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recovering (yourroughdraft) wrote,
@ 2003-12-04 16:51:00
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    Current mood: cynical
    Current music:christmas tunes

    converstaion with kirby...
    this was kirby and I's conversation last night. read it, comment on it, condem me to hell if you wish but here we go:

    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: amanda, you know what you really dont have anything to say. cuz beth admitted that she has a void and you do too, and yes you do try to get w/ a lot of guys
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I DO FUCKING NOT HOLY SHIT. I've had what? two boyfriends this year...three if you count stephen. and I've hooked up with how many people that i haven't gone out with this school year? none you say? yea that's what I thought too..I would know and all...but if you know something different than I must have been terribly messed up.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I FUCKED UP IN THE PAST...god forbid I made a mistake...but you are not perfect kirby and you have made mistakes before I'm sure. but if not PLEASE tell me what a fuck up I am
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: okay amanda, you "hooked up" w/ alot of guys then, whatever
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i dont care amanda, and sure you made mistakes but FUCK, i know im not perfect and i have made mistakes but not as many as you.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: god forbid, something happen that might hurt you
    xL0verN0tAFightr: you have no right to judge me if you have screwed up before too
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I understand that I screwed up, I apologized, and I am doing what I can to fix it
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: oh so im judging you now, knowing what i know.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: it was a long time ago
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: not really amanda
    xL0verN0tAFightr: not really what kirby?!
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: it wasnt that long ago
    xL0verN0tAFightr: what? what is so horribly wrong with me that you and the rest of the world find it necessiary to have me as the topic of your conversation? that you MUST tear me down in order to make yourself look better, in order to feel that you are a better person because you have not made as many mistakes as I have.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: I DO NOT TEAR YOU DOWN!
    xL0verN0tAFightr: and it was almost 6 months ago. if you want to tell me that that is not a long time than go right ahead. a whole world can change in 6 months
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: you are the one in beth's blurty that said im sorry if you have never wanted to be loved
    xL0verN0tAFightr: and I suppose you think all that shit you said about me was nice?
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i said one thing about you
    xL0verN0tAFightr: it was not directed at you, it was proving a point.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: but still, im sorry if you have never wnted to be loved
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: YOU DONT KNOW THOSE PEOPLE AND NEITHER DO I!!
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: its liek the raegan girl saying it too.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: you're lying. you told blake shit about me in an attempt to get him not to ask me out...you're friends with kala and shannon and that right there proves that you have been around that shit and more than likely thrown your hat in the barrel
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: it hurts me fucking too amanda
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: dont think you are the only person who gets hurt
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I DON'T THINK THAT KIRBY
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I FUCKING HATE THAT! you fucking think that just because I said one thing that you KNOW how what I'm thinking
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: OH JUST BECAUSE IM FRIENDS w/ KALA AND SHANNON THAT MAKES MEA BAD PERSON!!
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I didn't say you were a bad person
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I said you talk about me
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: and what "shit" did i tell blake
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i didnt want you to hurt him
    xL0verN0tAFightr: you and the rest of the world whom I've never done anything to but sees it as important to point out what I horrible person I am
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: oh sorry if we are concerned about you half the time
    xL0verN0tAFightr: you are not concerned, you want to point out that I am a bad person
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: omg amanda you have your head so far up your ass that you cant see general concern for you
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I am not a bad person kirby. I screwed up. the only guy I ever hurt was kendle and I will be forever sorry for that. I was hurt...I am hurt and I've gotten hurt and my past actions give you no right to tell blake every last thing that you think you know
    xL0verN0tAFightr: you want to be concerned about me? tell ME
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: WHAT THE FUCK DID I TELL HIM
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i am concerned about you amanda.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i have been.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: FUCK!
    xL0verN0tAFightr: tell me about it...don't go off and discuss it with everyone but me. that is how rumors get started
    xL0verN0tAFightr: "don't go out with her blake, she's a whore"
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: omg, so im the only one that says that?
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: yea. okay.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: no you're not
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: amanda if you havent been w/ so many guys and just done stuff i wouldnt think that
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: OKAY FUCK YOU TO
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: TOO&*
    xL0verN0tAFightr: THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE THAT HAVE DONE MUCH WORSE KIRBY
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i know.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: they are not any betrer
    xL0verN0tAFightr: but it's their lives kirby
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: so jumping around from guy to guy is your live
    xL0verN0tAFightr: no. but I am in control of it..I am able to make those decisions.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I am grown up enough to know what I'm doing
    xL0verN0tAFightr: and so is everyone else
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: well, you sure arent grown up enough to see that it makes you look bad
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I don't care how other people see me
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I care how I see me
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: well good for you
