leave the mess I'd made or even clean it up. I started modeling classes and was way too busy to fit eating into my schedule. I skipped lunches at school. I didn't "feel hungry." My friends didn't notice. Neither did I. Then I realized I was going days with no food and I started binging on food.
Summer started and my popularity vanished. I stopped eating out of depression and rampant drug use and pill popping. I slept all day and was awake all night. After I had lost 20 lbs I realized I was where I'd wanted to be all my life. I was thin. And then I got friends and lost the depression. Only to gain about 12 lbs back.
So right now I'm at the 'I don't want to die or lose weight but I don't want to give this up' point.
|Interests:||16: ana, eating disorder, fat free yogurt, fiona apple, fruits, jennifer connelly, kurt cobain, music, reading, sleeping, south park, standup comedy, the secret history, tv, writing, zines|
|Account type:||Free User|