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good bye to you
hey everyone...yes it HAS been a long time. I'm a wreck. everything is going completely wrong and this was one of the worst days of my life. on a lighter note I would like to thank (in no specific order) emily, bethany, natalie, jen, jaydee, erin, katy, sarah, jordan, jasmine and so many more people who have been nothing but amazing to me. I love you all, and I wouldn't have made it through the past 24 hours without you. I don't really want to get into detail about what happened. but we'll hit on the key points 1. kirby was a huge bitch to me...(see my previous post) 2. blake and I are in an amazingly large fight and it was horrible and I can't take it and I love him...this sucks...3. blake got suspended, although I'm not currently talking to him because I'm trying to figure out what to do, he's going to be grounded for a long LONG time and that makes me sad. there's other stuff that has been going wrong but I don't really want to write about it for all to see. it's cold and I can't feel my toes, that pisses me off. I need some sleep..I didn't get much of it last night, or the night before...insomnia. sometimes I really just want to die, it's people like kirby that make me feel that way...do they really think that pointing out ever last one of my mistakes and telling me what a terrible person I am is going to help anything? the world will never know...I'll see you when I see you. I hate the world.
p.s.//I have decided to leave anonymous commenting on but if you don't leave your name, your comment will be deleted
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 | Ello Love.
(Anonymous)
2003-12-04 20:05
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Amanda. It's Cate.
|LISTEN|Here is some very important advice to you [and everyone else]
High school is all about the drama. It's the time when others are really finding out who they are. And some are scared and they attack others. I know this; for a fact. All this petty drama is going to repeat and repeat.
I wish I could help you, I really do. I understand that you have 'problems' we all do. But that is what trusting people are for. And it's true, the ONLY person you can ever really trust is YOURSELF. All I have to say, is don't let others control your life. High school will fly by so quickly and you will always be forever wishing you could have those four [or more] glorious years back. They truly are some of the best years of your life. I wish I could start over sometimes and make myself more outgoing. You know what I've realized, your supposed to listen and saturate all the advice given to you, and the final decision is yours, and yours alone. If you don't make the mistakes and learn from them, then you truly are a naive little person. You are by far NOT a bad person. So you made a mistake once or twice, what are they going to do? Condemn you to hell? As for the not believing in God bit, who cares? I say fuck 'em. If you don't believe in God, that's not a problem and others shouldn't make your life their problem. So they say they are concerned for you, then prove it. Don't bring up past issues that don't concern them. Don't lead them to influence you. You are you; an individual. Forever always in your life will people try to bring you down, 'show you the right path', Down the road no one's opinions will matter but your own.
I don't know if I really helped or anything, you sound like an intelligent human being [which is hard to come across these days] you seem like you already know the answers to all life's little mishaps. |><|CATE|>(Reply to this) (Thread) |
| I LOVE YOU
 adam_carolena
2003-12-05 12:37
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im so sorry everything was going wrong....dude i read that conversation between you and that bitch....oh yeah her names kirby...dude dont even listen to her i think youre great...youre so perfect in every single way for me...im the very unperfect one....i am jerk but you love me and i love you ....well be ok ....and back to the bitch...who cares what she has to say shes just trying to bring you down...dont let her run your life...but i love you
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2003-12-10 22:33
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amanda- kirby obviosly needs a ol' fashion ass whoopin' or three. wel i dunno wat to say cuz now that im postin i forgot wat the post was about so i will say a few words. i love you and hope everything works out
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2003-12-12 20:59
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RiSSA-
YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU LIIIIIIIIIIIIIGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHTTTTTTTTTT UUPPPPPPPPPPPPPP MYYYYYYYYYY LIfffffffffffffffffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
amanda you are a fucka!!!!!!
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