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: im really glad you dont care, but think about it, guys will line up at your doorstep becuase that want something EASY!
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I yes I do realize that in the past I made mistakes...I have apologized for them like I said...blake doesn't like me because he wants something and as of right now that is all I'm worried about
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I don't go out with guys that want something from me
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: amanda you are so blind
    xL0verN0tAFightr: and I've never just done stuff with guys who only "want something" from me
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: phillip
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: he honestly doesnt have feelings.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: trust me i would know, i know basically his whole family
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I liked phillip. and I'm sure what you heard was way out of proportion from what really happened. phillip liked me. I knew that
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: amanda, just know that you have a void in your life and you try to fill that void w/ a guy
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: and once you feel it again you move on
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I have nothing wrong with my life
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: ok
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: sure
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I am a happy person with out without a guy...although my life is not perfect I am content with it
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I don't need "god" if that's what you're getting at...I don't believe in god and I don't care to.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i wasnt goign to get to that
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: but you cant fill that void.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: its a space that was ripped away from you. i have one too but i dont try to fill it w/ a guy.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i turn to my friends
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I have my friends thank you. my so called friends were the ones that fucked me over to begin with
    xL0verN0tAFightr: guys don't help
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: oh really, or were they just trying to help
    xL0verN0tAFightr: all I have is myself
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: amanda, like i said you are blind.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: no they were not trying to help. gossip and hatefulness are not helpful
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: and if you are so "content" w/ yourself, why are you never single for more than a month
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: you need to feel loved.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I was single for 5 months
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: its a drug to you.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: when 7 grade
    xL0verN0tAFightr: know what you're talking about before you say it
    xL0verN0tAFightr: this summer
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I was single from kendle to chris
    xL0verN0tAFightr: 5 months
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: oh wow, is that when you turned to real drugs?
    xL0verN0tAFightr: another thing you know little about
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I have done drugs a grand total of 5 times
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: woo hoo, drug-free amanda
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I don't care to be drug free
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: good, i hope they rot you.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: but don't call me some huge stoner and say I "got into real drugs" when you don't know anything about that either
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: becuase you obviously dont care about anybody but yourself, emily and blake
    xL0verN0tAFightr: you're wrong. I don't care about myself.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: speed and weed. yea, those are real drugs
    xL0verN0tAFightr: speed?! are you serious?
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: yea.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: never done speed
    xL0verN0tAFightr: not once
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: okay amanda, thats why you attacked shannon and were all WOOOOOOO.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: attacked shannon?
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: and you told someobyd that night and said you were on speed
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: shannon or kelsey.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: either one
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I wasn't on speed. I have never done speed. I have smoked weed 3 times, I have taken 3 xanex once, and I have taken 6 benadryll
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: right.
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I know what I've done. and I don't give a fuck at all if you believe me or not.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: weed is still a real drug amanda
    xL0verN0tAFightr: understood
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: and you have a problem
    xL0verN0tAFightr: a problem? as in one? oh kirby I have alot of problems...
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: oh good, you are coming to admit something
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I know I have problems. everyone does. I don't have a drug problem if that's what you're implying. I haven't done drugs in quite some time.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i wasnt saying that drugs were your problem, i was saying you just have a problem in general.
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: oh about the god thing, are you too good for god or something?
    xL0verN0tAFightr: chemical depression
    xL0verN0tAFightr: anxiety diorder
    xL0verN0tAFightr: yes those would be problems
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I don't believe in god
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: i have depression too. big deal
    xL0verN0tAFightr: and I don't care to discuss it with you
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: well, i think its funny that you go to 180 and dont believe
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: what do you do when they pray? plug your ears
    xL0verN0tAFightr: 180 is fun
    xL0verN0tAFightr: and they can pray all they want
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: you have to believe in something. everything didnt appear out of nowhere
    xL0verN0tAFightr: I'm around that stuff, it doesn't bother me. they can believe that all they want but I don't
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: thats ridiculous
    L0ve N TRaGeDY x: you know what im done talking you. good-bye
    xL0verN0tAFightr: don't preach at me now kirby. you are not a nice person so I have no intention on listening to you.
    Previous message was not received by L0ve N TRaGeDY x because of error: User L0ve N TRaGeDY x is not available.



