Failing and Forgiving
As I have promised, I'm back with my blurty entry after deciding to be more religious with my journal writing.
Just got the test I was fearing about! (Refer to my previous blurty entry for the cause of this failure) Imagine! I only got 48 percent! I almost got 42% but the teacher, out of pity, lowered down the total score. I was really touched by what she did because this teacher has a reputation for being inconsiderate when it comes to grades. In fact, she approached me the other day because she partially checked our papers and she noticed that I had lots of mistakes in my exams. She was wondering why my performance in the test suddenly dropped. Anyway, she assured me that with a good midterm grade and more tests to come, I would be able to catch up. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed for that (of course, prayers!).
Today was such a tiring day! We had to do lots of things but I ended up finishing nothing. Too bad, this means extra workload for the weekend. Anyway, the trimester will soon be over and I will soon be going back again to Bacolod (Napoleones!).
Anyway, today, I saw again one of the people who have been backstabbing me before. Again, please refer to my previous blurty entry regarding this. Anyway, I was able to speak with her awhile ago not to mention that we exchanged some jokes. But tonight, something was different. It was as if I no longer had any grudges against her. I don't know why!?! Maybe I felt that it was high time to move on with life and to get rid of all these negative thoughts that I have been keeping. Or maybe, I sensed something from her words and actions that she has already accepted me for what I am. It was as if she was more sincere this time.
Guess, ches is right about the Maalala mo Kaya/Magpakailanman "twist" in my life. Hehehe. Actually, I thought about that as soon as I recovered from what happened. Perhaps these "bad" things that have been happening in my life are just enough to boost the ratings of Maalala mo Kaya/Magkapakailanman when they feature my story. Hahahahaha. Gosh. Vanity again.
Well, I don't know but I've learn to love myself more. I've been more conscious with the way I look and the way I dress up. Whenever I see pictures of mine before, I would squirm and say how ugly I am. But now, I can proudly say that I am cute! Hahaha. Call it vanity but I guess it is confidence that I regained after years of having poor self-esteem. Don't worry guys! I'm not being Narcisstic here (tama ba un...tinatamad na kong kunin ang dictionary).
Guess lots of things are really changing in my life. 'til next time! :-)
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