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Time will tell..
Wow.. tomorrow is X-mas eve!! I still haven't finished shoppin! I suck : ( I'm gonna ahve ta get my sister somethin reallly nice cuz I only got her one thing.. The events of today were... I woke up around 10.. and got ready and went and my mom paid to have my nails done.. which was totally cool cuz it's hella expensive and it makes my fingers look less chubby... Then after that.. we went and had lunch at red Lobster where my mom baught me a Lotia Coldia! (I know that's spelled wrong!) And it came with a shot of Captial Morgan! It was bangin and just gave me the giggles... Ry called me there.. I was like wow! And he asked were I was cuz like he went to work and was lookin for me! and I was like oh... I have off! and then he asked when we were getting together to extange presents! Lmao I didn't get him anything : ( Sooooo I told him.. like Saturday maybe... cuz uhhh.. I'm really busy and stuff till then and that way I will have gotten paid and so I can go get him somethin cool! Now I didn't do that to be a bitch.. but it's like.. I've known that guy for 8 years! and only once have we ever extanged x-mas presents.. so I didn't really expect it.. and plus The cash flow is really low : ( I really gotta start workin my corners harder.. LoL yeah right, I'd prolly be rollin in the dough.. not cuz I'm hot or anything cuz... I'm not.. but just because there are a lot of guys/pigs out there that just want a piece of ass with no strings attached! LoL Like Jeremy for example! We went to the cafe tonight.. and I went and picked him up and we were talkin in the car.. and he asked how long have we known eachother.. and I was like... like 4 and a half months.. and he was like "What?! And we haven't had sex yet???" and then he was sayin how like he likes havin sex with his friends cuz there's less tension there.. Ok, that doesn't sound right to me.. Lmao yeah.. ok, there's be noo tension between u and I even tho I care about you and shit and you really don't care for me... yet I'm good enough to have sex with. Puh-lease! He's definately not gonna get anythin from me now.. He made the comment how like.. It's like we're not friends! He hasen't crissened me! I was like Bahaha.. I hate u anyways.. LoL and tonight really made me wonder why I still make myself hang out with him... I'm starting to feel the time I spend with him is gonna slowly come to an end.. He doesn't need me anymore.. and I'm glad I could be there for him when he needed me... LoL I will forever hold a grudge against him though... bastard. I'm just waiting for my time with Ry.. I know it's bound to happen.. I just feel it. Sooner or later in life we'll find eachother.. and know it's meant to be. Time will tell tho. Tonight on my way to pickin Jeremy up.. I called Ry and apologized for like being in a hurry when he called me.. and he said it was cool.. and I told him I love him and he's my real friend.. and he laughed at me and said I'm his too.. and that he's always loved me! and I said I know.. it just took 8 years to realize it.. and I told him I was greatful for him.. Lmao It was as if I was totally drunk or like.. gonna die.. But I just wanted to tell him that.. cuz he had a right to know. Not like I was there confessing my undying love for him.. I don't even really feel that way towards him.. like I don't think of him 24/7 or anything.. but that's cuz I know in time.. everything will work out.. but he loves me : ) And that's all I need to know.. and even if my feelings stear me in the wrong throughts.. I know he'll always be a part of my life.. He's a part of me as I know I'm a part of him... We grew up together.. we are who we are because of eachother.. I'm such a hopeless romantic!!!
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