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narlynat
2003-12-04 19:31 (link)
WOOOOOOO may the best man win!

she needs to get over it. we're young and we're meant to have have fun and experiment, safely. by the time high school is out everything that anybody did in the past will just be a story for the chillins. no one will have their school yard friends anymore, they'll all go off to college and go their seperate ways and no one will still dispise or heartbroken or apologetic toward their old boyfriends. life right now is just a game and you should have fun with it. AMEN.
(that's mostly for kirby^)
later dude
--natali

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yourroughdraft
2003-12-06 22:20 (link)
thank you nat. and yes, amen to that. whoa that rhymed. I love you.

Amanda

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this is for kirby
(Anonymous)
2003-12-04 21:44 (link)
HOLY SHIT! I SWEAR TO GOD YOU ARE THE FUCKING BIGGEST PENIS IN THE WORLD. FUCK YOU AND YOUR LITTLE DOG TOO. I HATE YOU SOOOO MUCH. MAYBE YOU WOULDN'T BE SO FUCKIN RETARED IF YOU COULD SHUT YOUR GODDAMN MOUTH UP. YOU CRITISIZED THE FUCK OUTTA EVERYBODY AND ME FOR CALLIN KALA A BITCH. SHE EVEN SAID SHE WAS PROLY ACTIN LIKE ONE TOO ANYWAYS..WHICH SHE WAS, OTHERWISE I PROLY WOULDNT HAVE CALLED HER THAT. YOU'VE GOT SO MANY PROBLEMS TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF BEFORE YOU NEED TO FUCKIN DO THIS SHIT. I THINK YOU NEED THERAPY OR SUMTHIN. CAUSE YOU NEED TO STOP HOLDING THE PAST AGAINST PEOPLE. LET THE PAST BE THE PAST AND FUCKIN FORGET ABOUT IT. AND THERES A LOT MORE I'D LIKE TO SAY RIGHT NOW BUT I DONT JUDGE PEOPLE LIKE YOU DO. OR MAYBE I SHOULD JUST START CRITISIZING YOU EVERY FUCKIN CHANCE I GET.... THANKS FOR UNDERSTANDING....................................
:::DOUG:::


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(Anonymous)
2003-12-04 21:48 (link)
dear kirby.........
moley moley moley moley moley moley moley moley.

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narlynat
2003-12-04 22:55 (link)
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHahaaaaaa....ooo man, that's a good one.

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....wow...
pissinglew
2003-12-04 22:59 (link)
jesus, simmer down on the hatred people. all we need is love....so much hatred, so little time. kirby, calm down child. amanda's life isn't any of your business. end of story. let her be who she wants, you may not agree with it, but she'll live the way she pleases....and, its in the past. look at the present, and the future, thats all that really matters. sure, i dont know you two well, but, from just this conversation, kirby you went waaaay overboard with the insults. if amanda wants to put this all behind her, then everybody else that knows her should too....thats all...bye!

perry

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jdee
2003-12-06 12:14 (link)
well first off, perry lewis, i love you! lol. spread love is so right!
amanda, you know i love you, no question there. and what the hell is kirby trying to prove with this? that amanda zurita has made mistakes before? if my calculations are proffiently correct then EVERYONE has made mistakes before. well i think my comment here is done. love you! xoxo jaydee

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yourroughdraft
2003-12-06 22:38 (link)
ahhh jessica dale I absolutly love and adore you! thank you.

Amanda

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Re: ....wow...
yourroughdraft
2003-12-06 22:27 (link)
thank you perry. and you're right...spread the love. lol. have an amazing night and thanks again. love you.

Amanda

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xxrissaxx
2003-12-06 13:19 (link)
Amanda, I'm so sorry you have to go through this..this isn't fair. You are 100% correct. I agree with everything you say.

To Kirby--I never thought I would say this, never ever ever, but you're an inconsiderate bitch that doesn't care about anyone but yourself. You are NOT concerned about Amanda at all, you just want someone to put down because you have so many problems and you just don't want people to pick on them, so you throw someone like Amanda out to get hurt. How nice of you. Fuck off Kirby..don't ever talk to me again until you get your act together.

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yourroughdraft
2003-12-06 22:42 (link)
thanks rissa. I love you so much. I will always be here if you need me. anytime.

Amanda

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kirby is a clusterfuck
(Anonymous)
2003-12-10 22:28 (link)
well amanda, i tried to read that conversation but i forgt wat u wre talkin about after each 6ish lines and such so i would try to reread it and the confusment jus got worse . im sure he was a dick. dick dick dick dick dick. dick!
well i must say farewell and i love you


-jordan

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Re: kirby is a clusterfuck
(Anonymous)
2003-12-12 19:18 (link)
im my latest post i thought kirby was a guy, now i discover its a girl, well she is a dick. dick dick dick dick dick!
to kirby - shut the fuck up. oh yes, by the way,shut the fuck up again. dick.
to amanda-everything will work out for you. much love.

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oops
(Anonymous)
2003-12-12 19:20 (link)
the post above ( re: kirby is a clusterfuck ) was me. lettin u kno so it dont get deleted jus cuz i forgot to put my name. oh yes, kirby is a dick.

-jordan

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