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|Website:||i make icons when i'm bored|
|Bio:||Nov 5 133 lbs.|
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"So, after all, there was not one kind of Strife alone, but all over the earth there are two. As for the one, a man would praise her when he came to understand her; but the other is blameworthy: and they are wholly different in nature. For one fosters evil war and battle, being cruel: her no man loves; but perforce, through the will of the deathless gods, men pay harsh Strife her honour due. But the other is the elder daughter of dark Night, and the son of Cronos who sits above and dwells in the aether, set her in the roots of the earth: and she is far kinder to men. She stirs up even the shiftless to toil; for a man grows eager to work when he considers his neighbour, a rich man who hastens to plough and plant and put his house in good order; and neighbour vies with is neighbour as he hurries after wealth. This Strife is wholesome for men. And potter is angry with potter, and craftsman with craftsman, and beggar is jealous of beggar, and minstrel of minstrel."
~ Hesiod, "Works and Days"
Let's see ... well this journal is mostly for my ranting and ramblings, so most of my entries will probably be HELLA long, which so far they've proven to be ... i tend to just get on a subject and then just hop from one to another, and on and on...
A key issue with myself is my weight, so i'll probably have a lot to talk about in here about my food addiction and my struggles with my body...
At heart i seem to be a masochist ... i enjoy wallowing in my self inflicted pain, as sick as that is ... i mean i'm not one of those ppl who stares at my own blood ... i just sometimes feel a release or i just feel more at home when i'm hurting myself mentally/physically, rather than someone else ... i cant stand to see others hurt, it pains me greatly to see those i care about hurting and i get very protective of those i love ... i'd rather hurt myself than intentionally hurt anyone else...
Weaknesses of mine - i'm timid, i can be really shy and really dependent on people most of the time and i know those things hold me back a great deal ... also i can be EXTREMELY indecisive, and it can take me 1/2 an hour or more to pick a type of cereal to eat =P ... also, i tend to worrier, over protective and just sometimes plain neurotic...
Strength is surviving ... it isn't about control or domination or anything like that ... strength is getting through the hard times, pulling yourself through and having belief in yourself ...
i have a lot of issues with myself and if anything, when i one day get through all my 'ish' i hope that i can be someone who is mature, knows how to take care of herself and at the same time when to ask for help ... i want to be a well rounded, good person ... i want to look at myself and be happy with who i am and where i am ... i hope that one day i can be the person i know i can be, as corny as that sounds ...
this is me, the real me, crazy thoughts and everything
|Interests:||47: amelie, baby animals, books, books about weightloss, cuddling, dancing, diet pills, eyore, family guy, free dling, friends, get fuzzy, hawaii, hip hop, import cars, long weekends, love, midnight to sunrise, money, music, my boyfriend, oldies but goodies, puppies, r&b, reading, riding, running, sherman's lagoon, shopping, shrek, simpsons, sleeping, snuggling, south park, stars, stuff, stuffed animals, the bfg, thinness, tropical places, vacations, warm weather, weight lifting, weightloss, weightloss books, will & grace, working out|
|Account type:||Free User|