youkaiarisu (youkaiarisu) wrote, @ 2003-09-01 21:03:00

Current mood:	restless
Current music:	The Ataris-Boys of Summer

-.-;;
I can't believe this. It's crazy... this whole 'it being September and my having to go back to school' thing. I already feel sick. I'm so stressed; I'm just a mess, and school hasn't even started yet. I'm so miserable and depressed during the school year. Summer was so liberating. I forgot what it was like to feel pressured and have so much stress to deal with. It isn't fair. I shouldn't have to give up that feeling. I hate school. >.< I had to study today. I realized that I'd completely forgotten about my vocabulary list. I looked at the front of the packet, and it said that our test would be the first week of school. There are exactly 100 words, so I have about two days to memorize them, which wouldn't be too bad if I felt like I'd accomplished anything with my studying today, but I can't concentrate. I also realized that there was background information on both authors that I had to memorize, so I need to do all that tomorrow... my last day of summer vacation. I can't wait until September is over... I can't stand having to start over like this. Studying is my least favorite task in the world. I can't make myself do it... especially not in summer. I had so many things that I wanted to get done tomorrow, but I suppose that school comes before my own pleasure. I just have to tell myself how angry I'm going to be if I let myself slack off like I did last year. I let too many small things get to me. Sometimes I don't know how I got this far, how I managed not killing myself out of frustration. I really need to not be my own worst enemy. I need to calm down. I should just get up really early tomorrow and do everything first thing in the morning... or something.. yeah.

youseiziploc 2003-09-01 22:13 (link)

TELL ME ABOUT IT! I couldn't agree with you more about school being the worst and stressful and horrible and and... >___>; God I hate it. All the last minute stuff you have to do before school starts is the absolute worse. It's like you feel the stress of school before it even starts. o_x; Summer makes you feel soo incredibly free and then.. this just dumps on you. ><; It's horrible how the school system works. Nyah. Studying sucks. xP (Reply to this) (Thread)

youkaiarisu 2003-09-02 09:11 (link)

Exactly. >.< Lately, I've been feeling like I'm already in school with all the stuff I have to do to get ready. I'm already counting the days until Winter break. I can't help being nervous about the first day of school. I still don't know any of my teachers or who's in any of my classes. Heh, I've always felt that studying was the worst part of school. It's worse than taking the actual test. >. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)